A/N: I don't own any S02 characters.... yadda yadda yadda.... you know the rest, don't sue me... Umm this fic is about what I went through lately and I'm still going through something like this... please R&R and go easy on me seeing as i'm not really good at writing... More chapters coming.
I sat there on my bed starring outside my window at the dark, starry Nedian sky in L'Aqua. It was the night before the final battle with the Ten Wise Men. I looked at the stars and wondered if maybe Ernest was looking at the sky too, was he thinking of me? I wondered if I would ever see him again. The thought of being away from him and the fact that I may never see him made me want break into tears, but then again it filled me with anger to know that he left and didn't even tell me where he was going and if he'd come back. It was a complicated feeling. I missed him so much but I was also so angry at him and sometimes I felt like I hated him but deep inside I just wanted him back in my arms.
I lay back down on my side to face my room mate who was on the bed opposite to mine. He looked so different in his sleep. When he was awake he always looked so dark and angry, but now he seemed so peaceful and somehow kinda cute. Ha ha ha, Dias? Cute? I remember when I first met him at the Front Line in Lacour when we were fighting of Shin. He was quite arrogant and uptight then but there was just something about him right now that reminded me of Ernest but now I just wanted to forget all about him because it just made me feel so many different emotions and made me want to cry or break something, or both.
I couldn't lie still in my bed, I kept moving side to side which sort of disturbed Dias I guess because he groaned, which to me ment "I'm trying to sleep, stop moving around". I didn't want to wake him up so I got out of my bed and went down to the beach seeing as i couldn't sleep anyway.
I sat down on the cold dark sand and stared into the ocean. Tears fromed in my eyes. I don't know why because I wasn't thinking anything in perticular right now but I guess it was just my heart yearning for Ernest to return to me. "The battle for the universe is tomorrow and all I can think about is Ernest." I said quietly to myself thinking I should get some rest for tomorrow's battle or at least think of what I'm gonna do on the battle field. But I just couldn't. There were so many things in my head right now. I'm not that type of person who can just leave everything I'm thinking of, go to sleep and let the gods decide the rest. "Where are you Ern?" I looked up at the sky, "I need you."
I lay down on the sand and just let the tears flow from my eyes. Not like I could keep myself from crying. There's no point anyway, I have every reason to be depressed. I tried to take my mind of Ernest for a second and surprisingly Dias was the first thing to come to my head after that. He was kinda strange. Well I wouldn't blame him after all, he did watch his whole family get slaughtered by bandits and there was nothing he could do to save them and the poor guy just blames himself. It always seemed like all the light inside him was gone and would never show again, but sometimes looking at him makes me think "what if he just needs somebody to talk to and hold in his arms."
Actually, I thought to myself, Dias is kinda alright. I mean, he never takes any shit from anyone and he's just so... unique. I couldn't think of any other words describing him but all the darkness within him just made him not your typical male. He had something in common with Ernest but I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but something about Dias reminded me of Ernest. Ah, Ernest, I opened my eyes to look up at the stars again. I noticed some constellations which were familiar. It made tears drop from my eyes again since I remembred looking at those stars back on Tetragenes with Ernest.
We'd sit there on the hill outside my house with a bottle of Hassaku Tea - Ernest's favourite drink - and a couple of wine glasses and we'd just look at the stars and talk about how wonderful it would be to travel the universe together... and the next thing, he's gone.
"Opera." I jumped up as I heard a cold, deep voice from a couple of meters away from me.
"Dias? What are you doing here?"
"Couldn't sleep." He said, "may I sit down next to you?"
"Um, yeah sure." Dias sat down next to me and gazed out at the ocean.
"Opera, you seem hurt. Are you alright?"
"It's just all my feelings. I feel so many different things right now, I can't really cope with all of them at one time."
"Is it about Ernest?"
"Yeah, part of it."
"Mmm."
"I'm just worried about him. I know he'll be alright, he knows how to take care of himself but I just wonder if he still loves me and why he left me."
"I feel that way too sometimes. About a girl I once knew. But in my case it's worse. She's right here but I know I can't have her."
Does he mean me? Nah. No way, couldn't be.
"Rena?"
"No, Rena's my other little sister. I love her but in a different way."
"Who do you mean then, Dias?"
"Chisato..."
"Ah, yeah Chisato, she's a cool chick."
"Ever since I've met her I can't get her out of my head."
"Well why don't you tell her then?"
"Because I'm scared, Opera. I've lost my intire family and I'm scared to lose Chisato as my friend."
"Dias, just take your chance. Your only regrets will be the chances you didn't take."
"You're right. But what if she can't return my love?"
"Well you think about that if she can't. But you don't know that for sure. Dias, tomorrow we're going to have the battle for the universe. The final battle. What if we lose? What if we all die? Then you'll regret not telling her how you feel while Indalecio is beating the shit out of you. Then you'll truly lose her."
"You know what, you're right. Thank you Opera." Dias got up and smiled. That was the first time I'd seen him smile. "I'm going to go get some sleep now. Tomorrow I'll tell her. Tomorrow morning. First thing."
"Okay Dias, good luck." I smiled back at him.
"Aren't you going to sleep?"
"Nah, I'll stay out here for a while. Get things sorted out with my mind."
"Okay, good night."
"Good night Dias." He went off back into the house to sleep while I sat there starring out into the ocean again. Dias, I thought. Hmm, I found a side to him that I always knew he had but I never thought he'd show it. Damn it! What have I just done? I told him to go after the girl he loves. I can't believe I just did that when now I'm starting to have quite deep feelings for him myself.
