"Hey hun." Jeff said to me when he woke up. He kissed me. "How are you feeling?"
"Sore as hell." I answered. "Damn Angle."
"You put up a great fight." He told me. "I don't think anyone expected that."
"I didn't expect it." I said with a smile. "I thought it was going to be all Paul and Steve."
"We all had faith in you."
"Where's Matt?" I asked.
"He got his own room right next door." Jeff answered. "I'm sorry to have to tell you this, but you got to get ready. We travel soon."
"Blah." I replied. I sat up. "He's still sleeping?" I pointed to Matt in his little bed thing.
"Slept all night." Jeff answered. "He's a good kid."
"He must get his sleeping habits from his father because let me tell you. I can't sleep like him."
"Yeah, Matt loves sleep." Jeff said. He looked at Matthew and sighed.
"Everything all right?" I asked.
"Fine." He answered. "You shower."
When I came out Matt was in the room holding his son. I walked over and rested my head on Matt's arm and looked at Matthew. He was sleeping in his father's arms.
"You did an amazing job." Matt told me.
"No, we did." I corrected. "He's your son just as much as he is mine." Matt smiled at me.
"I'll get him ready." He said. "You still have to pack. I'm done with all my things."
"Thanks so much." I said. He nodded and left.
"Pretty amazing." Jeff said. "He's a beautiful child. That I know he gets from you."
"Sweet hun." I replied kissing the top of his head.
I packed my things up and met up with everyone in the lobby. Matt was showing Matthew off to everyone. He didn't give a damn about what they might have thought about it all. He was very proud to be the father of his son.
The traveling was light, an hour by plane. Matt had Matthew the entire time. I couldn't help but look over every now and again and see his face light up. He was so happy. I don't think I've really ever seen him that happy. My thoughts were interrupted by Kurt walking past.
"Hey sweetheart." Kurt said to me and winked. Jeff went to get up.
"Let it pass." I told him. "Let it pass." Jeff sat back down and I stood up. "Yo, Kurt. You have something you want to say?" I got the attention of everyone on the plane.
"She speaks." Kurt said turning around. "You put up on hell of a match. I want to congratulate you." I looked at him. "What? I can't congratulate you? You took down a gold medalist." He winked at me again. Jeff stood up, followed by Paul. "Boys, boys. I don't want there to be a fight on this plane, so sit down." He said something under his breath that we couldn't make out, then walked on. I sighed and looked back at Matt with our son.
"Everything is going to be all right." Jeff said.
"I was beginning to think so, but now I have no fucking clue." I got up and sat next to Matt. I leaned on Matt's shoulder and looked into the eyes of my son.
"This isn't getting any better." Jeff said to himself. Paul heard and got up to sit next to him.
"No, it's not." He replied. "This really urks me."
"You? I am this close to going over there and, in the words of Dwayne, whipping his candy ass."
"I won't stop you." Paul told him. "In fact, no one really would."
"Yeah, but I won't." Jeff said. He sighed and looked down, then looked over to me and Matt.
"I still don't get that." Paul said. "Freaks me out, really does. I didn't want to tell anyone that, but it gets to me. I look at her like my own daughter and you can understand why I feel the way I do."
"Yes, well, she's not your girlfriend and he's not your brother."
"Oh, right." Paul said. "I can't imagine how you must feel."
"I try to hold it in, not say anything. That's the last she wants to hear. She's trying really hard, very hard. She's got a baby and trying to be the champ she is. I know she's not proud that she slept around with some of us when she got here, but she's doing the best she can."
"She's a fighter." Paul said. "I know she is. But, isn't that what relationships are about? Communication."
"This is something better left unsaid. It's bad enough she's got a kid with Matt. She's gotta play mommy with him and be my girl. I'd hate to screw it all up."
"Yeah, but one day you're gonna break and it's going to be a whole lot worse."
"I don't want to say the wrong thing and this relationship go to shit." Jeff looked at Paul. "I don't see you telling her how you feel about all this." Paul grew quiet. "That's what I thought." Paul looked back at Jeff.
"Can I ask you something?" He asked.
"That was a dumb question."
"Seriously."
"Yeah, what's on your mind?"
"Do you care about her? I mean, really care about her. I don't want you fucking around with her emotions. She means a lot to me."
"I wouldn't think of it." Jeff answered. "Where's this coming from?"
"Don't ask, promise me you won't screw around with her."
