Standard Disclaimer
Hello I don't own anything of Evangelion.... or anything at all really so...
well hope you ppl like this chapter and sorry for taking so long.
All They Needed Was Each Other
Chapter 8 Human Development
Deep inside the confines of the Nerv base inside her specialized testing tube,
Ayanami Rei synced with her sisters, but today the experience was different.
Rei opened her eyes but instead of the usual surroundings she found herself inside her
apartment facing a younger version of herself, which appeared to be 7 years old.
"Who are you?" the elder Rei stated.
"I'm you, the you that you repress." the child responded.
"No, you are a manifestation brought out by prolonged LCL exposure." Rei answered
in her cool voice.
"Lies, you feel me in your mind, when you see Shinji, you don't understand it
because you repress me and the memories of 'our' past" the child almost sang.
"I do not repress memories; they did not transfer with the soul I inherited."
"You only say that because you're afraid of the truth. You're afraid of your own
existence, what your intended purpose is, and your feelings." the child now smiled.
"I do not fear my feelings, they are irrelevant, and if you are true about you causing my
actions regarding Ikari-kun, I demand you cease, they are pointless." her voice dropping.
"Why do you say that, you enjoyed it, as much as I did, we're part of the same, just you
refuse to admit it."
"Humans create an insurmountable chasm around themselves; it is pointless to attempt
to bond to another. And soulless creatures cannot feel." the elder Rei stated.
"Bonds can be formed in many ways, not just physically. And if you think, and
act on your own ideals you have a soul. I did not make you offer to assist the
Major with Shinji's protection." the child said with a beaming smile of victory.
"I.... have a soul?" were the last words Rei spoke to the now fading image of herself
as a young girl.
"Rei, you did well, let's have some lunch." Gendo said to his young protégée after
the test of the dummy plug was successful.
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The final bells had sounded and while all the other students prepared to leave
Touji noticed Shinji still sitting at his desk.
"You look beat, the devil been extra hard on you?" Touji asked Shinji who currently had
his face plastered to his desk.
"I wish it were that simple, she's been staying at Hikari's for the last three days. Things
really got weird." he groaned.
"Weird, and hey I don't haven't seen Ayanami in a bit, who's been watching you?"
Touji said while grabbing a seat next to him.
"I don't know where she is, and Misato-san's been watching me, but I have to find
her today, Misato-san's got to work."
"Why not ask Asuka again?" Touji asked perplexed.
"She walked into the apartment while Ayanami...was kinda kissing me, threw her across
the room. After I got Rei to leave, she said that its wasn't right then left...hasn't said a
word to me since." he replied while sitting up.
"Think the devil's got a thing for ya, Shinji the player." Touji joked while prodding
Shinji's side.
"Get serious, what am I going to do? Rei isn't herself and Asuka...I don't know what I'm going
to do with me still needed a 'guard' so to speak."
"Have you ever thought of seeing one of them? Might solve your problem."
"I have...but I can't, they both need to watch me and it wouldn't be fair if they both
truly have feelings...would it?" Shinji looked at him with almost a tear-filled expression.
"Shinji-kun." Hikari interrupted.
"Ah, Class-rep its man talk here, can it wait? Anyway the days over." Touji bellowed.
"Suzahara shut up. Shinji-kun can you take these hand outs to Ayanami's place for me...Asuka
needs my attention." Hikari pleaded.
'How can I say no to that expression, and if it can help Asuka.' he took the papers "But
I can't go alone."
"So I'm nobody, Mr. Playboy?" Touji glowered over him.
Shinji smiled " I didn't want to speak for you."
After bidding the Class representative good bye and Shinji's attempt to say good bye to
Asuka, which was returned with a small string of German swear words, the two made their way
to deliver the papers.
"Hell, if she's there your problem for today is solved, Ayanami can watch you." Touji
said absent-mindedly.
"Is that really a good thing right now? I'm not sure she's feeling well, not after her
sudden outburst."Shinji retorted.
"Does she really live in such a shitty part of town?" he snorted with disgust.
"It's not so bad, not to many people."
