Title: Love Story
Author: Brenda F
eMail: serenajacks@yahoo.com
Disclaimers: Mmmm nop they are not mine except the new characters, you will know them, so for them i completely use my rights as an author, and ask you not use them at least not without me knowing.
Spoilers: Second season....the whole B/A repeat on Dark Angel, virus cannot touch you, etc.
Summary: A journey to the past of Logan Cale. Was Max his only love? Read and find out.
Note 2: the title is based on the movie Love Story, nothing related just the title and the famous phrase.
Note 3: Feedback!! Please feedback!

"Love Story" Love means never having to say you're sorry

Chapter 1


"Emily" Logan whispered tears in his eyes having remembered old forgotten ghosts. Giving again into the pain of having lost her and have forgotten her memories, something he promised never do.

It was quite ironic he thought the only two girls he ever truly loved. Were gone of his live and at some point death had take them from him. Both to tragic deaths.

He walked numbly to his apartment the pain of losing Max a second time and the old pain of losing Emily was suddenly too much to bear.

He didn't remember when he buried her in his memories he remarked while he poured himself a strong drink. The pain of her death was always unbearable. Too much to handle, he did everything to move on, but anything worked. So he just forgot about her, he tried his hardest to bury her in his memories, to not think of her, ever again.

When she died she took with her his desire to truly live, to be the man he wanted to be, something he regained the night he met Max.

He remembered that after Emily death he drank himself to stupor for several months. Then he got into a series of empty relationships trying somehow to find her in another woman. That's how he proposed to Daphne who shared with him his passion for the adventure or so they thought. His so called passion for adventure was truly his desire to kill himself in some of their crazy escapades. It was his death wish something he guessed Daphne found out. Then there was Valerie to whom he did married only to regret it years later. He married her because she was so different of her, because at some point he truly believe it was love and in one part to satisfy his family who thought it was time to let Emily go. Then was his job as Eyes Only something he started at the begging in a crave to find so justice at her death, after awhile it became is life that was until Max came bringing with her the long gone light to his life. No more empty relationships, no more empty sex, in her he found something else, something meaningful, he found his desire to live, he found something he thought would never find again. True love. He thought that in the mist of their troubles, of their pain he'll find happiness again and that maybe just maybe his ever after.

"Some ever after. I should have known. I wasn't born to love. Love wasn't born for me. Nobody's born for me, to love me. And even if it did they died. They all die. My dreams would never become reality." He said bitterly drinking more.

He walked to his office for his secret safe; he shakily introduces the combinations to the safe. Ironically it was his more security safe box and in fact it didn't have anything of monetary value, it wasn't anything precious to another but him.

Because inside was the more precious things he had ever have. More than his money or even his Eyes-Only's work. It contained his memories. Photos of her, of both of them, of the family, her clothes, perfumes, videos, audiotapes, their rings, everything he ever shared with her was there, along with his parent's stuff.

He took every item outside touching it gingerly, tears cursing his cheeks freely at last. Allowing his memories to resurface. Summoning his old pain trying to forged his actual one.

He touched her ring lovingly, the only thing they could recover from the "accident" as the police called it. He could remember now clearly as crystal the day he gave it to her. He knew both of them were young she barely eighteen but both of them knew that it was true. That the love between them was real. So he gave it that silver ring that according to the Irish people means marriage or at least engagement. The Claddalagh ring. The crown, the hands and the heart, loyalty, friendship and love. Everything they felt for each other. From that day forward they wore them with the heat inside meaning they belonged to each other. It was the symbol of their love. It was the only thing they recovered about her. He wore his ring for years but then some day he just took it off.

"Oh Emily!" he cried brokenly.

"Why did you leave me? I've been so lonely without you. Nobody loves me. Everyone leaves me. My mom, my Dad, my sister and brother, Valerie, Max, you. Everyone leaves. Why? Am I so awful that no one wants to love me? To stay with me? Everyone is gone starting for you. Why did you have to die? Why could you come for my parents and not for me? I was the one who wanted to die" Not them. Then my sister disappear and my brother hate me. Don't you know how much I've need you?" he cried brokenly in his apartment.

"Are you punishing me, right? I forgot about you. I buried you in my mind that's why you haven't come. Oh Emily I'm so sorry. I loved you so much. You were my life. I still love you. You have always been in my heart and you should know that. Not even death can broke my love for you. Please come with me. Come for me. Nobody wants me here" he sobbed shedding tears he didn't allow himself when she died or when Max died, or his parents. He never allows himself to cry his pain to deep to cry. But today, today he just needed it. To cry and cry until there was nothing left to cry. Everything was meaningless. His job his life. Everything. Not even his word means anything. His promises were worthless, because he broke one, the most important one. Never forget about her.

~

"Promise me you would not forget me!"

"Babe, your only away for a few days, besides how could? It would be like forgetting how to breathe"

"I know but there are so many pretty girl after you"

"I will never forget you. No matter time or distance I'll never forget you or break my love for you."
"I love you"
"I love you"
"Forever"
"Isn't that the whole point?" she smiled at him, kissing him one last time.

~

"Forever!" he poured himself more wine.

"He cried and drank to stupor. That's how Bling found him"

Drunk and surrounded by his memories. Listening to an old tape, more likely a phone message. It was repeating over and over. Until Logan turn it off when Bling shook him.

"Aw man" Bling said shaking him awake. "Logan! Logan! What the hell happened to you?"

"Bling" Logan slurred opening his eyes looking for a bottle to pour him more wine.

Logan, my man, what happened?" Bling asked concerned seeing Logan bloodshot eyes, he took the bottle from him. He had never seen him like that. Not even with Max supposedly death. Of course Logan had mourned her, he drank to stupor more than once. He mourned her in his own way. But never shed a tear for her now that he thinking bout it. Logan had never cried, not once since he met him years ago.

But of course he didn't know that Logan barely controlled emotions were about to exploit and Max goodbye was the trigger to everything. Everything was suddenly to much to handle, the pain became unbearable.

"I failed. I'm just not worthy." Logan replied tiredly.

"Man, what is it? And what 's this all about?" Bling asked confused touching a deep blue dress, obviously not Max.. Max was not that girlie.

"No one can love me. Everyone leaves"

"Logan..."

"They left me"

"I don't understand, is this about Max?

"She left me." Logan looked to the dress in Bling hands. "That's okay. I'm used to."

"She started it you know? She was the first to leave me." Logan pointed at the dress.

"Who? Max?"

"No! Emily. She said she would be back before I had time to miss her and she never did." I miss her. I still do." He said blinking away his tears. "Want to hear it?" he asked and before Bling could reply he play the message again. Obviously a telephone recorded tape. A sweet melodic voice suddenly fills the room.

"Hi! Is me, I just wanted to let you know that I'm good everything went okay. I'll be back before you have time to miss me. I'm okay.... oh! And Logan? I love you. Never forget that. " Click End of message

"See? She said she was coming home and she never did. I didn't have a chance to say to her that I loved her again. I couldn't say I love you to her one last time."

"Who was her?"

"Emily."

"Emily?"

"She was the love of my life."