Disclaimer: I don't have Digimon. Toei Ltd. does. If I have it, Matt will be the focus in each Digimon's episode. This fanfic was made for entertainment only. It's a Yamachi (YamatoTaichi). Any suggestion (love/hate mail) will be accept with grateful to vivayamato@yahoo.com.
BROKEN ANGEL
By: yamatoforever
Chapter 1 : At The Party
Yamato
I look at the crowd. I feel so sick about the noisy around me. Yet I don't want to leave. Not because this party arranged to celebrate me as the winner of Grand Prix this year. But simply because I feel safe here. I couldn't help to think about those letters again. The words were cutting from newspaper. And the content…
I feel sicker as I lost in mind. At first, I though some mad fan sent them. You know, about they want to fuck me blah blah blah. And the reason I paid a little more time to those letters was because the writer presents himself as a male. I found it a little ridiculous that not only female fall in love with me. But those letters never stop. Everywhere I go, those letters always reach me. My manager always checks the fan mails to make sure those letters are not there. But still when the time I read those letters, the red blood envelope is there. And the content is more dangerous.
Now the writer demands me as his own. And death is mention now. He told me about his fantasy, how to seduce me, how to torture me. How much he likes to fuck me and then see the blood flow from my body. I'm not a coward. But when that mad man mention about the people around me, people I love so much, my family & my friends, I just can't take it anymore.
My manager help me to find my own house, with a very high security, in a very safe place he could find. You could call me paranoid, but you should see what happen to my last manager. She must spend the rest of her life with a stick. And that happen after that mad man scold about how close we were in his mind.
I just couldn't let that happen to my family, to my friends. So I choose to stay far away from them. I couldn't tell them. I hate to make them worry about me. I told my parent but not about the details. I'm glad they took my advice to use alarm in their house. I warned them and Takeru to be careful. But that's all I can do. Takeru just thought that I was over protected again.
And I rarely seeing them again. I miss them so much. Phone is not enough, but I don't know any safety way to keep contact with them without anyone knows. I miss my friends so much. And I feel that's not fair I must be lonely again after I make a progress in my relationship. But I just can't take a back step now. He made clear what he would do to my family if I quit from this music business.
My manager suggested me to take the anti-depressant pills. But I refused. I would never take them. It's useless. The pills would never change anything. It's only making me lost control of my thought. And I hate losing control of myself. It's stupid! It's can't be acceptable!
Taichi
I couldn't take my eyes from him. He looks more beautiful each time I see him. He always is the slim one and yet he looks slimmer now. And the loneliness & sorrow are back again in his eyes. And it hurt me to see him that's way. Sorrow should never touch my angel…. Yes, my angel.
I didn't know exactly when did this feeling begin. First time I knew him, I thought he was a jerk. He didn't care for anything, anyone. But then I learn the truth that he is the most sensitive person I ever know. That so much happens in his life, not the happy ones. He avoids being close to anyone because he didn't want to feel the pain of losing someone he loves so much.
But he couldn't hide his love. It's radiate from all of his body to Takeru. It's hurt to see how much he care for his brother and yet he couldn't express it or said it aloud. And after we thought he didn't care for any of us… He reacted when we'd in dangerous showed the difference way!
And I can't stop thinking about him. I feel so happy to be his best friend. I feel jealous when I hear girls talking about their love to him. First, I though I'm jealous about how easy he can attract girls. Or maybe I'm afraid I will loose my best friend. But finally I realize. I'm afraid to loosing him because I fall in love with him.
After I realize my feeling, I really don't know how to face him. I feel my heart beating much faster when he looks at me. I couldn't help to stare at him when he didn't realize, or just a quick glance. I know this feeling would never have a happy ending. But that sense is useless. I can't control my feeling.
And suddenly he moved. I got his address & phone number from Takeru. He gave us all without asked permission to his elder. Yamato seem not like it. And lately he hardly hangs around with us again. Okay, he never does that again. And I miss him so badly. He even didn't invite us to this party. That's not like him.
There's a fear inside me. That he finally realizes about my feeling to him. That after all he did catch me staring at him. And he doesn't feel the same way to me. So he tries to make a distance. That explains about his strange behavior lately. And it hurts me so much. I love him so much. And I choose to be with him as his best friend than being ignored like this.
So I decided to speak to him. I want to clear the problem once and for all. I want him to know that I understand that he doesn't love me. So it's all right for me just to be his friend. I can accept that. That's why I asked Takeru if all of us could come to the party to congratulate him. And Takeru didn't disappoint me.