"So what will you do?" suddenly getting serious.
"About Asuka and Rei?" Shinji stated 'what else could he mean?'
"No I meant that doctor or Misato, of course stupid, going to run from them forever,
do you even like them?"
"I don't know for sure...I think I do, it wouldn't be so hard if they weren't so different."
he said dejectedly.
"I don't follow." Touji said 'like hell I don't but he needs to confront this.'
"Their complete opposites, everything. Asuka is passionate while Rei is
dormant, Asuka is very aggressive and Rei is peaceful, Asuka independent Rei
seems almost fully dependent, even their skin is opposite colors, Rei is pale while the foreign
blood in Asuka makes her skin darker hell even their eyes and hair are reversed Rei's
red eyes and blue hair Asuka's red haired and blue eyed." he said rather winded.
"Guess you've been thinking about this a lot." Touji said rather impressed
at the truthfulness he just heard.
"It's been on my mind a lot recently yes." he said after entering the door to Rei's
apartment complex.
"You have to be kidding; this place is a dive! and what the hell is that sound?" Touji
roared.
"Its not so bad, and after a while the sound dies away." he said while climbing the stairs.
"Like hell."
Shinji shrugged off Touji's distaste for the apartment and tried the doorbell, after getting
no response opened the door.
"Ayanami-san? Its me Shinji, I've got your class work." he called.
"You can't enter her house man, just leave 'um in the box...and stay...with me?" he stopped
after viewing the crammed mailbox 'what is up with that?'
"Its ok, this happened last time I had to come over." Shinji took his shoes off and entered
her home.
"Whatever," he replied following. After putting the papers on the bed they noticed
the current state of the apartment.
"Now that's new." Shinji finally spoke.
"What the total mess, girls are sapposeda be the cleaner sex right?" he spoke with disgust.
"Not that, that," points to the new T.V./DVD combo on her desk "and those." he then
pointed at the fairly large stack of dvd's on the floor. ( I know its in future, but I
don't know what they'll have for movie players so...there)
"Whoa! never suspected Ayanami for a movie buff, what's she got?" Touji said more for
show as he was already looking through the assortment of boxes.
"I wouldn't know, she didn't know how to work a remote control when she was last
over." he stated idly as he cleaned the mess on the floor 'how can she live like this?'
"DAMN! its all romance movies....and a bigger hentai collection than I have." was his
shocked response.
"You're lying, why would Ayanami have those tapes." he said not believing him for an
instant.
"Because they are very informative and enjoyable to watch." Rei answered as she entered
her home.
" Well...I..um...need to be going, you're guard is her Shinji, bye." Touji stammered before
running out of the room 'I knew him well.'
"What brings you here Shinji-kun, I thought the 2nd had duties today." Rei spoke, still
with memories of her odd expeirence in her mind.
"She didn't take your visit well, she isn't willing at the moment, and I needed
to bring you your handouts." he said blushing.
"How kind of you, and my apartment?"she asked, voice never changing from
its lack of tone.
"I...thought you might want it cleaned, I didn't touch anything."he stuttered, 'Touji
why did you leave me alone?'
Rei quickly advanced across the room towards him "Thank you."
'Not again, I don't think I can handle another kiss' but in the deeper recesses of his mind
he wasn't so much against it as he was for it.
"And you will be under my supervision all night?" she stated continuing her advance 'Is
this what that vision spoke of, my heart is beating so fast.'
"Y..yeah, if you want we can go back to my apartment." he blurted out while falling back
on the bed and crashing into the remote turning the TV. on.
Rei stopped her advance and turned to the television. "This looks very pleasurable," she stated
while watching the heavy petting scene on the television, " Shinji-kun?"
Shinji coming to his senses turned the television off " I think it best if we went back to
my place, Misato-san may call and if I'm not there..she..may get upset" he dragged on
'We need to get out of here..she has that odd look to her, is she ok?'
With what could be considered a look of disdain " I guess we have no choice now, but if the
second is gone as you claim" she picked up a dvd " we may watch this."
"But that's...and adult movie, how did you get it?" Shinji said shocked.