Paul got up and left Jeff to think about what he said. It was still unclear to Jeff where all of this came from. He sat back and watched Matt and I. If I knew how he felt, I would have changed my ways. But, I owed it to Matthew to be the best mother I could. Even though Matt and I weren't together, he was still our son. How was I supposed to know what was going to happen when I tried to be the girlfriend of Jeff and a mother to Matt and mine son.
I went back to Jeff when both father and son fell asleep. Jeff was dozing off. I didn't want to wake him so I moved my seat next to Paul. He was awake and listening to his diskman and reading the latest issue of WOW magazine. He noticed I was sitting there and closed the magazine and turned his diskman off.
"What are you listening to?" I asked.
"Limp Bizkit." He answered.
"Cool." I said. I sat back.
"Something wrong?" He asked.
"You tell me? I am trying to be as calm as I can about this Kurt thing. Not to mention I am trying to be a good girlfriend to Jeff and a great mother to Matthew." I answered fastly. "All three are driving me crazy."
"Woah, woah, slower." He said.
"This whole thing with Kurt is really getting to me. I am trying to so hard to show that it isn't. And, on top of that I am trying to be both a girlfriend and a mother to two different brothers." I said slower. "I mean, a mother to a baby I had with one brother, and a girlfriend to the other." I put my hands on my head. "See, I can't even talk straight."
"Calm yourself." Paul told me.
"I can't. I can see it now. I'll be the reason both Hardy's hate each other. I don't want that to happen." I coughed. Paul handed me a glass of water. "Thanks. I don't know what I'm going to do. I want to be the best at both."
"Talk to them." He told me. "Communication is the most important thing in any relationship."
"Speaking of relationships, what's going on with you and Stephanie?" Paul shot me a look. "What? I want to know. She's my best friend and you're like, well, real close." He just smiled and shook his head.
"Paul!" I whined.
"Go, go sit with your boyfriend."
"You're no fun." I said and walked to sit next to a sleeping Jeff. We were almost there. We were going to Toronto, Adam and Jay's home town. They were very excited about going home. They wanted to show off everything.
To be honest, I could careless about where we were. I had Angle on my mind. What was he going to do next? And, how bad would it be? I thought I actually had everything in place. A belt around my waist, a beautiful child, and an amazing relationship. Now, Kurt had to mess it up. And, I was sensing Jeff wasn't pleased about something, as was Paul.
I woke Jeff up as we landed. He could sense something was wrong with me, but I wasn't going to talk to anyone about it. Not him anyway. I found myself drawn to someone else. I got off the plan and ran to Jericho.
"What's up Des?" Chris asked.
"I need to talk to someone." I answered.
"Where's Jeff?"
"No, you." I said.
"Oh, all right." He replied. We took our stuff and walked somewhere. "What's on your mind?"
"A lot of things. Kurt's the main one."
"Oh, I see. You did amazing against him last night. I was shocked you did that well." He said.
"Thank you." I replied. "But, I don't know what's going to happen next. I know this is far from over. Something else is going to happen, a lot of something's."
"I'd like to tell you you're wrong, but I find that you are right." He said. "I don't want to tell you not to worry, because that's a bunch of bull. Look, you have got me, Dwayne, Matt, Jeff, and a whole bunch of others on your side. Right now, the entire federation thinks Kurt's an ass. We've got your back, and I will always have your back."
I smiled. "Thanks." I said. "I just don't know when something will happen next."
That sometime was tonight. I walked around the arena nervous. Nervous about him, and my match. I had to face X-Pac tonight. I turned a corner, and there was Kurt. I saw him talking with Michael Cole. He noticed me out of the corner of his eye and walked over.
"Well, well, well." He said. "Finally, some time to talk to you alone." He stepped closer.
"Don't come any closer." I told him.
"Here's fine." He said. He looked at me. "Why do you waist your time with a rainbow headed wimp like Jeff anyway? Why not come to me. A strong, two time Olympic gold medalist. Someone who really knows how to wrestle."
"Don't you get any ideas."
"I've got lots of ideas." He smiled. "Be cool. You don't have to worry." He brushed his hand down my arm. I moved away. "I won't hurt you."
I saw Mark walking down the hallway behind Kurt. A camera man saw what was going on and got it on tape. Mark stood right behind Kurt. Kurt turned and looked up and Mark standing there with his arms folded. Kurt took off. The camera man left when he knew he wasn't wanted there.
"Thanks for coming." I said.
"I was looking for you. Jeff's running around all crazy trying to find you. He saw you with Chris and then you didn't come back to the hotel room with him and he hasn't seen you."
