// = Lyrics ( This part is kind of like a songfic.)
It was a long trip home, but Sydney was glad to be back. On the drive home she decided she needed to stop off and see someone. She pulled in the parking lot and parked the car, then walked up the hill to a spot she and her father knew all too well, her mother's grave. She sat down on the grass in front of the headstone.
// To all that came before me
To all that left their mark
To all the tried and failed so
To all that now are gone
I see myself in your words
I see you in my smile
Your wisdom's like a lighthouse
that guides me when I'm lost
I find myself at these crossroads, broken dreams
and I don't know what tomorrow might bring//
" Hey mom." she said, brushing a leaf off of it. " How have you been? Good I hope. I'm sure you've probably seen everything that's been going on lately. It's a mess Mom. I don't know how to fix it. Stephanie has everyone turned against me. Even Daddy and I'm sure Terry by now, the two men that love me the most. Hell, Rob won't even look at me. I can't believe she did that. Wait, yes I can. I just can't believe that everyone believed her. That hurts more than anything else. Terry's getting a divorce, but he probably won't even look at me. We've wanted this for so long, and now we're not even together to enjoy it. God, listen to me. I sound like it's his birthday or something, not that he's getting a divorce. You and Daddy didn't bring me up to be like this, and I'm sorry. I don't know what's wrong with me Mom. I just wish you were here. Maybe all this would be easier. I'd have you here to help me, and Dad. Dad's just kind of drifting anymore. I knew Stephanie was bad news Mom, but Daddy just said that I was being paranoid. He told me that everything would be okay and that we'd be back in Philly in no time flat. Well, at least I'm back. I don't know what happened." Sydney said, tears flowing down her face, tears that hadn't been spilt for a long five years, since her mother's death.
// I'm like a ball of clay
that you molded with your hands
Raised me without shadows
and baptized me in light
To those that came before me
I know I'll see you soon
And like a distant star in the night
I'm reaching out for you....
I find myself at these crossroads, broken dreams
and I don't know what tomorrow might bring//
She sat there for a long time, just crying and watching the leaves fall and fly around her.
" Well Mom, it's getting late, I better get home. Not that it really matters whether I'm there or in a gutter anymore. But I better go. I love you Mom, and Dad does too." Sydney said planting a single kiss on the cold tombstone. She walked down the hill to her car and got in, driving away.
Paul walked over to the spot that Sydney had been sitting just a few moments ago and knelt down. He had caught the first flight that left from the airport after he got the letter that Sydney had came home. Somehow he managed to just miss her.
" She's going through hell right now Claudia. I realize I was wrong in believing Stephanie over my own flesh and blood. Syd means the world to me, and I didn't know she was hurting this bad. I guess us Dad's are just blind to that kind of thing when it comes to our little girls. Terry told me everything. He's a good guy. He'd never hurt our baby. From the way he said it, he wanted to get a divorce the minuet he met Sydney. He said the whole marriage was a mistake. It's over now though, and they can be together. Terry said he was going to talk to her tomorrow after he got out of the hospital, if she'll let him. But you know how hard headed she is. Just like you and I were. She's a good girl Claudia, just like you. She's got my flare for the sports-entertainment, but she's definitely your daughter." Paul said smiling. He tugged on the hat he was wearing and pulled it down further on his balding head. " I'm gonna go and try to talk to her. I just hope she forgives me." he said, standing, brushing himself off and laying a single red rose on the tombstone. " I still love you Claudia. I always will." he said as he turned and walked away.
~ Hey!! I hope you like this chapter, I know it's kinda sad, but I thought it was appropriate. The song in quotes is Dexter Freebish's "Tomorrow". It's a really awesome song, and a good CD, so if you see it on sale or something and it peeks your interest, it's a good buy just for this song, but that's just my opinion. But anyway...onward and upward as they say. ttfn R.G.~
It was a long trip home, but Sydney was glad to be back. On the drive home she decided she needed to stop off and see someone. She pulled in the parking lot and parked the car, then walked up the hill to a spot she and her father knew all too well, her mother's grave. She sat down on the grass in front of the headstone.
// To all that came before me
To all that left their mark
To all the tried and failed so
To all that now are gone
I see myself in your words
I see you in my smile
Your wisdom's like a lighthouse
that guides me when I'm lost
I find myself at these crossroads, broken dreams
and I don't know what tomorrow might bring//
" Hey mom." she said, brushing a leaf off of it. " How have you been? Good I hope. I'm sure you've probably seen everything that's been going on lately. It's a mess Mom. I don't know how to fix it. Stephanie has everyone turned against me. Even Daddy and I'm sure Terry by now, the two men that love me the most. Hell, Rob won't even look at me. I can't believe she did that. Wait, yes I can. I just can't believe that everyone believed her. That hurts more than anything else. Terry's getting a divorce, but he probably won't even look at me. We've wanted this for so long, and now we're not even together to enjoy it. God, listen to me. I sound like it's his birthday or something, not that he's getting a divorce. You and Daddy didn't bring me up to be like this, and I'm sorry. I don't know what's wrong with me Mom. I just wish you were here. Maybe all this would be easier. I'd have you here to help me, and Dad. Dad's just kind of drifting anymore. I knew Stephanie was bad news Mom, but Daddy just said that I was being paranoid. He told me that everything would be okay and that we'd be back in Philly in no time flat. Well, at least I'm back. I don't know what happened." Sydney said, tears flowing down her face, tears that hadn't been spilt for a long five years, since her mother's death.
// I'm like a ball of clay
that you molded with your hands
Raised me without shadows
and baptized me in light
To those that came before me
I know I'll see you soon
And like a distant star in the night
I'm reaching out for you....
I find myself at these crossroads, broken dreams
and I don't know what tomorrow might bring//
She sat there for a long time, just crying and watching the leaves fall and fly around her.
" Well Mom, it's getting late, I better get home. Not that it really matters whether I'm there or in a gutter anymore. But I better go. I love you Mom, and Dad does too." Sydney said planting a single kiss on the cold tombstone. She walked down the hill to her car and got in, driving away.
Paul walked over to the spot that Sydney had been sitting just a few moments ago and knelt down. He had caught the first flight that left from the airport after he got the letter that Sydney had came home. Somehow he managed to just miss her.
" She's going through hell right now Claudia. I realize I was wrong in believing Stephanie over my own flesh and blood. Syd means the world to me, and I didn't know she was hurting this bad. I guess us Dad's are just blind to that kind of thing when it comes to our little girls. Terry told me everything. He's a good guy. He'd never hurt our baby. From the way he said it, he wanted to get a divorce the minuet he met Sydney. He said the whole marriage was a mistake. It's over now though, and they can be together. Terry said he was going to talk to her tomorrow after he got out of the hospital, if she'll let him. But you know how hard headed she is. Just like you and I were. She's a good girl Claudia, just like you. She's got my flare for the sports-entertainment, but she's definitely your daughter." Paul said smiling. He tugged on the hat he was wearing and pulled it down further on his balding head. " I'm gonna go and try to talk to her. I just hope she forgives me." he said, standing, brushing himself off and laying a single red rose on the tombstone. " I still love you Claudia. I always will." he said as he turned and walked away.
~ Hey!! I hope you like this chapter, I know it's kinda sad, but I thought it was appropriate. The song in quotes is Dexter Freebish's "Tomorrow". It's a really awesome song, and a good CD, so if you see it on sale or something and it peeks your interest, it's a good buy just for this song, but that's just my opinion. But anyway...onward and upward as they say. ttfn R.G.~
