A/N: I own nothing except for my ideas & me. So if it looks familiar its not mine unless I state it is. I still need a beta reader for this & future stories. Remember to r & r! I'm having a harder time in writing this because my teachers are catching on that I write this in class so it may take awhile for chapters to be posted.

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As time progressed Ender stopped caring about what Hawk did during the days so long as she was well rested and ready for the next battle. HS kept track of her movements at the request of Bean and discovered that Hawk took her desk everywhere except into battles, she spent hours in the gym working out or in the halls doing work and drawing or in extra battle rooms doing various things like practice to learning hand-to-hand combat. With all the workouts and less food in her she was growing stronger mentally and physically, pushing her mind and body to the edge. Then came the day when all the toon leaders got moved to new armies, most were pissed at this, but Hawk didn't care because she got moved into commander position of Dragon. This was unheard of and she didn't care what everyone said, some of the bantering comments went on for awhile.

"Damn, I got rabbit and Cleo here gets Dragon!"

"She's leading Dragon? Watch out Bean, she'll kick your ass in battle."

"Yah right. I'll kick yours and she'll kick mine."

"You won't kick my ass...."

And the comment that stopped them all came from Hawk herself, "Who says I'm gonna kick anyone's ass? We all know how each other think so I wish you all the best of luck. Come by...my cabin anytime. Now get out of my army's barracks after you wipe your desks clean." She looked at Bean, HS, and Crazy Tom.

They all quickly did as told so they wouldn't anger her because they could see the anger and fire in her eyes. Once done everyone went out, Bean was the first to leave and HS was still hanging around talking with a few of the cadets and Hawk. The cadets were laughing at a joke HS just told as he slipped his hand in Hawk's.

"Well I best meet my army. May I escort you to your cabin Cleo?"

"Yes you may, just wait a second. Can you wait outside?" As HS went outside she rounded on the cadets.

"I want everyone to do their work and have it completed. When this is done come get me if it's not lights out."

She strode from the room leaving the cadets to their own devices and took HS's arm that he offered walking gently beside him starting up a little conversation always skirting the edges of family and their unspoken relationship. As they neared her cabin Hawk slowed down and HS took the hint and when they got there he opened the door.

"Meet me tonight," he whispered in her ear, "commanders' showers?"

"Ok. Later then"

He kissed her hand and jogged down they way they came slipping out of sight, but not out of her mind. She sat on her bed knees to her chest rocking gently back and forth for thirty minutes when a cadet knocked on her door.

"Um, Commander Cleo, were done with our work."

"Ok wait there. What you name cadet?"

"Its Bryan." The door opened and Hawk strode out her face not showing emotion.

"Well come on Bryan, its time to meet my cadets." They jogged down the hall at an easy pace reaching the barracks easily and Hawk took charge immediately. "Shut up and listen up! I want everyone to get off their bunks and line up outside paired up. Every launchie with a veteran, the strong with the weak in battles."

Everyone rushed to do as told.

"Ok, I want the older cadets of each pair on the bottom bunk and the launchies on top. Leave three bunks in the front and back free each." They did as told and she stopped six pairs at the door sending three to the back and three to the front. "Remember who your bunk buddy is. They will help you with work, if not them then the army, if not the army then I will. These are your bunk assignments until I choose otherwise."

She looked around at all of them and pulled out her desk, "Now who is good at advanced quantum physics?"

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Later in the day towards dinner Dragon Army went into their mess hall and Hawk ambled towards the commander's mess her mind reeling from the day. She got her food and sat down at an open table, almost immediately her eyes focused else where and started eating, as others sat around her she kept up this rhythm until HS tapped Hawk's shoulder making her flinch. As she jumped she brought her knife to her attacker's throat, "Oh shit, sorry HS." She lowered her weapon and resumed eating.

After she was through with her meal she rushed out to check on her cadets before going to the head, as she stripped Hawk discovered that the cross had a sharp edge as it cut her wrist. She smiled as the blood streamed gently down onto the ground making her feel alive and real. Walking into the showers she took the cross from her neck and turned the water on. After a few minutes of showering she made a quick stroke against her hip with the cross letting the water wash away the blood. When HS finally came in Hawk had her cross back on and a towel wrapped around herself. He gently slipped his arms around her waist and kissed her neck gently before stripping himself and taking Hawk's towel off her. He closed the vents and turned the water on hot before pulling her under a warm shower.

Hs ran his hand along Hawk's back knowing she was letting him seduce her, and aware of the fact that she could kill him without thinking or having to many regrets if one wrong move was made. For a long time the embraced in this way before they went their separate ways. They returned repeating this pattern for a week when HS finally noticed the lines on Hawk's hip, he ran his hand over them and knelt down before kissing them.

"My mom use to kiss my wounds. Cleo, don't do this to yourself." She rested her chin on top of his head playing with his hair thinking about this. They changed and HS lead her back to her cabin and made her lie down. He sat beside her and traced her jaw line before gently kissing her neck and taking in her scent trying to memorize it while she memorized his. Their bliss was interpreted by a knock on the door and a voice calling out, "Cleo, all heck has broken loose in the barracks!"

Hawk shot up on her feet, gave HS a quick pleading glance and ran out the door towards Dragon hoping that it wasn't to bad. When she reached the army all the boys had cornered a cadet named Rick, she rushed over to find out that Rick had insulted someone's parents.