hi again...yes i know i have like 2 stories out there somewhere...but i couldn't help but to write this one. It is a short story...or gonna be shorter than mah others ones...dun worrie mah others ones will be coming with new chapters and stuff. hehehe! yeah okay...well on with mah story!


~How I Feel~


*Sakura's POV*



"Goodbye.." you said coldly. Turning around having your back face me.



And I was suddenly drowning. I fell into a deep cold cold water. I couldn't move and I just kept on sinking into this freezing water. As the coldness wrapped my body like a blanket of ice, my breathing sped up and I was getting numb. I couldn't even though I ached too. To just get of this freezing water to reach to you. But I couldn't I started to shiver and started to lose all my air. I closed my eyes and was trying to calm down. I felt tears come out from my eyes. But I didn't feel them roll down my cheeks, since I was sinking into this cold water. Starting to shake voilently, sadness and fright took over me. My heart started to beat slowly and in sadness. And I slowly recognize that I died. It felt like I just died. And I felt my spirit reach out of me and float away. Thinking of never returning. Scared that it won't return to me. But it drifted farther away...just like how I watched you walk away. Not even turning to give a second glance....




And that's how I felt when you said, "Goodbye.." and walked away.




*Syaoran's POV*



I didn't want to turn to give a last glance because I knew that it would just break my heart. If I turned around it would feel like a ton of bricks just dropped on me. I would feel every inch of my body wince in the pain at every single little movement. The thought of you reaching to me. It would make me want to run back to her and hold her forever, never wanting to let go. But I had to go back. I have to go back to train to become the Leader of the Li Clan. My family. But when my training is complete, I will return. I'll take her as my wife. She'll be with me forever. BUT I CAN HAVE HER NOW!!! But I have to go. I'll be back to you, my sweet cherry blossom. Please keep your promise and when I'll return, I'll be with ou forever.



I clenched onto the teddy bear in my hand. My teddy I named Sakura...to remind me of you. As I walked on board of the plane. With every step I took, my heart broke. Holding strong for I knew that I couldn't break down. I bit my lip in order to hold it all in. I hurriedly walked faster because I knew I couldn't hold it longer. Once I entered the plane, I quickly found my seat. Luckily it was next to the window. I pushed my bag into the compartment and sat down by the window. I felt the water fill up in my eyes. I rubbed them away and quickly looked out of the window to find her. I found her okay, she was standing by the open window pressing against it...maybe looking for me. I think she found me because tears started spilling out of her eyes. I thought I saw her say..."Aishiteru..Syaoran."




*Sakura's POV*



I hoped he saw me and the words I said to him. I was looking directly at him. As I watched his every move. Then I saw it..."Aishiteru...Ying Fa." he lipped those words, calling me by my chinese name. I couldn't help to cry more. I'll keep my promise and I'll wait for....only you. I didn't recognize that I loved him more than life itself until he walked away onto that plane.




*Syaoran's POV*



I didn't realize that I loved her more than life itself until I saw those tears. I was just on the urge to just get up and walk off the plane to her. But I was too late. The plane started to move slowly and I couldn't stop it. I love you Sakura. I'll return to you...soon.




*Sakura's POV*


I slowly watched it run slowly down the roadway. I didn't miss his last face. I missed him already. I was even at the point of running in that plane and going with him. I love you Syaoran...please return to me...soon.


A few minutes later....

The plane was gone and out of sight. More and more tears filled up in my eyes. I walked away as fast as I could. I needed to go home and try to calm myself down. I sped through the airport, leaving people to stare. I voilently brushed away my tears. But they just came back. I ran all the way home. Running up the stairs and bursting through the door. My dad and my brother were both there looking at me with fright in their eyes.


I took one glance at them and then ran up the stairs. I needed to be alone...I just lost someone I love....and I needed to be alone...My spirit was dead and floated away...far away from me. I knew I couldn't continue being the happy cheery self I am...now that the main reason I am like that...was gone. A new sensation of fear took over me. And it wasn't the fact that you were gone.


I took focus on was the tears wetting my pillow as I dug my face more into it. ......You had to leave me.....and I understand...but will you still love me...when you return??




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uhh....should i continue it?...you tell me...i don't know. hehe if you like it i will and if you demand it scaring me halfway to death...then i certainly will. heheheheh! uhh yeah...oh yes i know i'm sorry for bringing this up, but i feel i need too.

For what happened on tuesday on the 11th. I feel so sorry. And i still can't believe it. I want to do something so bad but i am still young. I will try and do stuff...like what my school is doing. But all i can do right now...is just give my blessings to everyone and let them know that i am praying for them. For all the families who have to suffer...just remember one thing...you only didn't lose someone....you gained an angel. I know...I know...i didn't make that up...but it is the most wonderful advice. It really made me feel better...even for people i didn't know. I have cousins up there and i thank god that they're all okay. I give my blessings and prayers to all. And may peace be with us. God Bless!


~LiL DraGoN GuRL...aka May

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