Chapter three: Unholy ground



From the depths of my sleep, I heard his voice, and felt his touch. Through all of my life, I have never had to worry or fear about anything that others had to worry about, however, I am not a stupid person. Dr. Carlin had told me all about what humans did. Including murder and rape. From the way she had described them to me, it sounded a lot like what Freeza was about to do.



I struggled to get past the drowsiness, but it just wouldn't lift. It was like trying to swim with weights dragging me down. The more he talked the more I felt a desperate surge of instinctive fear that demanded I wake up. Finally, he spoke the words which caused my power to jolt me awake. "I've waited my whole life to have another. . ." I flipped my tail up as quickly as I could and wrapped it around his throat.



Surprise filled his eyes as we locked eyes. "Than you'll have to wait longer. . .because I won't let you do that!" I said, my voice unsteady as I struggled to keep my hold on him. He wrapped his own tail about my waist and pulled tight. I yelped from the pain and tried to tighten mine more.



"That's. . .impossible! You were suppose to sleep. . .for more than eight hours!" Freeza growled, his eerie red eyes looking upon me with an evil intent. I knew in that instant, that if I lost this match, I would live to regret it.



I managed to get up off of the bed and tried to pry his tail off of my waist, just as he was mine at his throat. "Nothing is impossible, besides, you didn't really think I was that weak, did you?" I gasped, Freeza smiled as my tail began to weaken around his throat.



"Well, apparently you aren't as strong as you'd like to boast." He gloated to me, his hands unraveling my tail and smacking me hard in the face, tightening his tail even more as he lifted me in the air effortlessly.



I have to admit, I was terrified. Never before in my entire life had anything like that had ever happened. I struggled wildly in his grip, but all I was doing was hurting myself even more and causing him to be more amused. "Let me go!" I knew the second that it came out that it was a mistake, but there was no taking it back.



"Begging of mercy already? I thought you were strong! Perhaps you were mistaken in saying that you were." His careless attitude was starting to really piss me off, he acted as though this whole fight was only to amuse him rather than to actually fight.



I closed my eyes against the sudden pain which was growing where his tail held me. "I'm. . .not. . .begging!" I growled through clenched teeth. He laughed and lifted me up a little more, his eyes gleamed wickedly as he looked up at me. "Last. . .chance!" I gasped as my hands went to where his tail held me firm. With absolutely no contact with the ground, the constriction around my waist was literally crushing me to death.



Freeza continued to hold me up in the air, his twisted smile revealing to me just how much he was enjoying this. "I don't think so." He said as he tightened more and touched my stomach, just above his tail. "For one so small and lean, you are rather weak." Freeza remarked, I shuddered at his touch.



I winced again in pain and brought my tail about, I had to fight back, or I was going to die at the hands of one of my own kind! As my tail came up, Freeza laughed and struck me hard in the chest with his fist, a hollow wail escaped me as I struggled past the pain. "No, you're not even going to try to do that again. This is your lesson for disobedience. I will continue to give you this lesson until you learn that I am the one in charge here. Until you learn that, this lesson will continue!" He told me viciously as he shook me with his tail.



I ground my teeth together. This was not the way I wanted to die, not by the hands of someone that was nearly the same age as I. I locked eyes with him and felt my anger boil up to the surface, I felt my power rouse itself, I watched him closely, but he seemed oblivious to it. I have learned that the feel of power is only sweet when it is used in anger, and this time, my power was so sweet and warm, that I felt I would never let it go. I saw in his eyes, the sadist that he was and the fact that if I lost this fight, that wouldn't be the only thing I lost. "You'll get. . .tired. . . eventually." I managed to choke out as I glared down at him.



His smile faded swiftly, but what remained froze my blood on the spot. "Oh no, you'll be dead before I ever get tired! And don't worry," He said softly, setting me down so that he could hold me close to him, his eyes afire with sudden hatred. "I'm not about to let you die."



