The first thing that pops up in my mind is, 'How the hell are they here?' After that I am able to gain some composure and think my second thought; what are they going to say. I assume from Zacks foul expression that he heard that I was pregnant. Lydecker looks indifferent, like he doesn't care, even though I know that he does. Logan holds my hand, but pulls it slightly behind my back to avoid a glare from Zack. The tension in the room is horrible and I want to scream at them for coming here and ruining the moment. Zack has made such a habit of that. Like when Logan and I finally admitted that we had feelings for each other, right before I went back to Manticore for the second time, he walked in and ruined that amazing first moment.
"What are you two doing here?" I say.
"No, Maxie, that is not the question. The question is, what the hell are you doing pregnant and with him," Zack yells and gestures toward Logan angerly. He looks like he is about a second away from killing Logan and because I don't want to be a single parent and because blood would ruin the carpet, I step in front of Logan and glare. I am daring him with my eyes, 'If you want it, come and get it' thats the look that I am sending him.
"It wasn't something I planned Zack. But I am not under your command. We aren't at Manticore and I won't take orders from you. If you think that keeping this baby is a bad idea, fine go ahead and think that. Call it a moment of weakness; you remember that don't you?"
"You can't be serious. The fact that you are even in Seattle makes me furious, and then that you would stay with him instead of... well lets just say that this is one more in a long list of bad choices that you have made. And it ends right here."
"What, are you and Deck here going to drag me off, force me into an abortion, ship me back to Manticore. What the hell do you think that you and military-reject boy here are going to do?"
For the first time, Lydecker speaks up, "Max, this is a bad idea. Even if you are safe now, that could change in an instant, and you know that. You have to make the right decison for now. You have to leave and deal with this pregnancy."
"No, she'll leave if she wants to," Logan throws in, and he is rewarded with a smile from me. "You can't make her go. She is happy with the idea of a life here and a life with me and a baby. We are getting married, right Max?"
Ten to one says that wasn't the way that Logan had planned on proposing but such is life. Us married, wow. And to think that when I broke in a year and a half ago, all I was looking for was one more way to make my rent. Who would have thought that I found enternal bliss in an action that started out illegal. Boy, it that ironic.
"Yeah, we are getting married. I spent my whole life living in the shadows, scraping by on nothing in dead end jobs because anything better and people might have remmebered my face. I had no friends, no nothing. But things are different now. You say that you don't want to have anything to do with Manticore, but you still act like we are back there, like there is a war going on and there's not. You aren't my commanding officer, you are my brother, my friend, and thats how I want you in my life, not as an overbearing CO with a great huge stick up his a*s that reads, SCREW MANTICORE, FIGHT THE POWER! You are still back at Manticore and it burns you bad that I am not falling into that again. It's dead, it's done, and even if it is not, I've realized that I am not gonna let my life pass me by cuz of a lot of 'what ifs'. If shi* happens, then it happens, but we'll deal with it when it comes; not before, after."
"You aren't safe that way," Zack yells.
"Maybe not, but if I just give up my life to being a drifter, well then it might come in a different form but that is still Manticore controlling me. Don't you get it, you'll let them win."
"Well then you leave me no choice," Lydecker says, with a nod from Zack. He pulls a gun from a holster at his waist. Within a moment Logan has his gun out a small metal box in his desk. He steps in front of me and I grab onto him. My face is strong, but there is a pleading in my eyes and I hope that Lydecker sees it. I look back to Logan, and the expression on his face is one that I have never seen; he would shoot, if I were threatened or the baby, he is protecting his family. I hug him tighter and he slids his free hand further up my back. From the way that he is standing, I am almost completely safe.
"Deck, put the gun down. We haven't come this far to shoot eachother. If she wants to be stupid, then it's her lose," Zack says, and Lydecker lowers the gun. Zack and Lydecker, comrades in arms, who would have thought. Logan and I are still standing there, as the two of them file down the hall way. After we hear the door close, Logan goes and locks it.
