Blind Anger by Michiru Cugami **Notes/Warnings**

I don't think I have any warnings for this.....but...well..I'm not sure if they were OOC or IC...you be the judge of that one...^^ So...what else?..hmm...yaoi.*grin*

disclaimers apply......^^

Blind Anger 3

Quatre looked hard on the crackling fire. He didn't talk, he didn't move, he just sat there silently. Heero, knowing nothing else to do, just sat and watch Quatre's form as the glow of the flame danced around in his features.

Quatre then closed his eyes and inhaled deep and sighed as he leaned back on the tree. Heero was then caught off-guard when the blonde Arab suddenly faced him and smiled. Not the smile that made him stop a while ago, but the smile that said that everything would be alright. "Go sleep, Heero. I'll stay up and watch for the night." Quatre said softly, still smiling kindly at Heero.

Heero was confused. He knew that Quatre was angry, real angry a while ago, but then Quatre was smiling at him now. He wondered how Quatre could change mood that fast. He looked hard on Quatre to find anything strange, but there wasn't. Quatre was Quatre. He didn't feel like sleeping at all. "You go ahead. It's my turn to stay on the lookout."

Quatre just shook his head, "You need to rest. I wasn't the one who nearly died. And I wasn't the one who got shot twice. I think your clothes should be dry by now."

Heero didn't say a word, but remained where he was.

"Heero...." Quatre started with a sigh.

"You have to rest." Heero said flatly.

"Aa...I'll rest." Quatre smiled, "You just go sleep near the fire. You need the warmth, and take the blankets with you."

"I am not sick. Use the other blanket." Heero stood up and walked towards the fire. He changed clothes and then lied down.

Quatre watched Heero sleep. The other boy was alive, though wounded and must be very tired. Quatre smiled faintly, but remained silent. He closed his eyes and rested his head on the tree trunk. It was now time alone for him to think. He could never think when someone was watching him. Looking back to what he did earlier, he killed his own sister. So, that explained the
feeling he got after the whole jeep exploded. But the sad thing was, he never felt sorry, even now. He really was a monster. He looked up at the stars and smiled to himself. His mother was there first, then his father followed, and now his sister was there as well. He looked at his hands, and curved three fingers then pointed his index finger to his heart, then he said softly, "Bang."

Heero watched Quatre, his eyes half closed. Quatre just sat there and looking up, and then he made a gesture with his hand, and pointed it at his heart. He said something, but the supposed to be sleeping boy didn't hear. It was hard to look from half closed eyes, but something made him watch. He couldn't sleep. He could pretend, though.

Quatre smiled darkly after saying 'bang'. **Oh..well...I should rest...that's what they wanted anyway....** He took the gun and looked at how many bullets it had. Then he opened his mouth slowly, and pushed the gun inside, as he closed his eyes.

Heero sat up immediately when Quatre inserted the gun inside his mouth. He ran, wincing from the pain in his thigh, but he ran towards Quatre. He pulled the gun away from Quatre's grasp and punched the other boy.

Quatre narrowed his eyes when Heero punched him, and so he kneed the Japanese boy in the gut. He tried to get the gun again but Heero pushed him hard on the ground, yet the blonde Arab remained standing.

"What is wrong with you?" Heero growled.

"Give me the gun." Quatre stood tall and walked slowly towards Heero.

Heero narrowed his eyes and raised the gun at Quatre.

"Be done with it. It's your mission." Quatre said coldly.

Heero fired the gun.

Quatre didn't blink when all 5 bullets whisked by him, inches away from his face.

Heero then threw the gun at Quatre, which was caught. Then Quatre threw it away and looked darkly at Heero, "Are you mocking me?"

"You asked for the gun. I gave it to you." Heero replied.

Quatre narrowed his eye further and clenched his fists. Then he stalked off towards the fire where his shirt and vest was. He wore it, and didn't bother to button it.He just left the clearing.

Heero held Quatre's arm before the blonde one could leave the clearing. "Quatre..."

Quatre's face was turning black and blue to the place where Heero punched him. "Let go."

Heero wasn't looking at Quatre but he just tightened his hold on the other's arm. Quatre pulled his arm away from Heero but the Japanese boy didn't let go. He looked at Quatre in the eye and said, "You saved me....I won't let you die."

Quatre remained silent.

"I won't let you die." Heero repeated, "That was why I took your mission in the first place." He then looked at Quatre who didn't look back.

