Something to Let Go Of
By Chash
In case any of you are wondering, Ken is based on a bishonen
from Mint Na Bokura, who I just researched.
His name is Sasa. For the picture
I have and based his looks on, go to www.geocities.com/pretty_ramen/sasamint.jpg
(love that pic... it's on my wall now ^__^)
In reality,
Ken decided, it was very unfair of Nao to ask him to come. Mainly because when he looked up at him and
said please, it really wasn't asking him, it was forcing him because Ken would
do anything to avoid making Nao look sad.
Now he had
been told that Nao had an extra ticket, and the lavender haired boy was looking
at him with imploring eyes.
"Will you
come?"
Stupid
blind bishonen, Ken decided, looking sideways at Nao. He didn't even know that Ken couldn't turn
him down, couldn't have turned him down.
Damn, damn bishonen who were far too naïve for their own good. Hadn't he figured out that straight boys just
don't kiss their male friends for no reason?
Well, Nao
was straight and asked to be kissed by his male friend for no reason, but, Ken
figured, Nao was a special case.
Ken had not
been in love with Nao nearly as long as Nao had been in love with Sana. He had first seen the other boy starring
alongside Sana in the movie "Mizu No Yakata", but had thought little of
it. Ken had known that Kamura Naozumi
was an attractive boy, but he was not prone to getting crushes on movie stars.
It was a
year later that he heard Kamura Naozumi was to be attending his school, he was
mildly interested, but didn't care that much.
After all, he knew nothing about the guy. Ken wasn't all that popular, and he assumed
that he wouldn't have much contact with a movie star.
And then, the
first day of the school year Kamura Naozumi, the famous star, would be
attending the school, Ken got knocked over.
When he opened his eyes a second after the fall, he was presented with
an apologetic movie star on top of him.
"I'm sorry,
I tripped."
"It's okay,"
said Ken, trying not to stare. Kamura
Naozumi, it would appear, was just as good looking in real life as he was in
film.
"Could you
help me, please?" he asked, apparently unaware of the crowds of people
surrounding him who would have been happy to help. "I'm looking for Yamanaka-sensei's Calculus
class."
"Yeah,"
said Ken with a smile, "I've got that class now, I can help you out."
Kamura
smiled widely. "Thank you very
much. My name is Kamura Naozumi," he
extended his hand, introducing himself as if he were anyone else who Ken had no
reason to know the name of.
"Nigahara
Ken," replied Ken, shaking Naozumi's hand.
For the
next four years, Naozumi had been at the school and remained friends with Ken
for reasons Ken could not understand.
Now, having heard about Naozumi's love of being unrecognized, he
wondered if that was the reason. Ken had
never spoken to him or treated him like anything other than another boy (albeit
a boy he was very interested in). A man
in the press had seen Ken and offered him a bit part in a film. Ken had accepted with a shrug and soon got
larger roles. There was nothing big, but
some larger roles at least. Naozumi had
needed to leave the school, and Ken had found himself with a lot more heartache
than with regular crushes.
Then the
movie in America had come up, and Ken had decided to go. He hadn't known Kamura Naozumi would be in it
until they met at the airport. Naozumi
had hugged him, and suddenly he'd realized he was in love. He'd embraced Naozumi and hadn't let go.
Now they'd
been working together for six months.
Ken hadn't been able to put a name to what he'd been feeling before the
movie, though. Love was a very strange
term to a seventeen year old boy. Of
course, Kurata Sana was getting married at eighteen, announcing it at
seventeen, and breaking Nao's heart.
It hurt, of
course, for Ken to know that Naozumi loved Sana. When they had been friends, Naozumi had never
said it, but Ken had known. There was
something in the way that Naozumi spoke about her, the way his eyes lit up
whenever one of her commercials or shows was on. Again, Ken had never thought of himself as in
love, but he had known there was a sharp sting whenever he saw the way Naozumi
watched the screen. He had thought it
would go away after awhile.
He hadn't
let go of Naozumi as they embraced, and he had been flooded with emotions so
quickly he hadn't been able to examine half of them, or even name the rest. All he knew was that he never wanted to let
go. All good things had to end, though,
and the two pulled away from each other, not embarrassed, but merely over.
And
suddenly, Nigahara Ken was in love.
So, of
course, as Nao looked up at him with pleading eyes, he had no real choice.
"Yes," said
Ken, "I'll go."
Sometimes
Ken thought he should have let go. He
wondered if Naozumi knew that once one got something to hold on to, it was hell
to let go.
Owari.