It was like he didn't say it. I looked blankly at him. He repeated himself. Steph thanked him and he left. I laid back on the table and started to cry. This was too much for me. First Vince dicks me over a million times, and now I'm pregnant.
"I'll tell my father the story." She said.
"Thank you, Steph." I told her.
We took the long way back. I wasn't ready to see the guys. I couldn't tell them. What would they think? They would hear the same story Vince is going to hear, until I can think of a good way to tell them. I wasn't even sure if I was going to tell Vince the truth. He didn't have to know. But, then again, he would. He owns this thing and if I needed a lot of days off, he would start to ask why. This was too much to think about right now.
We pulled into the hotel parking lot. I sat in the car for five minutes. I put on some of Steph's makeup and tried to look normal. We walked in and everyone was wondering where we had gone.
"Where were you guys?" Hunter asked. "You had us worried."
"We had female things to do." Steph answered.
"You OK?" Adam asked me. I nodded my head and walked by. This was going to be too hard.
"When do you want me to tell my father?" Steph asked.
"Give me three more months." I answered. "I'm going to my room."
She let me go. The guys ran up to her asking her things. What's wrong and all. She didn't say anything.
"You know something." Matt said. "Tell us."
"I can't tell you anything." She replied. "She's just not herself."
"Will she be OK for RAW?" Adam asked.
"She's not going to be herself for a while. She can fight, but she's just not herself."
"Good, I need to barrow her from you two." Adam told Matt and Jeff. "I have a real important match."
"OK." Matt said. "Against who?"
"Dunno know how this happened, but I got a Euro belt shot." He smiled. "I need her support."
"Good luck." Matt said. He turned back to Stephanie. "It's really important that I know. She's more than just my partner."
"I'm sorry, Matt."
I was on my bed crying. I didn't have my belt, I didn't have Vince's support, I didn't have much of anything anymore. What I did have was a boss who hated me, stitches, a baby, and people who I couldn't talk to even though I needed them most. Stephanie was the only one who knew, the only one who was going to know at this point. I had to tell the guys. They had to know. Vince didn't have to know.
I opened a door and stepped onto the balcony by my window. I looked down at the pool and saw families. Parents with children. Something I would be dealing with in due time. I sat out there for a good ten minutes, just looking. I would have stayed longer if there wasn't a knock at my door.
"Jeff." I said.
"Is this a bad time?" He asked.
"No." I answered.
"I saw you come in with Stephanie and you didn't look too happy." He said. "Are you all right?"
"I've been better to say the least."
"I am sorry about this whole Vince thing, and your belt." He said. "It's unfair that he's doing this to you."
"At least I have a match against him with Shane."
"And Austin. Now, I know Austin's just faking it, but still."
"I know what you mean, Jeff. But, I'm going to go out there with a lot of power. Nothing is going to stop me. I'm going out with full force."
"Anger and fear fuel anyone."
"Fear's only a four letter word." I told him. "I'm not fearing anyone. It's anger that's pushing me."
"Don't do anything you'll regret later." He told me. "I know how you feel. Revenge is key right now. But, don't do anything that will harm you."
"I've got my reasons to watch myself. Don't worry about me."
"I have to worry!" He said. "I worry that you're going to take to the ring and come out in horrible shape. I'm worried that the outcome of this match could result in you getting fired and I'll never see you again."
"If Vince wants to fire me, you'll still see me. It'll take a lot to get me to go away." I said.
"I'm begging you to be careful." He sighed. "We have to get going."
"Going to New York?" I asked.
"We're going to the arena, you're going to WWF New York."
"I am?"
"You didn't know? You're hosting Sunday Night Heat."
"I had no idea." I said.
"I guess Shane didn't inform you then." He shrugged. "Well, now you know. Get your things ready and lets get out of here."
Hosting Sunday Night Heat would be fun. I'd have to take a different plane than everyone else. But, at this time that seemed more like a good idea. I would be able to sort things out without everyone around me.
