Category: AU, Gundam Wing, Yaoi
Pairings: will be 1x2, 3x4, 5+?
Warnings: none
Author: Arigatomina
Email: arigatoumina@hotmail.com
Complete Archive: www.fanfiction.net
As It Will Be (sequel to At Last)
Part 2
***Duo's Journal***
Why am I writing this? Why else, because Howard said to. For someone as...flighty as he acts, he's pretty smart. And he's right too, I probably am making a mistake. See, I plan to do something tomorrow, I'm going to be going into an enemy facility, in broad daylight, to rescue someone who might be as much of an enemy as OZ. And why, you ask, would I do such a thing? That one's easy, I'm doing it because this guy, he has a mobile suit similar enough to mine for them to have been made by the same person. That's it. That's the whole reason I'm doing it. Although, I admit it, I'm intrigued by him too.
I know OZ was looking for his suit, I just happened to be lucky enough to get there before they could take it, so I know what they were after. And the fact that this guy tried to blow up his suit tells me that his mission is probably the same as mine. After all, who but a fellow gundam pilot would be suicidal enough to choose death over letting a simple mobile suit fall into enemy hands? Well, not really so simple. A gundam is like...a Cadillac in comparison to...a Taurus. Yeah, that's about right. Except, this might be a bit confusing since a Taurus is also a type of mobile suit, but I'm talking about the car, here. Gundams are so much better than regular mobile suits, there just isn't a comparison.
I know, I've gone off the subject, I do that sometimes. I had a friend once, and he used to say that my problem was that my mind worked too fast for normal people. I guess it sounds conceited to say that, but I think he might be right to a point. I mean, I tend to talk a lot, and often, I'll start talking about one thing and then suddenly my mind will have gone off the original line and I'll be thinking of something else. It bothers people, the way I do this, and they usually stop paying me much attention. Howard's honest, at least, he tells me when he's ready to stop listening, and I can reign myself in and stick to one thing. Not that I'm saying my mind wanders over important stuff, just that...it only takes so long to think about something, it takes longer to explain it and by the time I'm done explaining the thought, I have so many new ones in my head I have to jump to the next or shut up altogether. Solo used to say it was a sign of intelligence, sometimes I think it's a sign or insanity, myself.
Then again, I'm kinda crazy, that's no secret. I mean, how many fifteen year old boys talk to an imaginary friend...let alone get answered by him. Not that I think Shinigami isn't real, but I've been told *repeatedly* that even if there were a God of Death, there's no reason he'd talk to me. And he doesn't really, not like I'd talk to someone else. No, it's more like...I talk to him sometimes, in my mind, and then...things happen in a way that's like an answer to me. Father Maxwell always said that God sends signs if he feels it necessary, well, I don't know about *him*, but Shinigami sends me plenty of signs. After all, I'm still alive. That's a really big sign right there. No, he's not really an imaginary friend, more like an...alter-ego or something. Hell, sometimes I think I *am* Shinigami, how insane is that.
Oh, sorry. I've done it again, haven't I. Okay, I was writing about my self-imposed mission tomorrow. First of all, I'll be going against the rules, risking myself for something other than an assignment I've been given. Of course, I'll be leaving Deathscythe out of it, so I don't think the doctor will have too much to argue about. Besides, I stole the suit, that makes it mine, right? Yeah. So I don't really have to answer to him anymore. But I do, he's smart, and he knows where the best places are to attack, something I'd have to work harder to find out for myself. But as I was saying, I won't be taking my gundam when I break into the hospital. That would be odd, a huge mobile suit breaking down a wall and carrying off some teenager. It would also be stupid, and don't think I would seriously think about that. I'm just imagining it, is all.
Really, it's too dangerous to take my gundam, and it isn't necessary. I've broken into places before (have I ever), and it's easier to get away on foot, believe it or not. Besides, I've already got the place scoped out, I know all the entrances, and the exits. I plan to make my own exit, but it's still good to know where the existing ones are, just in case. Especially if this guy is injured too badly for my plan to work. Jumping out a window that high up won't work if he's unconscious.