Yamato's manager just couldn't say no to him. So we all came. He still didn't notice our present here. He is alone now in the corner. I know this is the right time to talk to him. So I didn't want to waste my chance. I took a deep breath to calm down myself.
Yamato
"That's not the look of the young man who celebrate his success at his seventeen. You don't look beautiful in that sorrow face."
I jumped as the voice wakes me from my thought. Then I recognize the person immediately. I try to hide my surprise with a blank expression and say, "As a man, what joy do I have if someone say I'm beautiful?"
"Sorry. Me myself would be glad to take it," Taichi muttered. But I could see the smile. And I couldn't help to laugh a little.
"That's better. Finally I could see you laughing. You've been act like you are mourning something all the time."
I just gave him a weak smile for his comment.
"Congratulation. You deserve it. You the most talent singer I know."
"And how many singer do you know, may I know?" I try not to smile.
"Well…. One." And we both laugh. Boy, it feels so good to laugh like this.
He observed at me with curious. "Your songs lately are dark. I mean the lyrics. Someone will think you are under depress or something. Are you all right? You look thinner. Have you eat enough?"
I force myself to laugh. "O, of course. Well, sort of. You know my schedule is so full lately. But I eat enough. And the songs… I just want to make something different. That's all." Liar! My appetite is ruin because of those letters. Even if I not that busy, I hardly to eat. My songs are more honest than I am.
"There's black rings in your eyes. When did the last time you sleep?" ask him.
"Before I wake up. Look, Taichi. I appreciate your concern but there is nothing to worry about. I'm a big boy, you know."
He smiles unsure to my joke. Well, me either. Those letters really haunt me. I feel so exhaust but yet I don't feel sleepy. I know I destroy myself, not sleep & eat well. But I just couldn't help. But why should I bother Taichi with my problem? He is my best friend. I hate to make him worry about me.
Taichi
I know he was hiding something. I just knew. But I don't want to push him. So we just talk. And I could see him enjoying this little chat. I'm beginning to think I was worry about nothing. Then I saw the letter in a table behind him. The envelope is red like blood. And the address was from cutting letters. It was for him.
"Your fan mail? An eccentric one, I see."
He looked at that thing with a horror. He opened it & read it. He looks so sick & his hands are tremble.
Yamato
"So, enjoying your chat with that brown kid? You're slut! It was the last time you cheating from me. I'm gonna fuck you again & again. I'm gonna cut you and see the blood spouted from your body. Can you imagine it? How beautiful that red water covers your pale skin. O, I just can't wait to see that. So do you right? - Your beloved one."
I'm not safe here. I realize that. He follows me everywhere. Even in this place with so many securities. And Taichi. He's in dangerous just because I talked to him. My fear is come true. O God, not Taichi. Not my best friend.
"Yamato, are you all right?"
For a while I speechless. And I could not even move. But finally I nodded. When I began to speak I realize my voice is trembling. But I just couldn't help it.
"I just too tired. I think I better go now & have some rest. Mm, Taichi. Be careful, would you?"
"Huh? From what?"
"For anything. Robbery, accident, anything. Lock your door & be careful to a stranger or anything"
His face is puzzle. But I just couldn't think anything right now. I just want to get out from that place. The sooner the better. I squeeze the letter with a tremble hand & throw it away to the basket.
"I must go now. Nice to talk to you again, Taichi."
Taichi
Okay, something is really wrong here. He looked like he just saw a ghost. And his face…how pale it is suddenly. I take the sheet from the basket & read it. I could feel my face hardener as I read it. Suddenly I understand. I rush to find Yamato's manager. I gave him the letter. By his expression, I knew that I was right.
It's explaining all his changes lately. But I just want to hear it from the manager's mouth to ensure me. So I hear about those sick letters. How they still delivery to Yamato wherever and whenever he is. How the last manager end. How he lost his weight a lot lately. And his sleep.
"He is pretending that everything is all right. He just doesn't want to worry his family. I don't know how he can stand to do the concert and anything. I really worry about him. He seems like he would be fall anytime. He refuse to use any anti-depressant pills, although he needs them badly."
I looked at the letter again. Suddenly I feel so mad. Mad to the crazy man who torments my angel. Mad to my angel because he took it on his shoulder alone. I mean, who did he think I am? I'm his best friend, for God's sake. Friends should be helping each other. Maybe I couldn't help much, but at least I could stay. He didn't need to be alone, not in the situation like this! And I want him to know about this. So I put my coat & went away.