We arrived at the airport. My flight was coming in first. I sat down and put my head in my hands. I couldn't stop thinking about what everyone would think. How was I going to do this? I can't handle a child. I can't do this alone. Someone's hand was on my shoulder.
"Destiny, is there anything you want to talk about?" It was Adam. I shook my head no. "I know that's a lie."
"Adam I'm-" I stopped myself. "I'm just not feeling well."
"I can see that. It has to do with Vince, I know." He said. "I know it might not mean much anymore because you've heard it so much, but I am very sorry."
"It means a lot, Adam." I said. "More than you know."
"And, the offer still stands. If you need to talk, I'm always ready to listen."
"I know. This is something bigger than that."
"What?" He asked.
"I can't tell." I answered. "You just need to trust me when I say that."
"I'll always trust you." He said.
"You'll know, just give me some time, a lot of time."
"I'll wait."
"Thank you." I said. I rested my head against his shoulder. He kissed the top of my head.
My flight was called. I said good-bye to everyone and boarded. I took my seat. The flight was about two hours. But seemed so much longer. A million ideas were spinning inside my mind. I was driving myself insane. I did have every right to be insane. Too much has happened in such little time.
I got off and a man was waiting to pick me up. I got my own limo. How nice. Sunday Night Heat wasn't going to start for another few hours. I told the driver to drop me off there now, and pick me up after. He said he would.
"Destiny, good to see you." Michael Cole said. I hugged him and Tazz. "We're expecting a phone call from Shane tonight."
"I know why." I said.
After a few minutes of talking, I went to the store part of the building. I began looking around and shirts and things. Buying a lot of things, things I didn't need. Like another Edge and Christian shirt. I left there after I bought what I did. I took a walk down to Central Park. It's so peaceful there. I sat in Strawberry Fields and paid my respects to John Lennon.
Sitting there, all those thoughts came back up. If I could take this back, I would. I' ve watched those TV shows on TLC with mothers giving birth. I'd sit there and watch, wanting one. And, now that I'm going to have one, I can't take it. I wish I wasn't. Abortion went through my mind. But, I could never go through with that.
I must have spent an hour in Central Park. I had an hour now until the show started. I got something quick to eat and walked back. I arrived ten minutes before the show would start. I now had to put an act on. I couldn't let anyone know that I wasn't right inside.
My new music debuted and I walked out. A song called "Destiny", a song made for me by Aerosmith. The crowd went crazy. I smiled and thanked them. I took the mic from the stand and pulled the stand back.
"How is everyone here in New York!?" The crowd screamed. "This is my home town. Born and raised here. It's great to be back. I only wish I could be holding the Women's Title. But, as you all know, Vince McMahon is a two-faced reekazoid, as my friends Edge and Christian would say, and I no longer have it. And, Vince has made a new friend. Stone Cold Steve Austin has sold his sold to the devil. You all saw what happened last night to me. I plan to get my revenge."
Night went on the same. I kept on dissing Vince, not caring what he would do to me. Then, the call came. Shane McMahon called to announce the match.
"Shane?" I asked. "Can you hear me?"
"Loud and clear Destiny." He answered. "I'm calling today to announce a match at RAW. A tag match. My father, Vince McMahon, and Stone Cole Vs. Destiny and I." Crowd loved that idea. "If we win, Destiny gets her title back. Will Regal wouldn't help me out. So, I went to my mother. She went to Mick Foley. He made sure this match would happen."
"Make sure you tell Mick I said thank you."
He hung up, and Cole had something to say, "Destiny, do you think it's wise to do that?"
"Sure do Coleslaw." I answered.
I left it at that. Cole came up to me after and asked me about it. He didn't want me to get seriously hurt. He even thought this Austin thing was for real.
As soon as I left WWF New York, the stress and problems of before sunk right in. I got into the limo and nearly broke down there. I called up my apartment, no one was home. I told the driver to drop me off there and that I wasn't going to be needing his services anymore. I watched him drive away from The Dakota.
