Authors Notes: Well, I'm still writing
can you guys believe it.. I went into about a day of depression and wrote
"Words Never Spoken" but I'm back to this fic. I'm workin' my butt
off, I really these two. Lily and James are like destiny. I love it. Its so beautiful.
Okay…to my amazing reviewers I have to hug each and every one of you
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Peace, love, and coffee! ~ Aly
Lily Evans was a bubbly seventh year. She skipped to classes some days, full of life and energy. So today, while Peter stood in the shadows in his normal spot where he stalked her from, he almost felt sad. The quick pang of remorse was pushed away by a firm forceful urge to get the job done. He knew of no other choices. The dark evil black had surfaced in his once delicate eyes. His entire body shook with power. He could catch her easily. He just needed the force to go through with it. He could feel Voldemorts cold breath on his skin now….breathing him with an unknown force forward. His skin chilled over with evil energy. And past him skipped bubbly Lily Evans, her red fiery hair chasing after her with a childlike glee only she possessed. She waved to Jenny smiling warmly, and she even gave Sirius a hug before she was finally alone.
Peter could feel Voldemort pushing him. His feet moved quickly. The dark crept over his body. He clutched the wand in his hand desperately.
Can't change this feeling
I'm way out of touch
Can't change this meaning
When it means too much
I never been so empty
Never felt so good
I can't be the only one
Misunderstood
I remind myself of someone else
I've got somebody else's thoughts in my head
I want some of my own.
I want some of my own.
He realized those would be the last thoughts that were his own. Voldemort was taking his body over from his hiding place. Voldemort screamed at him in his mind as he flew towards Lily in the deserted hallway. He grabbed her from around the waist and pulled her into a bathroom. The large door slammed behind them muffling her screams. He pushed his sweaty hand over her delicate shaped face and he spun her around to look her in the eyes. Her wild red hair was laying straight on her shoulders and back. He was sure he had pulled it, maybe he had made it a point to do that. Her green eyes were wide with shock and fright and her breathing was quick. He realized he had dragged her into the bathroom by the hair, and she was probably in pain too. But that was good. Her suffering made him stronger. Fed the fire of evil that kept him moving. That black flame glowing in his heart. She stared back at him, mercilessly. She wanted answers and she wanted them now. He laughed in her face and pushed her hard against the bathroom wall, his hand still covering her mouth. He pushed his body against hers and tucked a strand of hair between her ear.
"You don't get answers. Dead people aren't worthy of answers. Not even James can save you now." He laughed and tapped the sink. With his wand. The earth seemed to open up and they crawled in. The Chamber of Secrets………………..
The air was sharp and dank. It floated around with the smell of decay and rotting bodies. Lily forced the urge to vomit back down. She found herself struggling to breath in the thick air. The two of them landed roughly on the cold, wet, slimy ground. She regained control of her legs and stared at Peter. How dare him!
She lunged forward, throwing him on the ground. Her electric eyes violently flashing as she threw punch after punch. He winced in pain and cried out several times, but she took no notice.
"Who the hell do you think you are!?" She screamed at him.
"Lily….Evans…." someone…something…hissed. She looked up, her blood ran cold. She looked up into a gray rotted looking face. Wild red eyes, black boots and a scarlet cape draped over the figure. His long fingers in the shape of claws raised into the air and she felt her body lift from the ground. She was floating a few feet from the ground. He stared at her menacily.
"Voldemort" she whispered.
"HOW DARE YOU CALL ME THAT?!" he screamed sending electric currents through the bubble that kept her suspended. The pain burned her, but she refused to give him the satisfaction of seeing her pain. He was so used to everyone calling him "master" or "he-who-should-not-be-named" or "you-know-who" This girl had guts, and he could tell by the look in her eyes that he didn't scare her. Which only fed his fire of killing her more.
Lily knew she was going to die. She was trapped in this …. Chamber. No one could find her. She didn't know how to get out, but if Voldemort thought for a spilt second she would die laying down he was wrong. She would stand up and fight back with everything she had. For herself, for her mum and dad, for James' mum and dad, and for James. She trembled with anger.
