Here's Chapter 1. It's a bit of a sad story, though I think you'll like it.
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"Moonstruck Icicles"
Chapter 1
By: Amyblue-chan
Rated: PG
E-mail: monicam_1@yahoo.com
Sad blue eyes stared back at her. She tried to smile but with no
avail. The same sad eyes looked at her. Since when had she become so
lonely again?
'Since he... he...' She could not complete the thought. It hurt
too much and tears threatened to fall.
She clearly remembered a time in her life when happiness was all
she felt. Now, that time seemed so long ago. So much had happened since
then. There had been a sparkle in those same eyes that now seemed lifeless.
Her face had been radiant, with a smile brighter than the sun, rosy lips
and a pink glow on her cheeks. Now, as she looked at herself in her
bedroom mirror, no traces of that happy girl remained in her soul.
She closed her eyes, hoping that when they opened, a bit of that
girl still showed. But no. Instead, she met the reflection of a girl
with sorrow marring her beautiful features. She felt void, her heart
completely lacking the love and companionship she so much needed and
desired. She hadn't always been like this. A month ago...
Thinking about him once again, she turned abruptly so her back was
to the mirror and roughly wiped a tear from her face. But it was no use.
They had already begun to fall, shaking her body with sobs. In a last
attempt to stay standing up, she failed and dropped to her knees.
'No, not again. No more tears. What did I do to deserve this suffering?
I'm supposed to be over him for goodness sakes!'
'That's right, you should be.' Her mind bit back. 'Look at yourself,
all broken down and crying for him. Have you already forgotten what he
did to you? Isn't that reason enough? Or has he already found forgiveness
in your heart?'
'It should be reason enough, but yet, to me it is not. I know I
should be hating him with every ounce of my being. What he did was cruel,
and it still continues to break my heart; but I cannot bring myself to do
it. I cannot hate him. I love him, and I believe that deep down he still
continues to love me too.'
'Then why do you cry?'
'Because I miss him terribly. The loneliness in my heart was only
filled when he was near. My soul longs for his kisses, his embrace. Everything.'
She responded solemnly to her mind. It did not reply. Her mind had no argument
left, for she knew her heart had won the battle.
Her thoughts slowly drifted to her friends. They had tried to help
her, but with no avail. She could only overcome this pain if she had the
strength, and only God knew how much she needed it. A sad smile flashed briefly
on her features, before completely disappearing. How she loved her friends...
They had tried everything.
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It had been a nice spring day. The was at the temple studying
for a test. Somehow though, their topic of conversation had drifted from Ions
and their bonds to Ami's sadness.
"Ami, are you sure you're ok? You've been in your own world for quite a while
now. That's not very much like you." Minako began.
"Yeah, Ami-chan. Minako's right. You're beginning to act like Usagi." A
small giggle seemed to make Usagi stir in her nap.
"I heard that, Mako-chan!" She seemed to say before completely returning
to her dreamworld.
"Sorry, Usagi." She replied, trying her best not to laugh.
"Minna, I'm alright. Really. I was just... thinking."
"About what?"
"Or whom?" Minako added.
"Nobody!" But the blush slowly creeping to her cheeks betrayed her.
"Oh no? Then why do I get the feeling that you're keeping something from us?" Rei
said. The book she was reading now lay momentarily forgotten on her lap.
"Minna..."
"It's because you are, aren't you?"
"I-I'm sorry. It... hasn't been easy to get Zach out of my mind."
"Ami, it's ok. Do you want to talk about it?"
The blue-haired genius shook her head. Her wound was still fresh. There was
no way she could possibly begin to explain why she felt this way; at least not
without completely breaking down and letting go of the grief that was slowly eating
her heart up.
"Alright. We won't push you."
A small smile made it's way to her usually serious face. "Thank you."
"Will you at least promise us something?"
A small nod from her urged Rei to begin.
"I, Ami Mizuno... go on, repeat after me." Rei said, while making her lift her
right hand from her books.
Obediently, Ami began. "I, Ami Mizuno,"
"... Promise to not cry any longer for Zach and be the happy girl I once was."
She dropped her hand from where it had been held up and a sad expression
overcame her eyes. With her head dropped, she mustered all the courage she could
possibly gain and spoke truthfully, "Guys, please don't. You all know I can't do
that. Until I heal, I feel my tears will never be enough. Please understand." Her
words carried such pain and sorrow it was almost impossible not to feel it.
Rei took both of her hands and covered them with her own. A gentle squeeze
reached Ami's senses and she looked up. Understanding was on every face of her
friends. Rei spoke for all of them in a voice that reassured her, but did not
succeed in calming her down.
