All right, this is the next chapter. Sorry for the delay. I put the lyric of "Whisper in the Dark" by Obsession. Before you sue me, I don't have digimon and also the song. Satisfy? And I don't have any knowledge about surgery, so sorry if I put a very minor detail here.
Thanks for all the reviews you gave. I really appreciate that. I want to explain why I use the word Yamachi instead of Taito. Why..you must already know that I'm Matt's biggest fan. So I will always use the word Yama-who for any fics I will write. Sorry if I misleading you. But in my fic and others that will follow Matt would be the uke. So I guess I should called it Taito (but I WANT to call it Yamachi…. Sobbed….)
Thanks for Faith to correct my poor grammar. I guess the right word is the unknown, not unknowingness. I admit that English is not my first language. So be patient for my grammar and I try my best to correct them. Anyway, I editted the first two chapters. I hope it would make this fic more sense for you.So e-mail me about this chapter, will you?

Chapter 3 : The Confession

There's the sound of the machines. The operation has gone for hours. They have not made any progress yet.
"Doctor, his tension is drop. We're gonna loosing him."
"No, we wouldn't!" Dr. Kido snapped the man.
Yamato, don't die! You too young to end your journey. Yes, everyone would die. But not like this. You would grow old, get marry, has some kids, and die in your bed. Not like this!!!
His thought broke by the alert sound. "Doctor Kido, his heart stop beating!"

Taichi
I sat there. I really lost track in time. It seems like forever. And yet they don't come out. It's good. It's mean Yamato still alive. Right? I buried my head in my hands with frustration.
"Taichi?" I looked at the pale face of Takeru. "Can we talk?"
I nodded. I should know this would come. But I didn't expect it to be so soon. So we went to the corner. I could feel the others stare at us from their place.
"Do you really love my brother?"
I groaned. "Looks, Takeru. I don't mean to hurt you. But yes, I'm in love with Yamato. I know I shouldn't. And I'm not proud to myself either. I just couldn't stop this feeling. I'm so sorry."
"Don't be." I looked at him with surprise. He smiles sadly. "We already knew about your feeling. We just never sure would you finally tell him or not."
"You.. All of you know?" I looked at him with horror.
"Don't look at me like that. You did nothing wrong. In fact, you safe his life."
"How…how could you say that? You know who I love!"
"Love would never be wrong. We can't choose the people we want to fall in love with, as we can't choose the people who love us. It's just the way it is. All I know is you love him and you already proof that."
"Did… Did he know? Did he feel the same?" I asked softly.
"I don't know. After so many things happen, he still not shows his feeling easily. He always hides things, private things, from us. If he's not, I probably would know about that crazy man, wouldn't I?"
I felt bitterness in his voice. "Takeru, he just tried not to make you worry about him. He loves you. You should know what that maniac wrote about you. Yamato just couldn't risk your life. He loves you too much."
"I know he does," he whispered.

Takeru
I tried to smile to say I'm fine. But yet I'm not. I love my brother so much. And I know he loves me. You could sense it radiate from him instantly. My brother always protects me. He always there when I need someone to talk to. And I know he always support me in everything I do.
There's never being a day without I treasure the brotherhood I have. And I want to do something that's made him realize how much I love him. Yet, I never have a chance. He the one who always helps me and I just never does the same to him. He never gives me the chance! He never let me worry about him. O why won't you, big bro? You don't know how much it would mean for me. Just being there when you need me like you always done.
The door is open. We immediately rush to it. A man pushes the bed where my brother lies. He looks so pale, so fragile. I could feel my heart cried. I could hear Jyou's father talked to my dad.
"We have done what we could. Just pray that he would awake in three days. If he doesn't, I suggest you to prepare for the worse."