You know, I actually feel a bit guilty about him. Though it's probably stupid for me to, considering all I did was save some girl's life. See, he was planning to shoot this girl, she was about my age, and as far as I could tell, she wasn't armed or anything. She was just standing there when I got out of the water, and what could I do? I saved her. I also shot the guy. Now *this* brings up the real reason I said I was intrigued by this pilot. As I said, I shot him. Maybe I should explain a little about my skills with guns. I never miss. I have excellent vision, and as steady a hand as anyone. When I aimed for that guy, he should have been on the ground in a second, a hole in his chest. But no, somehow, he managed to turn fast enough that I barely grazed him. I know how that sounds, it looks unbelievable even in writing, but that's what happened. No one can move faster than a bullet, I know that, but this guy, he did something because even when I shot him again as he dove for his gun, all I did was scrape his leg. Pure insanity, right?
Maybe, but maybe not. I'm pretty confident when it comes to my mind, and I know what I saw, that guy didn't dodge enough for those bullets to land where they did. Nope, there's something else going on here, and I intend to find out, even if it means rescuing him and taking him back to the base with me. And it's not like I could just leave him there, in enemy hands. After all, he's a gundam pilot. I thought I was the only one, but I'm obviously not, and why should I let OZ get their hands on the pilot if I wasn't willing to let them have the suit? Okay, so I wanted the suit for myself, it's not easy getting spare parts of gundanium, but still, better me having it than them, they'd just use it against me.
The reason Howard suggested I write this was on the off chance that something goes wrong and I end up getting caught or something. He's worried about what will happen to Deathscythe with me gone. I bet he'd end up messing with it if I didn't come back. Don't get me wrong, I trust Howard, he's cool, but he's still a born mechanic, and I know how much respect and interest he has in the gundams. He did help to design one, once. Anyway, I think he'll send this message to the doctor if I don't come back. I'll have to make sure and edit this before I leave, just in case. Not that I expect to have trouble, this is going to be an easy mission, I know it. But still, better safe than sorry, right?
So I'm going to bust this guy out tomorrow, early in the afternoon if I can. I figure, it'll be easy to get in, and with my arsenal, even if I get caught it shouldn't be a problem. No, I'll get the guy out and then, Howard's ship will pick us up on the beach. It's an open and shut mission, really. He shouldn't worry so much, I've told him that before. Actually, he doesn't worry like he used to. I guess he's gotten used to my attitude, even though he's only *heard* about my missions. But then, I never lie so he knows what little I can tell him is the absolute truth. Besides, I can't die.
Wow, that sounds incredibly ignorant, saying I can't die. But it's true. I mean, how close have I come? After all, I managed to survive the plagues that used to wipe out half the population on my colony. I didn't even get sick, not once. And then there was the church, only survivor from *that* one... Nope, it's like I have some sort of lucky streak. Shinigami, that's what I think, but then, what do I know. Still, it was pretty lucky that the doctor disabled the self-destruct on my gundam before I stole it or I'd be just that many more pieces floating around up there in space. But he did. Yes, I know it's because he cares about his precious masterpiece, and Deathscythe is definitely cool, but still. He couldn't have known the exact time I'd be trying to blow the suit up, and it was a good thing he got to it before I did.
No, I'm pretty confident in myself. I don't think I'll be dying anytime soon, certainly not on some simple mission like this one. Besides, if Shinigami wanted me, he could have had me long before now. The real one, I mean. Yeah, I know I said I like to call myself Shinigami, and I do, but I actually believe in the real God of death. Don't look at me like that, I'm not naïve. As I told Father Maxwell, I've never seen a miracle, but I've seen plenty of dead people. If that isn't evidence of a God of death, then there are *no* Gods, what sort of world would that be...
The reason I refer to myself as Shinigami, is because, as I said, I feel like he's in me sometimes. After all, I never killed anyone...okay. I can't say that. Um...I didn't really kill people easily until I came to earth and I have to admit, I'm very good at it. I don't think anyone's seen me and lived, certainly no one who saw my gundam. So, if I'm the bringer of death, doesn't that make me Shinigami? At least his apprentice. Okay, so I'm just playing now. That's cool, though, like I said, I can always edit this later. Because I'm going to be coming back from this mission, no problem. This thing will never be read, so it doesn't matter what I write. Which reminds me, that guy's cute, too.
* * *
TBC
--notes-
No, Duo's not crazy, and he isn't a scatterbrain. Things in him just changed after Shinigami brought him back in The Way It Was. Remember what he said about giving him his own essence? Well, he did. ^__^
Pairings: will be 1x2, 3x4, 5+?
