WARNING!!: This is, of course, a yaoi fanfic. Yaoi is Male/Male relationship. Yep, gay. Anyhoo, I just wanted to say that none of these people in this story belong to me, so don't sue. Got that all you wacky moneygrubbers? Enjoy.
Pairing: Seifer x Squall, and a little Irvine x Zell
______________________________________________________________________________________________
That Special Someone
By Asura Sotosuri
//Have you ever wondered if there was this one perfect person out there for you? Have you ever imagined how that person would look, or sound, or even. . . .feel? I know I have, but even when I imagined that person something was missing. I don't know what it was though. Some people spend their whole life searching for that person-- that special someone. I don't want to be one of those people talking loudly and getting really close to a stranger, so I search in silence. Oh and trust me, I've had my fair share of failures. I have had a few very important relationships fall apart for me.
Take my relationship with Rinoa for instance.
Oh sure, I loved her, but it wasn't the type of love I thought it was. She was the first person that I actually thought was my soul mate. Well, it all ended when we both came to realize that we only loved each other with a, so to say, a "brother and sister" relationship. Nothing sexual.
Yes, ending in tragedy. Another one of my busted up love boats on the river of life.
River. . .of life?! I think I've been hanging around Irvine to long.//
_*Thinking*_
//All right, so she's the only one that I can really think of that I have totally fallen head over heels for and it didn't work. Sue me.//
_*Pause*_
//Is it just me or have you ever noticed how people pick on the silent types? I'm silent for a reason damn it! It's not because I can't talk or because I don't have a damn funny bone in my body! It's because I don't desire to waste my breath on subjects that have no fucking relevance to life.
And you have to admit, with the people I hang around with . . .they come up with some weird ass shit to talk about.//
I sigh. //Ok, back to the subject at hand: love. It's a strong word. I mean, the word love should be used as much as the word hate because those two words alone are the strongest words in the universe and could do some major damage.
I don't want to use that word--love--unless it's forever.//
I roll over on my bed and stare at the off white wall. //Forever. . . .my gosh. . . .who would I want to spend forever with?//
"--Seifer."
//Seifer?! What the hell?!//
"Hey Squall!!" A familiar high pitched voice called out from behind me.
I roll over and sit up, reluctantly. "Huh?"
"Hey, where did you go?" Selphie asks with a childish grin on her face.
I stare blankly at her childish face and put off what was on my mind. "What do you want?"
The brunette pulls out a book. "Like I was saying before, have you seen Seifer?"
"No."
"Oh, I thought maybe you might have."
"Why would I have seen him?"
"Because he told me he wanted to talk to you."
Puzzled, I stare at her.
"Anyway! If you see him will you give this to him?" She held the book out quickly to me. "Tell him that I sent it, ok?"
Taking the book from her I lay it on the nightstand.
"Arigato Squall!" She piped. "See ya!" She bounced out of my room, shutting the door with a 'thud'.
I glance over at the book and pick it up, examining it. //What the hell is this?// I begin to read the cover. //Emotions- Reasons Explaining Human Behavior. Why does Seifer need a book like this?// I shrug at the idea and stand up, feeling that Seifer might need this. //If Selphie couldn't find him then he really must have gone into hiding.//
I walk out of the room, holding the book firmly under my arm, not really wanting anyone to see it. I walk over to the elevator and pressed the up button, knowing Seifer is either in the training hall or--
"Hey man!!!" An excited hand slaps me on my back from behind.
"Holy shit!" I jump in surprise and spin around, dropping the book from under my arm.
Zell leaps back and laughs, looking as though he was about to double over.
I scowl at him. "That's so fucking not funny." I lean over and pick the book back up, putting it back where it was before I dropped it.
Between giggled he manages to say, "I thought it was funny as hell."
"Hell's not funny." I turn and walk into the elevator.
"Huh? Whatever!" He walks off, probably to the library.
I snort absently. //I don't see why he still even hangs around with that girl from the library if he is screwing around with Irvine. I don't think she's figured it out yet.//
It's was almost a shock to me to find out that Irvine was fucking. . . .Zell. I mean, seriously. Every night. It's not really hard to notice in the morning when Zell walks. . .I chuckle. I don't think anyone really pays attention to the way Zell walks though. I doubt they know.
