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Part II: What shall we do?

"Yep, Vampire. Well, I will just have to see for myself." Buffy said solemnly. "I wish I could help, but obviously I can't." "Nope. You can't. Sorry." She spoke quietly, "What should I do now?" "Invite her in and... " "And what?" Buffy prodded. "I don't know I haven't gotten that far in my train of thought." "Oh. OK." "Where was she this afternoon? That's what I can ask her. We were supposed to go Brozing, but she didn't come." "Ask her. Don't invite her in though, not until you know she is not a vampire." "Will do. Go upstairs and wait in my room for me. I will be up in about ten minutes."

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"Sorry, I couldn't find the CD's. Want to help me look?" Buffy asked as she came back to the door sounding disappointed. "It is OK. I'll help you look." "Before you do, I have a question to ask you. Where were you this afternoon? We were supposed go Bronzing." "Oh. I totally forgot. I went to LA to see my friend Alyson. She lives there. We went shopping together most of the afternoon. I came home about a half an hour before I ran into you. I'm sorry. How did it go?" "Oh...We didn't go for too long. We missed you a little. Well, Xander did." "Figures. Are we gonna look for those CD's or what?" "Yeah." Buffy said as she walked through the threshold. "Let's go."

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Angel waited upstairs in Buffy's room as he was asked. He hid Buffy's CD's under her bed pillows and there he found an envelope with his name on it in Buffy's handwriting. He opened it up and found a large post-it-note attached to a piece of notebook paper. The post-it-note said:

Angel, I don't really know if you will read this letter anytime soon. Someday you will. Then you will understand how much I love you.

He opened the letter. He read a very sad and touching note.

Dear Angel, I know you may never read this letter, but I must write it to let my feelings out. I know you better than you think. You killed Jenny Calendar. Miss Calendar was using a computer program to give you back your soul. I want you to have your soul back for the reasons followed. I love you; I love you with all of my heart. I also wanted you to have your soul back because then you would be here with me. So what if we could never be together like we were on my birthday? I just want to be together, with you and you alone. I don't want anybody else. Just you. I love you so very much and I hope you never leave me, even if the world ends. I love you with all my heart my sweet, soul-full boyfriend.

Love, Buffy

Angel realized how much Buffy actually loved him. Quickly he put the letter in his pocket. Just then, Buffy walked in and Willow followed in quietly. "Did you find them?" Buffy asked innocently. "No, I didn't. Willow, why don't you keep looking. I have to talk to Buffy privately." "OK. No problem. I will come down after I have found them." Willow replied. Buffy and Angel walked downstairs to the kitchen and Buffy asked, "Did you find the letter?" "Yes, I found the letter." Buffy got out two glasses filled one with water and one with lemonade. She hands the water to Angel and gave the water to Angel. He took it and set it down on the table. "Thank you." "Do you actually think that I wrote the letter the night you killed Jenny Calendar?" she asked "No. You wrote that the night you sent me to Hell. The ending gave it away." he replied "See, I knew you would figure it out." Buffy said brightly, then added very softly, "The whole letter is true. I just wanted you to know that." Angel nodded. "I know it's true. I also know that I could give it back and say I wrote it, obviously changing some of the words, and it is true also. I love you. I always will. I will never stop. Ever." "Me too!" Buffy exclaimed, "Maybe we should go see if Willow has found the CD's yet." "Good idea." Just then Willow walked in with Buffy's CD case in hand. " I found them! They were underneath your bed pillows." "Thanks. Did you take out the one you want?" "Yeah, I did. Well, I better go. Oz and Xander are probably waiting at my house already. See you later!" Willow said as she ran through the back door. "She's OK. I didn't invite her in. She came in herself. So she's not a vampire. That's a good sign." "Very." Angel remarked, "What is this? Oh...Willow left her package on the table. I will go give it to her on my way home." He kissed Buffy on the forehead. "Goodbye." He left quietly. Angel caught up with Willow and handed her the package. "Here you go. You left this on Buffy's kitchen table." "Oh. Please give it back now." Willow said defensively. "Hey calm down. You just left it on Buffy's table. What is in the package?" He ripped it open and found a bottle of Doximol. "Doximol? Doximol? Do you know what Doximol does?" "Yes. I know what it does. It creates happiness. For you and Buffy." "Do you realizes what will happen if you give me Doximol?" "I know exactly what will happen...Actually I'm counting on it." "Counting on it? Why?" Angel asked suspiciously as he turned around. "I'm sorry. I only wanted you to be happy for Buffy." Willow cried. "I am happy." He turned and smiles at Willow through his vampire visage. "Perfectly happy." He tried to bite her neck. She backed up and ran away. He gave chase. While running Willow said the incantation for the spell.

This evil demon who hates her so The man inside whom loves her so Let the man inside have his happiness with her Let the demon have his lust for blood and Drain the blood of a blossoming witch to Give the man mortal status For I say by the way of him, her and the Gods.

As soon as she reached her house she told Angel that he is invited in and to follow her. He did and she made her way down to the basement. She had set up for this night for almost a week; the mortalization of Angel. She grabs a brown glass and drinks what is inside. The potion, which would turn Angel human. "Before you do anything. I have one thing to say. Please leave two pints of blood so that I may wither in pain for a few minutes after you are done. Could you do that for me?" "Yeah, sure, whatever you want." He said slightly amused. He started walking toward her as she took her hair and moved it to offer her neck. He walked up to her and tore her neck open. He drank her blood as fast as he could, but left enough for her to wither in pain for a few moments. After he did he looked at her with a hateful look in his eyes. He went back to the mansion and wrote a note.

Buffy, I hope you have a really strong stomach. If you don't you're not going to handle what is coming.

-Angelus

He returned to Willow's and set the note next to her. He left and returned to the mansion. He walked in the door and found his love, Buffy, sitting there crying. He walked up to her. "Why are you crying?" he asked in a soft voice. " Angel! Oh I am so glad you are here! Drusilla came back this afternoon looking for you. I thought since I had not saw you since you left my house with the package, you had found her and something happened. Like she staked you or something like that." Angel replied sarcastically, "Yeah, wouldn't want that to happen. I mean, I am her sire." "What? Why are you talking like that?" "I knew she was here. I ran right into her about ten minutes ago." "You. You knew?" "Of course I knew." "How?" "See, I knew you wouldn't be able to handle that I could actually have known Drusilla was here. In fact she never left." "Angel! How could you talk to me like that?" "Relax. I..." he said as he passed out in front of her. Buffy dragged Angel upstairs and put him in his bed. "I'm so sorry I had to do this. Willow told me that if it was going to work, it had to be this way. I will be back soon." She turned and left.

To be continued...