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(It starts with) One thing,
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard I try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
(All I know) that time is a valuable thing
watch the clock fly as the pendulum swings
watch it count down to the end of the days
the clock ticks life away
(It's so unreal) I didn't look out below
watch the time go out the window
tryin' to hold on to didn't even know
I wasted it all just to
(Watch you go) I kept everything inside
and even though I tried
it all fell apart
what it meant to me
will eventually be a memory
of a time…
I knew this would happen. I just KNEW I'd die. I figured it'd be soon too. I mean, Riley left, mom
died, Spike loves me(I knew hell had frozen over by that point). So I estimated that it'd be soon. Since I
was doing all of this contemplating, I thought, "How much of a difference am I really making?" I mean, I
used to think I was important, that I could save the anyone from anything. I used to think that until my
mother died. I took a second to think how much evil there still is in the world, even AFTER I stopped so
much. It kinda makes me think, that in the end it doesn't even matter. I did so much and didn't lose until
now, but where does that get me? Thanked only by the people who helped me, to be depressed, jobless, and
schooless. OH, not to mention I now have a sister. It's strange, because even though I had my friends, I
was alone. I now know how Cordy felt. My group of friends was a little different mind you, but the effect is
the same.
My friends have changed so much. Willow, the once mild mannered computer nerd, is now an
accomplished witch. Xander has literally gone from zero to hero. Giles, he has changed immensely. Once a
stuffy Watcher, he is now a grizzled man that defied from the Council. The one that has changed most
though has to be my former worst enemy, Spike. The chip has either done wonders to or totally destroyed
his personality. I think he is the most human of all the vampires I've ever met, even Angel. It takes courage
to go from homicidal maniac to harmless honey, yet he did it. I probably would have loved him had I
longer to talk and be with him. But in the end it doesn't matter, after all I've accomplished, and sill it
comes.
I tried so hard,
And got so far,
but in the end,
it doesn't even matter.
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
it doesn't even matter
More evil. Why I fight baffles me. I mean it is prophesied that good shall overcome evil, what's
the deal? But it looks like I had to go, had to die, to save an ungrateful world. To save my friends. To save
my self from me. I think if I'd gone any longer, I'd have killed myself or let Glory take me over. I just
wanted to die. Looks like I got my wish.