Maybe

Maybe

Jessie was soon a respected member of the Bridge Bike gang in Sunny Town. She was called 'Big Jess', to be the opposite of Lil' Jim. Jessie had become the complete opposite of James, while she was away. Or maybe on the way to Sunny Town. Or maybe both. All maybes, all possibilities. Jessie didn't like to choose. She wanted the world to be shaped at what she wanted, instead of letting the world shape her.

'James?' Jessie began, as soon as she crawled in his tent. It was convenient that they had tents now, so that they didn't get rained wet. 'I...I have to tell you something.' She said simply, matter of factly. She still hadn't told him about everything, everything she had been hiding and lying about. Maybe James would forgive her if she told him now. It had to be done now, she thought, or else it will be too late. It's like in weddings. 'Everyone who objects to this marriage, let them speak now, or forever be silent. I don't want to be silent forever...

But then she saw James sleeping, his lips slightly parted and the stroke of lavender hair that was always in his face, moved slowly with the rhythm of his breathing. Her heartbeat got faster, as she watched him sleep.

Suddenly she couldn't stand the idea of James hating her, despising her because of her lies. She sighed in defeat, she had a change of heart in the last minutes at the final moment.

Then I have to be silent forever... Jessie thought, as she sadly zipped up the tent when she had crawled out.

She trained her Pokemon secretly, not letting the members of the gang see them.

In one battle, she nearly cried of joy when her Dratini, Surfy, evolved after a long time training. She stopped at the last second. Quiet Jessie! She thought to herself. You can't let them know of your secrets! She then hugged it, softly whispering 'You are you beautiful now! Even more then before. I love you very much, Surfy. Please keep quiet, okay?' She had told all of her Pokemon she had of her secrets. They where the one she could talk to, her secrets where safe with them. They couldn't object because she couldn't understand them, but as time and training passed, Jessie began to understand their body language, and later some of their words, and their intonation. She felt safe, as long as she had her Pokemon with her on her belt under her skirt.

To keep her 'though' appearance in the gang, she swayed a long iron chain above her head, while she rode on her given bike. Jessie was sure the bike she got was stolen, but she didn't object. A bike stolen wasn't that bad, she figured.

She was so happy that James was with her, that she had found him. James didn't seem too bothered about she leaving him at Pokemon Tech, but Jessie was afraid to bring it up. She made some new friends too, Tara, Chopper's boyfriend was her closest friend. Tara always wanted to talk about guys, and why Jessie didn't have a boyfriend. Jessie quickly brushed it off by telling her she just had a tough break-up after her. In a way, that was the case, but Rino hadn't been her boyfriend. Not exactly.

Jessie went back to her own tent. She picked up the Pokeballs of Flammie, Surfy, Seedy and Jiggly and covered them in a thick blanket. Thunder, who still refused to go in a Pokeball, lay in her sleeping bag, at the back end. She snuggled into the sleeping bag and tickled Thunder with her toes. Feeling safe now that Thunder was there, she tried to sleep. But then her thoughts drifted away to Rino, James and everything else again, as it always did.

Waking up, she didn't feel very refreshed. 'Oh my...' She sighed as she stretched her arms while she crawled out of her tent. James was already making breakfast for the entire gang. He always did that, and he was very good at making breakfast too. Jessie often ate too much of it, after which she slept in again. That was her actual sleep, not the sweaty nightmares who left her more tired than which she slept in. James often waited until she awoke then, Jessie waking up with James' face in her vision, his hair strangely matching the sky in which his face was portrayed in.

She always smiled. 'Thanks for waiting for me', and they where off to another day of bike riding, coming back late at night. Then the nightmares came again. Jessie was glad to be away the whole day, to keep her mind of her thoughts that came hunting her in a moment of nothing to do.

'James!' She yelled, as the police with their Growlithes and Spinaraks came after him, after he tried to steal a bike for another new member. She looked at him riding away fast on his bike with the cute training wheels. Jessie had grown to think that it was cute, but they slowed him down in all the races they had. The little wheels just couldn't keep up with the big ones. Now it was the same story, but this time, it was real. Besides, the Jennies all had motorcycles, and their Growlithes were trained to run as fast as they could and keep that up for a long time, while James didn't like to train on his bike. He preferred cooking and talking with everyone.

Jessie was too afraid to do more, like help James get away. What if they catch me? Jessie thought worried. What if they find out that my mother was a part of team Rocket, and that I was one for a brief moment too? I can't let them catch me...

Then an image of James flooded to her thoughts again.

But James! What would happen to James if I don't do anything! Oh, please, don't let them catch him. He's the only one I have left....

She didn't look at what happened to James, she just ran off. Ran off, like she had always done. Always on the run, always hiding for the world, for her thoughts and for her past. Jessie sighed.

I can't take anymore of this, she thought, as she heard that the sirenes of the agents had stopped.

That must mean that they have caught James. Oh, James, what will I do? Please help me with these decisions...