Taichi
He still doesn't wake up yet. It's been 3 days now. If he doesn't wake up in the next 6 hours… I shook my head. I just don't want to think of that. Neither of us wants to leave this hospital. So our parents went home and get some clothes for change. We just sit here in his room and waiting. And I become more depress as I got the feeling he would never wake up.
Sawai is in jail now. He has been charged for murdered the security guy and also for trial of murder & rape Yamato. It's seem he already plant it. He left the party & broke the electricity. And he went back and tried to get Yamato home. But he found out Yamato was talking to me. That's made him so mad. So he created the letter and put it on the table behind Yamato to distract him. That's made the delay. I could never forgive myself for that. How could I do not see him put the letter?
I guess my attention is full of Yamato. How I miss him so badly. So I didn't aware for anything else. Just him. Jyou's father said that my appearance has distracted Sawai's attention. So the second stab missed Yamato's heart only a few millimeters. That's made me feel a little relief. The police found the newspaper he cut off in the rest room. And with my testify he would be in jail for a very long time. And yet my broken angel still not recovers yet. O God, please, Yama-chan. Please open your beautiful blue sapphire eyes again and tell me everything would be alright.
I heard some noisy in the hospital's park. So I got up & went to the window. My eyes widely open as I saw a crowd of people, each carry a candle. And they keep coming until the park full of them. The darkness of the night was replace by the light of those candles. And then they began to sing. I recognize it as one of Yamato's new songs. The ones I don't really like because about the sorrow lyrics.
Crying on your mother's pillow
Crying cause of something that you see
Lie awake alone in your room
Too scared to even look behind your door
But when you're young
Your eyes are so sure
All you see is real, not in your mind
You know at night the candle blows

Whispers in the dark
Everyone hears
Something 'bout the dark
It makes us listen to our fears
Whispers in the dark
They call your name
You can't escape the dark
When light just dwindles like a flame

Paint a face on your desire
Paint a picturesque view of your heart
Take a slice of all the answers
The riddle ends where all your daydreams start
Cause if you look you'd see the whole world
Go round its only friend
And realize the world with out a sun just

Whispers in the dark
Everyone hears
Something 'bout the dark
It makes us listen to our fears
Whispers in the dark
They call your name
You can't escape the dark
When light just dwindles like a flame

Love will find it's own way
Even in the dark
This time someone shut the gates
Around your heart
And lonely somehow lost the key
Some things are meant to be

But when you're young
Your eyes are so sure
All you see is real, not in your mind
You know at night the candle blows

Whispers in the dark
Everyone hears
Something 'bout the dark
It makes us listen to our fears
Whispers in the dark
They call your name
You can't escape the dark
When light just dwindles like a flame

Whispers in the dark
Everyone hears
Whispers in the dark
They make us listen to our fears

I feel a little irony. Here are the people who love Yamato so much. They sang his song so he could hear it and maybe just wake up. But the song they choose is one of the dark ones. But after I hear at it seriously I found hope in it. Is that what you want to tell us, Yamato? Yet life is cruel and life would try anything to break you down, there is hope. If only we don't give up, we would find the way.
Yes, it's sound like my Yama-chan. He knew very well how hard life could be. He already in it. But he refuses to give up. Not then, not now. And I criticize him like I was an expert. I never really know you, do I? I just thought I knew you. But you not the transparent kind of guy too. I smile bitterly for my foolishness.
Finally I think I know the really you. Your songs are your thoughts. You always search light behind the gray color of life, search life behind the frustration. Each song of yours is your battle through life. You didn't want to be surrounded by the negative elements, but you also aware the elements are there. Your songs are more likely to be called thoughtful songs then just songs. I just hope that it is not too late to really know you, understand you.
Suddenly I heard a faint scream. We all looked at the sound direction. I don't believe it but the song was working. My angel opened his eyes. We rushed at him just to make him struggle more in panic. I realized that he was scared. He didn't recognize us in his terror. I push the others away and simply hugged him. I could felt he tried to push me away.
"It's alright, Yama-chan. It just us. The bastard is in jail now. He couldn't hurt you anymore." I try my best to calm him. And I felt his body loosen it's tensed in my arms. And then he cried. He cried out all of his pain in the last six month. The others looked at us in solemn.