I unlocked the door and walked in. I hadn't been in here in so long. I put my things down in my room and walked around. I put my hand on the heater, the one where I used to talk to our neighbors, John Lennon. I had to call everyone and tell them I was still in the city and I'd meet up with them. I didn't want them in this house in a fear that my parents would return. I picked up the phone and called Stephanie.
"Hun, saw the show. You looked great." She said.
"Felt great too, then I left the place and bam all that was haunting me came back." I told her. "You with everyone?"
"Yes." She answered. "We're getting ready to leave. What did you think of the matches?"
"Good, good." I answered. "I'm not in a hotel. I'll meet you at the entrance of Central Park at noon tomorrow."
"Where are you?"
"Don't worry, I'm OK." I told her. "Just meet me there."
"With everyone?"
"With everyone."
"They have been asking me about you all damn day." She said.
"What did you tell them?" I asked.
"Don't worry, you're secrets safe with me." She answered.
"Good. I can't tell them, not yet."
"You're going to have to."
"When I return. You're father, well, that's a different story."
"He doesn't have to know." She said.
"I can't leave this, I can't do this." I told her. "I'm going to be alone. I can't, Stephanie, I can't."
"You can. You're going to be fine. As soon as you get back you'll have so many people here for you."
"I'm not worried about when I get back. Well, I am. Worried what they'll say. But, I'm talking about when I leave."
"I'm only a phone call away. I don't give a damn what my father says anymore. I'll get on the first flight out if you need me."
"I can't keep you away for so long." I said. "They need you. Someone has to slap the guys around while I'm not there."
"You know who's going to miss you most." She said. "Jeff."
"I know." I sighed.
"You should give him a shot."
"I want to, I really do. But, that's not what I need right now. I need friends, not lovers."
"I understand. Look, we have to go now. I'll see you soon."
"OK."
We hung up. I didn't know what to do. It was now about 8:30. I took my wallet and left. I had no destination. I just needed to leave. I couldn't stand still. I walked through Central Park again and down to Times Square. Trying hard to sort out everything in my head.
I had totally forgot about meeting the guys at noon and happened to be near the entrance of Central Park. I didn't see them. Adam ran to me.
"Hey, didn't you see us standing there?" He asked.
"Oh, my God. I am so sorry it must have slipped my mind."
"Are you all right? This doesn't seem like you."
"I told you, you're going to have to trust me when I say I can't tell you right now."
He didn't like that idea, but nodded anyway. He put his arm around me and led me to everyone else. I said my hellos. I tried so hard to put on a good face for them. But, I know they saw through it.
"I'm really hungry." Matt said. "Where can we eat?"
"What do you want?" I asked.
"Doesn't really matter." He answered.
I took them to a pizza place across from MTV Studios and near WWF New York. No one really noticed. New York is a huge city. Only a few people noticed who we were.
"Hey, Destiny, can I ask you something?" Adam asked.
"Sure." I answered.
"Tonight I have a very important match, European Title shot. Can you walk out with me?"
"What about Jay?"
"He'll be there too, I want you to come along. It's the second match."
"Sure." I answered. "Where are y'all staying?"
"Some nice hotel." Jeff answered.
"I need my stuff. I'll meet you back where I met you before in an hour." I said.
"Why can't we come?" Chris asked.
"Don't worry." I called.
I walked back to my apartment. Why couldn't they come? I had no idea when my folks would be back. The last thing I needed was to run into them. I unlocked the door and saw the two of them standing there.
"Mother, father." I said. "I need my things and I'm gone." I walked past them and got my bags.
"Professional wrestler." My father said. "I thought with your talent you'd be doing something with more of a future."
"Oh please, father. You have no idea what it's like. I was the Women's Champ."
"Was." My mother added.
"Yeah, until the owner screwed me over." I told them. "Don't start. I am no in the mood for your shit."
"We're your parents, don't talk to us that way." My father told me.
"You never were parents."
I slammed the door shut. The last thing I needed was to see them. They made the situation worse. I met up with everyone at the entrance of Central Park.
