It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
Since I first saw you
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
Since I could call you
But everything I can't
remember as fucked up as it
all may seem the consequences
that I've rendered I've stretched
myself beyond my means

I was walking down the sidewalk along the stores, thinking. Then my mind suddenly got stuck on one thing, or person, Duo. I remembered the last time we were together. * Flashback *
We were in a safe house after a mission. Wufei was also with us. It had two bedrooms so Duo and I shared a room and Wufei had his own. I was typing on the computer and Duo laid on the bed behind me. "What do you want?" I asked keeping my eyes on the computer screen. "Nothing really." He said sitting up and putting an arm around my shoulder. I turned and looked into deep violet eyes. Duo came closer and pressed his lips to mine. I put my arms around him and brought him closer. He let out a small gasp as my tongue slip into his mouth.

It's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
Since I could say I love myself as well
Since I've gone and fucked things
up just like I always do
But all that shit seems to
disappear when I'm with you
But everything I can't remember
as fucked up as it may seem
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've gone and fucked things up again.
Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day

I woke up next to Duo, who was still asleep. I looked over at him. "What the hell did you just sleep with your best friend for?" a voice shot out in my head. Damnit why did I let desires take over? I laid my head in my hands. "There's only one thing you can do now." The voice told me. "Leave and it'll be better for you, it won't hurt just leave." I got up and looked back over at Duo. I got my clothes off the floor and ran out the door and got into Wing Zero. * End Flashback *

It's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
Since I said I'm sorry
Since I've seen the way
the candle lights your face
But I can still remember
just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as
fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me I cannot blame this on my
father he did the best he could for me

Then I saw Duo walking on the other side of the road. I was about to run over and tell him that I didn't mean to leave him. But then I saw him run forward a bit and wrap his arms around another person's arm. I looked up at the person's face. Wufei and Duo? I should of known if I left Duo he'd end up being comforted by Wufei. I stood there starring at them walk in front of a wedding dress store and stop. I saw Duo pointing at one and Wufei nodding his head. Have I been gone for that long? I felt a small pain in my heart as they walked in the store. Duo was getting married to Wufei and it was all my fault.

It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I said
I'm sorry