"My Nerv badge." she stated mater-oh -factly.
'I never knew of that, she's moving so fast, but she doesn't even sound as if
she means it, maybe she isn't herself. I better not let her do anything she'll
regret.' he looked down solemnly "If you want to bring it you can, but I can't
say it's a good thing to be watching, only couples in love should do such things.
"You have yet to say you didn't love me Shinji-kun." she said while gathering her things
'Bonds can be formed that are not physical in nature...I have a soul...maybe
I should peruse him in honest.'
"That is true, but if you rush into things, it might not be love but lust." he said while
getting his shoes back on 'I can't believe this is happening again, and she all these tapes!
what happened?'
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"Asuka, you can't brood like this!" Hikari yelled while Asuka continued to decapitate
monsters on Hikari's game system.
"Why not, Baka didn't even say anything to me just had that dumb look on his face."
"Did you wait for an answer or just smack him and run off like you usually do?" Hikari
asked refusing to give up.
"I shouldn't have had to; he should have known what to do." she grumbled.
"Why Asuka, if didn't know you, I wouldn't think you cared for him at all, you always
put him down and hit him."she stated bluntly.
"I..do?" Asuka asked turning from the game.
"Yes, have you ever thought of doing something nice for him? maybe even giving the benefit
of the doubt, maybe Ayanami wasn't lying when she said she started things."
"Wondergirl actually is taking the first step? that's absurd!" Asuka retorted.
"Shinji-kun isn't the type of guy I'd think would ever start something like that
so fast."
"True...maybe I was a bit hasty, and avoiding him isn't helping much, Hikari, if you're
wrong about this you'll have me living hear until all the angels are dead." Asuka stated
viciously as she stood.
"I'll buy you a bed, just try being nicer to him, he's always been so nice to you, and if you
try I'm sure you two would make a great couple." she beamed a warm smile.
"Why did I ever tell you I actually liked him?" she said more to herself than to Hikari.
"It was obvious when you came over crying and saying baka over and over, now
go and try to fix things ok?" she tried to assure. 'Asuka really is a wonderful girl,
but her temper, Shinji-kun could do wonders for her.'
"I'll make that baka mine," she stated boldly "no doll will take him from me, I'll make things
right."
"You go girl!" Hikari cheered still somewhat glad to have her room to herself again.
Asuka gathered her original cloths and went back home, finding it empty.
'I'll cook him some food, guys love food.' and so she busied herself cooking for Shinji's
inevitable return.
An hour passed and she finished her cooking 'lets see how the doll reacts to this, she can't
cook and best of all 'I' live with him, I bet I can make is so I'm the only one that has
to watch him.' she humored herself with several more visions of her victory and prize...
more so the prize.
A few minutes later Shinji opened the door and lead Rei in.
"Anybody home?" he called out expecting no answer.
"Yes, I'm here and I made you supper to make up for smacking you the other day."
Asuka chimed from the Kitchen. "And Tell Wondergirl to go home I'll take care
of you today."
'This is unfortunate, I was hoping to test my hypothesis about what that vision
stated it will have to wait.' Rei spoke "I will wait for the next time we meet Shinji-kun,
but you will need stay at my place."
'Not a chance wonderbitch, if I get my way you'll only see him at school' Asuka thought
with a smile on her face. "Shinji, hurry dinners getting cold."
"Thanks for everything Rei, It was a nice talk and wa..." his words cut off as Rei took
the little steps over to him and kissed him rather passionately then left. "....bye."
'That vision...it wasn't fake, but that means....' Rei mussed as she walked home.
Shinji's only thoughts 'Asuka's home and in a good mood, I'm so releaved..but what is
wrong with Rei, she's acting so strange, I'm worried.'
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Author notes.
well how goes my first mental deely? good I hope, Is Asuka To OOC I really
think asuka cared deeply for Shinji as did Rei, but just didn't have the push she needed
hence Hikari. As for Rei, I'm trying to find a rational way to give her emotions, it may seem
contradictory to last eps, but sometimes we act without thinking...so give it time
hope ya liked it.
zentrodie (zentrodie@secondimpact.com)
Hello I don't own anything of Evangelion.... or anything at all really so...
well hope you ppl like this chapter and sorry for taking so long.