"Sorry to have you do this." I said. "It's just, my parents are in there. That's my apartment, The Dakota. Right next door to John Lennon. And, my parents are exactly the nicest people. Hell, they're not nice at all. I don't want anyone to have to deal with them."
"It's OK." Jeff said. He hugged me. He could see the tears rise up. "We'll take you back to the hotel and let you drop your things off."
"Hey, why don't you take us shopping?" Stephanie asked.
"That's just what I need right now." I smiled. "That sounds real corny, I know." I sighed. "God, I am too emotional."
"No, no it's fine." Jeff said. "This isn't easy." If he only knew.
A limo was waiting. It was only the way all of us could get around by car. I rested my head against Jeff and he stroked my hair. I just wanted to close my eyes and never wake up.
Soon enough we pulled into the hotel. Jeff carried my things in for me. I got my room and he came in with me. I sat on one of the beds. He put my things down and sat next to me.
"I know this week hasn't been the best for you." He said. "But, there is something else that's bothering you. What is it?"
"I can't tell you, Jeff. I want to, but I just can't." I answered. "You are going to have to trust me."
"I want to help."
"Even if you knew, there's nothing you can do to help." I told him. "What I need now, more than anything, is the friendship y'all have been giving me. That means so much right now."
"I'll never stop being your friend."
I thanked him and we left. Shopping was a good method of therapy. Not the best, but a good one. I took them to Center For The Dull. An unique store. Jeff went to town.
"I wouldn't wear any of this." Hunter said. "Oh, it's the women's section, that's why I wouldn't wear any of it."
"Way to go, Paul." Chris laughed. He put a hat on and started dancing in the store.
"Why do we hang out with them?" Steph asked.
"You got me." I answered. I smiled.
"You haven't done that in a while." She said.
"This is what I need." I told her. "A nice day out with everyone."
"Everything will work out." She said. She put her hand on my shoulder.
"I hope so." I said. "For once I'd like to do something where nothing goes wrong."
"I know right now you're pissed at everything and everyone. But, look at what you have done. Met me for once!" She laughed. "Seriously, you have a lot of people that care for and about you."
"That's what I need." I said. "I just hope they don't turn on me."
"They won't. They care too much."
We continued looking at clothes, and finally buying them. We walked around the city, laughing and having a good time. I almost forgot what a good time was. We also stopped at the Hard Rock Cafe.
"I haven't seen you laugh in a while." Matt said. I smiled. "You have a wonderful smile." I did again. Matt put his hand on mine.
"So, you lived next door to this guy, huh?" Hunter asked pointing to a picture of John Lennon.
"Yes, but I hardly remember him." I answered. "I remember the day he died. People thought it was me at first. Then they saw. It was so odd. He stumbled up four or five stairs. I saw him there. And, when I saw him, I freaked. I yelled at him to wake up and to move. He told me he loved me. That much I remember. Then, I remember being taken to the hospital to make sure I was OK. Then, I walked in the ER and saw them with him and the flat line and it was just so weird."
"That's a horrible thing to have to witness." Adam said. I nodded.
"So, are you ready for RAW?" Jay asked. "You've got an interesting match with Shane O'Mac."
"Yes, my belt back on the line." I said. I sighed. It was more pressure than I needed at this point.
"You'll pull through." Jay told me. "You're a strong girl."
We spent the entire day walking around. We almost forgot that we should be at MSG. We ran most of the way. I got my clothes and started to change. Austin came in.
"I'm glad you're here." I said. "I need to ask you a favor. A big one."
"Sure sweet-thing."
"If you could please not do too much damage to my stomach."
"Sure, want to tell me why?" He asked.
"Not really." I answered.
"OK, it's a deal." He answered.
I started putting everything away. Adam came in to change for his match. It was the first one. We didn't say much for a while. I think he was kind of upset that I wouldn't tell him why I was feeling the way I was.
"I would tell you." I told him.
"Than why won't you?" He asked.
