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Why am I Acting This Way?-part 4

Daisclaimer: I do not own digimon or anything digimon related
A/n: Well, it's finally up! Sorry it took so long. When We left off, Kari was anorexic, angry, haertbroken, and just palin nasty to her family. And it does get worse.
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June 23
Dear Diary,
Last year, I was at the mall with Becca. I would have been this year, too, but I'm grounded. Can you belive all this started with one lousy C on a math quiz? Life sucks. TK left for basketball camp today, I think. It just isn't fair! None of it! None! I wrote TK a letter, but I'll never be able to send it. This isn't the first time in my life that I have hated Saturdays.
I think I fainted again. While I was writing to TK, I guess because one moment I was writing, the next I was on the floor by my desk. It left a big mark on the letter, another reason not to send it.
I'm so hungry and so bored. I don't think that my family notices me gone. I only emerge to go to the bathroom, and fill my water bottles. I go through about six a day. I don't get hungry so much anymore, but I am very thirsty.
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Dear TK,
Hi, its me, Kari. How's your summer? Mine sucks. I'm grounded. But not for going to the dance with you! You see, my parents got upset over my grades, so they grounded me. And then I went to the dance with you, and they got madder. But it wasn't your fault. I'm sorry for not telling you, but I just couldn't.-----------------------------------------
I miss you!
Kari
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June 24
Dear Diary,
I can't wait until Sunday. Then Tai starts soccer practice, Dad goes to work, and Mom goes and does voulenteer work at the homeless shelter. I will be left in my room, which suits me just fine. I can talk on the phone-- no,wait, Becca is mad at me and TK's gone! Well, at least I'll be by myself.
Guess what? Tai made me eat a sandwitch today. I told him I wasn't hungry, but he made me eat it anyways. Then he gave me this lecture, and left. I pretended to listen, but I didn't. I'll eat breakfast tomorrow, wait until the house is empty, then throw up the food and work out. Maybe I'll even go for a jog in the park, as long as I saty clear of Tai.
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There was a knock on the door.
"Yes?"
"Kari, can I come in?"
"Sure."
Tai enterd the room and sat down on the bed, next to his sister.
"How're you?"
She glared at him.
"I guess that's rather obvious, huh?"
"You think?"
"Hey, I didn't want Mom and Dad to punish you, either, but...."
She was silent.
"When's the last time you ate, Kar?"
"What?"
"When did you last eat?"
"Yesterday."
"What did you eat?"
"A pear."
"That's not much."
"I wasn't hungry, Tai."
"Here," he said, holding out a peanut butter sandwich. "Eat it."
"No thanks, I'm not hungry."
"Eat it, Kari."
"No, Tai."
"Please, Kari, you're way too thin."
Resentfully she took the sandwich and ate it, slowly.
"Fell better?"
"Yeah," lied Kari.
"Good." He stood up to leave. "You know Kari, you really should eat more. I'm really worried about you. You might faint one day." He left.
'God!' she thought. 'He's going to make me fat!'
"Shit," she muttered, and lay back in her bed, moodier than usual.
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June 25
Dear Diary,
Well, I ate, waited, threw it up, and changed into my workout clothes. I did 67 push-ups, 100 sit-ups, some work out I saw on television, and took a 45-minute jog. I've lost 10 pounds. Not enough! I'm still fat and ugly! TK's lucky he left, he doesn;t have to look at my ugly face!
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"Bye Tai," said Mrs. Kamiya as she left. She didn't bother to aknowledge Kari.
Shortly after, Tai left. Kari was alone. The first thing she did was rush to the bathroom and throw up her cereal. Then she changed into her sweatsuit, and began her work out. She did push-ups and sit-ups until she couldn't move. Then she turned on the television and did a workout.
Then she slipped quietly out the door and down the stairs and out the building. She ran to the park, rested, then ran on the path, then back. Running gave her time to think. She was angry at her parents, and at herself for being fat.
she had no reason to be bad at her friend, She decided to call Becca once she got back.
She got home, but instead of calling her friends, she went to her room and took a nap. When she woke up, she had forgotten about her decision to call.
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June 26
Dear Diary,
Something really,really, terrible happend today. Two things, actually. One, I looked in the mirror. Two, my dad got home early. And he was mad. I guess he'd had a bad day at work, left early, had a beer or two on the way back, and got home mad at the whole world. Dinner wasn't ready yet.
