Rei ran her fingers quickly through her hair trying to pull as many knots as possible. She had been outside gardening and she looked horrible. Rei pulled open the door and almost gasped out loud.
"Mamoru-San was there something you needed?" Rei asked looking around, she thought he had gotten all of his stuff, a month ago when he had come, while she was out, to pack all of his things.
"We should probably talk." Mamoru said with his hands in his pockets he looked like a nervous schoolboy.
"What is there left to talk about?" Rei asked dryly.
"Usagi and I are getting married." Mamoru's were blunt but they cut into Rei like a million swords.
Rei nodded though, "I wish you better luck then we had."
"My psychiatrist thinks I should talk to you. He thinks I need to work our relationship out before I start in on another one."
"You're going to a psychiatrist?" Rei asked arching an eyebrow.
Mamoru shrugged.
"What are we supposed to say?" Rei asked her words cold, "Usagi's a nice girl I'm sure you will be happy." Rei sighed, "Fine come in."
Rei moved aside but the hallway was narrow and the two shuffled to get around each other. Both stopped, Rei looking into Mamoru's eyes and he into hers.
~Felt so right for awhile, almost really believed
I could stay here forever, my heart could be free
Oh I wish it were that easy but it's never been for me
I'm not your girl~
Rei felt lost in those eyes. The eyes that she had fallen in love with almost 20 years ago. For a second it was like the first time they had ever met. They had been in the same position before, she had been doing an article for the newspaper she work for in his office building and she had stood next to him in a crowded elevator. More than anything Rei wanted her life to go back to that time, when she was so happy, so carefree.
~Feels so warm and so safe here, now don't get me wrong
But it's selfish to stay here, I'd be leading you on
Maybe someone else can give you what you really really want
But I'm not your girl~
More than anything now Rei wanted to shout "No! Don't marry her! Stay here with me! Are you really going to throw 18 years away?" But she didn't. It would have been selfish.
~They say people change I wish it were true
It's something I've tried so hard to do~
A part of Rei wanted Mamoru to change is mind all on his own, to realize that he really loved her and only her. But the other part wanted Rei to change, she wanted to become stronger to be able to change for the better. Not be so dependent on anyone.
~Now I can't explain why right seems so wrong
And I keep hearing the same old song
I'm not your girl
I'm not your girl~
Everyone had always said Rei and Mamoru were the right couple that they would be together forever. But something that had seemed so right a year ago seemed wrong somehow now. Like it had all been a lie, their marriage seemed to have been based on a lie.
~See I've been here before, left a good thing behind
Can't see where I'm going, maybe love's really blind
And I'm so afraid to lose the one who was so hard to find
But I'm not your girl~
Rei knew letting Mamoru go could be the worst thing she ever would do. But she realized that maybe he wasn't the one and she was clinging to the familiar.
~They say people change I wish it were true
It's something I've tried so hard to do
Now I can't explain why right seems so wrong
And I keep hearing the same old song
I'm not your girl
I'm not your girl~
Words weren't need Rei and Mamoru's eyes spoke volumes and Mamoru turned to leave. "Thank you Rei?"
"For what?" Rei asked quietly.
"For letting us go."
Mamoru kissed Rei softly on the temple before walking out of her life for the last time.
~One day I'll come back here, and I'll knock on your door
She'll be sweet when she answers, and I'll know for sure
That life is never easy in my complicated world
I'm not your girl...~
Rei took a deep breath, she had heard Mamoru and Usagi had gotten back from the their honeymoon.
"Rei-Chan!" Usagi greeted warmly hugging Rei. "How are you I haven't' seen you in ages."
Rei smiled and nodded, Usagi was so sweet. She knew about Rei and Mamoru being married, obviously, now. But it hadn't changed the warm greeting she gave to Rei.
"How have you been?" Usagi as motioning Rei to sit down on the couch.
"Good. I can't stay long." Rei said not sitting.
"I understand. Were you looking for Mamoru?" Usagi asked.
"No." Rei shook her head "I came to see you."
"Me?" Usagi's blue eyes showed surprise.
"Yes. I just wanted you to know that I'm happy for you and Mamoru. And I'm moving on with my life."
"I'm so happy for you." Usagi exclaimed with enthusiasm.
"I better go." Rei said turning to go.
"We should get together for lunch something."
This time it was Rei's turn to turn surprised, but she smiled at the genuine look on Usagi's face "Call me and we can make plans."
