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Why Am I Acting This Way- part 5

A/n: Well, Kari's fained, thrown up, exercised like mad, and had gotten a lecture. Plus, her father beat her one day when he got back from work, and now Kari's in the hospital. Her family knows about her anorexia, but her father won't let her get help, and Kari is with him.
Disclaimer: Digimon is NOT mine. Get it? Got it? Good.

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Dear Diary,
I get to go home tomorrow. Tai came to visit me today. He thinks that most of the bruises are from my fall. Some are, but most are from Dad. TK knows about me now. Bet he thinks I'm an idiot.
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"Hi, Kari."
"Hi, Tai."
"How are you?"
"I'm feeling okay. My leg hurts, though."
"You got beat up pretty bad when you fell down those stairs."
'Most of them were from Dad, Tai.'
"Yeah, well.... I'm fine."
"You've been eating?"
"Yes. I've been eating."
"Good." Tai paused. "Matt told TK about you."
Kari blanched. "He did?"
"TK's worried for you."
"I'll be fine Tai. Don't worry. Everything'll be okay." 'I wish.'
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July 2
Dear Diary,
Well, I am finally home. My parents just brought me up in the elevator and dumped me on my bed, nothing special. They at least put my crutches where I can reach them. So now, I can hobble around the house. By the way, they don't care if I eat, though I think it's because Dad's told Ma to shut up, and he lied to Tai about me getting dinner in bed.
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July 3
Dear Diary,
It's a Tuesday. Dad gets home early on Tuesdays. I hobbled around and made dinner-- something nice, I don't remember. Well, it wasn't exactly what he wanted, so he hit me. I went to my room very quickly, and shut the door. At least he doesn't get home early on wensdays.
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Kari had just finished putting dinner on the table when her father came in, with bloodshot eyes and a stagger.
"What's this shit on the table? I wanted fillet minion!" he said. "Damn bitch! Can't even make the right food! Get outta my sight, fuckin' bitch!" he screamed, hitting her. Kari hurridly hobbled into her room and shut the door.
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July 4
Dear Diary,
Good news, bad news, really bad news. I'll tel you the good news first. TK called! I managed to explain a few things before he had to go. Bad news: Dad came home early. Really bad news: TK called, and my dad answerd it. I don't wanna write about it.
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"Hello, Kamiya residence."
"Kari? It's TK."
"TK! Hi!" said Kari. 'He called me! He likes me!'
"Kari, I'm glad you're there. I need to talk to you."
"I know. TK, I'm sorry about the dance. It was my fault. I wasn't allowed to go, and my dad got mad at me. It had nothing to do with you. I'm sorry. Really, I am."
"It wasn't me?"
"No. My dad didn't even know I was there with you."
"And you go grounded. Bummer. How are you?"
"Fine, just fine. My leg's busted, though."
"I know that. Are you eating?"
"Yes." Well....she was entitled to her own share of lies, wasn't she? In truth, she'd only eaten a sandwich since leaving the hospital.
"Good. I gotta go. I'll call you later, okay? Bye."
"Bye."

