BREATHE OUT
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Logan heard the scream followed by a thump.
"MAX?" He ran all the way to their room and found her lying on the floor. The bed sheets were covered with blood and so where her clothes.
'Oh my God! This can't be happening' He told himself while he called for an ambulance.
'Breathe Logan, just breathe'
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Logan sat on one of the hospital's hard uncomfortable chairs and held Max's hand. His eyes were welling up with tears. 'If only I had called the doctor sooner this wouldn't have happened' He told himself.
But the damage was already done, he just hoped that Max would forgive him for his negligence.
He knew what she would say. She would tell him that it was her fault, that she should've gone to the doctor's sooner but he knew the truth. She was his responsibility, he was supposed to watch her back, to take care of her and their baby and he had failed.
'Original Cindy is going to kick my ass' He told himself. The thought of having his ass kicked was appealing for the first time in his life.
"Mr. Cale?" A doctor asked.
"Yeah?"
"Could I talk to you for a second?" The doctor's voice was warm and calmed but Logan knew he had bad news, over the years he had learned to read people's expressions.
Logan stood up and followed the doctor.
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Max opened her eyes slowly and carefully. She checked her surroundings before moving an inch. 'Old habits dye hard' She told herself. The room was painfully white, there was a TV and a couple of hard plastic chairs. She looked around for Logan but couldn't see him anywhere.
'That's odd' she thought. It was until then that she realized that the pain on her back was still there and then she remembered what had landed her in the hospital on the first place.
'Oh my God is the baby ok?' She was now desperately looking for someone that could tell her what was going on. Had she lost the baby? She was pretty shure she had, she couldn't feel the soft kicks anymore and it had always seemed like the baby had more energy than her and Logan put together.
She tried to get out of bed but couldn't find the strength to do so. That was when she saw Logan. He was standing outside talking to some doctor. His body looked tense and she could tell he was trying to pay attention to what the doctor was saying. She considered listening to the conversation, due to her genetics she knew she could hear them perfectly clearly if she wanted to but she decided against it.
She hated doctors and hospitals, she hated the medical talk and the complicated terms so she decided to search Logan's face for information instead.
She wanted more than anything to see him smile with relief, she wanted to see his body relax and his breath returning to normal but instead she saw the one thing she did not wanted to see.
His body tensed even more and he clenched his jaw. His eyes became red and puffy and she could tell that he was holding back tears.
'Oh who am I kidding? I have to hear this for myself' She said and concentrated on hearing the conversation going on just outside her room.
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Logan fought back the tears.
"Exactly what are you saying?" He asked the doctor.
"Well, your wife's body is simply not ready to have this baby. You told me that she can hardly keep anything down but anything that does make it to her bloodstream is being given to the baby. Apparently it..."
"She" Logan interrupted.
"Excuse me?"
"The baby, she's a girl not a thing." Logan said absently.
"Ok, she has been taking every nutrient from your wife. Now normally a natural abortion should have occurred a long time ago but for some reason her body won't get rid of the baby."
Logan shut his eyes closed. 'It must have something to do with her messed up DNA, some need that her body has to protect the offspring.'
The doctor was still talking.
"You see, we can't take the baby out of her body yet, performing a cesarean now would kill the baby for shure and considering how weak your wife is, her chances of surviving the operation are 35/100."
The tears ran freely down Logan's cheeks now.
"Now we have two options. We could keep your wife here for another week and then perform the cesarean. That would increase your daughter's probabilities from zero to 70%. Mrs. Cale, however, probably won't make it. She would be most likely on a coma by that time and she probably wouldn't wake up."
A sob escaped Logan's throat. "What is the other option?" He asked.
"An abortion"
"NO!" Max yelled from her bed. 'Oh shit! She woke up!" Logan opened the door and ran inside.
"How did you...?" The doctor started to ask but it was obvious that no one was listening.
"Max, sweety it's the only way!" Logan tried to convince her. "We can try again later baby..."
"NO Logan, I'm not having an abortion! I want to give our daughter a chance at life!"
"But Max, what if something happened? I can't raise a child on my own!"
"Yes you can and you will if you have to. I've made up my mind and I'm not asking for your approval, I'm asking for your blessing."
Logan's sobs increased. Max moved the sheets aside and Logan crawled into the bed with her. He rested his head on her chest and she stroked his hair, her own tears wetting the pillow.
"I don't want you to leave me." Logan whispered.
"I know baby, I know"
The doctor left, he knew they wanted to be alone for a while.
"I need you to promise me something." Max said.
"What?"
"I need you to promise me that you will take care of our child and that you won't let her forget me."
"Oh Max I..."
Max covered his mouth with her hand.
"Just promise"
Logan knew that she needed to hear him promise so he did.
"I promise"
Max closed her eyes
"Also, promise me that you will try to move on"
"MAX! Baby, I promised that I would take care of our child but please don't ask me to make a promise that I won't be able to keep."
Max held him closer to her chest. She could feel herself getting weaker.
"I love you Logan"
"I love you too my dark angel" He said.
"I'm gonna take a nap now. Will you be here when I wake up?"
"Of course I will baby."
Max closed her eyes. Logan knew that she was still alive and just sleeping but for how long? He asked himself.
'Please get better Max' He held her sleeping body for dear life and did the only thing he could. He hoped.
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Ok, This was a little longer 'I think ;)'
Anyway, please review and tell me if you want me to continue. This is not the end!!