* So, who is the crazy man anyway? Would Yamato finally free from him or got kill for trying? ^_^
BROKEN ANGEL
By: yamatoforever
Chapter 1 : At The Party
Yamato
I look at the crowd. I feel so sick about the noisy around me. Yet I don't want to leave. Not because this party arranged to celebrate me as the winner of Grand Prix this year. But simply because I feel safe here. I couldn't help to think about those letters again. The words were cutting from newspaper. And the content…
I feel sicker as I lost in mind. At first, I though some mad fan sent them. You know, about they want to fuck me blah blah blah. And the reason I paid a little more time to those letters was because the writer presents himself as a male. I found it a little ridiculous that not only female fall in love with me. But those letters never stop. Everywhere I go, those letters always reach me. My manager always checks the fan mails to make sure those letters are not there. But still when the time I read those letters, the red blood envelope is there. And the content is more dangerous.
Now the writer demands me as his own. And death is mention now. He told me about his fantasy, how to seduce me, how to torture me. How much he likes to fuck me and then see the blood flow from my body. I'm not a coward. But when that mad man mention about the people around me, people I love so much, my family & my friends, I just can't take it anymore.
My manager help me to find my own house, with a very high security, in a very safe place he could find. You could call me paranoid, but you should see what happen to my last manager. She must spend the rest of her life with a stick. And that happen after that mad man scold about how close we were in his mind.
I just couldn't let that happen to my family, to my friends. So I choose to stay far away from them. I couldn't tell them. I hate to make them worry about me. I told my parent but not about the details. I'm glad they took my advice to use alarm in their house. I warned them and Takeru to be careful. But that's all I can do. Takeru just thought that I was over protected again.
And I rarely seeing them again. I miss them so much. Phone is not enough, but I don't know any safety way to keep contact with them without anyone knows. I miss my friends so much. And I feel that's not fair I must be lonely again after I make a progress in my relationship. But I just can't take a back step now. He made clear what he would do to my family if I quit from this music business.
My manager suggested me to take the anti-depressant pills. But I refused. I would never take them. It's useless. The pills would never change anything. It's only making me lost control of my thought. And I hate losing control of myself. It's stupid! It's can't be acceptable!
Taichi
I couldn't take my eyes from him. He looks more beautiful each time I see him. He always is the slim one and yet he looks slimmer now. And the loneliness & sorrow are back again in his eyes. And it hurt me to see him that's way. Sorrow should never touch my angel…. Yes, my angel.
I didn't know exactly when did this feeling begin. First time I knew him, I thought he was a jerk. He didn't care for anything, anyone. But then I learn the truth that he is the most sensitive person I ever know. That so much happens in his life, not the happy ones. He avoids being close to anyone because he didn't want to feel the pain of losing someone he loves so much.
But he couldn't hide his love. It's radiate from all of his body to Takeru. It's hurt to see how much he care for his brother and yet he couldn't express it or said it aloud. And after we thought he didn't care for any of us… He reacted when we'd in dangerous showed the difference way!
And I can't stop thinking about him. I feel so happy to be his best friend. I feel jealous when I hear girls talking about their love to him. First, I though I'm jealous about how easy he can attract girls. Or maybe I'm afraid I will loose my best friend. But finally I realize. I'm afraid to loosing him because I fall in love with him.
After I realize my feeling, I really don't know how to face him. I feel my heart beating much faster when he looks at me. I couldn't help to stare at him when he didn't realize, or just a quick glance. I know this feeling would never have a happy ending. But that sense is useless. I can't control my feeling.
And suddenly he moved. I got his address & phone number from Takeru. He gave us all without asked permission to his elder. Yamato seem not like it. And lately he hardly hangs around with us again. Okay, he never does that again. And I miss him so badly. He even didn't invite us to this party. That's not like him.
There's a fear inside me. That he finally realizes about my feeling to him. That after all he did catch me staring at him. And he doesn't feel the same way to me. So he tries to make a distance. That explains about his strange behavior lately. And it hurts me so much. I love him so much. And I choose to be with him as his best friend than being ignored like this.
So I decided to speak to him. I want to clear the problem once and for all. I want him to know that I understand that he doesn't love me. So it's all right for me just to be his friend. I can accept that. That's why I asked Takeru if all of us could come to the party to congratulate him. And Takeru didn't disappoint me.