"We understand, Ami, completely. But it hurts us to see you so sad and broken.
Stop suffering, please. What good will it do to keep on the way you are? You're
only causing damage to yourself. Try to forget him." A gasp escaped her lips as
she heard Rei speak that last sentence. "But... but..."
"I'm not saying right now. Gradually. Begin to move on, and continue your life
the way it was before he came into the picture. You cannot let the betrayal of one
guy ruin the beautiful dreams you have inside. Or your hopes."
"R-Rei, how can you say that?"
"Ami, stop trying to hide the truth. We've seen the way you two glance at
eachother. Both of your faces go completely hard and stoic. The tension in the air is
almost palpable. We know you've both been hurt, but is the love gone?"
There was a pause before Ami took a deep breath. "No," she simply replied.
"Then what happened?" Four faces looked at her curiously.
Ami sighed. "I turned him down when he begged for my forgiveness that afternoon.
I was angry. My mind just wouldn't accept any reason. It was like the wall that had
been there before I had allowed my heart to open up to somebody was as strong and firm
as ever. I refused to hear any explanation as of why he had done what he did. After
several tries, he left. I know he still loves me too. The anger that later became hurt
is still in his eyes. It's unbearable. I hurt him, the same way he had hurt me. And to
this day, I still blame myself." Tears began to overflow her eyes as the scene replayed
itself on her mind once again.
Sad looks were exchanged throughout the room. How on Earth were they ever going to
return the happiness to their friend? A sigh escaped each and every mouth of the Senshi.
They had not a clue.
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Wiping her tears once more, she slowly turned around to meet her reflection
again. A sigh reached her lips, the faint flicker of hope making its way to her
heart. Maybe not all was lost. Perhaps her friends were right. Moving on did
seem like the right thing to do. She could not dwell on what could have been and
was not for the rest of her life. She had dreams to fulfill, a future to look
forward to. But then, why did her heart protest so strongly at the thought of moving
on? At a future without him?
In her mind, she knew what her decision had to be. But she could not let go.
Letting go would be like letting go of a part of her heart. And she had no desire
of doing so. Not this soon, or ever. And especially not when there was a chance at
regaining her happiness.
The ensuing battle between her heart and her mind was reflected clearly in her
sapphire eyes. For a moment, all time stood still. The only thing that mattered
was the outcome of such a decisive battle.
Remember, e-mail is GOOD! *giggles*
Enjoy!
"Moonstruck Icicles"
Chapter 1
By: Amyblue-chan
Rated: PG
E-mail: monicam_1@yahoo.com
Sad blue eyes stared back at her. She tried to smile but with no
avail. The same sad eyes looked at her. Since when had she become so
lonely again?
'Since he... he...' She could not complete the thought. It hurt
too much and tears threatened to fall.
She clearly remembered a time in her life when happiness was all
she felt. Now, that time seemed so long ago. So much had happened since
then. There had been a sparkle in those same eyes that now seemed lifeless.
Her face had been radiant, with a smile brighter than the sun, rosy lips
and a pink glow on her cheeks. Now, as she looked at herself in her
bedroom mirror, no traces of that happy girl remained in her soul.
She closed her eyes, hoping that when they opened, a bit of that
girl still showed. But no. Instead, she met the reflection of a girl
with sorrow marring her beautiful features. She felt void, her heart
completely lacking the love and companionship she so much needed and
desired. She hadn't always been like this. A month ago...
Thinking about him once again, she turned abruptly so her back was
to the mirror and roughly wiped a tear from her face. But it was no use.
They had already begun to fall, shaking her body with sobs. In a last
attempt to stay standing up, she failed and dropped to her knees.
'No, not again. No more tears. What did I do to deserve this suffering?
I'm supposed to be over him for goodness sakes!'
'That's right, you should be.' Her mind bit back. 'Look at yourself,
all broken down and crying for him. Have you already forgotten what he
did to you? Isn't that reason enough? Or has he already found forgiveness
in your heart?'
'It should be reason enough, but yet, to me it is not. I know I
should be hating him with every ounce of my being. What he did was cruel,
and it still continues to break my heart; but I cannot bring myself to do
it. I cannot hate him. I love him, and I believe that deep down he still
continues to love me too.'
'Then why do you cry?'
'Because I miss him terribly. The loneliness in my heart was only
filled when he was near. My soul longs for his kisses, his embrace. Everything.'
She responded solemnly to her mind. It did not reply. Her mind had no argument
left, for she knew her heart had won the battle.
Her thoughts slowly drifted to her friends. They had tried to help
her, but with no avail. She could only overcome this pain if she had the
strength, and only God knew how much she needed it. A sad smile flashed briefly
on her features, before completely disappearing. How she loved her friends...