I sat there on my bed starring outside my window at the dark, starry Nedian sky in L'Aqua. It was the night before the final battle with the Ten Wise Men. I looked at the stars and wondered if maybe Ernest was looking at the sky too, was he thinking of me? I wondered if I would ever see him again. The thought of being away from him and the fact that I may never see him made me want break into tears, but then again it filled me with anger to know that he left and didn't even tell me where he was going and if he'd come back. It was a complicated feeling. I missed him so much but I was also so angry at him and sometimes I felt like I hated him but deep inside I just wanted him back in my arms.
I lay back down on my side to face my room mate who was on the bed opposite to mine. He looked so different in his sleep. When he was awake he always looked so dark and angry, but now he seemed so peaceful and somehow kinda cute. Ha ha ha, Dias? Cute? I remember when I first met him at the Front Line in Lacour when we were fighting of Shin. He was quite arrogant and uptight then but there was just something about him right now that reminded me of Ernest but now I just wanted to forget all about him because it just made me feel so many different emotions and made me want to cry or break something, or both.
I couldn't lie still in my bed, I kept moving side to side which sort of disturbed Dias I guess because he groaned, which to me ment "I'm trying to sleep, stop moving around". I didn't want to wake him up so I got out of my bed and went down to the beach seeing as i couldn't sleep anyway.
I sat down on the cold dark sand and stared into the ocean. Tears fromed in my eyes. I don't know why because I wasn't thinking anything in perticular right now but I guess it was just my heart yearning for Ernest to return to me. "The battle for the universe is tomorrow and all I can think about is Ernest." I said quietly to myself thinking I should get some rest for tomorrow's battle or at least think of what I'm gonna do on the battle field. But I just couldn't. There were so many things in my head right now. I'm not that type of person who can just leave everything I'm thinking of, go to sleep and let the gods decide the rest. "Where are you Ern?" I looked up at the sky, "I need you."
I lay down on the sand and just let the tears flow from my eyes. Not like I could keep myself from crying. There's no point anyway, I have every reason to be depressed. I tried to take my mind of Ernest for a second and surprisingly Dias was the first thing to come to my head after that. He was kinda strange. Well I wouldn't blame him after all, he did watch his whole family get slaughtered by bandits and there was nothing he could do to save them and the poor guy just blames himself. It always seemed like all the light inside him was gone and would never show again, but sometimes looking at him makes me think "what if he just needs somebody to talk to and hold in his arms."
Actually, I thought to myself, Dias is kinda alright. I mean, he never takes any shit from anyone and he's just so... unique. I couldn't think of any other words describing him but all the darkness within him just made him not your typical male. He had something in common with Ernest but I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but something about Dias reminded me of Ernest. Ah, Ernest, I opened my eyes to look up at the stars again. I noticed some constellations which were familiar. It made tears drop from my eyes again since I remembred looking at those stars back on Tetragenes with Ernest.
We'd sit there on the hill outside my house with a bottle of Hassaku Tea - Ernest's favourite drink - and a couple of wine glasses and we'd just look at the stars and talk about how wonderful it would be to travel the universe together... and the next thing, he's gone.
"Opera." I jumped up as I heard a cold, deep voice from a couple of meters away from me.
"Dias? What are you doing here?"
"Couldn't sleep." He said, "may I sit down next to you?"
"Um, yeah sure." Dias sat down next to me and gazed out at the ocean.
"Opera, you seem hurt. Are you alright?"
"It's just all my feelings. I feel so many different things right now, I can't really cope with all of them at one time."
"Is it about Ernest?"
"Yeah, part of it."
"Mmm."
"I'm just worried about him. I know he'll be alright, he knows how to take care of himself but I just wonder if he still loves me and why he left me."
"I feel that way too sometimes. About a girl I once knew. But in my case it's worse. She's right here but I know I can't have her."
Does he mean me? Nah. No way, couldn't be.
"Rena?"
"No, Rena's my other little sister. I love her but in a different way."
"Who do you mean then, Dias?"
"Chisato..."
"Ah, yeah Chisato, she's a cool chick."
"Ever since I've met her I can't get her out of my head."
"Well why don't you tell her then?"
"Because I'm scared, Opera. I've lost my intire family and I'm scared to lose Chisato as my friend."
"Dias, just take your chance. Your only regrets will be the chances you didn't take."
"You're right. But what if she can't return my love?"
"Well you think about that if she can't. But you don't know that for sure. Dias, tomorrow we're going to have the battle for the universe. The final battle. What if we lose? What if we all die? Then you'll regret not telling her how you feel while Indalecio is beating the shit out of you. Then you'll truly lose her."
"You know what, you're right. Thank you Opera." Dias got up and smiled. That was the first time I'd seen him smile. "I'm going to go get some sleep now. Tomorrow I'll tell her. Tomorrow morning. First thing."
"Okay Dias, good luck." I smiled back at him.
"Aren't you going to sleep?"
"Nah, I'll stay out here for a while. Get things sorted out with my mind."
"Okay, good night."
"Good night Dias." He went off back into the house to sleep while I sat there starring out into the ocean again. Dias, I thought. Hmm, I found a side to him that I always knew he had but I never thought he'd show it. Damn it! What have I just done? I told him to go after the girl he loves. I can't believe I just did that when now I'm starting to have quite deep feelings for him myself.