As he was busy talking, I used the opportunity to get my tail into position to strike, I wanted to be free of him soon! But before I could strike, he lifted me back into the air. I would have yelped, but there was no air to do so. "Shall we get on with the lesson?" Freeza asked me as he tightened his tail and pull his hand back. My vision was beginning to darken, but I could see enough to realize that the hand he had pulled back was holding an energy blast with my name on it!



That was it, something inside of me snapped. My body convulsed as I needed air badly, and as I thrashed to get away, my tail swung up and struck him hard. He released me instantly and backed away. I gasped for breath and crawled away from him. As my vision cleared I noticed there was blood on both him and me. My blood came from my mouth as I coughed, his was from a wound on his side. I stood unsteadily and swung my tail up beside me, that was when I noticed it.



My tail had changed just a little, there was literally a blade coming from it, plus two smaller ones from either side of my tail, three total. . .I looked back at Freeza, and tried to wipe the look of shock from my face. "I warned you!" I coughed as I loosened my wings and felt them instantly become metal. His eyes widened as he watched, than narrowed, he gritted his teeth together and growled low at me.



"You insolent little bitch!" He hissed at me as he suddenly charged, I could not move fast enough to avoid impact, but I was fast enough to manage to flip him off of me and get back to my feet in time for his twin energy blasts. I spun twice to my left to avoid them and sent one of my own in response. Before I realized it, the two of us were in a completely energy typed distance fight.



Freeza glared at the reluctant Ice Jin in front of him. Why do I bother with her?! She's proving more trouble than she's really worth, I don't even know if she's old enough to be of any use to me! So why not just end this now? He asked himself as he summoned a powerful blast and flung it at her. The blast hit her hard enough to knock her through the wall and into the next room. Freeza stood and went to retrieve his now unconscious 'guest', but stood in shock of what he saw.

She was climbing to her feet!! Rage filled him as he watched her turn to face him. "No! That's not possible." He muttered to himself as he watched her sway and face him. The look on her face promised him that the fight was not over yet. . .



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I shook my head as I tried to steady myself. As I looked back up, I noticed that Freeza was looking at me in shock, from his expression, I gathered that I should not have recovered as well as I did. I looked up at him with such hatred that I nearly could have sworn that he gave just the smallest shiver. "Why?" I asked as I straightened myself up and away from the wall, my tail held itself at ready involuntarily.



Freeza looked at me in momentary confusion. "What do you mean 'why'?" I looked at him in clear shock.



He had just asked me why ask why?! This just agitated me even more. "Why?! What did I ever do to you? Every time I turn around, you are attacking me! I have searched for a very very long time to find my own kind, so you can't tell me that there are many of us. Why do you keep attacking me?! I'd hate to have to continue my search and to leave you!" I told him, my eyes watching his every move. I could not afford to misjudge him at this distance, if I was not careful, he could easily kill me or badly wound me as he had before.



"There are not that few of us, besides, you are not completely Ice Jin, there's something different about you." He said, his eyes looking over me thoughtfully. "Besides, you are the only female my age I will ever encounter, I fully intend to use you." I felt my eyes go wide and my mouth drop. I knew that was what he had intended it to be, but to hear it from his own mouth was something I just wasn't prepared for! My mouth worked to say something, but nothing would come out. He smirked at me and stood his ground firmly. "I thought you already had that figured out, why do you seem so shocked? Don't you know that this is the whole purpose of a female's life? You're nothing but my slave and servant, and if I have my way, my personal body servant." Again, my mouth dropped, although I personally didn't think that it could have dropped much more than earlier, but it did!



"Your. . .personal. . .body servant?!!!" I struggled to get past my sudden quick breaths. I brought my hands up to my chest, I felt that my heart would explode through my chest. Freeza laughed and relaxed a little more, folding his arms over his chest in amusement. "Why. . .of all the. . .stupid. . ." The more I tried to find a decent come back, the more I seemed to amuse him.



"Does the idea not fit good with you?" He asked me with a smirk of satisfaction.



