Author: Dominique "Dutch Spike"
Rating:G
Spoilers: Season 6, Buffy POV
Pairings: B/S
Summary: Buffy thinks
Feedback:DutchSpike_115@yahoo.com
Author's Note: My first Buffy POV and there's gonna be a sequel
Spike's POV of the situation.
Sentence's like this are thought's
Sentence's like his are flash back's
Sentence's like this are things they do
Sentence's like this..are talking
Death....
I feared it once...
"Giles...I'm sixteen...I..don't wanna die..."
I didn't wanted to die...
I feared Death....But...after a while..I..accepted it...
Death..Is my Gift...
But my Gift is al sow live...live to others..family..friends...people
I saved..
and Death...to my enemy's..
But now....I long for it...I long for Death..
The peace...I long for it's peace...
No more fighting...no more responsibility...no more sacred dutie...
I sit down on a gravestone.
I know he's there...watching me from the shadows..
making sure..I'm okay...
He followed me.
He claims he loves me...
I hear him move
I ignore it.
I was happy....being dead...peace...but..the Powers That Be..brought
me back...
I hate them....
But...My friends...no..my Family needs me..Dawn needs me...
They need me...
I haven't move for the last half an hour.
He's getting impatience
He's moving towards me very slowly.
and still I ignore it.
He's stand right behind me
"Buffy"
I let my fingers play over my mothers Gravestone
"Come on, luv you're sister called me...hysterical...that you were
gone.."
I look up...not to him..but to look at the sky..
"Buffy...please, pet..say something.."
I close my eyes.
"Spike...lets go home"
I glance over my mom's grave .
He offer's me his hand.
I take it.
"Luv, Don't ever disappear like that again"
I look him in his eyes...his..blue eyes...and for the first time..I
really see them...full of Love and concern.
"Spike...Do you really love me?"
He looks at me surprised
He smiles
"I really Love you.."
I give him a small smile
Maybe...if I start living again I wont miss it...The
peace..nah...It's not me...I like being me..and..
I like him..he has proven a couple a time's that he love's me..
"I never got to say this...but...I might be feeling something for
you.."
His smiles broadens
"Buffy, I.."
I cut him off by kissing him
Ow yeah....This is worth living for..
"Spike...I want to give us..a chance"
I look him straight in his eyes.
"Buffy..I love you so much"
He kisses me..gently..
"Let's get you home now"
I let him guide me back
Just wait until Dawns hears this.
I smile the first smile sins I came back..
Well..I got a very Good reason..for it..
I look up to him..
Ow yeah...a very good reason it is..