They had tried everything.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * ~~~~~~~~~~~~
It had been a nice spring day. The was at the temple studying
for a test. Somehow though, their topic of conversation had drifted from Ions
and their bonds to Ami's sadness.
"Ami, are you sure you're ok? You've been in your own world for quite a while
now. That's not very much like you." Minako began.
"Yeah, Ami-chan. Minako's right. You're beginning to act like Usagi." A
small giggle seemed to make Usagi stir in her nap.
"I heard that, Mako-chan!" She seemed to say before completely returning
to her dreamworld.
"Sorry, Usagi." She replied, trying her best not to laugh.
"Minna, I'm alright. Really. I was just... thinking."
"About what?"
"Or whom?" Minako added.
"Nobody!" But the blush slowly creeping to her cheeks betrayed her.
"Oh no? Then why do I get the feeling that you're keeping something from us?" Rei
said. The book she was reading now lay momentarily forgotten on her lap.
"Minna..."
"It's because you are, aren't you?"
"I-I'm sorry. It... hasn't been easy to get Zach out of my mind."
"Ami, it's ok. Do you want to talk about it?"
The blue-haired genius shook her head. Her wound was still fresh. There was
no way she could possibly begin to explain why she felt this way; at least not
without completely breaking down and letting go of the grief that was slowly eating
her heart up.
"Alright. We won't push you."
A small smile made it's way to her usually serious face. "Thank you."
"Will you at least promise us something?"
A small nod from her urged Rei to begin.
"I, Ami Mizuno... go on, repeat after me." Rei said, while making her lift her
right hand from her books.
Obediently, Ami began. "I, Ami Mizuno,"
"... Promise to not cry any longer for Zach and be the happy girl I once was."
She dropped her hand from where it had been held up and a sad expression
overcame her eyes. With her head dropped, she mustered all the courage she could
possibly gain and spoke truthfully, "Guys, please don't. You all know I can't do
that. Until I heal, I feel my tears will never be enough. Please understand." Her
words carried such pain and sorrow it was almost impossible not to feel it.
Rei took both of her hands and covered them with her own. A gentle squeeze
reached Ami's senses and she looked up. Understanding was on every face of her
friends. Rei spoke for all of them in a voice that reassured her, but did not
succeed in calming her down.
"We understand, Ami, completely. But it hurts us to see you so sad and broken.
Stop suffering, please. What good will it do to keep on the way you are? You're
only causing damage to yourself. Try to forget him." A gasp escaped her lips as
she heard Rei speak that last sentence. "But... but..."
"I'm not saying right now. Gradually. Begin to move on, and continue your life
the way it was before he came into the picture. You cannot let the betrayal of one
guy ruin the beautiful dreams you have inside. Or your hopes."
"R-Rei, how can you say that?"
"Ami, stop trying to hide the truth. We've seen the way you two glance at
eachother. Both of your faces go completely hard and stoic. The tension in the air is
almost palpable. We know you've both been hurt, but is the love gone?"
There was a pause before Ami took a deep breath. "No," she simply replied.
"Then what happened?" Four faces looked at her curiously.
Ami sighed. "I turned him down when he begged for my forgiveness that afternoon.
I was angry. My mind just wouldn't accept any reason. It was like the wall that had
been there before I had allowed my heart to open up to somebody was as strong and firm
as ever. I refused to hear any explanation as of why he had done what he did. After
several tries, he left. I know he still loves me too. The anger that later became hurt
is still in his eyes. It's unbearable. I hurt him, the same way he had hurt me. And to
this day, I still blame myself." Tears began to overflow her eyes as the scene replayed
itself on her mind once again.
Sad looks were exchanged throughout the room. How on Earth were they ever going to
return the happiness to their friend? A sigh escaped each and every mouth of the Senshi.
They had not a clue.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wiping her tears once more, she slowly turned around to meet her reflection
again. A sigh reached her lips, the faint flicker of hope making its way to her
heart. Maybe not all was lost. Perhaps her friends were right. Moving on did
seem like the right thing to do. She could not dwell on what could have been and
was not for the rest of her life. She had dreams to fulfill, a future to look
forward to. But then, why did her heart protest so strongly at the thought of moving
on? At a future without him?
In her mind, she knew what her decision had to be. But she could not let go.
Letting go would be like letting go of a part of her heart. And she had no desire
of doing so. Not this soon, or ever. And especially not when there was a chance at
regaining her happiness.
The ensuing battle between her heart and her mind was reflected clearly in her
sapphire eyes. For a moment, all time stood still. The only thing that mattered
was the outcome of such a decisive battle.