Usagi nodded and Rei walked out of the apartment feeling lighter than she had in months.
"Mamoru-San was there something you needed?" Rei asked looking around, she thought he had gotten all of his stuff, a month ago when he had come, while she was out, to pack all of his things.
"We should probably talk." Mamoru said with his hands in his pockets he looked like a nervous schoolboy.
"What is there left to talk about?" Rei asked dryly.
"Usagi and I are getting married." Mamoru's were blunt but they cut into Rei like a million swords.
Rei nodded though, "I wish you better luck then we had."
"My psychiatrist thinks I should talk to you. He thinks I need to work our relationship out before I start in on another one."
"You're going to a psychiatrist?" Rei asked arching an eyebrow.
Mamoru shrugged.
"What are we supposed to say?" Rei asked her words cold, "Usagi's a nice girl I'm sure you will be happy." Rei sighed, "Fine come in."
Rei moved aside but the hallway was narrow and the two shuffled to get around each other. Both stopped, Rei looking into Mamoru's eyes and he into hers.
~Felt so right for awhile, almost really believed
I could stay here forever, my heart could be free
Oh I wish it were that easy but it's never been for me
I'm not your girl~
Rei felt lost in those eyes. The eyes that she had fallen in love with almost 20 years ago. For a second it was like the first time they had ever met. They had been in the same position before, she had been doing an article for the newspaper she work for in his office building and she had stood next to him in a crowded elevator. More than anything Rei wanted her life to go back to that time, when she was so happy, so carefree.
~Feels so warm and so safe here, now don't get me wrong
But it's selfish to stay here, I'd be leading you on
Maybe someone else can give you what you really really want
But I'm not your girl~
More than anything now Rei wanted to shout "No! Don't marry her! Stay here with me! Are you really going to throw 18 years away?" But she didn't. It would have been selfish.
~They say people change I wish it were true
It's something I've tried so hard to do~
A part of Rei wanted Mamoru to change is mind all on his own, to realize that he really loved her and only her. But the other part wanted Rei to change, she wanted to become stronger to be able to change for the better. Not be so dependent on anyone.
~Now I can't explain why right seems so wrong
And I keep hearing the same old song
I'm not your girl
I'm not your girl~
Everyone had always said Rei and Mamoru were the right couple that they would be together forever. But something that had seemed so right a year ago seemed wrong somehow now. Like it had all been a lie, their marriage seemed to have been based on a lie.
~See I've been here before, left a good thing behind
Can't see where I'm going, maybe love's really blind
And I'm so afraid to lose the one who was so hard to find
But I'm not your girl~
Rei knew letting Mamoru go could be the worst thing she ever would do. But she realized that maybe he wasn't the one and she was clinging to the familiar.
~They say people change I wish it were true
It's something I've tried so hard to do
Now I can't explain why right seems so wrong
And I keep hearing the same old song
I'm not your girl
I'm not your girl~
Words weren't need Rei and Mamoru's eyes spoke volumes and Mamoru turned to leave. "Thank you Rei?"
"For what?" Rei asked quietly.
"For letting us go."
Mamoru kissed Rei softly on the temple before walking out of her life for the last time.
~One day I'll come back here, and I'll knock on your door
She'll be sweet when she answers, and I'll know for sure
That life is never easy in my complicated world
I'm not your girl...~
Rei took a deep breath, she had heard Mamoru and Usagi had gotten back from the their honeymoon.
"Rei-Chan!" Usagi greeted warmly hugging Rei. "How are you I haven't' seen you in ages."
Rei smiled and nodded, Usagi was so sweet. She knew about Rei and Mamoru being married, obviously, now. But it hadn't changed the warm greeting she gave to Rei.
"How have you been?" Usagi as motioning Rei to sit down on the couch.
"Good. I can't stay long." Rei said not sitting.
"I understand. Were you looking for Mamoru?" Usagi asked.
"No." Rei shook her head "I came to see you."
"Me?" Usagi's blue eyes showed surprise.
"Yes. I just wanted you to know that I'm happy for you and Mamoru. And I'm moving on with my life."
"I'm so happy for you." Usagi exclaimed with enthusiasm.
"I better go." Rei said turning to go.
"We should get together for lunch something."
This time it was Rei's turn to turn surprised, but she smiled at the genuine look on Usagi's face "Call me and we can make plans."
Usagi nodded and Rei walked out of the apartment feeling lighter than she had in months.