Takeru
The good thing about that horrible situation is my parent is back together. Well, they are not yet marrying again. But they will. I could sense that. My mum and I are staying in my dad's house to accompany my brother. I'm glad the hospital finally releases him. He passed his crisis but yet he didn't.
I mean he never sleep enough. Those nightmares always haunt him. He always woke up with silent scream. Taichi never leave his side. He just sit next of the bed & held my brother arm. And it's work. It could calm down him a little. So I asked my parent if Taichi could stay with us for a couple days.
I could see the uneasy looks in their face. And I suddenly realize. They knew about Taichi's feeling. And they don't feel comfortable with it. Finally my dad nodded. I guess they decided the main prior now is my brother, not their feeling. So Hikari brought the exchanges for Taichi and he still just sit by my brother side.
And that's just one little problem about my brother. He couldn't eat and drink anything. Every time he tries to swallow something, he just get so sick and throw up. Jyou's father said something like there's nothing wrong with him physically, but mentally. So he suggested us to ask help from the expert.
My parent tried to pick my brother to the expert but he began to panic about the idea leaving this house. So they gave up. Beside, it wouldn't be the easy way with all the reporters outside. So they called the man and asked him if he could come. He did came. I don't know what did he say to my brother. I could hear him sobbed, yelling at that man, screaming, and finally broke into a hard cry. And it's hurt me so much to see him that's way. I could see Taichi feel the same too.

Taichi
It's been a week since he went home. No progress yet except for his sleep. After found out that's I always be there every time he wake up, he managed to sleep more peaceful. But still he couldn't swallow anything. So Jyou's father must give him IV from time to time. And it's hurt me to see his thin arms cover by small wounds.
Our friends visit a lot. He tried so hard to keep steady, stem, like he wanted to say that he's all right. That he is not that weak. But still we could see how fragile he is. Our friends said their thank you for his effort to protect them by not seeing them. But they would be more appreciate if he told them the problem.
After all, we did survive from Devimon, Etemon, and all the evil digimon by our unity. But then Yamato said, "We did survive from all evil digimon. But the true evil is not they. It's us, human. Every man has the dark side in his heart. We couldn't know when will we fall to the evil inside us."
"Yes, every man has their own darkness. But not everyone would be fall into it." I was so glad to hear what Hikari said. I looked at her with adoration. The crest of Light is really suiting her. Yamato seems to think about her words a lot.
And today I try to make him eat a little. But still he couldn't. I beginning to feel a little bit frustration. "Come on, Yama! You should try much harder. You're killing yourself. It's just not like you! You're a thoughtful one! You never give up. I know that. Your songs all are explain about your struggle to life!"
His eyes wider as he knew that I really understand him. But then the bitter ones are back. "He… He hurt me. He hurt me in a way I never thought it was possible. And now I just don't know how to move on. I… I really try. But I just couldn't forget how… the feel of… his tongue… in my mouth."
His voices become more faint till it's only a whisper. I took his chin and made his eyes meet mine. Could he see all the love that spread from them? "You must try. Don't give up. You're stronger than that."
Suddenly he cried out painfully. "I'm not strong! I'm weak! That's why I try so hard to built barrier around me. Keep my emotion under control! So everyone will see me as a tough guy! Because I knew if I slip down even once I would be ruin! Just like I am now!"
I hugged him so tight. He tensed in my arm but then loosen it and start to sob. After he gained his calm down, he suddenly said, "I was calling at you that night. I thought I was going to die…and I could if you not came. Then you just suddenly appear. I still couldn't believe it, you know, how lucky I am."
My heart is beating faster. He called me. From all the people he knows he called ME! I believe I heard someone said that in the dangerous moment all you ever remember is the person you love most!!! I feel that I'm fly to the seven heavens! But I need to make it clear first for sure.
"You called me twice. The first was before he stabbed you." His eyes are wide by surprise. "How…how did you know?"
That's all I need to know. I hold him so tight and I gently kiss him in full lips.

