Quatre looked hard on the
crackling fire. He didn't talk, he didn't move, he just sat there silently.
Heero, knowing nothing else to do, just sat and watch Quatre's form as the glow
of the flame danced around in his features.
Quatre then closed his
eyes and inhaled deep and sighed as he leaned back on the tree. Heero was then
caught off-guard when the blonde Arab suddenly faced him and smiled. Not the
smile that made him stop a while ago, but the smile that said that everything
would be alright. "Go sleep, Heero. I'll stay up and watch for the night."
Quatre said softly, still smiling kindly at Heero.
Heero was confused. He
knew that Quatre was angry, real angry a while ago, but then Quatre was smiling
at him now. He wondered how Quatre could change mood that fast. He looked hard
on Quatre to find anything strange, but there wasn't. Quatre was Quatre. He
didn't feel like sleeping at all. "You go ahead. It's my turn to stay on
the lookout."
Quatre just shook his head,
"You need to rest. I wasn't the one who nearly died. And I wasn't the one
who got shot twice. I think your clothes should be dry by now."
Heero didn't say a word,
but remained where he was.
"Heero...." Quatre
started with a sigh.
"You have to rest."
Heero said flatly.
"Aa...I'll rest."
Quatre smiled, "You just go sleep near the fire. You need the warmth, and
take the blankets with you."
"I am not sick. Use
the other blanket." Heero stood up and walked towards the fire. He changed
clothes and then lied down.
Quatre watched Heero sleep.
The other boy was alive, though wounded and must be very tired. Quatre smiled
faintly, but remained silent. He closed his eyes and rested his head on the
tree trunk. It was now time alone for him to think. He could never think when
someone was watching him. Looking back to what he did earlier, he killed his
own sister. So, that explained the
feeling he got after the whole jeep exploded. But the sad thing was, he never
felt sorry, even now. He really was a monster. He looked up at the stars and
smiled to himself. His mother was there first, then his father followed, and
now his sister was there as well. He looked at his hands, and curved three fingers
then pointed his index finger to his heart, then he said softly, "Bang."
Heero watched Quatre, his
eyes half closed. Quatre just sat there and looking up, and then he made a gesture
with his hand, and pointed it at his heart. He said something, but the
supposed to be sleeping boy didn't hear. It was hard to look from half closed
eyes, but something made him watch. He couldn't sleep. He could pretend, though.
Quatre smiled darkly after
saying 'bang'. **Oh..well...I should rest...that's what they wanted anyway....**
He took the gun and looked at how many bullets it had. Then he opened his mouth
slowly, and pushed the gun inside, as he closed his eyes.
Heero sat up immediately
when Quatre inserted the gun inside his mouth. He ran, wincing from the pain
in his thigh, but he ran towards Quatre. He pulled the gun away from Quatre's
grasp and punched the other boy.
Quatre narrowed his eyes
when Heero punched him, and so he kneed the Japanese boy in the gut. He tried
to get the gun again but Heero pushed him hard on the ground, yet the blonde
Arab remained standing.
"What is wrong with
you?" Heero growled.
"Give me the gun."
Quatre stood tall and walked slowly towards Heero.
Heero narrowed his eyes
and raised the gun at Quatre.
"Be done with it.
It's your mission." Quatre said coldly.
Heero fired the gun.
Quatre didn't blink when
all 5 bullets whisked by him, inches away from his face.
Heero then threw the gun
at Quatre, which was caught. Then Quatre threw it away and looked darkly at
Heero, "Are you mocking me?"
"You asked for the
gun. I gave it to you." Heero replied.
Quatre narrowed his eye
further and clenched his fists. Then he stalked off towards the fire where his
shirt and vest was. He wore it, and didn't bother to button it.He just left
the clearing.
Heero held Quatre's arm
before the blonde one could leave the clearing. "Quatre..."
Quatre's face was turning
black and blue to the place where Heero punched him. "Let go."
Heero wasn't looking at
Quatre but he just tightened his hold on the other's arm. Quatre pulled his
arm away from Heero but the Japanese boy didn't let go. He looked at Quatre
in the eye and said, "You saved me....I won't let you die."
Quatre remained silent.
"I won't let you die."
Heero repeated, "That was why I took your mission in the first place."
He then looked at Quatre who didn't look back.
