This was made long ago
This was made long ago, but I had the chance to finish it yesterday. Hope you
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Spoiler: none
Warnings: shonen-ai
Pairing: Ranken (need to ask? ^_^)
Disclaimer: Weiß doesn't belong to me
Note:
'blah' = the DJ voice on the radio; '-blah-' = Ran/Ken voice in the radio
Midnight Wave
Kisaragi Yuu
He opened his eyes in the middle of the night, with tears
already in his eyes and words already on his lips. But nonetheless, no sound or
voice came out from his already parted lips. He looked at his hands, the hands
that no matter how he washed them, always be sinful. The hands that already took too
much one's life. The hands that never would be innocent anymore.
Sighing in despair, he stood up, making an exit from his
slumber. He looked at the clock, it's 3 AM in the morning. He knew that he
must be sleeping, or at least try to sleep again, making an escape to his dream
realm. But he couldn't. Somehow, he just couldn't.
He turned on his radio, in hope to find a radio station
that still on air in 3 AM. After tuning for some time, he found a station.
'Yes stay tune with us, the Midnight Wave, you guys that
haven't or couldn't get to sleep, we will make your night brighter and maybe
after that, you can go to la-la land of your choice ne?'
Satisfied on the station, he kept his radio that way and
laid on his bed, listening to the DJ.
'Next we will be receiving call of request. Do call us
now and request a song that might make you go sleep! Oh, here is the requester!
Konnichiwa, cool guy, tell us your name onegai?'
'-Uh...my name is Hidaka Ken...-'
The redhead who just laid on his warm white seethed bed
rose up and listened more carefully. Ken? Ken was still up? In 3 AM in the
morning? Why...
'Hellow Hidaka-san! So tell us why you're still up in
the middle of the night?'
'-I couldn't get to sleep...thinking about
something...-'
'Something eh? And is there any chance that you can share
it with us?'
'-It's a long story really...-'
'We have all night Hidaka-san, don't hesitate! Take
your time! Tell us from the start and maybe if you share enough, all the heavy
things on your shoulder can be lifted up.'
'-...Well if you say so... *ahem* actually I was thinking
about love...-'
'Oh, tough one. You're in love with somebody?'
'-Now that's the problem, I don't know whether this
is love or not-'
Ran sat on his bed, looking at the thing with no soul named
his radio and the voice that full of life that came from the two speakers on it.
'So you're not assured with yourself…actually you
should wait for the *time* to come. When it's the time, you will know whether
you really love this person or not. Yeah sometimes it's really irritating but
if you really love this person, eventhough that she doesn't love you, you will
not be so broken-hearted. As you already being true to yourself. Get what I
mean?'
***
'Get what I mean?'
Ken bit his lips. But what if this person was a 'he'?
And until the *time* to come, there's no guarantee that he's still alive right?
His enemy of Weiß, anytime and anywhere could murder him. He didn't know
whether he could still see the next morning sun. And every lifetime for him was precious.
Couldn't tell the real problem of his, Ken said yes to
the DJ and thanked him.
'So Hidaka-san, don't close the call yet! We will see
whether there's anyone who wants to comment on your problem ne? Hmm...oh!
Hidaka-san, you are popular! We got a caller now. So, what's your name?'
'-Fujimiya Ran-'
Ken startled. His redhead leader? Yeah that deep and calm
voice was his but... he's still awake in this time?
Why...
'Welcome to the show Fujimiya-san! Anything you want to
tell Hidaka-san here about his love problem?'
'-Yes, thank you. Hidaka-san, I know about you a lot more
than other people do, because I was in your condition. To tell you the truth,
until now I still stuck in this, falling in love with somebody but I don't
really know nor assured about my own feelings. Sometimes when I asked myself
why, I came to the conclusion that it's not that I don't know, but I prefer
to not to know. Because I know that sooner or later I will have to split up with
this person and I'm afraid of getting hurt. But then... love is a gamble.