Yamato
I froze by his kiss. He seems to assume that my silence is my permission for he kisses me more passion, more deep, more longing. His tongue encounters my mouth. But then reality strikes me back. I felt myself trembling in his embrace. .

Taichi
. I confused when suddenly I felt my face wet. I broke the kiss and I could see tears running down on his face. I could see the shock and the fear in his eyes. And I realized that I really screwed up things now.
"Yama-chan…" My voice finally snapped him back to consciousness. He pulled himself from my embrace, still crying silently. His body just shaking badly likes a wounded animal. It's hurt me so much too see how much I had frightened him. Without even thinking, I step forward to hold him, to comfort him. But it's just making him more frightened. He just drew back until his back against the wall. And he was trembling so hard that he needed the wall to support him for standing.
"Don't be afraid to me, Yama-chan. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you. It's just... I love you... I love you for a long time now. I just too afraid to tell you. I'm afraid I will put our friendship in danger. I'm afraid of loosing you. I always wait for the perfect time and the perfect place to tell you that I love you. Then maybe you would take it nicely, no matter if you feels the same way or not.
But it seems that there is no perfect time and perfect place after all. When I saw you hurt that night I was so afraid. I thought that I could never tell you about my feeling. And that's hurt so much. I'm sorry that you must know it like this. But one thing you must know, I never meant to hurt you."
He didn't say anything. But his tears falling more torrents. He still didn't look at me. Just stare blankly to the floor. I take a step to him. "Yama-chan..."
"Please go. Just go…" finally he said faintly. I couldn't hide the pain in my face but I tried to smile. "Alright. If that what you want." So I went and didn't turn back.
Just as I walked out the door, I almost hit Mr. Ishida. From the look on his face, I knew he had heard all. I couldn't look at his eyes. I just murmured goodbye and go.

Yamato
I didn't know what to say. I know that I hurt him. I hurt him so badly. I just couldn't think clearly. I never thought that he loves me that way. I really don't know what to say to him. I never thought of him that way...do I?!! Then why did my heart torn apart when I saw his hurting face? And why did his kiss feel so right and yet so wrong?
I quickly pushed the feeling away. No, I don't want to think about it. But how could I stop this guilty feeling inside me? I don't know how long that I loose in my thought when suddenly it hit me. Could that mean that I love him more than friend just didn't realize that? Is that why his kiss feel so right?
But then I felt that his kiss somehow was so wrong. Because deep inside I feel that if I accept it somehow that's make what Sawai did to me was right. That's somehow it was me that made the whole terrible event appear. And I couldn't bear of the thought. I couldn't live by the knowledge that somehow it's all my fault. That somehow I deserved it.
"Oniichan, are you alright?" Takeru's voice snapped me back to reality.

Takeru
Okay, something is really wrong. I just couldn't figure it yet. Even though he shake his head to say that's he is all right his tears just couldn't stop falling. Is this had something to do with Taichi leaving? Taichi never want to leave my brother alone. So why suddenly he decide to leave?
I know I will never find the answer from my Onichan so I decide to ask Taichi later. Right now I just hold my brother and soothe him back and forth.