Warnings: none
Author: Arigatomina
Email: arigatoumina@hotmail.com
Complete Archive: www.fanfiction.net
As It Will Be (sequel to At Last)
Part 2
***Duo's Journal***
Why am I writing this? Why else, because Howard said to. For someone as...flighty as he acts, he's pretty smart. And he's right too, I probably am making a mistake. See, I plan to do something tomorrow, I'm going to be going into an enemy facility, in broad daylight, to rescue someone who might be as much of an enemy as OZ. And why, you ask, would I do such a thing? That one's easy, I'm doing it because this guy, he has a mobile suit similar enough to mine for them to have been made by the same person. That's it. That's the whole reason I'm doing it. Although, I admit it, I'm intrigued by him too.
I know OZ was looking for his suit, I just happened to be lucky enough to get there before they could take it, so I know what they were after. And the fact that this guy tried to blow up his suit tells me that his mission is probably the same as mine. After all, who but a fellow gundam pilot would be suicidal enough to choose death over letting a simple mobile suit fall into enemy hands? Well, not really so simple. A gundam is like...a Cadillac in comparison to...a Taurus. Yeah, that's about right. Except, this might be a bit confusing since a Taurus is also a type of mobile suit, but I'm talking about the car, here. Gundams are so much better than regular mobile suits, there just isn't a comparison.
I know, I've gone off the subject, I do that sometimes. I had a friend once, and he used to say that my problem was that my mind worked too fast for normal people. I guess it sounds conceited to say that, but I think he might be right to a point. I mean, I tend to talk a lot, and often, I'll start talking about one thing and then suddenly my mind will have gone off the original line and I'll be thinking of something else. It bothers people, the way I do this, and they usually stop paying me much attention. Howard's honest, at least, he tells me when he's ready to stop listening, and I can reign myself in and stick to one thing. Not that I'm saying my mind wanders over important stuff, just that...it only takes so long to think about something, it takes longer to explain it and by the time I'm done explaining the thought, I have so many new ones in my head I have to jump to the next or shut up altogether. Solo used to say it was a sign of intelligence, sometimes I think it's a sign or insanity, myself.
Then again, I'm kinda crazy, that's no secret. I mean, how many fifteen year old boys talk to an imaginary friend...let alone get answered by him. Not that I think Shinigami isn't real, but I've been told *repeatedly* that even if there were a God of Death, there's no reason he'd talk to me. And he doesn't really, not like I'd talk to someone else. No, it's more like...I talk to him sometimes, in my mind, and then...things happen in a way that's like an answer to me. Father Maxwell always said that God sends signs if he feels it necessary, well, I don't know about *him*, but Shinigami sends me plenty of signs. After all, I'm still alive. That's a really big sign right there. No, he's not really an imaginary friend, more like an...alter-ego or something. Hell, sometimes I think I *am* Shinigami, how insane is that.
Oh, sorry. I've done it again, haven't I. Okay, I was writing about my self-imposed mission tomorrow. First of all, I'll be going against the rules, risking myself for something other than an assignment I've been given. Of course, I'll be leaving Deathscythe out of it, so I don't think the doctor will have too much to argue about. Besides, I stole the suit, that makes it mine, right? Yeah. So I don't really have to answer to him anymore. But I do, he's smart, and he knows where the best places are to attack, something I'd have to work harder to find out for myself. But as I was saying, I won't be taking my gundam when I break into the hospital. That would be odd, a huge mobile suit breaking down a wall and carrying off some teenager. It would also be stupid, and don't think I would seriously think about that. I'm just imagining it, is all.
Really, it's too dangerous to take my gundam, and it isn't necessary. I've broken into places before (have I ever), and it's easier to get away on foot, believe it or not. Besides, I've already got the place scoped out, I know all the entrances, and the exits. I plan to make my own exit, but it's still good to know where the existing ones are, just in case. Especially if this guy is injured too badly for my plan to work. Jumping out a window that high up won't work if he's unconscious.