"No, Chris and I took a long drive." I said. "I found myself spilling a lot to him."
"Well, Jeff's going ape shit right now, you better go check in before his head falls off."
"OK. And, thanks again."
I walked down to the locker room assigned for the eight of us. I walked in. Everyone was in there, all six of them, seven when I showed up. Chris wasn't there. He was somewhere doing backstage things. Adam noticed me and pointed. Everyone faced the door.
"Where have you been?" Jeff asked.
"With Chris, didn't he tell you?"
"Yes, but why didn't you come back with us?" Matt asked.
"I needed some breathing room." I answered. "I am perfectly fine."
"You ran into Kurt. Saw some of it on TV." Dwayne said. "Everything all right?"
"Yes, fine now." I answered. "Mark was there. Even if he didn't show up, I would have done something to Kurt."
"You can't just run off like that." Jeff told me.
"Jeff's right, you could run into Kurt. You never know what he might do." Jay said. Paul stood in the corner and looked at me with a scolding manner.
"What are you going to do to me, Paul? Ground me?" I asked.
"I am just glad your safe." He said. He hugged me. "A lot of things were running through my mind about what could have happened."
Chris came in next. He hugged me the minute he got in. It seemed like everyone was happy I was back.
"You've got a match tonight." Chris said to me. "Want me there?"
"I don't think I need the help tonight. I've got D-X on my side."
I knew that X-Pac wasn't going to try anything. I didn't think there was a need to have anyone outside the ring. I didn't count on Kurt making an appearance. I should have thought about that, and had someone at ringside with me. I was in the corner, X-Pac ready to do the Bronco Buster. Kurt pushed him away and picked me up. He pushed me into the turnbuckle and started kissing me. I became aware at that point and pushed him away and gave him a low blow.
Kurt walked it off, while I regained some strength. He turned around and blocked my punch. Then, he got me in the Angle Slam as punishment for giving him the low blow. At that point Triple H came running out with Matt and Jeff behind him. Matt and Jeff carried me out of the ring while Triple H beat on Kurt. He nailed the Pedigree and left the ring in a mad rage.
I woke up in the locker room. Stephanie was the first person I saw. I looked around.
"Are you all right?" She asked me.
"I think so." I answered. "What happened?"
"Kurt came into your match. After he kissed you, you gave him the low blow, then he got you in the Angle Slam." She answered.
"Oh, right." I said. I sat up and felt dizzy.
"Stay down." Chris told me. "You got some bump on your head."
"Where's Jeff?"
"Out in the hall with Matt." Chris answered. "He's ready to take on Kurt right now."
"I want him in the ring."
"That's not a good idea." Adam said. "You've had enough of Kurt in the ring."
Paul came in and pushed through everyone. "I got stopped by some camera men." He said. "Is everything all right?"
"I'm fine now." I answered.
"I don't care, Adam, I want a match against him."
"Woah, against who?" Paul asked.
"Kurt." Jay told him.
"Absolutely not." Paul said. "I don't want him putting his hands on you anymore."
"I've got to face him." I said.
"Paul's right." Jay said. He took my hand. "I know what you want, I know you want him in the ring. But it's just too risky."
"Besides, I got him at RAW." Dwayne said. "I made sure I had my match."
"Let me come at ringside." I said.
"No." Paul said.
"Paul, I'm sure it'll be all right." Dwayne told him. "I won't let anything happen to her, I promise."
Paul didn't like idea, but gave in. Jeff came in shortly after. No one told him I'd be with Dwayne on RAW. He'd really freak out then. Jeff said he was going to take me back to the hotel. I wanted to stay because I was going to walk out with Adam and Jay. They too thought it would be a good idea if I left.
Later on that night, I told Jeff I was going to Matt's room. Matt wanted to have Matthew in his room that night. I walked in when Matt was sitting on the bed, rocking back and forth, humming. Matt looked up.
"I'm sorry." I said.
"Come." Matt told me. I sat down next to him and leaned my head on his shoulder. "Now I believe in miracles. I've never felt this way before, ever. I'm now responsible for another human's life. I would give up the WWF and all the gold involved for this."
"That must mean something coming from someone who's given their life to the WWF."
"It is." He said. He smiled, looking down at Matthew. "Does he sleep good?"
"Like you." I answered.
"Good, then I won't have to worry about waking up." He smiled. He noticed how I was. "I know things are rough for you. You're trying to be so many people. A girlfriend, a mother, a WWF superstar, and a champion. I can't imagine how it must feel. But, I do know that you're doing fine." He put Matt in his crib.