Without putting all your money in there, you will never win. Getting hurt sure
not a nice feeling to live with, but it's one of the lesson that must be
experienced in life to be a better person-'
Ken listened to the voice. Somehow, he felt that all things
that came out from Ran's lips are true. Actually it's not that he didn't
know about his own feeling, but he *chose* not to know. And somehow again, he
lied to himself, letting the theory of he being an unsured person came up and
swallowed him more. For his fragile heart, it's easier to be a liar than to be
a broken-hearted victim.
But of course he couldn't keep it this way forever. The
truth will reveals itself sometimes later, waiting for the *time* to come.
And the *time* for Ken came up in this very own night. The
night where Ran spoke more words more than in the usual days.
'That's kinda deep, Fujimiya-san. But it's well done!
Thank you Fujimiya-san, you can close your call now. Hidaka-san, we hope we
lessen your weights now. Any request for your friends?'
***
'Any request for your friends?'
He closed the call, letting a small breathe came out slowly
from his parted lips. He didn't know what's gotten into him, but when he
heard the tone of his friend's voice, he could tell that Ken's not being
fully true. He's trying to get an escape from the heavy life that they were having. And there's no way for the DJ to be really helpful as the DJ
had
no idea what kind of world they were living at.
And when he realized it, his hands were already picking up
the phone and dialed the Midnight Wave's number.
Well at least he tried to help Ken. Yes, the little kindness
that he did was not enough to pay for what he had done with the uncountable
amount of people out there, but... for Ran, Ken's happiness worth a billion
times larger than his already dead victims. Ran smiled at himself.
'-Umm...yes please, I like to request this song for Omi
and Yohji, although I'm not sure that they are still awake in this time... and
also I like to thank Fujimiya-san for giving such a nice solution of life, so I
also request this song for him-'
'Sure! I believe that Fujimiya-san is still listening
now! So, what song do you like to request?'
'-Private Emotion by Ricky Martin and Meja?-'
'Ooh, nice song! Okay we will play it now, thanks for
calling, have a good night! So as Hidaka-san's request, let's play this slow
love song and try to get asleep ne? Stay tune with us, after this, we'll be
accepting calls again. Here it is, Private Emotion by Ricky Martin and Meja.'
The call ended. Ran never heard of this song before, as he
barely even listened to music, but since it's requested for him and the
requester was also someone special for him... he chose to try it out.
The music started to play.
***
Every endless night has a dawning day
Every darkest day has sky has a
shining ray
He closed the phone. Listening to the song that started
to be sung, he let himself fell on the bed with one hand covering his eyes. All
he can thought about was Ran and what he said.
And it shines on you baby can't you see
You're the only one who can
shine for me
/Yeah true, the only one who can shine for me is only
Ran... but... this feeling, can I still have it? Do I deserve it...?/
It's a private emotion that fills you tonight
/Yes indeed... a private emotion.../
And a silence falls between us
As the shadows steal the light
But he knew that, eventhough that he didn't deserve
happiness with Ran, there's limit to his common sense. Since he's a very
honest person, for him, the matter of this couldn't being ignored. Still,
there's a feeling of fright in his heart.
And wherever you may find it
Wherever it may lead
Ken rose up from his bed, head still feeling a little dizzy
but he didn't care. His feeling for Ran burst out from his control, and Ken
learnt his lesson too good as his feet forced him to stand and walked to his leader's room. So he
did, and without a fight either.
***
He laid on his bed with his legs tugged out from the small
but comfy bed. He stared at the ceiling with the music kept playing.
/Of only Ken would come here and say that he loves me... I
wouldn't be doubted anymore/
Let your private emotion come to me
The door knocked. Ran widened his eyes.
/No it couldn't be.../
"...Ran? Are you still awake...?"
It's him.
Come to me...
***
He knocked to the door again. There's still no reply from
the inside and Ken started to feel dejected.
"Ran I know you're there, please open the door, I need
to talk with you."
Waiting for a reply that he didn't get, he grew tired.