You know, I actually feel a bit guilty about him. Though it's probably stupid for me to, considering all I did was save some girl's life. See, he was planning to shoot this girl, she was about my age, and as far as I could tell, she wasn't armed or anything. She was just standing there when I got out of the water, and what could I do? I saved her. I also shot the guy. Now *this* brings up the real reason I said I was intrigued by this pilot. As I said, I shot him. Maybe I should explain a little about my skills with guns. I never miss. I have excellent vision, and as steady a hand as anyone. When I aimed for that guy, he should have been on the ground in a second, a hole in his chest. But no, somehow, he managed to turn fast enough that I barely grazed him. I know how that sounds, it looks unbelievable even in writing, but that's what happened. No one can move faster than a bullet, I know that, but this guy, he did something because even when I shot him again as he dove for his gun, all I did was scrape his leg. Pure insanity, right?
Maybe, but maybe not. I'm pretty confident when it comes to my mind, and I know what I saw, that guy didn't dodge enough for those bullets to land where they did. Nope, there's something else going on here, and I intend to find out, even if it means rescuing him and taking him back to the base with me. And it's not like I could just leave him there, in enemy hands. After all, he's a gundam pilot. I thought I was the only one, but I'm obviously not, and why should I let OZ get their hands on the pilot if I wasn't willing to let them have the suit? Okay, so I wanted the suit for myself, it's not easy getting spare parts of gundanium, but still, better me having it than them, they'd just use it against me.
The reason Howard suggested I write this was on the off chance that something goes wrong and I end up getting caught or something. He's worried about what will happen to Deathscythe with me gone. I bet he'd end up messing with it if I didn't come back. Don't get me wrong, I trust Howard, he's cool, but he's still a born mechanic, and I know how much respect and interest he has in the gundams. He did help to design one, once. Anyway, I think he'll send this message to the doctor if I don't come back. I'll have to make sure and edit this before I leave, just in case. Not that I expect to have trouble, this is going to be an easy mission, I know it. But still, better safe than sorry, right?
So I'm going to bust this guy out tomorrow, early in the afternoon if I can. I figure, it'll be easy to get in, and with my arsenal, even if I get caught it shouldn't be a problem. No, I'll get the guy out and then, Howard's ship will pick us up on the beach. It's an open and shut mission, really. He shouldn't worry so much, I've told him that before. Actually, he doesn't worry like he used to. I guess he's gotten used to my attitude, even though he's only *heard* about my missions. But then, I never lie so he knows what little I can tell him is the absolute truth. Besides, I can't die.
Wow, that sounds incredibly ignorant, saying I can't die. But it's true. I mean, how close have I come? After all, I managed to survive the plagues that used to wipe out half the population on my colony. I didn't even get sick, not once. And then there was the church, only survivor from *that* one... Nope, it's like I have some sort of lucky streak. Shinigami, that's what I think, but then, what do I know. Still, it was pretty lucky that the doctor disabled the self-destruct on my gundam before I stole it or I'd be just that many more pieces floating around up there in space. But he did. Yes, I know it's because he cares about his precious masterpiece, and Deathscythe is definitely cool, but still. He couldn't have known the exact time I'd be trying to blow the suit up, and it was a good thing he got to it before I did.
No, I'm pretty confident in myself. I don't think I'll be dying anytime soon, certainly not on some simple mission like this one. Besides, if Shinigami wanted me, he could have had me long before now. The real one, I mean. Yeah, I know I said I like to call myself Shinigami, and I do, but I actually believe in the real God of death. Don't look at me like that, I'm not naïve. As I told Father Maxwell, I've never seen a miracle, but I've seen plenty of dead people. If that isn't evidence of a God of death, then there are *no* Gods, what sort of world would that be...
The reason I refer to myself as Shinigami, is because, as I said, I feel like he's in me sometimes. After all, I never killed anyone...okay. I can't say that. Um...I didn't really kill people easily until I came to earth and I have to admit, I'm very good at it. I don't think anyone's seen me and lived, certainly no one who saw my gundam. So, if I'm the bringer of death, doesn't that make me Shinigami? At least his apprentice. Okay, so I'm just playing now. That's cool, though, like I said, I can always edit this later. Because I'm going to be coming back from this mission, no problem. This thing will never be read, so it doesn't matter what I write. Which reminds me, that guy's cute, too.
* * *
TBC
--notes-
No, Duo's not crazy, and he isn't a scatterbrain. Things in him just changed after Shinigami brought him back in The Way It Was. Remember what he said about giving him his own essence? Well, he did. ^__^