All They Needed Was Each Other
Chapter 8 Human Development
Deep inside the confines of the Nerv base inside her specialized testing tube,
Ayanami Rei synced with her sisters, but today the experience was different.
Rei opened her eyes but instead of the usual surroundings she found herself inside her
apartment facing a younger version of herself, which appeared to be 7 years old.
"Who are you?" the elder Rei stated.
"I'm you, the you that you repress." the child responded.
"No, you are a manifestation brought out by prolonged LCL exposure." Rei answered
in her cool voice.
"Lies, you feel me in your mind, when you see Shinji, you don't understand it
because you repress me and the memories of 'our' past" the child almost sang.
"I do not repress memories; they did not transfer with the soul I inherited."
"You only say that because you're afraid of the truth. You're afraid of your own
existence, what your intended purpose is, and your feelings." the child now smiled.
"I do not fear my feelings, they are irrelevant, and if you are true about you causing my
actions regarding Ikari-kun, I demand you cease, they are pointless." her voice dropping.
"Why do you say that, you enjoyed it, as much as I did, we're part of the same, just you
refuse to admit it."
"Humans create an insurmountable chasm around themselves; it is pointless to attempt
to bond to another. And soulless creatures cannot feel." the elder Rei stated.
"Bonds can be formed in many ways, not just physically. And if you think, and
act on your own ideals you have a soul. I did not make you offer to assist the
Major with Shinji's protection." the child said with a beaming smile of victory.
"I.... have a soul?" were the last words Rei spoke to the now fading image of herself
as a young girl.
"Rei, you did well, let's have some lunch." Gendo said to his young protégée after
the test of the dummy plug was successful.
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The final bells had sounded and while all the other students prepared to leave
Touji noticed Shinji still sitting at his desk.
"You look beat, the devil been extra hard on you?" Touji asked Shinji who currently had
his face plastered to his desk.
"I wish it were that simple, she's been staying at Hikari's for the last three days. Things
really got weird." he groaned.
"Weird, and hey I don't haven't seen Ayanami in a bit, who's been watching you?"
Touji said while grabbing a seat next to him.
"I don't know where she is, and Misato-san's been watching me, but I have to find
her today, Misato-san's got to work."
"Why not ask Asuka again?" Touji asked perplexed.
"She walked into the apartment while Ayanami...was kinda kissing me, threw her across
the room. After I got Rei to leave, she said that its wasn't right then left...hasn't said a
word to me since." he replied while sitting up.
"Think the devil's got a thing for ya, Shinji the player." Touji joked while prodding
Shinji's side.
"Get serious, what am I going to do? Rei isn't herself and Asuka...I don't know what I'm going
to do with me still needed a 'guard' so to speak."
"Have you ever thought of seeing one of them? Might solve your problem."
"I have...but I can't, they both need to watch me and it wouldn't be fair if they both
truly have feelings...would it?" Shinji looked at him with almost a tear-filled expression.
"Shinji-kun." Hikari interrupted.
"Ah, Class-rep its man talk here, can it wait? Anyway the days over." Touji bellowed.
"Suzahara shut up. Shinji-kun can you take these hand outs to Ayanami's place for me...Asuka
needs my attention." Hikari pleaded.
'How can I say no to that expression, and if it can help Asuka.' he took the papers "But
I can't go alone."
"So I'm nobody, Mr. Playboy?" Touji glowered over him.
Shinji smiled " I didn't want to speak for you."
After bidding the Class representative good bye and Shinji's attempt to say good bye to
Asuka, which was returned with a small string of German swear words, the two made their way
to deliver the papers.
"Hell, if she's there your problem for today is solved, Ayanami can watch you." Touji
said absent-mindedly.
"Is that really a good thing right now? I'm not sure she's feeling well, not after her
sudden outburst."Shinji retorted.
"Does she really live in such a shitty part of town?" he snorted with disgust.
"It's not so bad, not to many people."
"So what will you do?" suddenly getting serious.