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Logan heard the scream followed by a thump.
"MAX?" He ran all the way to their room and found her lying on the floor. The bed sheets were covered with blood and so where her clothes.
'Oh my God! This can't be happening' He told himself while he called for an ambulance.
'Breathe Logan, just breathe'
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Logan sat on one of the hospital's hard uncomfortable chairs and held Max's hand. His eyes were welling up with tears. 'If only I had called the doctor sooner this wouldn't have happened' He told himself.
But the damage was already done, he just hoped that Max would forgive him for his negligence.
He knew what she would say. She would tell him that it was her fault, that she should've gone to the doctor's sooner but he knew the truth. She was his responsibility, he was supposed to watch her back, to take care of her and their baby and he had failed.
'Original Cindy is going to kick my ass' He told himself. The thought of having his ass kicked was appealing for the first time in his life.
"Mr. Cale?" A doctor asked.
"Yeah?"
"Could I talk to you for a second?" The doctor's voice was warm and calmed but Logan knew he had bad news, over the years he had learned to read people's expressions.
Logan stood up and followed the doctor.
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Max opened her eyes slowly and carefully. She checked her surroundings before moving an inch. 'Old habits dye hard' She told herself. The room was painfully white, there was a TV and a couple of hard plastic chairs. She looked around for Logan but couldn't see him anywhere.
'That's odd' she thought. It was until then that she realized that the pain on her back was still there and then she remembered what had landed her in the hospital on the first place.
'Oh my God is the baby ok?' She was now desperately looking for someone that could tell her what was going on. Had she lost the baby? She was pretty shure she had, she couldn't feel the soft kicks anymore and it had always seemed like the baby had more energy than her and Logan put together.
She tried to get out of bed but couldn't find the strength to do so. That was when she saw Logan. He was standing outside talking to some doctor. His body looked tense and she could tell he was trying to pay attention to what the doctor was saying. She considered listening to the conversation, due to her genetics she knew she could hear them perfectly clearly if she wanted to but she decided against it.
She hated doctors and hospitals, she hated the medical talk and the complicated terms so she decided to search Logan's face for information instead.
She wanted more than anything to see him smile with relief, she wanted to see his body relax and his breath returning to normal but instead she saw the one thing she did not wanted to see.
His body tensed even more and he clenched his jaw. His eyes became red and puffy and she could tell that he was holding back tears.
'Oh who am I kidding? I have to hear this for myself' She said and concentrated on hearing the conversation going on just outside her room.
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Logan fought back the tears.
"Exactly what are you saying?" He asked the doctor.
"Well, your wife's body is simply not ready to have this baby. You told me that she can hardly keep anything down but anything that does make it to her bloodstream is being given to the baby. Apparently it..."
"She" Logan interrupted.
"Excuse me?"
"The baby, she's a girl not a thing." Logan said absently.
"Ok, she has been taking every nutrient from your wife. Now normally a natural abortion should have occurred a long time ago but for some reason her body won't get rid of the baby."
Logan shut his eyes closed. 'It must have something to do with her messed up DNA, some need that her body has to protect the offspring.'
The doctor was still talking.
"You see, we can't take the baby out of her body yet, performing a cesarean now would kill the baby for shure and considering how weak your wife is, her chances of surviving the operation are 35/100."
The tears ran freely down Logan's cheeks now.
"Now we have two options. We could keep your wife here for another week and then perform the cesarean. That would increase your daughter's probabilities from zero to 70%. Mrs. Cale, however, probably won't make it. She would be most likely on a coma by that time and she probably wouldn't wake up."
A sob escaped Logan's throat. "What is the other option?" He asked.
"An abortion"
"NO!" Max yelled from her bed. 'Oh shit! She woke up!" Logan opened the door and ran inside.
"How did you...?" The doctor started to ask but it was obvious that no one was listening.
"Max, sweety it's the only way!" Logan tried to convince her. "We can try again later baby..."
"NO Logan, I'm not having an abortion! I want to give our daughter a chance at life!"
"But Max, what if something happened? I can't raise a child on my own!"
"Yes you can and you will if you have to. I've made up my mind and I'm not asking for your approval, I'm asking for your blessing."
Logan's sobs increased. Max moved the sheets aside and Logan crawled into the bed with her. He rested his head on her chest and she stroked his hair, her own tears wetting the pillow.
"I don't want you to leave me." Logan whispered.
"I know baby, I know"
The doctor left, he knew they wanted to be alone for a while.
"I need you to promise me something." Max said.
"What?"
"I need you to promise me that you will take care of our child and that you won't let her forget me."
"Oh Max I..."
Max covered his mouth with her hand.
"Just promise"
Logan knew that she needed to hear him promise so he did.
"I promise"
Max closed her eyes
"Also, promise me that you will try to move on"
"MAX! Baby, I promised that I would take care of our child but please don't ask me to make a promise that I won't be able to keep."
Max held him closer to her chest. She could feel herself getting weaker.
"I love you Logan"
"I love you too my dark angel" He said.
"I'm gonna take a nap now. Will you be here when I wake up?"
"Of course I will baby."
Max closed her eyes. Logan knew that she was still alive and just sleeping but for how long? He asked himself.
'Please get better Max' He held her sleeping body for dear life and did the only thing he could. He hoped.
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Ok, This was a little longer 'I think ;)'
Anyway, please review and tell me if you want me to continue. This is not the end!!