"I am sorry that went down that way," he says.
"Sorry they screwed up your marriage proposal," I say in return.
"Is your answer still yes?"
"Yeah."
"Then they didn't screw it up," he says smiling.
We are gonna be fine.
"What are you two doing here?" I say.
"No, Maxie, that is not the question. The question is, what the hell are you doing pregnant and with him," Zack yells and gestures toward Logan angerly. He looks like he is about a second away from killing Logan and because I don't want to be a single parent and because blood would ruin the carpet, I step in front of Logan and glare. I am daring him with my eyes, 'If you want it, come and get it' thats the look that I am sending him.
"It wasn't something I planned Zack. But I am not under your command. We aren't at Manticore and I won't take orders from you. If you think that keeping this baby is a bad idea, fine go ahead and think that. Call it a moment of weakness; you remember that don't you?"
"You can't be serious. The fact that you are even in Seattle makes me furious, and then that you would stay with him instead of... well lets just say that this is one more in a long list of bad choices that you have made. And it ends right here."
"What, are you and Deck here going to drag me off, force me into an abortion, ship me back to Manticore. What the hell do you think that you and military-reject boy here are going to do?"
For the first time, Lydecker speaks up, "Max, this is a bad idea. Even if you are safe now, that could change in an instant, and you know that. You have to make the right decison for now. You have to leave and deal with this pregnancy."
"No, she'll leave if she wants to," Logan throws in, and he is rewarded with a smile from me. "You can't make her go. She is happy with the idea of a life here and a life with me and a baby. We are getting married, right Max?"
Ten to one says that wasn't the way that Logan had planned on proposing but such is life. Us married, wow. And to think that when I broke in a year and a half ago, all I was looking for was one more way to make my rent. Who would have thought that I found enternal bliss in an action that started out illegal. Boy, it that ironic.
"Yeah, we are getting married. I spent my whole life living in the shadows, scraping by on nothing in dead end jobs because anything better and people might have remmebered my face. I had no friends, no nothing. But things are different now. You say that you don't want to have anything to do with Manticore, but you still act like we are back there, like there is a war going on and there's not. You aren't my commanding officer, you are my brother, my friend, and thats how I want you in my life, not as an overbearing CO with a great huge stick up his a*s that reads, SCREW MANTICORE, FIGHT THE POWER! You are still back at Manticore and it burns you bad that I am not falling into that again. It's dead, it's done, and even if it is not, I've realized that I am not gonna let my life pass me by cuz of a lot of 'what ifs'. If shi* happens, then it happens, but we'll deal with it when it comes; not before, after."
"You aren't safe that way," Zack yells.
"Maybe not, but if I just give up my life to being a drifter, well then it might come in a different form but that is still Manticore controlling me. Don't you get it, you'll let them win."
"Well then you leave me no choice," Lydecker says, with a nod from Zack. He pulls a gun from a holster at his waist. Within a moment Logan has his gun out a small metal box in his desk. He steps in front of me and I grab onto him. My face is strong, but there is a pleading in my eyes and I hope that Lydecker sees it. I look back to Logan, and the expression on his face is one that I have never seen; he would shoot, if I were threatened or the baby, he is protecting his family. I hug him tighter and he slids his free hand further up my back. From the way that he is standing, I am almost completely safe.
"Deck, put the gun down. We haven't come this far to shoot eachother. If she wants to be stupid, then it's her lose," Zack says, and Lydecker lowers the gun. Zack and Lydecker, comrades in arms, who would have thought. Logan and I are still standing there, as the two of them file down the hall way. After we hear the door close, Logan goes and locks it.
"I am sorry that went down that way," he says.
"Sorry they screwed up your marriage proposal," I say in return.
"Is your answer still yes?"
"Yeah."
"Then they didn't screw it up," he says smiling.
We are gonna be fine.