I don't need your approval to find my worth
Trapped inside my own mind
Afraid to open my eyes cause of what I will find
And I don't want to live like this any more
"How dare you hurt us all like this?" she screamed, then the emotion came. "My Mum and Dad did NOTHING to you." She screamed. Lily felt like collapsing, like falling down and crying, but her fear and anger kept her on her feet. I will not give this piece of nothing the satisfaction of seeing me cry.
"James parents did nothing. What! Is that how you play the game? Kill everyone who has a chance of destroying you then, torture the weaker ones who can't. You are nothing… NOTHING…but a coward." She said slowly and deliberately, making him hear every sharp word she had spoken.
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"What do you mean you can't find her?!" Felicia screamed to Sirius, Jenny, and Remus! She doesn't just disappear!" Felicia was trembling all over.
"We've looked everywhere, we told Dumbledore!" Sirius said looking deathly pale.
"We even looked at our map." Remus whispered. "She's nowhere."
Dumbledore suddenly came running down the hall. He ran past them and they all followed suit. He stopped at the wall. Written in blood red letters were the dripping words:
THE CHAMBER OF SECRETS HAS BEEN OPENED
They all gasped. Felicia buried her face into Remus chest. Jenny screamed. Sirius stopped breathing….no not Lily.
{Authors Note: Yeah, I know it was opened in their time…but lets pretend for the sake of my story that it has already opened once already…and that's when Hagrid was down there. Remember? He got framed? If you don't remember that then you need to go back and read the second book again. *lol* Anyway…just pretend with me. Since this has already happened before they all know what it is. Thanks!)
Dumbledore grew very quiet. He stared for a few moments until it really sank it. He turned to them slowly.
"Bring me James right away, Sirius." He said clearly.
"Remus. I'll need you and Sirius to come back to me with James. Hurry." His glance lingered on Jenny and Felicia.
"I need you to find the teacher, the head of every house and tell them The Chamber has been opened and that I ask them to get all of their students into their respective houses. No one.. and I repeat no one is to be out here except for you four. Make them take note of that." He instructed the two girls.
"Sirius….." Remus said stopping him in the common room, his entire body trembled. Sirius took notice of this and realized whatever was about to escape his lips was terribly important.
"What?" he said carefully, staring into his ice blue eyes, urgent with fear.
"Peter…..he's not here either."
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Lily's heart was beating out of her chest. Who would've guessed she'd be so brave? He deserved every word she had just spat at him. If he was going to murder her, he was going to have to take some hell first. She wasn't about it die laying down or without making her opinion very clear.
She could tell by the way his eyes were flashing a violent red, that it was near her end. She glared right back into his eyes, pretending to not be scared. But it was futile. She had to die. How else could she make it? NO! A voice inside her screamed. She knew it all too well. She had to live, she had to beat this. Because her father and mother taught her to be a fighter and they want her to live as they watch her from heaven. She knew James needed her, Sirius needed her, Remus needed her, Jenny and Felicia needed her, even Mystica needed her. No! She had to stay alive and fight for all of them….and for Harry. Whoever he is….he needs me….in my vision he needed me, and I have to save him someday. So I can't die yet.
There goes my pain
There goes my chains
Did you see them fallin?
Cause this feeling
That has no meaning
There goes the world
Right off my shoulders
There goes the world
Off of my back
There it goes
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"Lily Evans….no not her…oh.." Professor McGonagall clutched the door frame for support, then she remembered her duty as the head of the house. "You two go then, tell Dumbledore I'll inform the other teachers so you two can get back and help….even though I think this is quite dangerous…I suppose he knows what he's doing."
Felicia and Jenny raced into the common room just as soon as James, Sirius, and Remus came flying out. Jenny looked over into James eyes. They were cold….dark and hard. Sirius has an arm around him and Remus was on his other side all of them whispering. Sirius was past his shocked stage. He was angry. Felicia looked at Remus who reached out to her hand and squeezed it. She was scared for Lily. This was insane.