"You said you'd trust me." I told him. "I need you to do just that. Trust me. I'll tell you when the time is right. The time isn't right."
"I do trust you, Destiny, I always will I told you that. But, it bothers me to see you upset, crying, and not being yourself. I want to help you."
"Please, Adam. You'll know in time." I sighed. "Who has the Euro Belt?"
"Test." He answered. He looked at the floor. "Thank you for coming out."
"No problem." I answered. "Least I could do for putting everyone through this."
"We worry, Destiny." He told me. "We have no idea what's going on and it bothers us. We just want to know you're OK and that you're going leave us." He sighed. "We worry that what you may have is going to get the best of you."
"I'm not going to die, if that's what you're trying to say." I said. "I just, I can't tell anyone. I'm sorry, I really am. I just can't. And, maybe you'll understand why. Maybe all of you will understand why." I put my shoes on. "Are you going to win that European Title or what?"
"I am." He said.
He smiled. We met up with Jay near the ramp. We waited a few minutes before Edge and Christian's music started. The three of us walked out to a great response. I smiled, putting the act one. Adam went in the ring and did his thing while Jay and I got inside and started to hype the crowd up more.
Soon after, Test's music started. We stood in the ring looking at him. He showed off the belt proudly. The bell ran for the match to start. Jay and I climbed out of the ring and started walking around it. Making sure Adam would win this match.
We would grab at Test's feet, or distract the ref. All the things everyone does. Edge was stuck in the corner. Test was walking around trying to get his energy back up. Edge regained his strength just enough to spear Test. Test went down and Edge crawled on him and picked up the win.
Jay and I dove into the ring and got him before he fell over. We handed him the belt and helped him out of the ring. Adam said he wasn't going down to the ring anymore tonight.
"Are you ready for your match?" Matt asked.
"As ready as I'll ever be." I answered.
"You'll do fine." I heard Shane say. He came into our room. "I believe in you." I smiled. "We must go now."
I said good-bye to everyone and walked with Shane. His music would be first. Everyone wanted this match. I wanted this match more than anything. I watched Shane walk to the ring. My heart sunk into my stomach and the nerves came over me. My music started and I walked out.
This was an unusual tag team, but also made perfect sense. We stood together in the ring when Vince's music came on. He was booed as he walked down. He looked at Shane in the ring. Shane showed no fear. Then, Austin's music came on. He too was booed. He came out with a sly grin on his face.
Shane and Vince started out. The two attacked each other. I watched on, more nervous about my own personal being than what the out come would be. Shane tagged me and I went to work on Vince. Vince got in Austin. Austin went for my chest, never my stomach. I was thankful for that.
The match went on for a while. Each side showing great strength. I didn't think we had a shot, and was very surprised to see us doing so well. Austin was half-assing it out there. He wasn't fighting like he normally does. I didn't know if that had to do with what I said to him, or if he just wasn't in the mood.
Shane was in with Vince again. Shane went on the top rope and landed a perfect Moonsault. Vince was out. I ran in thinking Austin would be there to break up the pin, but he never showed. We won. The ref handed me the belt. I looked at it, amazed. Vince was coming around and was pissed. He grabbed at my leg and threw me down. He then started kicking my stomach. Austin couldn't do anything, he'd ruin it all. But, his face showed anger. Shane ran over and pushed his father away and helped me out. Steph met me at the ramp.
"Are you OK?" She asked.
"Fine, fine." I answered. I looked at the belt in my hands.
"You did it!!" Jeff said. He ran over to me and picked me up.
"Don't ever pull a stunt like that again!" Adam told me. He hugged me. Whatever tensions I had with them before, were gone.
"What? Fighting Austin?" I asked. "Hell, we've got a match lined up next week, don't we?" Austin came over.
"We do?" He smiled. "As long as I'm on your side."
"We have a title shot tomorrow."Hunter spoke up. "Good luck."
"Thank you, it's going to be one hell of a match." Austin said.
