Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere
His harsh,
ragged breathing filled the night air and sweat soaked his sheets as he twisted
them in his fists. "No…" he whispered in his sleep. "…No!" Suddenly, his eyes
flew up and he jerked himself into a sitting position. Before he could stop
himself, a sob jerked from his lungs. Another one escaped and he curled himself
into a small ball, trying to stop the sobs that wracked his thin frame.
Out of the
darkness he whispered, "I'm so sorry…"
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
"I can't
stop thinking about her,' he whispered to himself as he stood in front of the
bathroom mirror. "Whenever I try to sleep I have nightmares…about her. And then
when I awake…I want to cry." He bowed his head and whispered, "Is this some
sort of punishment? I've fought a war for her, sacrificed who I was for her…and
still her memory haunts me…"
He sighed
and looked up to meet his own eyes in the mirror. "She's everywhere!"
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
The sounds
of battle…the frantic shrieks and screams…her own voice yelling at him…the feel
of her in his arms, before-
He sat up
and sucked in his breath sharply, inhaling the heavy, humid air that lay almost
tangibly around him. "Dear God," he whispered. "What can I do?"
"I've done
everything possible…why is she doing this to me? Why, when…" A soft sigh
slipped from his lips as he bowed his head and whispered, "When I loved her?"
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
It hurt. It
hurt so much. The pain was driving him half-mad.
Tears
formed and refused to fall from his eyes and he bit his lower lip in an effort
to stop it from trembling as he forced himself to remember.
"I loved
you…I loved you more than I loved myself. I've fought a war for you, become who
you wanted me to be…you have to let me let go." He raised his head as he
continued, speaking not to himself but to *her*. "I am asking…"
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh
She'd sworn
he'd ask her one day; beg her to let him go. He'd laughed. Told her the most he'd
ever ask from her was for her to pass him the salt. He'd said he'd never even say
please.
And now he
was begging.
"I am
begging you let me go!"
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
Now he was
remembering the touch of her. The way she'd been uncharacteristically gentle
when she'd touched him. The way she'd brushed her lips against his when she
thought he was sleeping. The way she'd loved him.
He closed
his eyes and swallowed harshly. "Please…I don't want to, I don't *need* to
remember…"
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not
alone
He bowed
his head and whispered, "Please, Meiran, I'm begging for you to let me let go…so
I can love again."
Through the
mists of his tears he saw someone waiting for him…
"I am on my
knees asking you…"
"I loved
you."
"But I don't
need to love you anymore."
"You were
right…I am begging…"
You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?
::End::