Quatre was visibly shaking,
and when Heero held his shoulders, Quatre lashed out and pushed the other
boy away from him. "Leave me alone! Just like the way everyone did! I don't
need people like you and no one needs me. No one would look for me if I left.
It's what you all wanted, ne? The scientists, everybody." No one needed
him. So he would give what they wanted, he would just leave and let someone
else take over. Quatre started to run to the middle of the forest.
"Damn." Heero
followed Quatre in a dead run. His thighs were killing him. The wounds haven't
completely healed yet but he had to reach Quatre. The war messed Quatre up,
the people he tried to protect killed his father, and now he also killed his
sister. The war would have to stop. **Damn war for what they did to Quatre.**
Quatre ran, but didn't
know where he was going. He just had to run. He felt that he had been running
all his life and he should face the problem now. He tried to face it, and when
he did, they wanted him dead. **Let them have what they want! Then all of this
would be over.** He ran faster until he saw the cliff. He doubled his speed
and went straight for the cliff.
"Quatre!!" Heero
saw the cliff and ran faster. **Quatre can't die** Quatre gave him life, Quatre
taught him to value life, what would he do without Quatre? So, Quatre could
not possibly die. **He will not die if I can help it!**
Quatre wasn't listening.
Actually, death felt so inviting. He would be with his father, mother, and even
the sister that he killed. He would be away from the war. No wonder Heero felt
like dying most of the time. Now he understood why Heero so wanted to die. He
just ran and prepared to jump straight to the cliff. He leaped in the air and
closed his eyes as he allowed himself to fall into darkness.
"QUATRE!!" Heero
saw Quatre leap in the air and start to fall down the cliff. He also jumped
and reached for Quatre. He held on to him as they fell. Heero used his good
arm to hold on to anything, rock, branch, anything to break their fall.
When Heero managed to pull
both of them up again the cliff, Quatre stirred. When Quatre sat up, Heero hissed
and growled. He raised his fist in the air and prepared to hit some sense in
Quatre's head, but the blonde didn't flinch. "A life for a life. Your debt
is paid, you can leave now Heero. Let me be."
Heero slammed his fist
hard on the ground. He was breathing hard. Couldn't Quatre understand that he
needed him?
Quatre stood up and walked
towards the cliff again and Heero immediately followed and stopped Quatre.
Quatre shook his head and
said, "I will not jump. Not today." He then looked down on the cliff
where he was supposed to be if it weren't for Heero, "Maybe next time when
you're nowhere near." He looked at the other boy and found him staring
to a very scared child. He blinked in surprise at the look of fear, anger and
relief in Heero's eyes. He always thought that those cobalt blue orbs would
always look cold and uncaring, but if anyone looked closer, they'd see it.
Heero's heart.
Heero couldn't believe
it. Quatre tried to kill himself, not once but twice. And those two tries were
too close. If he didn't choose to stay awake at that time what would've happened?
If he didn't jump the cliff and followed Quatre what would've happened? If Quatre
died, he would lose his friend, a friend that meant a lot to him. **More than
life itself.** His heart was still beating too fast from the gun incident, the
run and the cliff and also from something else. His heart ached for some reason,
too many emotions flooding him and he couldn't handle it. It was strangling
him, but how to let it go? He couldn't understand.
Quatre touched Heero's
shoulders and shook him a little, "Heero?" The other didn't move for
quite some time now, just stare at him. "Heero? Are you okay?"
Heero blinked at Quatre's
soft shaking. He looked at Quatre and replied, "Then I'd always be near."
He then pulled Quatre close to him in an embrace. Quatre
was shocked to say the least. **Then I'd always be....near?** And he was pulled
in an embrace, by Heero? Who wouldn't be surprised. "Heero...wha...."
"You'll never jump...."
Heero tightened his embrace to Quatre, "..because I'll always be near to
stop you and carry you back up if you choose to fall."
Quatre understood, and
he smiled serenely. He buried himself deeper in the embrace and nuzzled his
nose in Heero's neck. He embraced Heero and whispered in his ear, "Arigatou...for
being here....arigatou.....for caring....arigatou...."
Heero looked at Quatre,
and for the rarest opportunity, allowed himself to smile at Quatre. "Hai....I'll
always be near."
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Owari (?)
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*nod* Owari! *grin*...anyway...we
never know what happened next...it's up to you to think.
Arigatou for reading!!!!
I hope you liked this one...*crosses fingers* C&Cs are very very welcome....what
do you think about the ending? Is it...too...mushy?