My mouth worked for a moment before the sentence came out. "No, it does not go well with me! I am not your slave!!! I am here of my own choice!" I shouted back at him, but at the look in his eyes, I knew I was wrong.



"Oh, is that so? Well, why don't you just try to leave! Let's see just how free you are to do as you please!" Freeza's conviction caused me to hesitate, and that was a bad move on my part.



I spun on my feet and bolted down the hallway, I instantly heard the sound of Freeza hot on my trail. My sides burned and my body ached badly from the previous fight with Freeza and I wasn't sure just how much longer I could fight him next time. The hallway felt as though it spanned for nearly an eternity before I seen the bend, as I rushed away from Freeza's angry approach from close behind. What hurt the most was that Freeza was laughing as he followed close behind.



But due to the fight that we had earlier, I was tired and near exhausted, slowly, I was slowing down, and Freeza was catching up. My heart pounded as I struggled to maintain my speed, but inevitably, I slowed, and when I did, I would speed back up, always just feeling the reaching fingers of Freeza on my back as I went faster.



Without warning, I suddenly pitched forward, my body hitting the ground a lot harder than I should have. I tried to yelp, but all the air escaped me. Suddenly, I felt breath on my neck, and a hard grip on my arms and body, pinning me. "Still think you are free?" His breath was hot against my neck.



I squeezed my eyes shut, his weight was more than he looked, his tail wrapped firmly about my own, I felt violated and dirty. "I don't have a choice, do I?" I asked, I felt him laugh, it was something that made me start to cry. It was not something I did often, but I now knew what had caused Vegeta so much concern. My life had just taken a turn I never wanted it to. I took a shaky breath and began to cry harder.



"No, you don't. . . ." He said shakily in my ear, his tail tightened around mine, I took in a deep breath and cried as loudly as I possibly could, before he took my breath away again. . .



I don't know how long he tortured me, or how long he hurt me, but I knew it was a long while, after he left me, I stayed, curled into a little ball, the pain was still a reminder of who was in control, but my own rage still boiled beneath my frightened exterior. Still, I cried, my anger and my pain were too much to bare, but Freeza found it amusing.



"Ah, what's wrong?" Freeza asked from beside me, I never heard him enter, but he was very quiet when he wanted to be. His hand touched my shoulder and pushed me to where he could see my face. I only glared at him, but his smile made me flinch. "Still defiant? Well, I could have sworn that you would have learned by now! Do you need, perhaps, another lesson in obedience?"



I shook my head and whimpered, trying to curl back up into a little ball. But he wouldn't let me. "You did stole what was rightfully mine!" I said softly, just beyond my tears.



He laughed and traced a finger down my cheeks, wiping away my tears. "No, it was mine, just as you are. Do you understand now, what I said earlier? You are mine!" With the last one, his hand gripped my neck hard. I tried hard not to scream in agony, but it was very, very difficult.



"I understand!" I cried a little louder than I wanted, Freeza smiled wickedly and grabbed me hard by the throat and forced me to sit back up. I cried loudly and fought hard against him, but froze as his tail snaked its way around my own, I knew what he was going to do, the same as last time. I closed my eyes and gave a hollow wail as he pulled us tightly together.

"Please, no." I whispered, but I knew better than to fight him now, I rested my chin against his shoulder and let the tears fall down in silence.



Freeza wrapped a hand around my waist and moved his head so that his mouth was next to my ear. "Don't worry, the first time is always the worst. . ." My resolve slipped away, as I felt the scream I was holding slip away and escape from my throat like that of a banshee's! The world tipped and twirled out of control.



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Freeza looked down at his prisoner with a smirk. She had a lot of spirit. He had to grant her that, he was sure that any other would have long since been broken, but she could take what he had to give. All of her spunk kept her from being crushed by his will. He closed his eyes as he remembered her, she satisfied a part of him that he had never been able to satisfy before. She was so sweet, and she always fought him. There was no doubt that she would never fail to fight him. A smile crept to his lips, his years of loneliness were long gone, his mother had been right. Just when things were going wrong, and his heart would hurt the most, he would find what he needed to carry on. And now, his mother's dream had come true. "Thank you, mother." He muttered as he looked down at her again.



