Title: Standing Here Until You Make Me Move. (Part four)
Songs: I have used various lyrics in my fic, I didn't write any of the quoted lyrics unless otherwise noted. I have just simply borrowed them!
Previously:
Abby opened the door. Carter couldn't believe it. Abby looked fantastic. Skin was glowing, with a perfect bronze tan and her hair was different too. It had grown longer and looked so shiny and perfect. He didn't know what to say, she looked so great; he melted and couldn't speak. So they looked at each other, in a comforting silence that lasted a long time. Both too frightened to speak unless they ruined it some how...
'Every time you smile I see the light, and every time I close my eyes, I realise'
Abby smiled at John awkwardly, yet showing signs of affection and knowingly forced Carter to speak.
"Wow, you look...great!"
"Thanks, like I said a really needed that break."
"I guess...so have you called Luka?"
"No, why would I?" Abby said, she had broken up with Luka about 2 months ago.
"Well I mean..."
"Ohh, you didn't know, me and Luka broke up, about 2 months ago."
"Oh, no I didn't know, I'm sorry"
"Don't be, needed to end sometime I guess"
"Yeah." Carter finished not quite knowing what to say. Trying not to look into Abby's eyes for fear of falling over.
"So you wanna come in or something?" Abby asked a little chuckle in her voice, she'd never seen Carter look so nervous. Although Abby had had her break to concentrate on herself for a while, she had spent most of the time thinking about Carter, those last words bounced off her brain over and over again. 'And I don't want to be your friend' what had he meant by that? How could he have meant relationship? She was still seeing Luka at the time. And if he didn't want to be her friend why was he at her door now?
"Look Carter, I thought 'you didn't want to be my friend or whatever" As soon as she said it she regretted it. Why had she said it? Yes she wanted to know, but was he willing to answer?
'Please remember, please remember, I was there for you and you were there for me, please remember, our time together, remember me'
"I don't" Carter said coyly, looking down at his shoes and then finally into Abby's eyes, he saw the confusion which made him laugh. She was so naive, so unaware that he had feelings for her. He smiled, amused as he looked into her eyes.
"What, what are you looking at?" She asked, smiling back, yet suddenly insecure.
"You" he finished laughing louder. It wasn't her fault. He hadn't been crystal clear. But he didn't want to be; he was too worried that what he wanted wasn't the same as what she wanted. That if he took this one step further he could risk loosing the most beautiful, understanding, smart, loyal and kind friend he had ever had, that he could hurt the one person he never wanted to hurt.
"Look Carter I don't understand. If you don't want to be my friend, then why are you..."Abby didn't get a chance to finish. Carter took her face firmly in his hands and kissed her gently. Brushing away her shiny hair from her face with his fingers. At first she was tense but she didn't pull away. It lasted. The adrenaline pumping through both their bodies was incredible. Abby had not expected this, but at the same time didn't stop. But Carter had to, he had to look at her face and listen to her voice and touch her, he had to check for some kind of reaction. He stopped and looked at her. She smiled awkwardly, not quite knowing what to say.
"I'm sorry" Carter whispered, he started to stutter and try to explain himself muttering, his eyes darting around the room, unable to look at Abby; he feared if he looked at her again, he would make the same mistakes all over again.
"It's okay" She said, "A little unexpected, but okay"
"Okay?" Carter said wondering what in the hell ok had actually ever meant. He tried to race his mind back the last time that he had said ok. Tried to remember what he had meant when he said it, trying to complete a definition in his head.
"Look, John" She had gone to say Carter, but do you call someone who has just kissed you by their surname? Abby started to wonder in frenzy before getting to the point. "I just got back, and I'm not sure I can do this right now." Carter looked blank, as if he was fighting not to let the emotions through.
"Well I said I was sorry" Carter said trailing off. He wanted to run off into the night and never be seen again but Abby's gaze had him paralysed. "What are you thinking?" he asked, wondering why she was looking at him in such a way.
"Actually, I'm thinking this" She said quietly as she reached for Carter's hand. He looked down at his hand then back at Abby as she did the same. Their eyes were fixed on each other for the longest four seconds of their lives as Abby squeezed Carter's hand just before reaching up to his lips and returning the kiss that had felt so safe. So normal. So nice. It was gentle at first and soft, and then as it grew more passionate Carter reluctantly pulled away.
