Yeah, I know...it's been awhile since I posted on this fic. Well...I've been working on trying to finish other stuff...with college and working full time..I only get brief periods of time to write. So here it is.


Rivals: Daisuke's Thoughts
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I knew the idea was dumb in the beginning. Sure, I made it sound noble....just to figure out what you liked I said. No strings attached I said. Of course, I didn't think that would happen. Maybe I was a little naive, but I thought it would work out.

Yeah, so I thought it would be like a scene from a manga, you know how it goes. The lead angsts over the love of another, and then one night they kiss and fall into passionate bliss. Well, I know thats the biggest load of crap ever.

It seems like all I've been able to do is make mistakes. Makes me glad I'm in this bed with needles sticking into me like I'm a pincushion. I really deserve this...I mean someone as stupid as me can't be happy. They say 'What goes around comes around' or something....they're right. I was such a jerk before and see what happens.

So, I deserve it...I know it...everyone knows it. It's been a quiet day here in hell. Some people stopped by. My parents and Jun stopped by first, they all looked like I was dead... And then Miyako stopped by and yelled at me to get better soon. The weirdest thing happened when Iori stopped by though....he told me that Takeru was worried or seemed so. I told him I didn't care....and he said something along the lines of 'I think you do' and then left. Which made me wonder how much he thought he knew...

I wish I was as perceptive as he is. It would keep me out of trouble. Everyone is so much better than I am. Iori is so perceptive...and Miyako...she speaks her mind without putting her foot in her mouth...okay..sometimes. Hikari...well...Hikari...is just a tease...but anyway...moving on. Where was I...yes...I wish I was as brave as Taichi-sama...or as talented as Yamato-san. I wish I was as smart as Koushiro...or if people could count on me as much as they do Jyou. I wish people could come to me when they're sad like they do to Sora. I wish I was like Ta--no Takeru can drop dead!

I mean, he has some nerve...! He knew it was going to happen, didn't he!? How could he be such an asshole! I asked him, damnit..and he agreed to it. It was an innocent kiss, and it didn't even last that long. Why did I fall for him. I hated him for the longest time, and then I pushed him down the hill...and I felt so bad that he had gotten hurt.

"Dais..."

I look up slowly. It's Takeru...great, now what am I supposed to do. "Hi..." no that was lame.

"I'm really sorry."

"You should be." I didn't mean for it to sound as cold as it did, and I regret saying it when he flinches and takes a few steps backwards.

He sighs heavily. "I've been afraid to stop by....I know you hate me. I wish I didn't react like I did...I think...I was just afraid. You...I...I mean I was a little shocked...when you stopped by I was so confused. I was trying to figure out how I felt for you."

"And how do you feel..."

"I thought about it everyday....I think....I..."
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This would have been up before, but it took FF.net forever to fix the uploads. As I write this tag...they're still not up..and this chapter has been sitting for a few weeks. The next chapter will be up faster I promise..unless I get sucky reviews...then I'll probably jsut send the chapter tp those who want to read it. ::goes about considering starting a yahoo group x_x::