She was asleep now, she had been unconscious earlier, but now, she slept. The smile widened as he touched her face gently. She flinched, he froze. The smile slipped away. Even in her sleep, she should not have had that reaction. Sleep brought back good memories. Unless she has none. The thought gave him a jolt. He had good memories of when his mother was still alive, and when he was younger, his parents both took care of him. He had many bad memories also, but they were able to be calmed by good ones. Without them, his control wouldn't be as secure as it was. . .



He looked back down at her, than frowned more. If only I knew what she was thinking. If I knew what had happened in the past, I'd better understand why she's so upset about being here with me. I'd like to have her in peace like my parents, when my mom was still alive, but I can't if she's always fighting like this! He thought, he clenched his fists and ground his teeth together. "There has to be a way!" He muttered to himself as he turned and stalked away. "I'll find a way!"



And so the routine went on for a better part of three months, each time, Freeza became more and more enraged that she had not yet produced him an heir. The more she did not conceive the more aggressive he became to her. On one such occasion, he continued to beat her for nearly nine hours straight; after which, he of course put her in the tank to heal off what he had done.



She hovered there now, asleep and curled into a fetal position. He watched her with a semi-frown, he was still not happy with her. Each time he came to her, each time he offered to her something that would please her if she would only be his for one night. But each time she denied him! She threw his gifts back into his face and denied him rights to her. She dared to deny him! That bitch! He clenched his hands tighter into a fist, the Saiyans nearest him backed away just a little. The Ice Jin was not to be trifled with, especially of late. He had been trying unsuccessfully to mate with this new little one, but she obviously wasn't old enough to do so, or had denied him. All they knew was that Freeza was extremely agitated of late, and had caused four unfortunate deaths among the small Saiyan population on his Flag Ship. Because of that, most of the Saiyans were very wary of their Lord.



Freeza reached out and touched the tank, again, the odd sensation of touching her flesh rippled through him, the little one inside the tank flinched away and made a move which suggested a whimper. You had better fear me, I don't know why you have not conceived yet, but I know it is your fault and not mine. Perhaps you'll better understand your place once I get done with you. I will NOT tolerate such insolence! He thought angrily as he continued to watch her. She seemed to sense his thoughts, because she shivered and shrank away from him in the tank. A smile pulled to his lips. She was showing fear, and that was a good thing.



From inside of her tank, her eyes opened slowly, she instantly locked her eyes onto Freeza. A look of such cold hatred passed between them that caused him to shiver involuntarily. The two Saiyans looked at each other and one smiled, the little Ice Jin might be younger than Freeza, but she was nearly too much for him to handle. "You're brave now, but when the time comes, you're always the same. You cry, you cry and whimper and cower. You are nothing but what I make you. Do you hear? You are nothing!! I am your life, I am the reason you live! Am I not? You traveled all this way for me, and yet you still deny me what I want. Not that it matters, I will take it whether you give it or not." Freeza told her, she shook her head and glared at him.



:You are not so tough. You might have strength, but you are no man. Your strength is nothing compared to mine, you only win because of your physical strength and your older than I. When I am older, I will leave you, I will disappear and you will never find me!: She promised him mentally, her voice loud enough and strong enough for all in the room to hear. Freeza cursed and slammed his hand down on a small blue button, instantly, the tank flickered with lights, she gave a silent scream of agony for nearly five minutes before he pushed the green button to stop the torture. She glared at him once more, but with less tenacity as before.



"There now, you do remember who is boss, now don't you?" He mocked her, she reluctantly nodded and looked away from him, her tail curling back around her like an infant's. He nodded his head with approval. "Don't you forget that! I'd just hate to have to remind you again." The smile he gave her explained to her that he had enjoyed punishing her.