"I'll kill Peter when I see him. I swear it I will." Sirius said through gritted teeth.
"It's not Peter, Padfoot." Remus stated calmly. "It's You-know-who. He knew all of us are close to Lily, but too strong to let him control us. Peter was weak."
James approached Dumbledore.
"Mr. Potter, you and I have discussed this for a very long time. Your parents have discussed this with you also. Ms. Evans…..is in grave danger. Because just as we know what will happen in your future…so does he. And Voldemort wants to stop her before the future can happen, just as he tried to stop you that night in the infirmary. Now…go. Find her, and as much as I hate to say this…Mr. Lupin, you will not be attending. The moon is……" Dumbledore paused as her glanced at the girls. "not on your side tonight."
Remus nodded.
"Mr. Black…you will go with James but no one else. As James and I know.. I cannot go with you. I have to protect here, and you girls…off to your house. Keep everyone calm. This is very serious. I trust you all, and James,…Sirius, …..bring her back gentlemen."
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Does it scare you that I can be someone different
And would it make you feel more comfortable if I wouldn't?
You can't control me
And you can't take away who I am
Voldemort's eyes were burning red. His hands clasped tightly in sharp fists. He stared hard at this determined girl, waiting for her to shudder at his glare, but to no avail. She stared straight back, unflinching. How dare she look me in the eyes!
"Do you not understand how much danger you are in Lillian?"
She glared at him. "Do you not understand that love is more powerful than hate?"
He raised his wand. "Lets have a little fun with you first." He whispered dark words under his breath and suddenly Lily was flying straight towards the large, dark, slimy, rock wall behind her. She pushed her head forward so it wouldn't get hit, but her body took the full force, knocking the wind from her lungs and she felt warm blood trickling down her spine. She glared at him. She refused to scream out in pain. She would not feed his fire.
"I was going to be nice to you, just kill you quickly but you had to run your mouth. You have your mothers spunk, Lillian. Too much determination never helped anyone." He breathed as he watched blood start to drip off her leg. Yet, she stared. Those electric eyes wouldn't falter.
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"James?" Sirius whispered
"Yes?"
"We'll get her."
"I know we will….Lily won't let him kill her…she's too …..stubborn."
They both uneasily laughed, but the look in both of their eyes said that they both knew she could be dead as the very words were spoken.
The chamber was so dark. They could see nothing. They heard nothing. It was slippery, slimy, and every step of their shoes gave them horrible chills. Sirius felt anger growing inside him by the second. It was so powerful he felt as if he was on fire. Not Lily. Not that spunky girl he called his "Lil Sis", not the girl who had fallen asleep countless times on his shoulder, Not the girl James was destined to marry! If there was any justice in life, any higher power, well…then Sirius was praying to God right now. Pleading.
"Damn!" Sirius released some of the rage inside him by kicking the rotting wet wall beside him, "Why aren't we hearing anything!? Threes no noise!" Sirius was on the verge of a breakdown when James squeezed his shoulder and forced Sirius to look into his now fiery brown eyes.
"Listen to me Padfoot, I love Lily more than I've ever loved a girl. I need her like I need air, and I won't give up till we save her. I don't care if I spend the rest of my pathetic life in this slimy hole, I will until I find her. And that's what my life is if shes not in it….pathetic."
James spun back around and continued to walk, and Sirius still followed, only with his mouth hanging open. He had never heard more sincere words escape James lips.
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She felt the warm blood on her body and it startled her. She had to stay calm. She had to just breathe…keep a clear mind. Focus on staying alive. What could she do/ She racked her brain. The chamber was cold, but she was sweating, the air was protruding and thick. She couldn't think straight. The air was too heavy. The pain all over her body was too strong. If Lily hadn't possessed such a large amount of pride, she would have broken the stare from herself to Voldemort, but no…she wouldn't let him know that she was so scared.
