Petals Fall

Petals Fall....
A S&S
Part 2: Kinomoto Sakura

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The sakura petals are falling right now. They blow away with the wind...like Syaoran did.

Gah, I'm thinking about it again! Mou, can't I get a break? Syaoran left a few months ago to go back to Hong Kong...and I've been missing him ever since. I can't seem to stop thinking about him....

When the sakura petals had first bloomed this spring, he sat me under one of them. I remember the scene vividly....

*Flashback*

"Sakura...I...." Syaoran stuttered.

"Li-kun? What's the problem?" I asked.

"Not a problem...but I...Sakura-chan, I love you."

"Li-kun...you mean it?" I was in complete disbelief. Syaoran loved me? No way! It was impossible! "You really mean it?"

"If I didn't, I wouldn't tell you, now would I?" he asked. Good point...Li Syaoran wasn't one to tell a lie.

"Good point...mou, I didn't expect that...well....all I can say is that I love you too." I replied. "Honest."

"It can't be...." he said, looking into my eyes. "You deserve much better than me."

"Much better?" I asked. "There is no better, Li-kun! You're everything to me! There's no way there is anything better than you, Li-kun!"

"Do you mean it, Sakura-chan?"

"Yes, Li-kun, I mean it. I love you." His lips were a little swollen. Tomoyo once told me that when a person's lips are swollen, they want to kiss someone. I took the hint. "Li-kun, sit here," I said, patting next to me on the seat. He sat. "Close your eyes." He did so. Kami-sama, be with me, I thought and kissed him on the lips.

Syaoran froze a little, then deepened the kiss to my surprise. We sat there, kissing, reveling in each other, not caring about anything...and when we had to breathe, we went up for air and kissed again. It felt great, and that day had been in my dreams every day since.

*end flashback*

Meilin soon found out afterwards and was angered out of her mind. You should have seen her! She was screaming and raving to Li-kun about how dishonorable it was, and that he was supposed to be in love with her, and that I was some dishonorable scum that he should have never met...I felt extremely hurt, and so did Syaoran. He told me later on that he had complained to the clan about her and gotten the case....

Then Meilin left. We never saw her again. I don't know what happened...whether it was anger or rage or guilt or the fact that the clan had nullified their engagement...all of the above, I expect. I feel sorry for her. But after she left, Syaoran just got closer to me. We were as close as they come...never thinking of anything but the other, day and night.

Then, Syaoran got a call from his mother. Apparently, Meilin had last been spotted in China, and it was his duty to find her. So he had to leave. It was hard to say goodbye, indeed...but we had no choice. He had to leave.

Syaoran always writes, always calls, so it's not half bad. But then again, it's nothing compared to sitting under a sakura blossom tree watching the petals fall together. Meilin still hasn't been spotted. I still haven't gotten over the fact. And as I fall deeper in my anguish for losing him, the sakura petals fall...he said I was more beautiful and graceful than any flower.

I like the flowers I'm named after, but it's always a compliment. The petals fall, as my anguish deepens.

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