Taichi

It's been so hard the next couple days. I feel like my foots are not touching the ground. My parent and Hikari note that something was wrong with me but I just stay quiet. Not respond to their plead to tell them what's wrong.
For my relief, the court finally starts. Good, I really need something to distract my attention. I watched every testify. My hate for Sawai grow bigger and bigger. I feel so sorry for my angel as I knew how much he suffered by the testify of his band and manager. And I heard what the last manager's testify.
How my angel took the letters as a joke but finally he began to consider them more seriously as the letters began more threatening. But she told him not to worry, they just some rubbish from his mad fan because he was so shining.
And then the accident. She said that someone had pushed her from the stairs but she couldn't recognize the person. And her right foot was broken and never recovers. She thought that her future was end.
But my angel is truly an angel. He just couldn't abandon her. He insisted the management that every deal about him must be under her register. So she still get the fee. I could feel the sympathy grow in each juror's heart to my angel. It's good, of course. Then its time for my own testify.
"Do you swear to say the truth and only the truth so help me God?"
"I do."
"Mr. Yagami, you are the first one who found the injury body of Mr. Yamato Ishida. Could you tell us exactly how did you came there and what did you see?"
"Well, we've been friends for years now. Six years, exactly. First time I met him, he was not a very socialize kid. At first, we fight a lot. Only then I realize that behind his mask of cool and tough hidden a very warm and sensitive boy. And then we become friends, eight of us.
About a couple months ago, we noticed that he looked different, somewhat depressed. But he didn't tell us anything, just kept distance from us. So I just wanted to make it clear in the party. To help him if he had a problem or would stay away from his path is he decided that he didn't want to be our friend anymore.
He seems depressed, all right, but he was glad to meet us all. So I believe that the problem was not about us. We talked, just a light conversation because I could sense that he didn't want to talk about his problem. I thought after that warming up conversation he would relax and finally told me the problem.
And that was when I saw the envelope. It's kinda weird. His name were made from the cutting letters from newspaper or sort of. I told him about that letter with a joke that maybe from his mad fan. And suddenly his face began pale and he was trembling. He still didn't tell me anything. Just asked me to be careful for anything and he went away.
I couldn't hide my suspicious and took the letter, which he squeezes it and threw it to a basket. After I read it, I went to his manager to asked him the details."
"Mr. Yagami, is this the same letter that you read back then?" the D.A show me the letter. I looked at it and nod. "I would like this court to clear this item as evident number one." Soon all the jurors have read it.
"What did you do after you realize what's going on?"
"Well, I felt so mad to the writer. And I also mad to Yamato."
"Why?"
"Because he didn't tell us anything! We've been friends for years now. He should tell us about his problem, he didn't have to face it alone. So I went to his house to tell him that. And I felt that something was wrong. The darkness of his neighborhood. Some workers told that the electricity was broken by purpose.
When I arrived, I couldn't see the security. I felt that something wrong was going on. And I thought that I heard him screaming. So I broke inside the house and I saw that man stabbed Yamato." I pointed at Sawai with so much hate in my eyes.
There's nothing interesting happen in the rest of the court. Sawai's attorney didn't push me hard. Just asked that I only saw Sawai stabbed my angel once as if it didn't bad enough he did it! I feel so mad at that attorney and I don't like the smile that he showed. I feel that he's up for something. Something bad, really bad.
And finally I knew it when Takeru phoned me. His voice seems tremble.

Takeru
"I'm sorry to bother you, Taichi. But something happen. Sawai's attorney wants Oniichan to testify. The day after tomorrow."
"HE WHAT?!!" I put the phone as far as possible from my ear. And then he spoke again. His voice is full of concern and worry. "How did Yama-kun take it?"
"Not so good, I'm afraid. Well, he didn't seem fine since you left. When you left that day he just sat in the corner of his bed and pulled his knees to his chest. And he also crying silently. Mm, Taichi, I know it's not my business. But what did going on between you two? And now he seems more depressed for the thought to leave the house and go to the court. He really not in his good shape, you know."
There's a long silence. And I feel not comfortable with it. "Taichi, you're still there?" I could hear he's breathing heavily.
"I'll come to your house now, Takeru." With that he hang up the phone.

