What Can I Do?

I remember a woman who loved me long ago
I never liked the idea when I was older,but still I had to wonder...why?
Why did I resent her so much?
Was it the darkness that I grew up in?

I remember her so clearly
A smile from ear to ear every time I saw her
I never shed a tear when I was with her
Not once...

Maybe the years I spent in confinement made me this way
Yet I hate to think of that place so I try to blame her
Even though I could die each time I push her away
I know she dies a little each time I do it

The pain in my heart is torturious
I never let her see me cry
Or do I show the emotions I keep bottled up
But she knows they are there

Maybe I should be more of the person she wants me to be
But that person died all those years ago
Or maybe I could let her into my a heart a little
Who knows we might become close...the way were so long ago...

Ryoko put the pen in her hand down and closed her journal.She got up as she thought of a way
to begin the healing process between her and her mother.She took a look at the closed journal
and smiled as she teleported to Washu's lab...