Slowly, she reached her hand into her pocket. Her finger felt the long smooth surface of her willow wand. She slowly latched her fingers around it and pulled it from her pocket. Lily gritted her teeth in pain, and through clenched teeth screamed:
"CRUCIO!" He screamed in buckets and buckets of pain and stumbled briefly allowing Lily to fall a few feet. He soon regained his footing and, trembling in currents, he placed her back where she was. What scared Lily the most was that the entire time he screamed in pain, he never broke the stare either. She glared. She was strong. She didn't flinch, and narrowed her eyes at him.
He looked over at her menacialy. He laughed, a high pitched , skin crawling, nervous laugh. His eyes were so red they were becoming hard to focus on.
"Lily….foolish stupid girl. I've had enough fun..time for you to die."
Lily glared right back at him. If she was going to die, he wouldn't have the satisfaction of her screams or fear. Even though she could practically taste her fear in her mouth.
"Anything to say? Well, look who I'm asking…you always have something to save don't you?" He laughed louder and Lily felt her skin trying to crawl away from her body.
She stared at him….and cracked a smirk. "Never Expected."
He looked puzzled and raised his wand above his head. "Double meanings?"
She laughed. "No…" she smirked once more, though about to double over in pain. Lily had not blinked once. "Go on, think about it….what could Never Expected mean? Or have I confused the ever so powerful Dark monster?"
He stared at her…what was this girl trying to prove?
"Forget these games, no more stalling, I'm just going to kill you now."
Lily smirked at him even more, and silently prayed that her plan would work.
She forced herself to maintain her glare at Voldemort while still screaming and pretending to see the very person that would cause him to look away.
"JAMES!" she screamed at the top of her lungs, pretending to see him, running to her rescue. She secretly wished that he really was.
That did it. Voldemort broke the stare, looking for James. This give Lily just enough time to descend. She had given up on magic, she wasn't about to battle this guy, but she did fight with James, Sirius, and Remus enough to know how to punch. She fell straight down, and hard onto her knees. More blood covered the floor. She was in so much pain she couldn't think, she just acted. So as Lily dove towards him and threw him to the ground the only thought in her mind was survival, and James. She threw punch after punch and when she tackled him his wand had gone flying. He stared up at her with red menacing eyes and grabbed her neck.
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"JAMES!"
"Sirius! Did you hear that?! ITS LILY!" he cried lunging forward, both of them sprinting, they felt their legs burn in pain, and every ounce of them hurt. James felt tears
James heart fluttered at the mere chance of Lily still being alive. Her screams echoed in his mind. The tunnel was dark, damp, wet, slimy…he could hardly breathe. The only noise he could hear was his now raspy breath, and Sirius panting beside him. Poor Sirius…it was killing him almost as much as it was killing James, he could almost feel Sirius's fear for Lily. James momentarily thought of how Jenny and Felicia must feel.
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Felicia stared at the ceiling of her dorm. Jenny was beyond hysterics. Her hot tears burned her face. She kept pacing back and forth, nervously running her fingers through her hair, and sighing. Finally, Jenny gave up, gingerly sat down on Lily's bed and sobbed into her pillow.
"Not Lily….not her" she whispered through her tears.
"ITS NOT FAIR FELICIA!" She screamed into the air, not really talking to Felicia, just yelling in desperation.
Felicia looked over at her with tears in her eyes. "I don't know…I honestly..don't know."
Jenny laid on Lily's bed crying, Felicia sat on her own ..also crying. Sunlight flooded t he room, the sunset washing over the carpet and canopy's of their beds. The sky lit up in purples, light pinks, light blues, and flooding the valley's in the distance, was a dark navy blue, hinting the nighttime was a mere hour away. Jenny stared hard at the dark blue…..would nighttime be the end of Lily's life?
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Oh…those eyes! I can almost feel the evil burning into my own spirit! Oh…someone….someone find me…before that evil red transforms my own eyes.