"About Asuka and Rei?" Shinji stated 'what else could he mean?'
"No I meant that doctor or Misato, of course stupid, going to run from them forever,
do you even like them?"
"I don't know for sure...I think I do, it wouldn't be so hard if they weren't so different."
he said dejectedly.
"I don't follow." Touji said 'like hell I don't but he needs to confront this.'
"Their complete opposites, everything. Asuka is passionate while Rei is
dormant, Asuka is very aggressive and Rei is peaceful, Asuka independent Rei
seems almost fully dependent, even their skin is opposite colors, Rei is pale while the foreign
blood in Asuka makes her skin darker hell even their eyes and hair are reversed Rei's
red eyes and blue hair Asuka's red haired and blue eyed." he said rather winded.
"Guess you've been thinking about this a lot." Touji said rather impressed
at the truthfulness he just heard.
"It's been on my mind a lot recently yes." he said after entering the door to Rei's
apartment complex.
"You have to be kidding; this place is a dive! and what the hell is that sound?" Touji
roared.
"Its not so bad, and after a while the sound dies away." he said while climbing the stairs.
"Like hell."
Shinji shrugged off Touji's distaste for the apartment and tried the doorbell, after getting
no response opened the door.
"Ayanami-san? Its me Shinji, I've got your class work." he called.
"You can't enter her house man, just leave 'um in the box...and stay...with me?" he stopped
after viewing the crammed mailbox 'what is up with that?'
"Its ok, this happened last time I had to come over." Shinji took his shoes off and entered
her home.
"Whatever," he replied following. After putting the papers on the bed they noticed
the current state of the apartment.
"Now that's new." Shinji finally spoke.
"What the total mess, girls are sapposeda be the cleaner sex right?" he spoke with disgust.
"Not that, that," points to the new T.V./DVD combo on her desk "and those." he then
pointed at the fairly large stack of dvd's on the floor. ( I know its in future, but I
don't know what they'll have for movie players so...there)
"Whoa! never suspected Ayanami for a movie buff, what's she got?" Touji said more for
show as he was already looking through the assortment of boxes.
"I wouldn't know, she didn't know how to work a remote control when she was last
over." he stated idly as he cleaned the mess on the floor 'how can she live like this?'
"DAMN! its all romance movies....and a bigger hentai collection than I have." was his
shocked response.
"You're lying, why would Ayanami have those tapes." he said not believing him for an
instant.
"Because they are very informative and enjoyable to watch." Rei answered as she entered
her home.
" Well...I..um...need to be going, you're guard is her Shinji, bye." Touji stammered before
running out of the room 'I knew him well.'
"What brings you here Shinji-kun, I thought the 2nd had duties today." Rei spoke, still
with memories of her odd expeirence in her mind.
"She didn't take your visit well, she isn't willing at the moment, and I needed
to bring you your handouts." he said blushing.
"How kind of you, and my apartment?"she asked, voice never changing from
its lack of tone.
"I...thought you might want it cleaned, I didn't touch anything."he stuttered, 'Touji
why did you leave me alone?'
Rei quickly advanced across the room towards him "Thank you."
'Not again, I don't think I can handle another kiss' but in the deeper recesses of his mind
he wasn't so much against it as he was for it.
"And you will be under my supervision all night?" she stated continuing her advance 'Is
this what that vision spoke of, my heart is beating so fast.'
"Y..yeah, if you want we can go back to my apartment." he blurted out while falling back
on the bed and crashing into the remote turning the TV. on.
Rei stopped her advance and turned to the television. "This looks very pleasurable," she stated
while watching the heavy petting scene on the television, " Shinji-kun?"
Shinji coming to his senses turned the television off " I think it best if we went back to
my place, Misato-san may call and if I'm not there..she..may get upset" he dragged on
'We need to get out of here..she has that odd look to her, is she ok?'
With what could be considered a look of disdain " I guess we have no choice now, but if the
second is gone as you claim" she picked up a dvd " we may watch this."
"But that's...and adult movie, how did you get it?" Shinji said shocked.
"My Nerv badge." she stated mater-oh -factly.