Kari was in her room reading when her father came home. Kari cringed as the door slammed shut. She went to make sure her door was locked. If he was drunk, maybe he'd have trouble finding the key.
Then the phone rang.
Kari listend as her father went over to the phone and picked it up.
"Hello?....TK?...No, she's busy, sorry.Bye."
'Uh-oh....I'm in deep shit.'
Kari was thrown back from the door as her father pounded on it.
"Kari!Open this door! Bitch! You were sexually involved with that punk kid! Open this door! Now!!!!!"
Kari was blindly scabbling backwards, towards her window. She had to get out.
'Where am I gonna run?' she thought bitterly. 'I can't do anything with this leg.'
The pounding and yelling continued. Her father would break down the door, she knew it. She looked around for a place to hide, and decided upon the closet. Leaving her crutches, she scooted towards the door. She was just inside with the door closed when--
WHAM!
Kari shudderd and moved further back into the closet, trying to get as far away from her father as possible. She held her breath, hoping her wouldn't find her. She heard him looking around, silent and angry. Slowly she heard footsteps come closer to her hiding spot. He would find her soon. Any moment she would be toast.
"Hello? Any one home? Kari?" It was Tai. He was home! He would come and save her and--
No, he wouldn't. Her father had just broken down the door. What could Tai possibly do?
"Hello?" Tai said, again. He was closer to her room now. Her father had stoped comming towards the closet.
"Dad? What's going on? Why'd you break down the door?"
'Tai, run! Run!' Couldn't he hear her father's angry breathing? 'Run, dammit! Run!'
"Dad?"
Kari heard her father let out an angry roar and heard him run towards Tai. There was the sound of someone hitting a hard surface--most likley the wall. Then there were grunts-- Tai and her father were fighting. Then there was a sickening noise, as if one had just broken someething. Some one hitting the floor. Footsteps comming at her--
The closet door burst open, and light poured in. Some one reached in,through the clothes,and draged her out by her shirt collar. Her father.
Kari made an odd choking noise as her father raised her over her head. She winced as her head hit the cealling.
"You--" The way he said it made it sound as if she was something nasty to be scarepd off of ones shoe. "You are a little liar and a sneak! Bitch!"
Kari was barely getting air. Things were staring to get fuzzy. She thought she saw Tai, lying unconcious on the ground.
"Bitch! Liar! Sneak!"
Kari grabbed at the tightening hand on her neck. It was uesless. This was how she would die, alone, stangled to death by her father. And no one would care.
The door opend and shut.
"What the--?" It was Kari's mother.
Mr. Kamiya dropped Kari. She fell and landed with a dull thud. She clutched at her neck with one hand, her leg with the other. She was and awful pale-green color.
"Honey, what--?"
Kari looked at her mother. She seemed surprised. The woman carefully surveyd the scene. She looked at Kari, then at Tai's prone form. She made to reach him, but her husband grabbed her.
Without a word, her dragged her away. Mrs.Kamiya stuggled fiercly for someone her size. Kari heard her a door slam.
'God, please, please, protect her. Don't let him kill her.' Kari would have done no good trying to stop him. Her father would have killed her on the spot.
Tai moaned. She made her way towards him, and laid a hand on his back. He moaned again.
"Shhhh. It's alright." It was a lie.
"Kari, what--"
The was a scream from her parents' beroom. Then a slapping noise.
She sighed. Tai looked at her. His nose was bleeding and looked broken, and he had a black eye. His eyes reflected her own-- sorrowful and afraid.
"Dad-" Tai whisperd, his lip starting to bleed. "He's a monster."
Kari nodded. "I know."
"He beat you?"
She nodded. "I'm okay, I think." She sniffed. "Mom--"
"Will be okay," said Tai. He stuggled to sit up, then stopped. "My head hurts."
Kari just sat there and held his head on her lap while he passed out again. After a time, her father left. He ignored them.
"Mom," said Tai. She jumped. She didn't know he was up. He got up, with a moan, and handed her her crutches. Together, they made their way to their parents' room.
They had only made it halfway when their mother emerged. She was wearing her bathrobe. She looked awful.
"Move, I need to go clean up." She pushed them aside and started towards the bathroom. "Oh," she said, turning. "Don't tell anyone about this. Please. You father is a good man, he just had too much to drink, that's all. Forgive him."
Kari did not see how she could forgive a person who had nearly killed her, hurt her brother, and raped her mother. If it could be called that. Yes, she thought. It was. If the victim doesn't want to, and is forced, then it is rape.
She sighed and hobbled into her room.
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July 5
Dear Diary,
I had to forgive my dad for what he did yesterday. Tai's nose is broken, but he went and saw Joe to fix it. My dad fixed my door. I hate him still. Bastard.
Wrote another letter to TK, but I'm not sending it.
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Dear TK,
Hey, it's me. I'm glad you understand about the dance.
Help me, TK. My father is a monster. A horrible, ugly monster. I hate him! He nearly killed me! He beats me. He calls me names. He hurts my mom. He beats up Tai. TK, help. Get the police or something. Help me out of this hell. Please. Put me somewhere where people will care about me and what I eat. (I haven't eaten much.) Please, TK. Please.
Love,
Kari
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July 6
Dear Diary,
Well, Dear Diary, it seems that I am not the only one that my father has a problem with. See, now he's after who Tai dates. He doesn't seem to like that fact that Tai is on the phone with a few different people, a few of which are girls. Tai says he isn't gonna date any of them, honest (nice try, Tai. Hey, that ryhmes!) but my father.....
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Kari was eavsdropping, having nothing else to do. Her father didn't seem to like something. That made her twitchy.
"Tai, you spend too much time on the phone."
"Sorry, Dad, I won't talk on the phone for so long any more."
"No, you won't talk on the phone at all! Not for the rest of the summer!"
"What?"
"You seem to hold long conversations with several different girls. Sora, Mimi,Lisa..." Her father seemed to be reading a list.
"Hey! Sora is my friend, so's Mimi! The rest I don't talk to at all."
"Perfect! My son's a liar and a cheat, and my daughter's a sneak and a slut! My kids are no better'n shit!"
"Dad--'
"Room. Now. No phone. Get."
Kari heard a door shut. She slumped against the door.
'What else is next?'
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July 7
Dear Diary,
No, I haven't eaten in a while, if you were wondering. No one else is.They care about me shit. Dad's a phsychotic drunk, and Ma wants it to stay hidden. Plus, Tai....well, he's too busy to talk to me. Lately, for some reason.Maybe I should just go and drown myself. Or eat worms, like in that song.... "Nobody likes me, everybody hates me, I guess I'll go eat worms..."
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Kari finished writing, locked her diary, and began to cry.