Authors notes: Well, if you like romance…you'll love this chapter and the next two that proceed it! Heh. I'm getting into writing mode now. I once again..have to thank all my terrific reviewers! *hugs each and every one of you* You all make this happen. I have problems writing about romance whenever theres none in my life….so I dedicate this chapter…with a great deal of love, To Kevin. You inspire me, you really do.
Chapter Six ~ Never Expected
"PROFESSOR!??" People screamed wildly. James wasn't moving, wasn't breathing….come to think of it…neither was Lily.
"Lily…hey! Lil!" Sirius yelled, "we don't need to loose you in the process."
Lily blinked quickly. She put on the most convincing optimistic face she could. It didn't work. She felt herself go weak near the knees. Sure. James WAS a huge jerk but that didn't mean she was ready to loose another person in her life. Gosh! And if James was…..really…well…..who would Jenny have to accuse her of liking? Who would she launch peas at? Remus would yell at her…Sirius would just laugh and eat them, no! She needed James to fight with. She just needed him.
McGonagal quickly conjured James a stretcher and floated him towards the nurse. Sirius and Lily raced after.
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James Potter usually thought a great deal, but as of this moment he could do nothing but concentrate on the pain all over him. He squinted hard….it seemed to take too much effort to even open his eyes. He couldn't really take this.
"Stupid Snape…I'll get him." He mumbled to , what he thought, himself.
"He's talking! He's talking! Lils? Did you hear him?" James heard someone screaming. He recognized the voice as Sirius's.
James desperately tried to reply but he couldn't. His lips wouldn't budge, his voice refused to come, and all his energy drained from him. He felt the world closing out around him. Everything was turing into a very large dream. James soon drifted into a deep sleep.
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Mrs. Salem ran into the room and stared at Sirius.
"He spoke?!" she said, a smile cracking on her face.
"He did but then he drifted away again…" Lily whispered.
Mrs. Salem placed her hand son her hips then walked over to the monitors. She checked them briefly. . "The potion kicked in an hour ago. I don't get it. I simply don't get it." she twisted her hands wistfully then mumbled something about that possibly being James last time to speak.
Sirius glanced over to Lily. She had pulled her hair back rather haphazardly. Those electric green eyes never left James. She stared solemnly.
"God, I can't loose anyone else. Not so soon. And not James." She prayed.
"What?" she asked her subconscious.
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James was in what the muggle world would call a coma. And he was reenacting a terrible nightmare over and over.
"Lily! Do it now! There's not much time!" he screamed as he sprinted up the stairs. His legs burned and his chest heaved with each breath. He couldn't fight this much longer.
"James! Where are you? Its done." She intertwined her fingers in his and he glanced behind them at a crib. A wild mop of black hair covered a pink body, yet green eyes like emeralds shone out at him. The Baby giggled and a glow projected off of him.
Suddenly, a terrible crash sounded and rang throughout the entire house. He felt himself and Lily fall, yet no screams escaped their lips.
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I can't keep, loosing sleep over this
No I can't, and I cannot stop pacing.
Give me a few hours, I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing.
Lily stared at James…no one else moved in the room. Sirius had fallen asleep fitfully in his chair…his head loosely sitting on his shoulder. Remus had to flee, as it was a full moon. Lily wasn't stupid…she saw right through the boys futile explanations of his absense. Lily blinked….James was restless. He kept shaking and moving his lips as if trying to cry out. Lily moved over to him…staring earnestly. He was desperately whispering something. She almost wished Sirius was awake so he could hear too, she had a feeling in the pit of her stomach that she was the only one who could hear his cries.
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening.
She bolted from her chair and rushed to his side. Moving much slower once she reached his lifeless looking body, afraid she'd wake him. She leaned her ear to his mouth. Her hands rested uneasily on the side of the bed. She heard his cry and began shaking. Her blood ran fearfully cold. She couldn't move, she couldn't think…she couldn't regain her strong Lily Evans self. She couldn't remain composed. She was on the verge of a breakdown. For James was urgently crying; "Lily! Harry, get him and run…LILY! NO!" His words rang over and over in her mind like thunder. She desperately fought her emotions and came to her senses. She was about to go and sit down when James lunged a hand out and grabbed hers. She whipped back around and looked at him. He was still asleep, and his other fist was clenched angrily. He cried out softly. She looked down to her hand, although he had grabbed her quite urgently and rather harsh, now his hand was gently intertwined with hers. Lily couldn't take his desperate eyes anymore. She gasped as she looked him. Tears streamed from his gentle brown eyes….they weren't open…she'd gazed into them enough to know that they were brown. She reached over and ran her fingers through his unruly hair.
This is over my head, but underneath my feet
Cause by tommorow morning I'll have this thing beat
"James…comeon James, wake up." She shook him, pleading…she simply could no longer handle that look in his eyes.
She sat down on the bed, facing him. Her hands placed on his strong arms, shaking him to the real world.
Everything will go back to the way that is way
I wish that, it was just that easy
He struggled to open his eyes. When he saw her beautiful hair pulled behind her, obviously in a rushed frenzy, and those sparkling….scared…..green eyes, he reached out and pulled her to him. His mind was screaming. Lily Evans James…..Lily, Evans….you have got to be kidding me?! Since when do you listen to your heart! He hushed his mind as he felt her arms wrap around his back. They were both sitting…crying….scared…like frightened children clinging to each other for safety. That dream in his mind was just too vivid…too vivid.
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll won't let you fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
Lily clung to him. She felt his silent tears drop gently onto her hair. She knew in her heart of hearts that James had just felt what she did. What was the odd string connecting them? Suddenly, James pushed her back, but still held her arms tightly.
