Title: No one cares
Author: True faith
E mail: truefaith@hushmail.com
Summary: Someone's thought on the loss of family members
Disclaimer: Don't won anything do with buffy or angel or anything joss himself created
No one cares
There is a danger roaming the streets a person that kills without remorse that takes life and destroys without remorse, people that have never even crossed that killer's path.
It happened again last night another one of my brothers taken from me by that killer.
Day after day I lose a friend a loved one to that murderer.
I don't know how much longer I can take watching my family my children my loved ones fall victim to that thing.
I remember when it first started I went to visit my mum and found that she had been taken from me.
The person who made me who gave me life was gone.
There was something I could do about it but it would mean my life as well and I don't think I am brave enough to try yet.
Anyone who has lost someone that they love can understand what I mean when I say a part of you dies with that person.
Each time I leave the house now I am so afraid that I am going to be next and I know there is nothing I can do to stop it.
I usually think why me what did I do what did my family do to deserve this treatment to be hunted by something someone I or them have never seen and hope never to meet.
I used to have a lot of family a lot of friends but since we moved ourselves to this town we have been dying of one by one thanks to her.
I know what she thinks, she thinks she is doing her job that this is what she is meant to do but has she ever thought about it?
I guess we can't really blame her she was trained for this it's her sacred duty but all I see is my family my children being murdered one by one.
People think we are just monsters that we can't miss a fallen loved one or a murdered family member but we can.
When you sire someone it's bond beyond family beyond love.
You gift that person with eternal life.
When you are one of us the greatest gift you can give someone is eternal life, it's the only thing we have left to give.
No one cares what I think anyway you mortals think we can't love but in the words of the person that gifted me with immortality we can love we can love quite well if not wisely.
I should have listed to Dru when she told me to get out of course she would not leave as spike was still obsessing about his quest to kill the slayer.
And now she is gone and spike will be soon if he does not give up this dumb quest to kill the slayer.
Maybe I sound like a coward but I don't want to die okay I don't want to die for good.
I sometimes think about explaining to her what she has done to me what she has put me through but what would she care after all I am just a vampire he reason for being is to kill my kind to destroy my race.
I guess shouldn't complain I guess I have killed a lot of her kind.
Anyway no one cares what I think and it's sundown and I need to feed
I wonder if I will make it back alive this time?
And so I go off to find some dinner.
I think I understand now, I go out every night and take someone that she cares about not a family member or loved one but it's her job to care about every member of her pitiful species.
I know she will get to me eventually but until she does I will make the most of what I have left and feed, feed till she stops me and I know she will.
My time is coming I can feel it and when it does at least I won't have to bear the pain of losing anymore of my children.
Feedback Welcomed Good and bad.
Author: True faith
E mail: truefaith@hushmail.com
Summary: Someone's thought on the loss of family members
Disclaimer: Don't won anything do with buffy or angel or anything joss himself created
No one cares
There is a danger roaming the streets a person that kills without remorse that takes life and destroys without remorse, people that have never even crossed that killer's path.
It happened again last night another one of my brothers taken from me by that killer.
Day after day I lose a friend a loved one to that murderer.
I don't know how much longer I can take watching my family my children my loved ones fall victim to that thing.
I remember when it first started I went to visit my mum and found that she had been taken from me.
The person who made me who gave me life was gone.
There was something I could do about it but it would mean my life as well and I don't think I am brave enough to try yet.
Anyone who has lost someone that they love can understand what I mean when I say a part of you dies with that person.
Each time I leave the house now I am so afraid that I am going to be next and I know there is nothing I can do to stop it.
I usually think why me what did I do what did my family do to deserve this treatment to be hunted by something someone I or them have never seen and hope never to meet.
I used to have a lot of family a lot of friends but since we moved ourselves to this town we have been dying of one by one thanks to her.
I know what she thinks, she thinks she is doing her job that this is what she is meant to do but has she ever thought about it?
I guess we can't really blame her she was trained for this it's her sacred duty but all I see is my family my children being murdered one by one.
People think we are just monsters that we can't miss a fallen loved one or a murdered family member but we can.
When you sire someone it's bond beyond family beyond love.
You gift that person with eternal life.
When you are one of us the greatest gift you can give someone is eternal life, it's the only thing we have left to give.
No one cares what I think anyway you mortals think we can't love but in the words of the person that gifted me with immortality we can love we can love quite well if not wisely.
I should have listed to Dru when she told me to get out of course she would not leave as spike was still obsessing about his quest to kill the slayer.
And now she is gone and spike will be soon if he does not give up this dumb quest to kill the slayer.
Maybe I sound like a coward but I don't want to die okay I don't want to die for good.
I sometimes think about explaining to her what she has done to me what she has put me through but what would she care after all I am just a vampire he reason for being is to kill my kind to destroy my race.
I guess shouldn't complain I guess I have killed a lot of her kind.
Anyway no one cares what I think and it's sundown and I need to feed
I wonder if I will make it back alive this time?
And so I go off to find some dinner.
I think I understand now, I go out every night and take someone that she cares about not a family member or loved one but it's her job to care about every member of her pitiful species.
I know she will get to me eventually but until she does I will make the most of what I have left and feed, feed till she stops me and I know she will.
My time is coming I can feel it and when it does at least I won't have to bear the pain of losing anymore of my children.
Feedback Welcomed Good and bad.
