Part 4
Ever felt really dumb? Well... I do right now #smiles sheepishly# in part 2 I wrote that my email addy was sydneydavis200@yahoo.com, baka that I am I left out a zero! Oops! I don't own Digimon, which is truly unfortunate. Nor do I own Rehab or any of their songs...they do rock though... Oh yeah I just wanted to make sure no one thought that I shared the same opinions as Keru-chan in this chapter.
Takeru's POV
I'm barely livin' in my skin depression's my only friend
And I don't know where I am heading tryin' to forget where I've been
And I'm so sick of lying God please show me that silver lining
Cuz I've heard tale and I'm not well my heads full of hell and
This world's a jail
This totally describes my life. Isn't it ironic, this bands called Rehab. They will probably want to put me in one of those... or a mental hospital. I'm such a sick and disgusting person. I mean I like boys... I'm supposed to like girls, right? Kuso! I need more butterfly strips... Isn't that a pretty name for something that has to such a ugly job? Saving the lives of evil people like me? It's odd at first cutting was painful yet blissful at the same time, like I was again ridding the world of some evil. Now it just feels plain good. I hope I can take the next step soon.
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
It doesn't really matter now does it?
Hikari and Daisuke tried to get me to go to the Digital World but I knew that it was a terrible idea. What if I contaminated them with my impurities? Or even worse what if Patamon saw through my façade and masks? He is one of the few beings that could.
I learned something new the other day. I'd been at my dad's house (A/N: yes I think that they are full brothers not half) for some reason, don't really remember... all the days are one big jumble... and his lighter was on the table, it just called out for me to take it. Who am I to refuse? At first, I was just burning pieces of paper and such, but I got distracted this one time, and burned the tips of my fingers... It hurt so good.
I heard on TV today that Onii-chan is coming home... I need to figure out a way so that he won't notice. But, really, if Hikari hasn't noticed then will Yamato? I truly doubt it. They all think they know me so well, but they only know what I let them. And I only let them know what won't hurt them. I don't want them to know of my pain or have to experience it. This is what I hope. It's that word again. I can't seem to get away from it. It's everywhere I go. Closing me in....
I DO NOT EXIST IN YOUR WORLD
I'VE BURNED THE BRIDGES, I'VE CUT THE LIFE LINE
NOW ALL I HAVE LEFT IS MY MIND
What they say is so true.... Kami-sama... why can't I cut the life line and go into the nothingness?
I'VE SEEN SUNNY DAYS WITH RAIN
BUSTED KNUCKLES AND PAIN AND NEVER COMPLAINED
DIRT IS MY DOMAIN, MY VIEW IS PLAIN
BUT I'M INVISIBLE, SOUNDS MYSTICAL
NOT REALLY, THE DAYS ARE DRY THE EVENING CHILLY
THE ONLY ONE WHO UNDERSTANDS IS LITTLE BILLY WHEN HE'S LONELY
MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING, MAKE ME WORTH A DAMN
MAKE ME NEW AGAIN, MAKE ME A FUCKIN' MAN
I can't be a man with these feelings. I can't be one with these feelings. I wish I could bleed them out of me. Why is everything so dark for me? Why can't I be like everyone else? Why me? What did I do that is so wrong... wait I know the answer to that I was born... Why is Yama so accepting of himself and me? Why is it ok for him and not me? Because Tai is GAY Dai is not... you can't drag ruin his life with the shame that you feel... Oh FUCK now there are voices... Why won't it stop
AN EXCESS RULES EVERYTHING I DO
SO TELL ME HOW CAN I BE MORE LIKE YOU
CAUSE ALL OF THIS DON'T SEEM TO BOTHER YOU
SO TELL ME HOW CAN I BE MORE LIKE YOU
There's Part 4! The songs that the lyrics are from Rehab and are It don't matter, Scarecrow and More Like You. All by Rehab. This is not a songfic, I don't really like them, it's the CD that Takeru is listening to. They, Rehab that is, are not depressing; they are funny and ironic. Ok! You know the drill Read and Review! Let's see Let's see was that all I had to say? Yup!