And when he wanted to just turn around and leave, the door slowly opened.
"...Ken...?"
"Ran! You need 15 minutes to walk to the door? What a
fast man you are!" Ken joked, making the leader to curve his smile a bit and
bowed a small apologize. He let Ken in.
"Have a seat."
Ken sat on the nearby seat to the bed. The lights were off
though, and it kinda make Ken to feel more comfortable in the dark as if he
blush or cry then Ran wouldn't see him thoroughly.
When your soul is tired and your heart is weak
Do you think of love as
a one way street?
"So, what do you want to talk about?" Ran's husky
voice sunk in Ken's mind. Oh yeah, the confession, he forgot about it. And
when he remembered, he grew nervous.
/God don't do this to me now...help me in this,
please.../
"Umm... Ran, are you..."
Ran's violet gaze looked up at the brunette who clenched
his fists to stop himself from hugging Ran and kiss him lustfully. Ran's
crimson threads fell gently onto his forehead, making Ken to gulp and couldn't
think straight as the beautiful creature in front of him looked with his violet deep eyes.
/Damnitdamnitdamnitdamnit!!!!!/
"Ran..."
Well it runs both ways, open up your eyes
Can't you see me here, how
can you deny
/Aaaaaaaah~ don't look at me like that, dammit!! I
can't speak when I'm nervous!! Agh... HECK WITH IT!!/
He hugged Ran tightly, making the older figure to gasp and
widened his eyes.
***
"Ran, this song... represents my feelings for you..."
He whispered the words so close to Ran's ear that it made
him to shiver a bit. He didn't expect this even a least. Ken came to his room
in the middle of the night, sat so closely to him, sending him a request of love
song, and now... even a confession? Ran gasped, couldn't believe such
blessings can come to him, the sinful one. Maybe Heaven was being a really good
divine source today.
It's a private emotion that fills you tonight
And a silence falls between
us
"...Ken...? What do you mean...?"
As the shadows steal the light
"...I mean..."
And wherever you may find it
Wherever it may lead
The brunette positioned himself to his leader, gently
brushing the redhead's crimson threads off his forehead. He moved closer to
the once icicle man, and when their lips are just 2 cm away...
Let your private emotion come to me
...he kissed him.
Come to me...
Ran widened his eyes. Ken? The soccer player brunette who
loves children and the one that he always dreamt about every single night was
*kissing* him?? He, the sinful one who deserved no love or happiness... why,
Heaven, why?
Although his common sense kept telling him that this was not
right, this was not true, this was too good to be true, but his love feeling for Ken
couldn't stand the brunette's kiss which was so passionate, so gentle, so
soft... just pure heavenly. His body betrayed him, replying for Ken's kiss and
kissed him back gently, making the brunette to shiver but keep kissing.
After a minute of pure passion, Ran let go of Ken gently,
staring at those two chocolate orbs lovingly. He smiled.
"...mind on explaining what the hell was *that*?"
***
"...mind on explaining what the hell was *that*?"
The younger lad widened his eyes at the smiling redhead and
soon realized what just happened. He blushed as the realization knocked him
hard.
/What the... I just *kissed* Fujimiya Ran?! Oh Kami-sama!!!
Why could I be so much of a baka! Oh my God, what should I do now?? What the
*hell* should I do now???/
He looked away from the older man when suddenly, warm
pair of hands touched his flushing cheeks and forced Ken to look at the violet
eyed man.
"Why, may I ask, did you kiss me?"
"...mere insanity...?"
"Yeah right," he chuckled, embracing the younger one on
his arms, "Do you expect me to believe that crap?"
"Actually...not really."
"Then you know me too well."
The two young lads looked at each other or awhile, gazing
and being dragged by the deepness of love inside their own hearts, swallowing
and being swallowed by each other lust of love.
That night was full of passionate caress and love...
And both of them didn't mind at all if they have to re-do
it all over again.
Forever.
~Owari^^ (Comments onegai?? *bows*)