Masaharu
I knocked the door. There's no answer but I enter the room anyway. I found him sat in his bed. His knees are pull to his chest and he put his head on them. His eyes are blank and so his expression. He looks so vulnerable. I couldn't help the feeling of anger every time I see him. He used to be the cheerful little boy.
After the divorce, he changed so much. He closed his feeling and never let anyone to be close to him. I guess that's the way he chooses to protect his heart from being hurt again. But even in his loneliness and sorrow, he always had the sparkling in his eyes. The self confident to himself. If he couldn't control his life than no one could.
But now his entire confidant is disappear. He looses his trust on everything, including on himself. All the sudden the world become the most dangerous place. It looses its shine and beauty. So my anger for Sawai grow bigger and bigger. I never thought that I could hate someone so much the way I hate him. I miss my son. I miss the self confident he always showed.
So I come here. I couldn't let him drown in depressed. And I really want to comfort him. I know he felt so terrified after he knew he must go to the court. Damn that attorney! The DA told me the reason that bastard wanted Yamato to show up. He wanted to take opportunity when Yamato still in his weak side. He will ask him unbearable questions so Yamato will break down his emotion. He will use it for his client profit. And I hate him for that.
"Yamato?" He jumped as I tapped his shoulder gently. "Are you all right? Do you want to talk about this?"

Yamato
I just shook my head. What can I say? That I scare to face the world? That I scare to face that man again? That I really wish Taichi is right here to support me? I just shook my head miserably.
"What's make you so upset? The court or because of Taichi's confession?"
I looked at him with wide eyes. He knew? What did he thinking of me? … To him? I don't want him to think less of Taichi. Taichi is a wonderful person. Straight or not. The truth is there's no such thing like straight or not. It's just people who fell in love. Love could never be wrong, right? Or I just make an excuse because… NO, NO!!! I never feel that way to Taichi! Never!!

Masaharu
I saw the fear in his eyes…for rejection? From me maybe? Seem to me that is the only feeling which always appear now in his eyes. And I don't like it.
"Don't look at me like that, Yamato. It's alright for me if you love him too."
His eyes just wider because of what I say.
"You…you…don't mad? You…you accept if I become a gay? But… but… how could you accept that? And what's make you think that I feel the same way?"
"Because what you said before. And what he said."
"What…what did I say?"
"You called him than anyone else. Not me, not your mother, and not even Takeru. Just him."
"That's don't explain anything!" he snapped the denial.
"It's explain everything. Don't you know, Yamato? When someone in danger, he will remember a person who he dear most. And you called him. Twice if I may remain. And he heard that. He heard. That's mean the bond that you two have is much stronger than you thought."
He shook his head furiously. Tears begin to fall again. And his body tremble badly. "No! No! I don't feel the same way to Taichi. It couldn't be!"
I hug him so tight. I could feel his body tensed but soon it releases. I feel bad to hear his sobbing, knew that I the one that caused it. I know that I couldn't take a step back again and I don't want to. It's time for him to face the truth. And maybe, just maybe he could continue his life.
"Please, Yamato. What do you afraid of? That you feel the same way to Taichi? Or do you afraid to become a gay? Please tell me. I can't help you if you don't tell me."
"I … I couldn't be a gay. He…He will disown me… And… and there would be nothing left for me." Tears run more torrentially.
"Who? Who will disown you?" I ask with confused.
He choked and didn't say anything. I thought he would never say it. But finally he told me faintly. "God."
And I feel more confused now. "Huh? What has God to do with this?"
"Everything! When…Before… the divorce I used to pray that finally the fight between you two would end. And it ended even not in the way I like it. And you… you always busy. Not that I complain. I know you work so hard for both of us… but… but I feel so lonely. And the priest told me one day that I shouldn't feel that way. Because no matter what happen I would always have God by my side. And I accept that."
I feel so awful now. I never realize that the divorce hurt my son that much. Takeru seem to be all right so I assume that Yamato would feel the same too. I know that I just fooled myself. Of course I realize that he changed so much. He became more silent and he closed himself from others. But I just didn't want to think that it's all were our fault. I just think that he came to the phrase where he needed space for his own.
"Yama…I…I'm so sorry," finally I managed myself to say that.
"Don't. I didn't say all that just to make you feel guilty or something like that. The truth is I understand then is all for the good of all. It's just hard for the first time but later I adjusted. And it's good too to realize that there would be no more fight anymore. I just need time to be adjust with that."
I don't know what to say. I just nod. There's a silence between us. Finally I asked the question that still bother me.
"You still don't answer me what has God to do with this."
He looked at me with the expression that I should have known already.
"I get used with the thought that no matter happen I will always have God by my side. Even when I was so lonely. But…but…how could I still have Him if I'm…if I'm…just a freak? I know that I'm not perfect but I'm not that bad, don't I? If I become a gay, it's make me become more imperfect and disgrace Him… He wouldn't be by my side anymore..." his faint voice finally just become a whisper.
I just speechless. He just stares to the floor. And I saw tears escape from his eyes. I know I must be very careful to what I would say. He just in his fragile side. One wrong word would end his happiness. His happiness is with Taichi even that I'm not feeling comfortable with that.
Yes, I know for so long that the relationship between the two of them is more than friendship. And I didn't feel comfortable with that, still do. So I never say anything about it. Part of me hopes it just a crush that would end in time. Time passes. But the bond just grows stronger and stronger every day. And yet my son still didn't understand about his feeling. And now I found out the reason for his denial.
"Yama…" I try to say something but I couldn't think anything. I told myself to calm down and try to see it from his view.
"Yamato, you could never surprise God. He knows everything. And He loves you just the way you are."
"That's not the way I hear it," he murmured, still looking at the floor.
"All you hear is not true. There're all come from people who don't understand. They're hate and afraid for their unknown."
He still didn't say anything but now he looked to my eyes to see if I really mean it. I took a deep breath before continue.
"You said God would never loves you because you…not perfect." How could I say a freak to my own child? So I decided to change it. "But, Yamato, nobody perfect. Only God perfects. And that's why He could still love you for being yourself. His loves beyond everything. It's just the way He is. Please think about that. Think from the bottom of your heart what do you really want for your own happiness. Forget everything else. Don't listen to anyone, not even me."
After say all that I just walk out the room. To my surprise, I saw Taichi standing there. From his expression, I know he already heard all that. So I just smile and tapped his shoulder gently.

