Disclaimer: Well, as you all know, I do not own CCS. CLAMP does and if I did, I would be filthy rich and this ficcy would never of existed and more CCS episodes would of been created. But...that isn't gonna happen...so lose all hope now and start reading the ficcy. The story starts right after the bold letters. That is all. Thank you.
Darkness
By:Sakura1301
Chapter 1 Regret
Sakura Kinomoto: Age 17. Born in Tomeda, Japan. Heart broken and crushed.
It was 7:45 PM. Sakura sat on a swing in Penguin Park staring into space. Eyes devoid of emotion as she sat there. Her face blank. She sat there. She had been sitting there since school had been released for the day. Waiting...waiting...for him. It was the same thing day after day. School was released, she packed up and headed for the park. The park. It was a daily routine day after day. Even on weekends. She was used to it now. It had been going on for three long, miserable years. Since that day...that awful day...she had waited....
~Flashback~
*ring* *ring* Sakura rushed to the phone. "Hello?" She said in a cheery voice. There was a slight pause. "Sakura...." "Syaoran? Whats wrong?" "Sakura....I'm not coming back. I can't love you....I don't love you....I won't love you." "S-Syaoran....this is a j-joke. Right?" She choked. "No....no. It's not." "B-But our promise...." "Screw the promise. I-I don't want to ever see you again Kinomoto!" And there was a click from the other line. Sakura stared at the phone. Her eyes grew watery but she held back the tears. She wouldn't cry...no...she couldn't. It was so sudden. Too sudden. She slowly placed the phone back on the receiver and bowed her head as she made her way to her room.
~Further Flashback~
"Sakura, aren't you upset he still hasn't returned?" Tomoyo asked. Sakura smiled at her. "I am but I still believe in him. He promised so I'm gonna wait for him. Even if it takes him eternity." "Whoa...you really gonna wait THAT long?" Sakura nodded. "If it is necessary for him to return...I will wait till the end of time. I promise." Tomoyo smiled at her best friend. "You really are in love. Aren't you?" Sakura nodded.
~End Flashback~
Sakura sat there...waiting....waiting. She had kept her promise all this time. Even if he broke his. She told her friend a long time ago...that she would wait...wait till the end of time. And if she promised that. Then she would keep the promise. She would wait.
Did she regret ever meeting him?
Yes.
Did she ever regret being his rival?
Yes.
Did she ever regret being his friend?
Yes.
Did she ever regret being his love?
Yes.
Did she ever regret loving him?
....No.
All her life, she had been a giver, even a giver of foot stompings to her brother....but now....she could give no longer. No longer. She needed love. Not just any kind of love. A certain love. Not the love of a friend. Not the love of a brother. Not the love of family. She needed....True Love. The love of a lover. And there was only one person who could do that. And it was....Syaoran.
If she had to....she would wait on that very same swing....every day....till the end of Time. He was the only one she ever felt true love for. Only him. Since that....that....wretched phone call, she could never speak. Not ever again. As soon as she put down that receiver that day, her world had come crashing down. Down. Down. Down. She was never a taker in the first place. Always a giver. And she gave and gave till she had nothing left but a mere shell. Since that day, she had become afraid of Love. To love others. And to even accept it from others. She needed love from a true lover....but how could she accept it if she couldn't even accept it from others? How could she? How could she???
Maybe....just maybe....if she could just hear those three simple words from his mouth again, everything would be normal. Normal.
Thats all she wanted. For everything to be normal. Again.
Things change though. Things change. She wanted to die. Just to die and to get over with it. Heaven, Hell, it made no difference to her. If she died and went to heaven, her heart would still be empty. If she went to hell, the pain wouldn't even come close to what she felt deep inside her heart. Yes, her heart. The one thing that kept her going till now. Now it laid in shattered pieces. Yes, she wanted to kill herself. But before she did. She was going to fulfill her part of the promise. And wait.
To be continued....
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*Sob* I almost started crying myself when I was writing this! But I got over it. Yes, there is gonna be more chapters. So don't worry. I tried to go deep when I was writting. REALLY deep. And it seems I have succeeded. (WooHoo!) Well, I need some feedback. It'll make me feel alot more better. And yes, this is S+S. Well, till my next chapter....Ja!