He came into my room, while I was doing sit-ups. I had gotten to 83. I don't know what I did to piss him off, but he came after me anyways. I ran around the house, screaming, but he caught up to me. He beat me.
I wish Tai had gotten home sooner.
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"81...82...83.." Kari said. She was so worked up in her work- out she didn't even notice her father come in.
"I hope that was your last one, Kari."
She jumped up. "Dad, you scared me."
"Why isn't dinner ready?"
"Mom isn't home yet, Dad."
"Why didn't you make dinner?"
"I didn't know that you wanted me to."
Kari had just enough time to duck out of the way as her father came at her with a clentched fist.
She screamed and ran.
"Get back here, you damned bitch!" Mr. Kamiya yelled pounding after her. She was fast, but he was faster. He knocked her over from behind.
"Oof!"
Her dad hit Kari again. She put up her arms to cover her face. She quietly began to try to stand up. Her father punched her again. Then again. Kari was dizzy and weak from lack of food, and it took her a while to stand up and move towards the bathroom. Once she knew where it was, she ran. Her father was still one her heels. She rushed into the bathroom and closed and locked to door. She went over to a corner of the room and sat down, pulling her knees to her chest. Her father banged on the door for a few moments, then gave up and left.
Kari cried. She was hurt physically and mentally.
"Tai, why weren't you here?" she whispered. Tai would have protected her. Her would have fought their father. She decided to not be so mad at him for making her eat that sandwich.
After a few minutes, she slowly stood up. Her arms were begining to show signs of dark bruises. She went over to the mirror and drew in her breath when she saw herself.
Normally she avoided looking in the mirrior. She hadn't seen herself in a long time. She didn't expect to see a girl with the beginings of two black eyes, a bruise on her cheek, a swollen lip, and angry, terrified eyes. She most shocked by how thin she looked. Her eyes were sunken in, her neck and chin were boney. She bent her head so that her chin touched her neck. No trace of a double chin.
She looked back at the mirror.
"I'm ugly!" she said. She turned away from the mirror and waited until she heard her mother and Tai come in. Then she sneaked back into her room without them seeing her.
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June 28
Dear Diary,
I'm lucky I was the only one here today. I got a letter from TK! He actually sent me a letter! It's a shame that I can't write him a letter back. I really, really, want to.
So far, I've lost fifteen pounds.
I passed out again today.
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Kari,
Hi, it's me, TK. I'm having fun at basketball camp. But I really miss you. What happend at the dance, anyways? I want to know, Kari. Was it something I did? Please tell me.
I know this sounds stupid, but you should take care of yourself. Matt tells me that Tai is really worried about you. He says you're getting very skinny and aren't eating.
Well, that's all I have to say. Write me!
Love,
TK
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June 30
Dear Dairy,
Guess where I am. Just guess. Well, I'm in the hospital. That's right, the hospital. It sucks so bad. What happend was I was going down the stairs, to jog, and I guess I blacked out and fell or someting, because here I am with a broken leg. My family came to see me at about seven. (Guess they really care.) Tai gave me my diary. He told me he didn't read it. The doctors told them that I had an eating disorder and recomended counseling. I do NOT need counseling. I NEED to be thinner.
Screw them. I'll be able to go home in two days.
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"Mr and Mrs.Kamiya?" asked the doctor. Kari's parents looked up from Kari's side.
"Yes?"
"You do know that Kari has an eating disorder."
"Yes."
"We have given you a list of clinics and counselours to pick from?"
"Yes, right here."
"Have you chosen someone?"
"Yes," said Kari's father. "Well, actually, we've narrowed it down to two, but we'll call to make arrangements."
"Good," said the doctor, and strode out.
"Honey, we haven't even looked at it!"
Kari kept her eyes closed. Her parents probably thought that she was unconscious.
"And that's the way it'll stay!"
"But--"
"We don't need no fuckin' shrink for Kari. She fine."
"But--"
"Listen, if I say she's fine, she's fine! She ain't got no problem, and that's the way it'll stay. Understand?"
"Yes, but--"
"Shaddup, bitch. She's fine.Coversation. ended."
Kari's mother remained silent. Kari kept her eyes closed, still.
'My father is turning into a monster. But he's right. I'm fine. I don't need a shrink. I'm fine. All I need is to be thin.'