A/N: ok, I'm not a Kitty fan, she's a real ditz in the 'fics and the show (yes, I finally got a glimpse if Kitty on the TV). So this is probably gonna be biased. Any way! I was thinking about her role, and how she's always stuck being the "younger, must-be-protected" sister to everyone. I was also wondering whether she feels it's something she can't get rid of, or if she's really thinking that it's her "job" in the team.
Kitty Pryde is rarely a character seen with depth, does she really have any?
I don't like to be considered a valley girl, and I don't like to be considered little and cute and the "forever too young to handle life on anything else but a silver tray" girl.
I don't like being perfect, and I don't like being pursued by Kurt, or Lance Avlers, or any one else for that matter.
And I don't like being an X Man. It should be X Person.
And they don't notice, and if they did, they wouldn't care much, because I'm "oh-so-young-and-innocent, what could I know?"
No one takes me seriously, it's always, Kitty, do this like that, the other way is too hard! And Oh, Kitty needs help! Evan, stop stalking Quicksilver and go protect her!!
Evan can go choke on his Quicksilver, because I don't need
or want any of them!
And so what if I use a few "likes" and "totally's"? It's what everyone talked like from where I came from! And Pink isn't too girly, just because Rogue wears green and looks like a Goth no one says that green is "Goth color"!
And hey, because I'm the youngest girl, and wear pink, and don't like to build up my muscles or threaten people with death if they don't leave me alone doesn't mean I have to be the "little sister". Why don't they just go and mother Jean? She wears pink and…oh, wait. She's like, totally older and more "mature" than me!
And it's always the girly one who gets admired but never loved because she's cute to watch but not to talk to, these things always happen to me, it was Avlers and then it was Kurt and now it's I-don't-know-who, but I'm sure there's someone out there.
I could try to be like…well, like everyone else. I guess. But really, role models are missing in this town. I mean, there's Scott, who's got a stick up his ass ("Kitty, where did you learn to swear?!") and there's Rogue, who's his "leave me alone, or I'll punch the living daylights out of you" clone. And there's Jean who's…well, boring and annoying and perfect. And there' Evan who's a jerk, and Kurt who I'd rather not talk about.
I'll be caught dead before I even consider the Brotherhood. (I'm not even thinking about starting to go around saying "ohhh…a challenge!!" At everything.)
I think that Rogue's attitude is cool, because she gets respect, and no one would even think of trying to mother her! And I like Kurt's jokes, but there's enough of them coming from him, so I think I'll just stick with being the "little sister". I mean, consider the other options…
"It's not as bad", they tell me, "you'll never be alone! And you have a nice family, and a house, and an education, and oh!! You can use a computer? Wow!! Alert the press!"
I can deal with it fine though, I won't run away, or go crazy, or decide to join the Brotherhood, (mostly since I asked Rogue and she looked disturbed, and it's not easy to disturb her…) And I guess that being the little sister has it's ups, because I get the first slice of pizza, and I get help with my homework even if I don't need it, and no one will ever suspect me of going out at midnight and trying to sneak into night clubs where I meet cool boys who'd just love to get me into bed.
Every one thinks I'm innocent, and everyone is happy with me, and no one would expect more than I can give. So I guess it's not all bad.
But really, people shouldn't look at me weird if I don't wear pink today.
And I guess that Kurt isn't all that bad, but I'd still prefer if he left me alone, because he's not my type. ("Type" does not equal "species"; I'm not a prejudice mutant. There is no such thing. Except maybe Evan.)
Little me has to grow up, I say. But then again…it's nice to young. So it think I'll stay that way…oh, no!! Evan is back with a vengeance! And this time it's "Kitty, you need to come down stairs, there's a debriefing about how to work the new air conditioner!"
Maybe I should give them a debriefing about how I'm not nine years old.
And…
Oh, god, that was so boring I could scream! People around here must be crazy by now, listening about the air conditioner for half an hour!!
I really wish people would take me seriously for once, my father never did, mom had to practically lie to him to get me at least a little freedom, and that totally sucked, because I'm pretty sure that he's totally lost all his faith in me after I was found changing records with that jerk, avalanche.
And like, the worse that happened is that I actually believed him for half an hour.
Which I regret.
And I trusted him and believed he'd help me, and maybe I was being silly, but Lance was a real good "knight in shining armor" guy, up until he almost destroyed the school and killed me.
And yeah, I'm stupid, and yeah, it was totally silly of me, but hey, I didn't feel like trusting Jean.
I wish people would get off my case…no, I don't. I'm happy with it.
It's nice to be pampered…no, it's not! Leave me alone!!
Is there a middle ground? Can anybody tell me how to get there?
Am I supposed to get there?
Oh…great, just when you need "guidance" all the "guides" disappear on you.
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A/N: more "ranty" than usual, but I like it. This is probably one of the better musings. At least from my point of view. I don't think any one's tried that angle of Kitty before, so I'm actually sorta proud of myself for it.