Lily was screaming inside…she felt the fear about to explode within her. His grip tightened around her neck. She kicked, she screamed,….and she refused to give up. The world was getting darker..and darker…and then finally it was white. No! Death …it wasn't time yet! She couldn't breathe. It hurt to even blink. Then she thought of Harry, this baby that she had to protect. She forced herself to open her eyes, to stare straight into the red and not be afraid. "Please God, please…let me live…for Harry."
Voldemort jerked his hands back, and stared at Lily.
"Show me respect….you WILL be afraid Lily. You will not look me in the eye!" He threw her down again. This time her head hit the ground…hard. She felt warm blood in her eye. Her entire body ached, and she wondered how she could possibly survive this.
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James blinked several times. Where was she!? There was that disgusting piece of nothing Voldemort…but where was Lily? He spotted her, and lunged at Voldemort, wand high above his head, shouting words at the top of his lungs.
"Expelliarmus!" James screamed in a deep voice.
Voldemort was flung from where he had been standing over Lily, his wand pointed inches from her delicate face. He felt himself almost flying…then he came into full contact with a wall. The slamming noise was so strong…so powerful. James thought , for only a brief moment, that he'd killed him. Voldemort looked dazed, then easily slid to his feet and laughed. LAUGHED!
"James…you think I'm foolish don't you? Like you can just easily destroy me….like you know all my weaknesses…hmm…nice try." He said dryly, "But..I know yours." A loud raspy shill came from his mouth, like a skeleton trying to laugh. Then he pointed his wand at Lily, her delicate body crumpled on the slimy floor, and yelled "IMPERIO!" {ref. ~ Book 4 pg, 212 Thanks ~ aly}
Lily was jerked into the air then thrown back down on her own feet. She winced as if both legs had just been smashed, but still, no scream could be detected. James, Sirius, and Lily all knew now. She had no control over herself. Voldemort was controlling her. She kept her arms at her side, brow furrowed, eyes glaring.
Sirius stared and mumbled to James, "That stubborn Lily, she's fighting it, and ..she's winning James. Shes doing it."
Sirius ran to her, no longer thinking, no longer caring. He loved Lily as if she was his sister, and no one…no one would take her from him. He raced to her. Voldemort still trying to overcome the unknown power Lily possessed within her, and James staring in disbelief. Sirius ran to her and wrapped his arms around hers. She couldn't move. He held her tightly and whispered in her ear loudly and over and over again.
"I love you. I love you Lils. Fight it. Don't think about it. Think about all the people who love you. Think about James. Fight it Lily. For me…for James…for your parents."
Lily thought she might explode in emotion, her entire body trembling. She could hear Voldemort screaming in her brain, trying to control her with the curse, the unforgivable curse. He screamed at her, "Kill him. KILL HIM" Lily's hands rose several times, but she forced herself to focus on Sirius, and his love for her, and James.
James lunged at Voldemort, breaking his stare
to control Lily. Lily, no longer under control, collapsed into Sirius's arms.
Her entire body trembled. Her skin was ice cold and tears burned her face. She
felt blood, but she didn't recall how she'd received it. All she knew was that
everything was so sharp. Her pain was like knives all over her. It was getting
dark. Her eyelids hurt, and begged for rest. Yet, she couldn't. Not James. She
had to help him. She looked over at him, Voldemort and James screamed curses at
each other and took turns being hexed. Lily never expected what was coming
next, and her voice failed her. So in desperation she dug her fingernails into
Sirius's arms, silently pleading with him to turn around. He didn't
understand…he never saw what was coming.
***Well, I have to stop here, I'm so sorry that this is so long. You are
either going to love me or hate me for that. Well, I can't believe fanfiction
was down for so long, but oh well. Here it is, I'll post more every chance I
get, but you know…my school starts tommorow and I should be sleeping right now,
but no…I sit in front of my computer and post stories for you guys, lol, give
me some credit. Love you guys!!! Always ~ Aly