She looked out the huge window across the way and out at the stars. Suddenly she longed more than ever to be back on Earth with Dr. Carlin, however she would be dead by now. But so wouldn't the doctors! That thought gave her a flash of hope, if she could some how escape Freeza and go back the way she came, she'd be able to return to the life she had always wanted. Freeza saw her looking longingly back out at the vast space and frowned deeply. Quickly he pressed the small blue button down. Instantly the pain returned, he glared at her and stalked out of the room, leaving her with her pain. :Please! Freeza! Don't leave me like this!: She called frantically after him, but he did not heed her cries, he only kept walking away. She thrashed in the tank and gave the silent cry of agony, the Saiyans in the room to guard her winced in sympathy. They could not understand why he treated her with such savagery!



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For hours he left me like that, writhing in pain! When he would return, the look on his face was one of such evil twisted satisfaction that I felt I would be sick. It fascinated him to no end to see my suffering, and to make it all worse, I could not give him what he wanted. My body was not as old as his, we were probably several centuries apart in age, and that made up all of the difference! My only hope was that my some miracle, I would suddenly become with child, and I could escape his random acts of brutality and his forcing lust. But that just never happened.



My body gave another jolt of agony as my torture continued, I struggled to think past the pain and to let my mind roam back into space, going over my tracks through the years, laying out a map in my mind of where Earth might be hiding in this void. However, I cared not for Earth, I only wanted a refuge away from Freeza and this ravenous pain! Again, another jolt, this one was more specific, I looked back up at the controls and saw Freeza again, his eyes locked viciously on my own. "You do me no good in there. I have need of you out here, you have healed enough to be of use." His bitter voice broke through to my mind like a knife. He'd worked himself up into a lust again, this was not going to be good, nor pretty. All I could do was hope for the best and try once more to escape him.



But I knew, each time I fought him, my injuries became worse and worse. To lose every time meant that he was stronger than I, and to be defeated completely by that monster meant a lifetime of torment. That I could not take, and I knew that Freeza would not let me die. Even if I continued to be barren, he would not let go of me! Sometimes I thought that because of how brutal he was, he didn't really want a child, because how could any child possibly grow in conditions such as this abuse? I wish I could have told him that, but he never listened to me, only glared and abused me. I felt my body lowering closer to the bottom of the tank, my next session of abuse was approaching fast. Already, his tail swayed in anticipation, for ones as young as he and I, the tail was a huge threat to me, it mean pain and violation.



As my feet touched the bottom and my body grew heavy again, I felt him remove the pain from my body and his fingers removing the patches which checked and attacked me. I closed my eyes and leaned against him while he did so. This was the only time I could feel secure and relax in his arms, even for only a moment. Freeza did something unexpected than, as I leaned back against him, he suddenly stopped, I could hear his heart from where I rested, it pounded wildly, but, than, his tail gently caressed my own. I flinched, but he didn't make any moves to hurt me farther, there was no painful violation of his lust. :Wha. . .: I started, but his arms wrapping around my waist silenced any farther questions. I didn't want to ruin what ever gentle mood had just come upon him.



He leaned in close and rested his head down on my head, taking deep breaths, inhaling my scent slowly. I could feel his heart slowing down, but not ceasing the hungry hammering. "Hmm. . .Touch. . ." Freeza nearly purred as he slowly ran a hand up from my stomach up my front, I winced in fear, but than took a shaky breath as I suddenly felt his tail tighten and loosen gently. He took a sudden deep breath and pulled me back against him. "I never imagined what it might be like to just. . .touch." His tail slid up mine, the contact without such harshness was. . . incredible!



:What. . .why the sudden. . .change?: I could not resist the risk of angering him if there was also the possibility of knowing what makes him so gentle.



He held me close and continued to caress me with tenderness. "As much as I enjoy feeling you writhe, I have always wondered what it would feel like with you not afraid." His words did take me by surprise, I figured that there was some ulterior motive to it, but there was not.



:And. . .are you satisfied with that yet?: I asked him, but he did not answer right away.



