Diaries of the Cardcaptors
Disclaimer: All CCS characters belong to CLAMP. I own nothing but this idea of a fic.
A/N: Technically, Meilin isn't a Cardcaptors but I'm putting her diary in anyway because it'll make this story interesting! These have no dates, they're kinda random in a way but they should be in order. Except about the cards. They screwed up big on the episode order here so it's kinda jumping around ^^;; sorry! And this is…S+M and S+S, okiez? You'll understand it later on. This kinda starts at when Li Syaoron leaves for Japan.
Dear Diary,
I have written in a diary for years but this is a new book. And this book will be different. I may not have magic but I can sense that things will change soon. Something will happen that will not work well in my honor. Something that I hope I am just imagining. But I have felt this kind of premonition before. Except that time, it had been something good for me. I am afraid that may leave me forever.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
I felt it today. I knew something was wrong. Syaoron walked into my room today and I knew it was then. He's going to leave. For Japan. I'm not too worried about him getting hurt. He is too good but something might take him away from me. I just know it.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
Syaoron started to pack today. He seemed so calm about it. So emotionless. Wasn't he going to miss me? Why wasn't he coming to comfort me and tell me he'll come back soon? Everytime I tried to talk to him, something would interrupt us and then we would not be able to carry on our conversations. He's leaving in a few days and still, he hasn't spoken to me. We're are engaged. We were meant to be. Why was he acting this way?
Meilin
Dear Diary,
He left today. And all he did was hand me a letter and gave me a nod. Something's already changing him. He would have at least given me a hug before. I think I will read his letter now.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
He said he loved me! I know I shouldn't be so excited about it. I can still feel that shadow looming over our relationship. But he loved me! And if he truly loved me, we would last forever…right?
Meilin
Dear Diary,
It happened today. Syaoron and I had some kind of connection and it started to weaken. It was trying to take him away. I know. I must go and get him. It's the only way.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
I am now currently on a flight to Japan. They had granted my wish to go there, even though I felt that they hadn't believed a word I said. But I was the fiancée of the future clan leader. They would have to listen. Each day that goes by, my connection with Syaoron seems to weaken and I'm afraid it will break if I don't get there sooner. Why won't this plane go faster?
Meilin
Dear Diary,
I have arrived. Wei met me at the airport but I had not noticed Syaoron. Wei must have noticed my searching looks, he told me Syaoron was busy. But I knew he was with it. The one who will break our connection. I had to get rid of it. To save us.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
That it turned out to be a her. I knew she was luring Syaoron into some trap. Syaoron loved me, he couldn't have feelings for another. Syaoron had put up a lot of pride. I had tried to get back Syaoron's attentions but he had resisted. Why? He never did. All he could do was stare at her. What is wrong with him?
Meilin
Dear Diary,
She has Syaoron deeper and deeper into her trap. I don't care that she's a Cardcaptor. She may have magic and was a better gymnast but I was no match for her in fighting skill. I had tried to help Syaoron capture the card but somehow I felt like I was in his way. He was even starting to ignore me. What happened to the Li Syaoron I used to know?
Meilin
Dear Diary,
The love Syaoron had for me…is no more. Whatever that little Cardcaptor did on my Syaoron had worked. I was called back to Hong Kong and Syaoron wasn't even the slightest bit sad. He even said that I shouldn't have come. I was just in his way. Suddenly, she started being nice to me. She makes me suspicious.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
I could be wrong, but maybe, just maybe, Syaoron still feels something for me. I was the only one who could help him tonight and we defeated the card together. He even apologized for saying what he did. And that little Cardcaptor? She might not be so bad after all…
Meilin
Dear Diary,
I take back everything I say about our little Cardcaptor. She acted all high and mighty just because she could skate a little better than I did. She doesn't know anything yet. I signed up for skating lessons, along with Syaoron.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
I've been rethinking what I've said and maybe she is what she seems to be. Syaoron is really the one who has fell for her. She didn't try anything. She never did. I have been so wrong about everything. It wasn't her fault. It was Syaoron's.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
My life is over. Syaoron does love that Cardcaptor! He admitted it himself. He even told me he was going to try to dissolve our engagement. He is sacrificing everything he had to be with his love. What did she have that I don't?
Meilin
Dear Diary,
It is final. They agreed to dissolve the engagement. Syaoron had run off to tell his little Ying Fa about the news. It's not fair! Syaoron was mine!
Meilin
Dear Diary,
After my anger faded, depression took its toll. I thought I would be locked in the dark mist forever. But he came to get me. He saved me from myself. Something had changed inside me. This was different.
Meilin
Dear Diary,
He came for me again today. Only this time he didn't need to save me. I was already out of my shell. Thanks to him, I realize my feelings for Syaoron…was just a crush…
Meilin
Dear Diary,
After so much time spent in Japan, I am finally truly happy. I wish I could stay here forever. Just like Syaoron, I had found a reason for existence, a reason to stay and a reason to give up all I hold. I finally understand now. Love was truly something you could sacrifice everything on. I would give up my life, just for Tensoko.
Meilin
How'd you like that? Next chapter will be…Li Syaoron's Diary! And I finally own something! Tensoko is my character! Who hooo! Anyways, please r/r! For those of you who read Unsent Letters of Love, guess what? I'm making a sequel! Or a looooong continuation, okiez? Happy? Goodies! Thankies!
Kayla Takaida aka Hope's Faith