The metal doors slid closed and I head to the second floor.
The elevator stopped and I got out. I nearly groaned at the site I saw when I turned the corner, heading for the end of the hall. "Can't you guys do that somewhere else before some--"
Right then I heard Quistis shriek. I turned around and saw her stalking over madly to Raijin and Fujin, who were of course making out right behind the plant. Pulling Raijin by his ear and Fujin in hot pursuit, she took them to her office, yelling at them about the Garden rules.
Quistis had become the headmaster of Balamb Garden when I declined the job after the Sorceress episode. Since Quistis was such a 'sweet' and 'caring' person, she allowed Seifer back into Garden. He had just passed his SeeD exam about four weeks ago. But ever since then he's been really quite. . . .and distant.
Instead of heading into the classroom, I walked over to the door that led outside. I headed up the steps and walked to the outer surface. I was quiet as to not let Seifer know I was here. I knew he would be out here, lost in his own conscience.
I stepped over and stood beside him, staring at his profile. I don't think he knew I was there, if he did, he didn't let on. He just leaned against the rail and stared blankly at the near by ocean. I didn't want to disturb him. Instead, I just watched him, as the wind blew gently at his face. I don't recall a time, in the extent that I have known him, that I have never got this warm feeling all over me when I was around him. I kinda wanted to reach out and take him in my arms and never let him go.
//What am I talking about? Me? Wanting Seifer?// Weird though. Maybe I always have wanted him. Maybe. . .maybe I love-- //No. No, not love.//
I heard him sigh forlornly and that snapped me back to reality. He turned his head ever so slightly to me. I couldn't read on his face if he was mad or sad or. . . .anything.
"What is it Squall?"
I shifted on one foot and pulled the book out, holding it up.
He turned in my direction and gazed at it.
"Selphie told me to give this to you. She told me she couldn't find you."
Seifer took the book from me. He ran his hand over the title and then flipped through the book. I was about to ask him what he wanted to talk to me about but didn't.
When I was turning to leave I heard him speak lowly from behind me, no emotion in his voice what so ever. "And how did you know where to find me?"
I opened the door and then glanced at him. "I'm the only one that always knows where you are." //In or out of your conscience.//
I walked off, leaving Seifer behind me. I have to admit though, I left still curious as to what he wanted to talk to me about.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Pairing: Seifer x Squall, and a little Irvine x Zell
______________________________________________________________________________________________
That Special Someone
By Asura Sotosuri
//Have you ever wondered if there was this one perfect person out there for you? Have you ever imagined how that person would look, or sound, or even. . . .feel? I know I have, but even when I imagined that person something was missing. I don't know what it was though. Some people spend their whole life searching for that person-- that special someone. I don't want to be one of those people talking loudly and getting really close to a stranger, so I search in silence. Oh and trust me, I've had my fair share of failures. I have had a few very important relationships fall apart for me.
Take my relationship with Rinoa for instance.
Oh sure, I loved her, but it wasn't the type of love I thought it was. She was the first person that I actually thought was my soul mate. Well, it all ended when we both came to realize that we only loved each other with a, so to say, a "brother and sister" relationship. Nothing sexual.
Yes, ending in tragedy. Another one of my busted up love boats on the river of life.
River. . .of life?! I think I've been hanging around Irvine to long.//
_*Thinking*_
//All right, so she's the only one that I can really think of that I have totally fallen head over heels for and it didn't work. Sue me.//
_*Pause*_
//Is it just me or have you ever noticed how people pick on the silent types? I'm silent for a reason damn it! It's not because I can't talk or because I don't have a damn funny bone in my body! It's because I don't desire to waste my breath on subjects that have no fucking relevance to life.
And you have to admit, with the people I hang around with . . .they come up with some weird ass shit to talk about.//
I sigh. //Ok, back to the subject at hand: love. It's a strong word. I mean, the word love should be used as much as the word hate because those two words alone are the strongest words in the universe and could do some major damage.
I don't want to use that word--love--unless it's forever.//
I roll over on my bed and stare at the off white wall. //Forever. . . .my gosh. . . .who would I want to spend forever with?//
"--Seifer."
//Seifer?! What the hell?!//
"Hey Squall!!" A familiar high pitched voice called out from behind me.
I roll over and sit up, reluctantly. "Huh?"