Ever felt really dumb? Well... I do right now #smiles sheepishly# in part 2 I wrote that my email addy was sydneydavis200@yahoo.com, baka that I am I left out a zero! Oops! I don't own Digimon, which is truly unfortunate. Nor do I own Rehab or any of their songs...they do rock though... Oh yeah I just wanted to make sure no one thought that I shared the same opinions as Keru-chan in this chapter.
Takeru's POV
I'm barely livin' in my skin depression's my only friend
And I don't know where I am heading tryin' to forget where I've been
And I'm so sick of lying God please show me that silver lining
Cuz I've heard tale and I'm not well my heads full of hell and
This world's a jail
This totally describes my life. Isn't it ironic, this bands called Rehab. They will probably want to put me in one of those... or a mental hospital. I'm such a sick and disgusting person. I mean I like boys... I'm supposed to like girls, right? Kuso! I need more butterfly strips... Isn't that a pretty name for something that has to such a ugly job? Saving the lives of evil people like me? It's odd at first cutting was painful yet blissful at the same time, like I was again ridding the world of some evil. Now it just feels plain good. I hope I can take the next step soon.
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
It doesn't really matter now does it?
Hikari and Daisuke tried to get me to go to the Digital World but I knew that it was a terrible idea. What if I contaminated them with my impurities? Or even worse what if Patamon saw through my façade and masks? He is one of the few beings that could.
I learned something new the other day. I'd been at my dad's house (A/N: yes I think that they are full brothers not half) for some reason, don't really remember... all the days are one big jumble... and his lighter was on the table, it just called out for me to take it. Who am I to refuse? At first, I was just burning pieces of paper and such, but I got distracted this one time, and burned the tips of my fingers... It hurt so good.
I heard on TV today that Onii-chan is coming home... I need to figure out a way so that he won't notice. But, really, if Hikari hasn't noticed then will Yamato? I truly doubt it. They all think they know me so well, but they only know what I let them. And I only let them know what won't hurt them. I don't want them to know of my pain or have to experience it. This is what I hope. It's that word again. I can't seem to get away from it. It's everywhere I go. Closing me in....
I DO NOT EXIST IN YOUR WORLD
I'VE BURNED THE BRIDGES, I'VE CUT THE LIFE LINE
NOW ALL I HAVE LEFT IS MY MIND
What they say is so true.... Kami-sama... why can't I cut the life line and go into the nothingness?
I'VE SEEN SUNNY DAYS WITH RAIN
BUSTED KNUCKLES AND PAIN AND NEVER COMPLAINED
DIRT IS MY DOMAIN, MY VIEW IS PLAIN
BUT I'M INVISIBLE, SOUNDS MYSTICAL
NOT REALLY, THE DAYS ARE DRY THE EVENING CHILLY
THE ONLY ONE WHO UNDERSTANDS IS LITTLE BILLY WHEN HE'S LONELY
MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING, MAKE ME WORTH A DAMN
MAKE ME NEW AGAIN, MAKE ME A FUCKIN' MAN
I can't be a man with these feelings. I can't be one with these feelings. I wish I could bleed them out of me. Why is everything so dark for me? Why can't I be like everyone else? Why me? What did I do that is so wrong... wait I know the answer to that I was born... Why is Yama so accepting of himself and me? Why is it ok for him and not me? Because Tai is GAY Dai is not... you can't drag ruin his life with the shame that you feel... Oh FUCK now there are voices... Why won't it stop
AN EXCESS RULES EVERYTHING I DO
SO TELL ME HOW CAN I BE MORE LIKE YOU
CAUSE ALL OF THIS DON'T SEEM TO BOTHER YOU
SO TELL ME HOW CAN I BE MORE LIKE YOU
There's Part 4! The songs that the lyrics are from Rehab and are It don't matter, Scarecrow and More Like You. All by Rehab. This is not a songfic, I don't really like them, it's the CD that Takeru is listening to. They, Rehab that is, are not depressing; they are funny and ironic. Ok! You know the drill Read and Review! Let's see Let's see was that all I had to say? Yup!