W h a t T
h e H e a r t L e a v e s B e h i n d
B y A b i
l e n e K e e g a n
~ 3 ~
Abby wasn't about to give
up that easily. She quickly rushed
after Luka and out the emergency doors that she had always suspected they
weren't really supposed to be using. Luka's height had always been something that Abby liked about him. His towering stature had always made her
feel very safe. But in the case of
trying to catch up with him his long lags made things very irritating. As he was very near impossible to catch up
to.
"Luka please stop. Can't we at least talk about this?" That got his attention. He swung around so fast that Abby nearly ran right into him. She quickly jumped back and looked up into
his dark eyes.
"Talk about this! What part exactly do you want to talk about? The part where I nearly lost my job or... oh I know, how about
the other night. Let's talk about
that. Let's discuss your ideas of being
alone. There's A, my way, you go home
to your empty bed and try to sleep. Then there's B, your way, you tell your unsuspecting boyfriend that
you're going home to be alone but what you really do is go off to sleep with
another man!" Abby's already
wounded heart broke as the full force of his every word struck her strait in
the heart. She knew she deserved every
word said, in fact she deserved much worse then the pain they caused.
"I'm sorry Luka." He gave a sarcastic laugh that only made Abby hurt even worse.
"You're always sorry. It just doesn't matter. No matter
how sorry you may be you still did what you did. Your regret, if there really is any, means nothing to
me." His voice was low now but it
was dead serious. "Just stay away
from me and stay out of my life."
"Luka please." He just kept walking. "I love
you." He stopped and turned around
ever so slowly till he was facing her again. The anger in his eyes hurt and scared her at the same time.
"I hate you." She hadn't expected that. Out of
everything he could have possibly said that was the last thing she'd ever
expected to hear. Her heart felt like
it was about to shatter.
"You don't mean that. You can't just love someone one day and then hate them the next. It just doesn't happen." She prayed that her reasoning would actually
work. She knew it wouldn't. His eyes only grew more furious and he began
making his way back towards her. She
suddenly found herself terrified of him.
"You want to know just how much I can hate you."
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Luka stopped dead in his
tracks when he saw Abby flinch and step away from him. The fear in her eyes was heartbreaking and
he realized how true her words really had been. He didn't hate her, he could never hate her. He hated what she'd done but he was a long
way off from hating her. He had no
intentions of hitting her or physically harming her in any way. He could never do something like that to
her. Still, it was clear that's exactly
what she'd thought he was just about to do. He shook his head sadly and looked down into her frightful eyes.
"I would never hurt you Abby." The double meaning there was evident. While she may have hurt him, he'd never hurt
her.
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Abby was certain that
everybody in the ER was watching her as she stepped back in through the
emergency doors. She had no idea how
she was going to bring herself to continue working in this place. She was glad that the ER mostly kept its
gossip in the ER. At least she knew the
entire hospital wouldn't know her as the ER slut. Nonetheless a transfer to another hospital might still be
warranted.
"Hey." Abby looked up and found Dave staring down at her. Oh, great.
"What do you want Dave?" He looked at her confused.
"There's a patient in 3 that needs a nurse." A nurse? She gave Dave her best skeptical look. There's no way he's not going to hassle her about this whole situation. He had to. He wouldn't be Dave Malucci if he didn't.
"Okay, I'll go there now." Abby headed down the hall. To her irritation Dave followed immediately
beside her.
"So, I heard that Kovac got canned." It begins.
"He was suspended. That's all and it's none of your business. Do you have the chart on that patient?" She looked at him irritated and he handed
her the chart that was in his hands.
"Come on, let me in on the secret. Really what happed? Why'd he attack Carter?" Abby looked over at him unbelieving. He really didn't know.
"Like you don't already know." Dave shook his head innocently.
"No, really, I don't. Nobody does. What happened? You gotta let me know Abby." He gave her what Abby suspected was his most
conniving smile. Abby sighed and walked
into the exam room her and Dave had just arrived at.
"Like I said, it's none of your business. It's between Carter, Luka, and
me." Abby immediately cringed when
she realized her mistake.
"So, you are involved? Hmm, this has got to be interesting." Abby tried to ignore his comment and smiled
over at the patient setting on the gurney inside the room.
"Hello Mrs. Lee. I'm nurse Lockhart."
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Luka slammed the door shut
to his hotel room a little harder then necessary and immediately walked over to
a small closet in the room. He'd
already checked out of the hotel. Now
all he had to do was pack and leave. He
grabbed a suitcase out of the closet and headed for the dresser. He'd decided while heading back from the
hospital that he might as well go to Croatia for the next month. He had no job, no girlfriend, and no reasons
to stay here until his suspension was over. Even then he knew he'd be hesitant to come back.
The whole hospital must already know what had
happened. The last thing he wanted to
do was face the humiliation of going back to work in the ER. They all knew that his girlfriend had saw
fit to cheat on him. To make matters
worse she had to cheat on him with Carter of all people. Not that that was very surprising. He really should have seen it coming. He'd trusted her though. He'd loved her and as they say, love is
blind. What you don't want to see, you
will never see.
Shutting his mind off of the idea of going back to work and
blocking his emotions Luka concentrated solely on packing up his belongings. He had a strong urge to get out of
Chicago. To get far away from Abby, to
get away from the hurt and pain she'd caused him. A part of him knew though that he could travel to the stars and
the feelings would all still be with him. Abby would still be with him.
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End of Chapter 3
Author's Note: I am so sorry it took me so long to get this
up. I'm also sorry that there's not
more to it. I've been out of state
visiting family and when I finally got back almost a week ago now I just
couldn't get myself back into the story. Or any story at that. I will
continue to write and hopefully my inspiration will come back soon. I am working hard on trying to figure out
how to continue this story but as it turns out I have very few middle
ideas. I've always known the beginning
and I know how it will end but the middle is somewhat unclear. Anyhow please be patient with me, I will
finish it somehow, someday. :)
Disclaimer: The above was a story of fan fiction based on characters created and owned by Michael Crichton and NBC.