"Hey, where did you go?" Selphie asks with a childish grin on her face.
I stare blankly at her childish face and put off what was on my mind. "What do you want?"
The brunette pulls out a book. "Like I was saying before, have you seen Seifer?"
"No."
"Oh, I thought maybe you might have."
"Why would I have seen him?"
"Because he told me he wanted to talk to you."
Puzzled, I stare at her.
"Anyway! If you see him will you give this to him?" She held the book out quickly to me. "Tell him that I sent it, ok?"
Taking the book from her I lay it on the nightstand.
"Arigato Squall!" She piped. "See ya!" She bounced out of my room, shutting the door with a 'thud'.
I glance over at the book and pick it up, examining it. //What the hell is this?// I begin to read the cover. //Emotions- Reasons Explaining Human Behavior. Why does Seifer need a book like this?// I shrug at the idea and stand up, feeling that Seifer might need this. //If Selphie couldn't find him then he really must have gone into hiding.//
I walk out of the room, holding the book firmly under my arm, not really wanting anyone to see it. I walk over to the elevator and pressed the up button, knowing Seifer is either in the training hall or--
"Hey man!!!" An excited hand slaps me on my back from behind.
"Holy shit!" I jump in surprise and spin around, dropping the book from under my arm.
Zell leaps back and laughs, looking as though he was about to double over.
I scowl at him. "That's so fucking not funny." I lean over and pick the book back up, putting it back where it was before I dropped it.
Between giggled he manages to say, "I thought it was funny as hell."
"Hell's not funny." I turn and walk into the elevator.
"Huh? Whatever!" He walks off, probably to the library.
I snort absently. //I don't see why he still even hangs around with that girl from the library if he is screwing around with Irvine. I don't think she's figured it out yet.//
It's was almost a shock to me to find out that Irvine was fucking. . . .Zell. I mean, seriously. Every night. It's not really hard to notice in the morning when Zell walks. . .I chuckle. I don't think anyone really pays attention to the way Zell walks though. I doubt they know.
The metal doors slid closed and I head to the second floor.
The elevator stopped and I got out. I nearly groaned at the site I saw when I turned the corner, heading for the end of the hall. "Can't you guys do that somewhere else before some--"
Right then I heard Quistis shriek. I turned around and saw her stalking over madly to Raijin and Fujin, who were of course making out right behind the plant. Pulling Raijin by his ear and Fujin in hot pursuit, she took them to her office, yelling at them about the Garden rules.
Quistis had become the headmaster of Balamb Garden when I declined the job after the Sorceress episode. Since Quistis was such a 'sweet' and 'caring' person, she allowed Seifer back into Garden. He had just passed his SeeD exam about four weeks ago. But ever since then he's been really quite. . . .and distant.
Instead of heading into the classroom, I walked over to the door that led outside. I headed up the steps and walked to the outer surface. I was quiet as to not let Seifer know I was here. I knew he would be out here, lost in his own conscience.
I stepped over and stood beside him, staring at his profile. I don't think he knew I was there, if he did, he didn't let on. He just leaned against the rail and stared blankly at the near by ocean. I didn't want to disturb him. Instead, I just watched him, as the wind blew gently at his face. I don't recall a time, in the extent that I have known him, that I have never got this warm feeling all over me when I was around him. I kinda wanted to reach out and take him in my arms and never let him go.
//What am I talking about? Me? Wanting Seifer?// Weird though. Maybe I always have wanted him. Maybe. . .maybe I love-- //No. No, not love.//
I heard him sigh forlornly and that snapped me back to reality. He turned his head ever so slightly to me. I couldn't read on his face if he was mad or sad or. . . .anything.
"What is it Squall?"
I shifted on one foot and pulled the book out, holding it up.
He turned in my direction and gazed at it.
"Selphie told me to give this to you. She told me she couldn't find you."
Seifer took the book from me. He ran his hand over the title and then flipped through the book. I was about to ask him what he wanted to talk to me about but didn't.
When I was turning to leave I heard him speak lowly from behind me, no emotion in his voice what so ever. "And how did you know where to find me?"
I opened the door and then glanced at him. "I'm the only one that always knows where you are." //In or out of your conscience.//
I walked off, leaving Seifer behind me. I have to admit though, I left still curious as to what he wanted to talk to me about.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~