'I never knew of that, she's moving so fast, but she doesn't even sound as if
she means it, maybe she isn't herself. I better not let her do anything she'll
regret.' he looked down solemnly "If you want to bring it you can, but I can't
say it's a good thing to be watching, only couples in love should do such things.
"You have yet to say you didn't love me Shinji-kun." she said while gathering her things
'Bonds can be formed that are not physical in nature...I have a soul...maybe
I should peruse him in honest.'
"That is true, but if you rush into things, it might not be love but lust." he said while
getting his shoes back on 'I can't believe this is happening again, and she all these tapes!
what happened?'
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"Asuka, you can't brood like this!" Hikari yelled while Asuka continued to decapitate
monsters on Hikari's game system.
"Why not, Baka didn't even say anything to me just had that dumb look on his face."
"Did you wait for an answer or just smack him and run off like you usually do?" Hikari
asked refusing to give up.
"I shouldn't have had to; he should have known what to do." she grumbled.
"Why Asuka, if didn't know you, I wouldn't think you cared for him at all, you always
put him down and hit him."she stated bluntly.
"I..do?" Asuka asked turning from the game.
"Yes, have you ever thought of doing something nice for him? maybe even giving the benefit
of the doubt, maybe Ayanami wasn't lying when she said she started things."
"Wondergirl actually is taking the first step? that's absurd!" Asuka retorted.
"Shinji-kun isn't the type of guy I'd think would ever start something like that
so fast."
"True...maybe I was a bit hasty, and avoiding him isn't helping much, Hikari, if you're
wrong about this you'll have me living hear until all the angels are dead." Asuka stated
viciously as she stood.
"I'll buy you a bed, just try being nicer to him, he's always been so nice to you, and if you
try I'm sure you two would make a great couple." she beamed a warm smile.
"Why did I ever tell you I actually liked him?" she said more to herself than to Hikari.
"It was obvious when you came over crying and saying baka over and over, now
go and try to fix things ok?" she tried to assure. 'Asuka really is a wonderful girl,
but her temper, Shinji-kun could do wonders for her.'
"I'll make that baka mine," she stated boldly "no doll will take him from me, I'll make things
right."
"You go girl!" Hikari cheered still somewhat glad to have her room to herself again.
Asuka gathered her original cloths and went back home, finding it empty.
'I'll cook him some food, guys love food.' and so she busied herself cooking for Shinji's
inevitable return.
An hour passed and she finished her cooking 'lets see how the doll reacts to this, she can't
cook and best of all 'I' live with him, I bet I can make is so I'm the only one that has
to watch him.' she humored herself with several more visions of her victory and prize...
more so the prize.
A few minutes later Shinji opened the door and lead Rei in.
"Anybody home?" he called out expecting no answer.
"Yes, I'm here and I made you supper to make up for smacking you the other day."
Asuka chimed from the Kitchen. "And Tell Wondergirl to go home I'll take care
of you today."
'This is unfortunate, I was hoping to test my hypothesis about what that vision
stated it will have to wait.' Rei spoke "I will wait for the next time we meet Shinji-kun,
but you will need stay at my place."
'Not a chance wonderbitch, if I get my way you'll only see him at school' Asuka thought
with a smile on her face. "Shinji, hurry dinners getting cold."
"Thanks for everything Rei, It was a nice talk and wa..." his words cut off as Rei took
the little steps over to him and kissed him rather passionately then left. "....bye."
'That vision...it wasn't fake, but that means....' Rei mussed as she walked home.
Shinji's only thoughts 'Asuka's home and in a good mood, I'm so releaved..but what is
wrong with Rei, she's acting so strange, I'm worried.'
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Author notes.
well how goes my first mental deely? good I hope, Is Asuka To OOC I really
think asuka cared deeply for Shinji as did Rei, but just didn't have the push she needed
hence Hikari. As for Rei, I'm trying to find a rational way to give her emotions, it may seem
contradictory to last eps, but sometimes we act without thinking...so give it time
hope ya liked it.
zentrodie (zentrodie@secondimpact.com)