Yamato's manager just couldn't say no to him. So we all came. He still didn't notice our present here. He is alone now in the corner. I know this is the right time to talk to him. So I didn't want to waste my chance. I took a deep breath to calm down myself.
Yamato
"That's not the look of the young man who celebrate his success at his seventeen. You don't look beautiful in that sorrow face."
I jumped as the voice wakes me from my thought. Then I recognize the person immediately. I try to hide my surprise with a blank expression and say, "As a man, what joy do I have if someone say I'm beautiful?"
"Sorry. Me myself would be glad to take it," Taichi muttered. But I could see the smile. And I couldn't help to laugh a little.
"That's better. Finally I could see you laughing. You've been act like you are mourning something all the time."
I just gave him a weak smile for his comment.
"Congratulation. You deserve it. You the most talent singer I know."
"And how many singer do you know, may I know?" I try not to smile.
"Well…. One." And we both laugh. Boy, it feels so good to laugh like this.
He observed at me with curious. "Your songs lately are dark. I mean the lyrics. Someone will think you are under depress or something. Are you all right? You look thinner. Have you eat enough?"
I force myself to laugh. "O, of course. Well, sort of. You know my schedule is so full lately. But I eat enough. And the songs… I just want to make something different. That's all." Liar! My appetite is ruin because of those letters. Even if I not that busy, I hardly to eat. My songs are more honest than I am.
"There's black rings in your eyes. When did the last time you sleep?" ask him.
"Before I wake up. Look, Taichi. I appreciate your concern but there is nothing to worry about. I'm a big boy, you know."
He smiles unsure to my joke. Well, me either. Those letters really haunt me. I feel so exhaust but yet I don't feel sleepy. I know I destroy myself, not sleep & eat well. But I just couldn't help. But why should I bother Taichi with my problem? He is my best friend. I hate to make him worry about me.
Taichi
I know he was hiding something. I just knew. But I don't want to push him. So we just talk. And I could see him enjoying this little chat. I'm beginning to think I was worry about nothing. Then I saw the letter in a table behind him. The envelope is red like blood. And the address was from cutting letters. It was for him.
"Your fan mail? An eccentric one, I see."
He looked at that thing with a horror. He opened it & read it. He looks so sick & his hands are tremble.
Yamato
"So, enjoying your chat with that brown kid? You're slut! It was the last time you cheating from me. I'm gonna fuck you again & again. I'm gonna cut you and see the blood spouted from your body. Can you imagine it? How beautiful that red water covers your pale skin. O, I just can't wait to see that. So do you right? - Your beloved one."
I'm not safe here. I realize that. He follows me everywhere. Even in this place with so many securities. And Taichi. He's in dangerous just because I talked to him. My fear is come true. O God, not Taichi. Not my best friend.
"Yamato, are you all right?"
For a while I speechless. And I could not even move. But finally I nodded. When I began to speak I realize my voice is trembling. But I just couldn't help it.
"I just too tired. I think I better go now & have some rest. Mm, Taichi. Be careful, would you?"
"Huh? From what?"
"For anything. Robbery, accident, anything. Lock your door & be careful to a stranger or anything"
His face is puzzle. But I just couldn't think anything right now. I just want to get out from that place. The sooner the better. I squeeze the letter with a tremble hand & throw it away to the basket.
"I must go now. Nice to talk to you again, Taichi."
Taichi
Okay, something is really wrong here. He looked like he just saw a ghost. And his face…how pale it is suddenly. I take the sheet from the basket & read it. I could feel my face hardener as I read it. Suddenly I understand. I rush to find Yamato's manager. I gave him the letter. By his expression, I knew that I was right.
It's explaining all his changes lately. But I just want to hear it from the manager's mouth to ensure me. So I hear about those sick letters. How they still delivery to Yamato wherever and whenever he is. How the last manager end. How he lost his weight a lot lately. And his sleep.
"He is pretending that everything is all right. He just doesn't want to worry his family. I don't know how he can stand to do the concert and anything. I really worry about him. He seems like he would be fall anytime. He refuse to use any anti-depressant pills, although he needs them badly."
I looked at the letter again. Suddenly I feel so mad. Mad to the crazy man who torments my angel. Mad to my angel because he took it on his shoulder alone. I mean, who did he think I am? I'm his best friend, for God's sake. Friends should be helping each other. Maybe I couldn't help much, but at least I could stay. He didn't need to be alone, not in the situation like this! And I want him to know about this. So I put my coat & went away.
* So, who is the crazy man anyway? Would Yamato finally free from him or got kill for trying? ^_^