His response instead was to brush his finger tips over my flesh, causing me to shiver with a sudden rush to sensations. His breath tickled my ear as he remained calm and composed, it seemed to me that this was something he had planned long in the making for this much control. And because of this control, I grew to trust this less and less, but loved it more and more, for it was my calm in the storm. "No. I think I have much to learn about how to treat another like me, I think I've approached this from the wrong angle. You're too frightened and I hurt you too much for anything to come of it." As he spoke, my mind reeled. He was suggesting that he would stop hurting me all together and allow me the peace and happiness my heart longed for. "And with your permission, I wish to show you of things that only your dreams have shown you." My mind spun with the possibilities he was implicating, did I want to hand myself over to this known monster, or was I willing to get love and faith another chance. "Which will it be?"



I took a shaky breath as he continued this new torture on my senses and closed my eyes. The choice was simple. :I will stand by you than.: If I said yes, than he would not harm me and it would give me the time I needed to escape. But on the other hand, if I said no, than he would continue to be vicious and probably either kill me or worse. I swallowed back my fear as I waited for his response.



He smiled and gave me a light hug, the sensation felt really good, a small sound escaped me. Freeza laughed and looked down at me. "Did I just get you to purr?" I smiled and snuggled closer, hoping that this was the beginning of a new life for a while, until I could escape him. "I am glad of your choice, I'll not make you regret it." I nodded against him and put my smaller hands down on his hands. He rubbed my abdomen gingerly, than laughed a little to himself. "Soon, I hope that this little stomach will be swollen with our child. . .but I can wait a while longer, if I need to. I understand that you are younger than I." He said softly to him, I took a shaky breath as I recalled what this 'gentle' life would still include.



"I hope so too, I'd like to be a mother." I told him, but inside, I felt differently. A child would indeed be nice, but I wanted to raise my child on Earth, or at least not on a space ship, where Freeza would be all the time. I did not want the father of my child to be some ruthless tyrant, like Freeza. But I knew that my options were not evident at all right now, Freeza wanted an heir, and one he would have, and in that, the father would most likely be Freeza.



Freeza gently pulled away from me and stood, helping me to my feet with his hands and tail. The world swayed around me for a moment, I reached over and held onto him for a moment, than pulled away. "You don't seem to be very balanced right now, how do you feel?"



I looked at him with a feeble smile, waved a little with my hand. :I'm ok, I just feel really tired, that's all.: I told him as I looked once more longingly to the vast freedom of space. I suppose that everything has its price, especially freedom.

He seemed to look me over critically than nodded, as if agreeing with me. "Yes, I'm sure you are tired, than rest, you have a big day ahead of you later today." As he said the words, I could already feel myself falling asleep, I was simply too tired to fight against the warmth of his body and the comfort he was giving me.



When I awoke next, I found myself back in my bedchambers, my pains were mostly gone and all that remained was an emptiness which was my sealed fate. I sat up slowly, instantly pain whelmed up in my legs and lower back, before I could stop it, a quick yelp came to my lips.



Within nana-seconds, Freeza was beside me, his concern was written on his face so plainly that the tears in my eyes were a mix of both shock and the sharp undulating pain growing in my lower back and legs, but creeping around into my abdomen. "Are you ok? What's wrong?!" Freeza asked sharply, his fingers suddenly probing where my hands went, he forced my hands away and probed.



"I. . .I don't know. . .it. . .it just hurts! AH!!!" I yelped once more as he pressed a little on my abdomen.

Freeza's already worried face broke out into a panic. "Oh shit!" He muttered, his emotions were raging havoc on my empathy, and the fact that I was in pain did not help at all. He looked about hurriedly and than grabbed a hold of my neck tightly. I let a yelp escape me as the world suddenly began to go dark and my pain vanished into the abysmal blackness. . .



Freeza looked down at his charge in panic, his worst possible fear had just taken place. He'd managed to make her hold an heir of his, but in his brutality, she was probably going to lose it. He picked her up and was relieved that she was not yet bleeding. There was still time. He raced down, holding her close to him as he went, the last thing he wanted was for her condition to worsen anymore than it already was.