I love grape juice especially the white kind. Yum yum yum! I do think I love the show which this story is based off even more though. But sadly I can't buy So Weird in a store. Or can I?
Chapter 3.
Why couldn't I keep people in my life? What was it about me that had everyone slip away? I should of realized when Rebecca had vanished I was in store for a life of pain. But wasn't this past the definition of cruel? I couldn't hold onto a friend, men, and worst of all my kids. Running away with permission, still running though, Fiona left. Had my push her trying to be something she wasn't too much? Should I have let her do, as she wants just forgetting the act she was just like her dad? No. I lost him because I had tried too late to stop it. So I pushed and pulled at Fi, just to lose her too, but in another way.
That protective layer of skin was spread on again, like a sunscreen lotion. The happy smile had faded into the fake kind again. But no one seemed to notice that. Not surprising though, I have been putting on this show for years. Tickets weren't selling and a few shows were cancelled all together. That just did wonders for my self-esteem! Wait what self-esteem? I swear I was born without one. I would love to know why I agreed to take Annie under my wing. Perhaps it was because I was afraid I'd lose another friend in Lisa if I had declined. Annie is a good kid just I can barely take care of myself and my own kid, let alone an almost complete stranger. Listening to her sing and perform on the stage I'm reminded that I'm old and leaning on the has been door. I'm not ready just to be a name in a quiz show question.
Irene will often jokingly complain about Ned, like must couples do I suppose. Things like how she wish she could trade him in for a newer model. He never listens, and so forth. I wish she could see how lucky she is. I mean only if she could see her situation and life through my eyes, then she'd know how blessed she is. I was over at their house a few days ago, they were such a normal functioning family it almost made me quezy. Watching their sons I couldn't help but to wish my kids got along that well. Jack and Fi do get along but there's a fence blocking one another to completely in.