"Lils….I had a dream., just like the one you had when you were in Divinations….Remus told me."
That green in your eyes, its on my fingers…." He said…his fingertips were glowing with an odd, yet peaceful green light. It was perculiar….not like paint….he touched the wall, it left no mark. He grasped her hand and when he released hers, his fingerprints were on them. She glanced down…puzzled.
"James…touch someone else."
James reached over and touched Sirius's forehead. Nothing. He touched Lily's other hand and stared at the gentle green, an exact replica of her eyes. So soft. He pulled her too him again, afraid he would awake to discover this all a dream. James felt her shaking under his hold. He kissed her forehead gently. Lily pushed him away.
"No James…I've seen what you've done to other girls, and you can't do it to me. I'm too strong for this. I refuse to let myself fall victim to ……….that beautiful smile." She said weakly. Her eyes glowed gently in the moonlight, like the glow on his hands. She stood up, James still holding her hand.
"Potter, let go. I can't. You know I can't….the pain…..my parents…please…let go Potter." She said weakly, crying at the end. Lily knew in her heart that if she didn't leave now she'd collapse into James arms and sob, letting all those emotions she'd held in escape. He was too close….too close.
"I came to make sure you were okay, and you are now, so …I have to leave."
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
She jerked from his grasp and ran off. She ran blindly, for once, Lily Evans had no plan whatsoever in her mind. She just ran. She felt the hard cold wood of the main doors, and the cool night air upon her face, but she never hesistated, she just ran. NO. Not James Pottter. You stupid foolish heart, pick anyone else in this blasted school…just not him. Her thoughts faded into a dull pain quickly growing in her legs. She'd been running for a long while, and it was starting to catch up with her. She sat down momentarily, she realized her breath was wheezy and sick sounding.
Just like you to run when he can't run after you. What ARE you running from Lillian?
Her mother. She heard her voice, sweet and soft in her head. She hated to do it, but she also pushed this voice away. Not James Potter. Not him. He was such a user! He dated a different girl everyweek, then left them. They all cried, but then of course, they were entitled to bragging priveledges. She could hear them all now…all laughing merrily.
"James and I were so happy, then we broke up! But I did it! I got James Potter!"
Every girl shamelessly admitted it. They didn't care if he merely picked up their quill. Any attention from the most sought after guy at hogwarts was worthy of boasting about. Lily wouldn't be one of those girls. After loosing her parents she couldn't give herself to someone who would forget her in a week.
She heard gentle footsteps behind her. She spun around to see Sirius. Sirius sighed loudly and sat down. Indian-style beside her.
"Lils, I was awake." He confessed, as he took one of her hands and stared at the, now dim, green glow of James fingerprints on her own.
"Stop running." He whispered, reading her thoughts and placing a arm around her shoulder.
"Stop Lil, just stop. You think you'll be like all the others huh? Lily, if you are like all the others why is he still in your life? Why have you not pushed him away, and why has he stayed?" He said, staring her in the eyes.
"Because I'm his friend…kinda"
"Lily…you guys fought like animals for two years….you've just started becoming friends this year. That's a terrible excuse."
"'Siri….I can't. Not to him. To anyone but James….okay? Just not him."
"Why are you dreaming the same dreams?" he whispered.
"What?! You don't know that, neither of us knows what he was dreaming…"
"He called out for you and he said the same name you did in the tower," he took a breath, "Harry."
Lily stood up. She couldn't, she wouldn't be persuaded.
"Thank you Sirius, I love you dearly…you know that. You were the only one who knew where I'd be. That means a lot….but not James. He doesn't know what love means, and I can't risk teaching him." She whispered walking away. The sun was coming out, and she was yet to sleep.
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James looked over at Lily during Divinations. Her long wavy red hair was slightly moving with the breeze, in some sort of unified dance with the wind. Her green eyes were gazing out the window, tiredly. Her face still looked alive, but anyone who knew her, with just one glance to her usaul electric eyes could tell she hadn't been sleeping. His heart lurched….that dream. She was endanger, he was trying to save her…and a baby…Harry. He looked over at her, praying for just one glance.
Would you catch me if I fall
Out of what I fell in
Don't be surprised if I collapse
Down at your feet again
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Lily gazed out of the window in her Advanced Divinations Class. She couldn't sleep. She was afraid too. If she closed her eyes all she saw was her vision, over and over again like a neverending nightmare. She only arose from her troubled thoughts whenever Professor Carmel shrieked loudly.
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
"LILY EVANS!"
Lily thought….Did I fall asleep? Why am I in trouble?
"Yes?" she answered quickly.
"Beware my darling. One whom you would never think possible will capture your sight, and guide you blindly into the night. You won't come back, you'll be gone for good, your memories not where they should. You'll try to run and try to fight, but theres no hope, for on that dreadful night……….you'll be gone. Nothing more than a star in the sky, and you're light to remember you by."
Lily blinked, she almost snapped at her. She didn't need death predictions on a day like today, but she swallowed her tongue and ignored the quiet shock that had settled over the room.
"I'll be careful" she mumbled.
Professor Carmel smiled truimphantly and proceeded with her comments on students deaths, and luck.
Authors Notes: I know exactly where the story goes from here….I hope you enjoy. The next chapter will be up shortly. I have to thank everyone that has been giving me excellent reviews. I love you all so much. You are simply amazing. And to all my friends for telling me I can do it. You guys make me write…especially you Robyn, Jayce, Jesse, Grant, Kevin, and my reviewer Phoenix(wow, I spelled that wrong!) who reviews at every chapter! This chapter was longer! Aren't you proud!? I couldn't have kept going without any of you.
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