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//Ok......an assignment with Seifer. That won't be so bad.// I dodge a monster's attack as I think. //Sure, ok, so what if I'm having feelings for him. Can they even be called that?// I slice through another Grat. //And why the fuck did Quistis even put us together?!?!?! Maybe she figured we'd get along or some shit.// I sigh. "Damn it."
//Why do I continue to think of Seifer? Am I upset that we have a SeeD mission together? Is that it?// I walk around the training hall, not even worried about monster attacks, my mind is too pledged with confusion.
//I know I'm not scared of him.// I laugh at that idea. //That is certainly not it.// I get attacked by two Grats but I finish them off with no trouble. I have been training for about an hour, but it didn't really seem that long. I had removed my jacket and shirt to give me more freedom to move as I please. Sweat was now falling down my face, but I still wasn't tired.
//Maybe I'm afraid I might fall for him. . .Gah!! I'm a gay now?!?!?!?! Oh my gosh, as if my image wasn't fucked up enough.// It's not that I mind the thought of being yaoi, I just don't want it to hurt Seifer. //I can imagine it now. The minute anyone finds out about me liking Seifer, PLOP! Both of our lives will turn into a social hell. As if his life isn't painful enough. . .//
Suddenly I hear a huge roar and look up to see that damn Tyrannosaur. //I hate that damn thing! Everytime I fight it and defeat it, it comes back stronger then ever, like Seifer. . .// I hold out the Lionheart and run up to it, slicing through it. I do this several times, but it was all in vein. Everytime he'd hit me with his tail I would fly off and hit the ground. I felt myself getting weaker and weaker.
"Damn it." I stood up slowly from the last hit he gave me, holding my arm. I decided it was time to call Shiva.
I did so. But that only proceeded to make the situation even more hard. That thing won't die! Attacked again by his massive tail, I was flung into a tree this time, I could feel my arm being ripped into by a branch. I fell out of the tree, knocking me unconscious. I don't remember anything else after that besides the burning pain in my arm.
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I woke up slowly, feeling something cold press against my forehead. My arm felt like it was on fire. I felt someone next to me, pressing the cold cloth to my forehead. I shifted and sat up, looking at the person. It was--
"Seifer?"
He smiled forlornly at me from the chair he sat in beside my bed. "So, you finally woke up. That was quite a mess you got yourself into, dumb ass. What the hell were you thinking? T-Rexaur could have had you for his dinner." Seifer pushed me to lay me back down. I did so, not feeling like fussing with him.
"Why would you care anyway if he had?" I said, not looking up at him.
I heard him sigh deeply. "You just don't get it, do you? I could have left you there to bleed to death, but I didn't. I did NOT."
I raised an eyebrow. //What the....what is he trying to say? I'm sure I seem pretty dense right now. He can't be hinting anything...// "So you saved me so you could have someone worth the competition to fight." I replied coldly.
"Oh bull shit Squall." He spat out.
He grabbed my chin and forced me to stare up at him. "You know good and well why I did what I did, don't fuck with me Leonhart."
I blinked at him. //Does he mean what I think he means?// "I. . .I don't know what you are talking about." I lied.
The intent look he was giving me made me shiver.
"Yes you do." He repeated. Before I knew it he had closed the space between us and had his lips pressed against mine. I didn't know what to do really. It was like I expected it to happen but in a way it was like a far-fetched dream. I hesitated to responded, but it was over before I knew it.
I stared up into his sea green eyes and for the first time I saw real emotion swirling in them. I saw his fear. He was afraid- no - terrified that I was going to reject him.
I blinked again. "Seifer, you never told me you liked me."
"I don't just like you Squall. I have never just liked you." He said, pulling away from me so I could sit up.
"What do you mean?"
He glanced over at the wall. "I love you Squall Leonhart. I always have, even when I scared your face."
//Oh my gosh. I think I'm going to pass out.// "You--you love me?" I choked it out.
"If you're disgusted by me you can kill me."
"Kill you?!" I laughed. "You have to be kidding."
He looked at me, seriousness written all over his features. "No, I'm dead serious. I don't think I could live with the thought that you find me disgusting, I already had to deal with harming your beautiful face..." He ran his finger lightly over my scar. "I didn't mean to."
"I know you didn't." I loved the feeling of his gentle touch. "Seifer," I took his hand in mine, "I'm not disgusted by you. I think I care for you too much to even think that way about you." //And the secrets just falls out.//
He grinned at me and kissed me again, this time a little more roughly. The kiss broke and he put his forehead to mine, staring into my eyes and trailing his fingers down my torso. "Ya know, I have been waiting for this moment my whole life, I always wondered what I would say, what you would do when I said it. You know how it feels to love someone so deeply, yet not be sure about it?"
I smiled. "Yeah, I do."
He kissed my cheek lightly, running his tongue along the side of my face. "I don't want to push you to do anything, you know that. So," He reached my lips and again ran his tongue along my bottom lip, then he pushed away, "I'm going to wait." He stood up and I could have sworn I whimpered.
He leaned down and gave me one last kiss. "We have too much going on tomorrow anyway, getting ready for the mission. Well," he sighed, "Goodnight, my love. May your dreams be a lovely as you are."
"Are you sure you're the Seifer Almasy I know? Or are you some really handsome and fine version of Irvine?" I teased.
He chuckled and walked out, leaving me alone in the room. I almost went after him but I thought otherwise and went to sleep. I hoped my arm would be better before the mission.