Taichi
I really don't know what to say. I never thought that kind of reaction from his parent. Which parent will not upset if know that a gay falls in love with their son? Which parent will accept the fact their son is a gay without denial first? I just stand there like a stone for a while until my brain is working again.
Then I knocked the door. Nobody answers but I went in anyway. He just sat there, his mind was somewhere else. I tapped his shoulder gently. He surprised to see me but he didn't jerk away. That's good I supposed.
"I will go to the court. Others will come too."
That's all I have to say. I could see the relief in his eyes. I smiled to encourage him then I go. I know he needs time to think. And I don't want to pressure him. The truth is I also need to think about all this. But first I need to talk to my parent. I need to tell them the truth about my feeling to my angel.
"Honey, you home. Good, dinner almost ready," my mom smile sweetly.
"Mm, Mom… I need to talk to you and Dad. You could come too if you want, Hikari,'' I said to my sister who looks at me with concern. I guess she knew that finally I decide to tell my parent about my feeling to Yama-chan.
I guess that from the look in my face my Mom knew it's very important. So she didn't argue and looked for my Dad to join us in the living room.

What do you think? The conversation between Matt and his father is dedicated to all the homophobic people. It's really evil to threat and accuse others just because they are different. And all the talks that gay is evil and God hates gay and so on are really bullshit. God is love, not hate. Why do people always bring God to strengthen their words? Don't they afraid that God would be mad at them for making Him looks like the unforgiving and uncaring Father? Do they really want to have that kind of God as they're God? Well, I don't. I want my loving and caring God who would still be accept me despite of my imperfect.
I know I mention in the last chapter that this would be the last chapter. But I found it too long to be a chapter. Too many that I want to write about. So I break it into two chapters. But to make it up for you, I send the last chapter in the same time with this. So you don't have to wait long to know the ending. ^_^