"I thought you didn't want this" Carter said feeling Abby's grip tighten.
"I've missed out on a lot of things in my life john, sat out a lot of happiness because I was too scared. I used to blame it on my mom, but going to Italy made me realise I was always too angry with her. I convinced myself that if she vanished all my problems would go along with her, but I was just hiding behind her, sure it was hard, but it was always worth it for the good times. I don't want to miss out on anything else. I want to give myself the chance to be happy. I want to give us the chance to be happy." She finished, feeling open and judged. Carter did not know what to say; what could he possibly say to tell her how he felt. His mind went blank. He moved his hands around her face and held them there for a second, he looked into her eyes, watching the tears well, and he kissed her. The world seemed to spin outside them, they were the only ones who existed right now, right there in a moment which would be over in a second, but last the rest of their lives.
Abby awoke the next morning abruptly. She felt strange. She moved her leg and hit something. Something that wasn't normally there, she lifted her head confused and looked. It was Carter. Suddenly the whole night came back to her. The kiss, the happiness, and the way she felt so safe. She replaced her head gently back on to the pillow, trying not to wake Carter, not wanting to have to get up and not feel him next to her, she drifted off to sleep.
Carter carefully manoeuvred himself around Abby's sleeping body. He smiled happily as her watched her chest rise and fall and her skin shimmer lightly in the strong sunlight of morning. He made his way into the kitchen to make himself a coffee. As he did the phone rang. Carter picked it up immediately still not wanting to wake Abby.
"Hello"
"Hello, could I speak with an Abby Lockhart please?"
"Ahh she's actually asleep at the moment, could I take a message?"
"Yeah, could you just tell her she got the job?"
"What job?"
"The job she applied for, OB nurse? Florida?"
"OB nurse, Florida...right ok, I will" Carter put down the phone and stared at it in disbelief for a moment. What was going on? She was leaving, applying for jobs? Suddenly Abby stepped out from the bedroom unsteadily.
"Who was that?" She said innocently. Carter stared at her for a moment not quite knowing what to say, not really wanting to tell her; his face looked angry and disappointed. He opened his mouth to tell her and just waited for the sound to come out, but it didn't...
Songs: I have used various lyrics in my fic, I didn't write any of the quoted lyrics unless otherwise noted. I have just simply borrowed them!
Previously:
Abby opened the door. Carter couldn't believe it. Abby looked fantastic. Skin was glowing, with a perfect bronze tan and her hair was different too. It had grown longer and looked so shiny and perfect. He didn't know what to say, she looked so great; he melted and couldn't speak. So they looked at each other, in a comforting silence that lasted a long time. Both too frightened to speak unless they ruined it some how...
'Every time you smile I see the light, and every time I close my eyes, I realise'
Abby smiled at John awkwardly, yet showing signs of affection and knowingly forced Carter to speak.
"Wow, you look...great!"
"Thanks, like I said a really needed that break."
"I guess...so have you called Luka?"
"No, why would I?" Abby said, she had broken up with Luka about 2 months ago.
"Well I mean..."
"Ohh, you didn't know, me and Luka broke up, about 2 months ago."
"Oh, no I didn't know, I'm sorry"
"Don't be, needed to end sometime I guess"
"Yeah." Carter finished not quite knowing what to say. Trying not to look into Abby's eyes for fear of falling over.
"So you wanna come in or something?" Abby asked a little chuckle in her voice, she'd never seen Carter look so nervous. Although Abby had had her break to concentrate on herself for a while, she had spent most of the time thinking about Carter, those last words bounced off her brain over and over again. 'And I don't want to be your friend' what had he meant by that? How could he have meant relationship? She was still seeing Luka at the time. And if he didn't want to be her friend why was he at her door now?
"Look Carter, I thought 'you didn't want to be my friend or whatever" As soon as she said it she regretted it. Why had she said it? Yes she wanted to know, but was he willing to answer?
'Please remember, please remember, I was there for you and you were there for me, please remember, our time together, remember me'
"I don't" Carter said coyly, looking down at his shoes and then finally into Abby's eyes, he saw the confusion which made him laugh. She was so naive, so unaware that he had feelings for her. He smiled, amused as he looked into her eyes.
"What, what are you looking at?" She asked, smiling back, yet suddenly insecure.