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//Ok......an assignment with Seifer. That won't be so bad.// I dodge a monster's attack as I think. //Sure, ok, so what if I'm having feelings for him. Can they even be called that?// I slice through another Grat. //And why the fuck did Quistis even put us together?!?!?! Maybe she figured we'd get along or some shit.// I sigh. "Damn it."
//Why do I continue to think of Seifer? Am I upset that we have a SeeD mission together? Is that it?// I walk around the training hall, not even worried about monster attacks, my mind is too pledged with confusion.
//I know I'm not scared of him.// I laugh at that idea. //That is certainly not it.// I get attacked by two Grats but I finish them off with no trouble. I have been training for about an hour, but it didn't really seem that long. I had removed my jacket and shirt to give me more freedom to move as I please. Sweat was now falling down my face, but I still wasn't tired.
//Maybe I'm afraid I might fall for him. . .Gah!! I'm a gay now?!?!?!?! Oh my gosh, as if my image wasn't fucked up enough.// It's not that I mind the thought of being yaoi, I just don't want it to hurt Seifer. //I can imagine it now. The minute anyone finds out about me liking Seifer, PLOP! Both of our lives will turn into a social hell. As if his life isn't painful enough. . .//
Suddenly I hear a huge roar and look up to see that damn Tyrannosaur. //I hate that damn thing! Everytime I fight it and defeat it, it comes back stronger then ever, like Seifer. . .// I hold out the Lionheart and run up to it, slicing through it. I do this several times, but it was all in vein. Everytime he'd hit me with his tail I would fly off and hit the ground. I felt myself getting weaker and weaker.
"Damn it." I stood up slowly from the last hit he gave me, holding my arm. I decided it was time to call Shiva.
I did so. But that only proceeded to make the situation even more hard. That thing won't die! Attacked again by his massive tail, I was flung into a tree this time, I could feel my arm being ripped into by a branch. I fell out of the tree, knocking me unconscious. I don't remember anything else after that besides the burning pain in my arm.
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I woke up slowly, feeling something cold press against my forehead. My arm felt like it was on fire. I felt someone next to me, pressing the cold cloth to my forehead. I shifted and sat up, looking at the person. It was--
"Seifer?"
He smiled forlornly at me from the chair he sat in beside my bed. "So, you finally woke up. That was quite a mess you got yourself into, dumb ass. What the hell were you thinking? T-Rexaur could have had you for his dinner." Seifer pushed me to lay me back down. I did so, not feeling like fussing with him.
"Why would you care anyway if he had?" I said, not looking up at him.
I heard him sigh deeply. "You just don't get it, do you? I could have left you there to bleed to death, but I didn't. I did NOT."
I raised an eyebrow. //What the....what is he trying to say? I'm sure I seem pretty dense right now. He can't be hinting anything...// "So you saved me so you could have someone worth the competition to fight." I replied coldly.
"Oh bull shit Squall." He spat out.
He grabbed my chin and forced me to stare up at him. "You know good and well why I did what I did, don't fuck with me Leonhart."
I blinked at him. //Does he mean what I think he means?// "I. . .I don't know what you are talking about." I lied.
The intent look he was giving me made me shiver.
"Yes you do." He repeated. Before I knew it he had closed the space between us and had his lips pressed against mine. I didn't know what to do really. It was like I expected it to happen but in a way it was like a far-fetched dream. I hesitated to responded, but it was over before I knew it.
I stared up into his sea green eyes and for the first time I saw real emotion swirling in them. I saw his fear. He was afraid- no - terrified that I was going to reject him.
I blinked again. "Seifer, you never told me you liked me."
"I don't just like you Squall. I have never just liked you." He said, pulling away from me so I could sit up.
"What do you mean?"
He glanced over at the wall. "I love you Squall Leonhart. I always have, even when I scared your face."
//Oh my gosh. I think I'm going to pass out.// "You--you love me?" I choked it out.
"If you're disgusted by me you can kill me."
"Kill you?!" I laughed. "You have to be kidding."
He looked at me, seriousness written all over his features. "No, I'm dead serious. I don't think I could live with the thought that you find me disgusting, I already had to deal with harming your beautiful face..." He ran his finger lightly over my scar. "I didn't mean to."
"I know you didn't." I loved the feeling of his gentle touch. "Seifer," I took his hand in mine, "I'm not disgusted by you. I think I care for you too much to even think that way about you." //And the secrets just falls out.//
He grinned at me and kissed me again, this time a little more roughly. The kiss broke and he put his forehead to mine, staring into my eyes and trailing his fingers down my torso. "Ya know, I have been waiting for this moment my whole life, I always wondered what I would say, what you would do when I said it. You know how it feels to love someone so deeply, yet not be sure about it?"
I smiled. "Yeah, I do."
He kissed my cheek lightly, running his tongue along the side of my face. "I don't want to push you to do anything, you know that. So," He reached my lips and again ran his tongue along my bottom lip, then he pushed away, "I'm going to wait." He stood up and I could have sworn I whimpered.
He leaned down and gave me one last kiss. "We have too much going on tomorrow anyway, getting ready for the mission. Well," he sighed, "Goodnight, my love. May your dreams be a lovely as you are."
"Are you sure you're the Seifer Almasy I know? Or are you some really handsome and fine version of Irvine?" I teased.
He chuckled and walked out, leaving me alone in the room. I almost went after him but I thought otherwise and went to sleep. I hoped my arm would be better before the mission.
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