If Hunter won, he'd have the WWF belt. I had the Women's, Adam had the Euro Belt, and Matt and Jeff owned the Tag Team Titles. Jericho would get is shot for the ICU belt on Smackdown too, and it looked like Rocky was heading for a shot for the Hardcore Title.
Vince walked by us all. He didn't look too happy. He was holding his back. He knew he got his ass kicked. I got the title back, and he hated that. Adam was the European Champ, and he hated that. He hated that Matt and Jeff were the Tag Team Champs. He hated the fact that Hunter could be the WWF Champ, and that soon enough Jericho would be the ICU champ and The Rock would be the Hardcore Champ.
Vince was losing control of his federation, and he couldn't stand that. He didn't like the fact that now seven men and one woman were calling the shots. It was true, slowly but surely we were taking over this place. Our demands were high and hard.
"Must feel great to be a champ again." Jericho said.
"You bet." I replied. "You have your shot."
"I know, and I'll win." He said with a smile. A Jericho type smile.
"That's the sprit!" I yelled.
"Your kind of sprit." He told me. I smiled. "You really are an amazing woman. You can beat the crap out of every girl here, and almost every guy. You single handily pissed of the owner of this business."
"Is that something to be proud of?" I asked.
"I'll say." Chris answered. "You'll be remembered long after you're gone."
I blushed. For that one, quick second, I forgot all about the baby and the shit I'd be in. I put my hand on my stomach and went to get changed. I didn't let the belt out of my sight.
"Lets get out of here." I said once everyone was ready.
"Good idea." Jeff said. "I want to get into bed and like sleep forever."
We left. I feel asleep on Adam's shoulder on the way there. He didn't know where my key was so I woke up in the bed next to him. He and Jay shared a bed. I woke up and the two of them were out cold. I reached into my pocket and put the key Adam couldn't find on the table.
I sat at a desk with a mirror and looked into it for a while. I looked long and hard at the reflection staring back at me. I wasn't proud of the things I had done. Messing around with Adam, Jay, and Matt. I wasn't proud of being pregnant, or what I had said and done to Vince. I wasn't proud of a lot of things I had done in my past. But, I was finally in a job where what I was doing made me feel proud. I was proud that I owned a belt, that I have these kinds of friends.
I was so conflicted. I was in a predicament and didn't know how to get out of it. The consequences were so high. The outcome of this could effect me in the future so great that I won't be able to do this anymore. And, if I can't do this, I've got nothing. I blew off that script for this job. It would probably be the last script I'll receive. I'll literally have nothing if this goes south.
"Yo! Destiny!" Adam yelled. "You've been sitting there for ten minutes."
"Oh, I must have spaced out." I said. "Adam, if this wrestling thing goes bad, can I stay with you?"
"What?" He asked.
"I'm sorry, forgot it." I said.
"You think you're going to lose your job?"
"I have this thing that's going on, and I might." I answered.
"I won't ask, because I know you won't tell. But, if that's what you think, my door is always open to you."
"Thank you." I said. "Can I hang out here for a while?"
"As long as you want." He answered. "You're free to take anything from mine or Jay's bags."
"Pants, no. I'll wear these again." I said.
He threw me his and Jay's bags. I took out one of Adam's shirts and a fishermen's hat from Jay's. I went into the shower. Adam came in the bathroom.
"Don't worry, I won't rape you." He said. I laughed. "But, a bathroom does bring out memories."
"I can't walk into a McDonald's the same way again!" I cried.
"We had fun." Adam said with a smile.
"If that's what you wanna call it." I looked down.
"I really want to know what's bothering you. It hurts me to see you like this."
"We've been through this before, Adam."
"I know." He sighed. "I know." I heard the sink stop running. "Why do you think you'll lose your job?"
"Something's going on that I might get fired or have to quit."
"Please, talk to me." He said. "It's like your crying out in pain and in suffering for help, and when it's offered you dismiss it."
"I am crying in pain, and suffering. When I cry at night it's because I am hurting. I know you want to help me, Adam. Everyone does, but right now no one can help. There is nothing anyone can do. You say you trust me, then trust me."