"You" he finished laughing louder. It wasn't her fault. He hadn't been crystal clear. But he didn't want to be; he was too worried that what he wanted wasn't the same as what she wanted. That if he took this one step further he could risk loosing the most beautiful, understanding, smart, loyal and kind friend he had ever had, that he could hurt the one person he never wanted to hurt.
"Look Carter I don't understand. If you don't want to be my friend, then why are you..."Abby didn't get a chance to finish. Carter took her face firmly in his hands and kissed her gently. Brushing away her shiny hair from her face with his fingers. At first she was tense but she didn't pull away. It lasted. The adrenaline pumping through both their bodies was incredible. Abby had not expected this, but at the same time didn't stop. But Carter had to, he had to look at her face and listen to her voice and touch her, he had to check for some kind of reaction. He stopped and looked at her. She smiled awkwardly, not quite knowing what to say.
"I'm sorry" Carter whispered, he started to stutter and try to explain himself muttering, his eyes darting around the room, unable to look at Abby; he feared if he looked at her again, he would make the same mistakes all over again.
"It's okay" She said, "A little unexpected, but okay"
"Okay?" Carter said wondering what in the hell ok had actually ever meant. He tried to race his mind back the last time that he had said ok. Tried to remember what he had meant when he said it, trying to complete a definition in his head.
"Look, John" She had gone to say Carter, but do you call someone who has just kissed you by their surname? Abby started to wonder in frenzy before getting to the point. "I just got back, and I'm not sure I can do this right now." Carter looked blank, as if he was fighting not to let the emotions through.
"Well I said I was sorry" Carter said trailing off. He wanted to run off into the night and never be seen again but Abby's gaze had him paralysed. "What are you thinking?" he asked, wondering why she was looking at him in such a way.
"Actually, I'm thinking this" She said quietly as she reached for Carter's hand. He looked down at his hand then back at Abby as she did the same. Their eyes were fixed on each other for the longest four seconds of their lives as Abby squeezed Carter's hand just before reaching up to his lips and returning the kiss that had felt so safe. So normal. So nice. It was gentle at first and soft, and then as it grew more passionate Carter reluctantly pulled away.
"I thought you didn't want this" Carter said feeling Abby's grip tighten.
"I've missed out on a lot of things in my life john, sat out a lot of happiness because I was too scared. I used to blame it on my mom, but going to Italy made me realise I was always too angry with her. I convinced myself that if she vanished all my problems would go along with her, but I was just hiding behind her, sure it was hard, but it was always worth it for the good times. I don't want to miss out on anything else. I want to give myself the chance to be happy. I want to give us the chance to be happy." She finished, feeling open and judged. Carter did not know what to say; what could he possibly say to tell her how he felt. His mind went blank. He moved his hands around her face and held them there for a second, he looked into her eyes, watching the tears well, and he kissed her. The world seemed to spin outside them, they were the only ones who existed right now, right there in a moment which would be over in a second, but last the rest of their lives.
Abby awoke the next morning abruptly. She felt strange. She moved her leg and hit something. Something that wasn't normally there, she lifted her head confused and looked. It was Carter. Suddenly the whole night came back to her. The kiss, the happiness, and the way she felt so safe. She replaced her head gently back on to the pillow, trying not to wake Carter, not wanting to have to get up and not feel him next to her, she drifted off to sleep.
Carter carefully manoeuvred himself around Abby's sleeping body. He smiled happily as her watched her chest rise and fall and her skin shimmer lightly in the strong sunlight of morning. He made his way into the kitchen to make himself a coffee. As he did the phone rang. Carter picked it up immediately still not wanting to wake Abby.
"Hello"
"Hello, could I speak with an Abby Lockhart please?"
"Ahh she's actually asleep at the moment, could I take a message?"
"Yeah, could you just tell her she got the job?"
"What job?"
"The job she applied for, OB nurse? Florida?"
"OB nurse, Florida...right ok, I will" Carter put down the phone and stared at it in disbelief for a moment. What was going on? She was leaving, applying for jobs? Suddenly Abby stepped out from the bedroom unsteadily.
"Who was that?" She said innocently. Carter stared at her for a moment not quite knowing what to say, not really wanting to tell her; his face looked angry and disappointed. He opened his mouth to tell her and just waited for the sound to come out, but it didn't...