Quatre was visibly shaking, and when Heero held his shoulders, Quatre lashed out and pushed the other boy away from him. "Leave me alone! Just like the way everyone did! I don't need people like you and no one needs me. No one would look for me if I left. It's what you all wanted, ne? The scientists, everybody." No one needed him. So he would give what they wanted, he would just leave and let someone else take over. Quatre started to run to the middle of the forest.

"Damn." Heero followed Quatre in a dead run. His thighs were killing him. The wounds haven't completely healed yet but he had to reach Quatre. The war messed Quatre up, the people he tried to protect killed his father, and now he also killed his sister. The war would have to stop. **Damn war for what they did to Quatre.**

Quatre ran, but didn't know where he was going. He just had to run. He felt that he had been running all his life and he should face the problem now. He tried to face it, and when he did, they wanted him dead. **Let them have what they want! Then all of this would be over.** He ran faster until he saw the cliff. He doubled his speed and went straight for the cliff.

"Quatre!!" Heero saw the cliff and ran faster. **Quatre can't die** Quatre gave him life, Quatre taught him to value life, what would he do without Quatre? So, Quatre could not possibly die. **He will not die if I can help it!**

Quatre wasn't listening. Actually, death felt so inviting. He would be with his father, mother, and even the sister that he killed. He would be away from the war. No wonder Heero felt like dying most of the time. Now he understood why Heero so wanted to die. He just ran and prepared to jump straight to the cliff. He leaped in the air and closed his eyes as he allowed himself to fall into darkness.

"QUATRE!!" Heero saw Quatre leap in the air and start to fall down the cliff. He also jumped and reached for Quatre. He held on to him as they fell. Heero used his good arm to hold on to anything, rock, branch, anything to break their fall.

When Heero managed to pull both of them up again the cliff, Quatre stirred. When Quatre sat up, Heero hissed and growled. He raised his fist in the air and prepared to hit some sense in Quatre's head, but the blonde didn't flinch. "A life for a life. Your debt is paid, you can leave now Heero. Let me be."

Heero slammed his fist hard on the ground. He was breathing hard. Couldn't Quatre understand that he needed him?

Quatre stood up and walked towards the cliff again and Heero immediately followed and stopped Quatre.

Quatre shook his head and said, "I will not jump. Not today." He then looked down on the cliff where he was supposed to be if it weren't for Heero, "Maybe next time when you're nowhere near." He looked at the other boy and found him staring to a very scared child. He blinked in surprise at the look of fear, anger and relief in Heero's eyes. He always thought that those cobalt blue orbs would always look cold and uncaring, but if anyone looked closer, they'd see it.

Heero's heart.

Heero couldn't believe it. Quatre tried to kill himself, not once but twice. And those two tries were too close. If he didn't choose to stay awake at that time what would've happened? If he didn't jump the cliff and followed Quatre what would've happened? If Quatre died, he would lose his friend, a friend that meant a lot to him. **More than life itself.** His heart was still beating too fast from the gun incident, the run and the cliff and also from something else. His heart ached for some reason, too many emotions flooding him and he couldn't handle it. It was strangling him, but how to let it go? He couldn't understand.

Quatre touched Heero's shoulders and shook him a little, "Heero?" The other didn't move for quite some time now, just stare at him. "Heero? Are you okay?"

Heero blinked at Quatre's soft shaking. He looked at Quatre and replied, "Then I'd always be near." He then pulled Quatre close to him in an embrace. Quatre was shocked to say the least. **Then I'd always be....near?** And he was pulled in an embrace, by Heero? Who wouldn't be surprised. "Heero...wha...."

"You'll never jump...." Heero tightened his embrace to Quatre, "..because I'll always be near to stop you and carry you back up if you choose to fall."

Quatre understood, and he smiled serenely. He buried himself deeper in the embrace and nuzzled his nose in Heero's neck. He embraced Heero and whispered in his ear, "Arigatou...for being here....arigatou.....for caring....arigatou...."

Heero looked at Quatre, and for the rarest opportunity, allowed himself to smile at Quatre. "Hai....I'll always be near."

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Owari (?)
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*nod* Owari! *grin*...anyway...we never know what happened next...it's up to you to think.

Arigatou for reading!!!! I hope you liked this one...*crosses fingers* C&Cs are very very welcome....what do you think about the ending? Is it...too...mushy?