"I do, a million times I do. But, this isn't about trust. This is about you. You're lost, confused, and scared. You need some-"
"I need friends that will respect my descion. It's not easy for me to look you guys in the eye and say I don't need you."
"Then don't ever do it." He said. "Look, I'll be here whenever you need me. If you need a place to stay, food to eat, someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, I'm always here. That'll never change. I'll give and give and give for you. I feel like you're about to tell me and then you're gone."
"I'm sorry I'm hurting you. I am thankful you are willing to do all of this for me. It means so much, more than you'll ever know. But, you will know what's going on."
"I won't know soon enough."
"At least you will know. It's not like I am going to do this and come back a few months later and not say why I left."
"You're leaving?" He asked.
"For a few months, yes. I have to."
"Those few months are going to be hard." He said. "But you will come back?"
"Of course. I couldn't leave you guys forever."
"Is this a private party?" Jay asked.
"Come on in." Adam answered.
"Morning Destiny, Adam." He said. "You almost done in there?"
"I'll be out faster if the two of you left." I told them.
"Well, I'll leave now since I need to get in there." Jay said. "Lets go Adam."
I finished up in the shower just as the left. I got dressed and sat on one of the beds. Jay got up and went into the shower. I laid back in Adam's lap. He stroked my hair. Jay came out pretty fast he looked at us, then smiled. There was a knock at the door.
"If it's anyone other than Steph, I am not here." I said hiding my head under a pillow.
"It's Jeff." Jay told me.
"No, I don't know where she is." Adam told Jeff.
"Well, if you see her, tell her I am looking for her." Jeff said, then left.
"I'll talk to him later." I said.
"I bet he's worried about you too." Adam replied. He sat back down.
I brushed my hair back and rolled over. We had to travel today. The tapping of Smackdown was today. It wasn't a far travel from here to Long Island.
"You can't ignore everyone all day." Adam continued. "They're going to ask questions." I just sat there. "Are you listening to me? Destiny, I'm serious. Everyone's real worried about you, and if you chose to ignore everyone it's not going to help." I didn't say anything.
"Des?" Jay asked.
"What am I going to tell them?" I finally asked. "What's wrong, no I can't do that. I know everyone wants to help, but there is nothing anyone can do. When are you going to believe me?"
"When I see it myself. When I see with my own two eyes that you're all right." Adam answered. He got up and left.
"He's just worried." Jay said in an effort to comfort me.
"I know that." I replied.
"He cares about you." Jay continued. "He doesn't like to see you cry. He sees your hurting and he wants to do everything in his power to make you feel better."
"What would make me feel better is if he would just not mention it. If he was just trust me and believe me when I say I don't need help."
"That's the one thing I know he can't do." He said. "It's impossible for him to just sit there and see you like this."
"He's only got to deal with it for three months." I said.
"You're leaving?" He asked.
"I have to, personal reasons. I will be back." I answered. "You can count on it."
"It's not going to be the same without you." He said.
"It won't be fun being alone for a while." I replied. "But, I have to."
"If you have to go." He said. He dropped his head.
I wanted to burst out why right then and there. Keeping this to myself was going to be hard as hell. I hated seeing these guys upset over me. It was going to be hard tonight. Fighting with people that right now were upset over and with me.
Jay cleaned a few things up and said he was going to look for Adam. I was left alone in their room. There was another knock at the door. I didn't answered.
"Adam, Jay, it's Jeff again." Jeff said. "I've been looking for Destiny everywhere and I can't find her. She's not in her room or anyone else's. I really need to see her. If you're there, open up." I almost went for the door. "All right then, I guess you're not there."
I started to cry. I ran for the door and opened it. "Jeff!" I yelled.
"Destiny?" He asked. I ran to him and cried. "Oh, hunny. It's OK." He comforted me. "Why won't you talk to us?" I swear, I felt one of his tears on me.
I wouldn't let him go, not for anything.