"No one has any idea." I said. I started to cry. "Matt, it's just so hard. Everyday I ask myself, 'what am I doing here?'. Sometimes I just want to drop out, give it all and try to be normal. But, then I have to think about my son, I can't take him away from his father. And, how would Jeff feel? It would be so hard to keep this relationship. I know how it is on the road. If I stay, I get to enjoy all that goes on. But, at the same time I'm slowly dying inside. Matt, it's so hard."
I threw myself at him. He didn't know what to do. Sort of surprised, he hugged me back. He stroked my hair and told me it was going to be all right. I wanted to believe him, but I just didn't know.
"There are so many people here who are willing to help you. You're not alone."
"I know that, but I can't be so many different people. It takes it's toll. And, I don't want to waist anyone's time. I don't want to waist all the CEO's time when they can be investing in someone else."
"They all believe in you." Matt told me. "You are some investment. You have everything any wrestler, male or female, could want. You have the desire and the determination to make it in this business. You've only been around a year, and all ready you have made some impression. You left to have a child and when you came back, it was like nothing had changed. And, when you left on injury, it was the same way. You have everything. You are so talented and so beautiful. I don't know why you doubt yourself. You have so much and you're really going to be somebody."
His words made me cry harder. I was breaking down right in front of him. He knew it, and was trying to pick me back up.
"I know that right now isn't easy." He continued. "But, you are doing so much better then you think you are. You don't give yourself enough credit sometimes."
"I never wanted to have a child, I never wanted to be everything to everyone." I said between sobs. "I love my son, and I know you do too. But, we don't need a child, not now. We're not ready for this." I sighed. "When I left I went to a clinic and asked about an abortion. Even though I am so against it and it is so morally wrong. But, I wasn't even doing it for me. I wasn't being selfish, I was doing it for you. I was going to do it for you, so you wouldn't have to have the pressures of being a father." I paused. "But, I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. And, I am so sorry I didn't."
Matt lifted my face up. I could tell he was trying hard not to cry himself. "Destiny, I'm glad you didn't. So what, we're not ready. But, I think we can do a good job, no matter who we're with as time goes on. I can't promise that I can do this perfect, but I can promise that I can try so hard to not screw this child up too much."
"Oh, Matt, you'll do a good job." I told him. I don't worry about you."
"Don't worry about you." He said. "You're going to do just fine."
"I'd like to think so." I was trying to not cry. "If all of that wasn't bad enough, now I have to worry about Kurt on my back. You have no idea how scary it is. I have no idea what he'll do to me and when he'll do it."
"That's what gets to us too." Matt said. "We want to protect you as much as we can. But, since we have no idea what he's thinking, it'll be impossible for us to do that. We want to be everywhere you are. And, that's going to make you angry, we know that. But, we're just trying to protect you from what could happen." He sighed. "We don't want to see you hurt, that's all. You've grown on us, in away no other superstar has. You got eight people together, eight people that would never form an alliance, ever. You've done something to wake this business up."
"I don't feel like I've done anything." I said. "I feel like I'm bringing people down because I can't get my personal life together." I started crying again.
"We're going to help you. I'll help you. I'll never leave your side. I'm never going to turn on you." He kissed my forehead. "We've gotten close, but I want you to know that you can talk to me about anything and everything. I'm glad we're talking about this now."
"That's all I do is talk!" I yelled, I stood up. "Every problem I have is 'solved' by talking! Talking doesn't do shit when you're stuck with a baby, a love life, and a very serious career. Talking doesn't help me."
Matt got up and came over to me. "Destiny, we're trying so hard to help you. Talking is the first step." He hugged me. "I know this is so hard for you, but you've got to hang in there."
"Why, Matt, why?"
"Because I believe in you." He told me. "I know you're going to succeed."
"I feel like a loser." I sat back on the bed.
"It will all fall into place." Matt said. He sat with me.
"When, Matt?" I asked. "All my life things have never gone my way. Now, when I think they are, it all falls to pieces on me." Matt went to get up. "No, stay. I don't want to be alone right now."
Matt sat back down. I cuddled up to him and fell asleep. Jeff woke up the next morning alone. Concerned, and a little upset, he went into Matt's room. There, he saw Matt and I not just in the same room, but in the same bed. He didn't want to wake me, so out of respect for me, he woke Matt up.
"Hey man, what's up?" Matt asked stretching.
"You tell me." He said.
"Oh, no nothing happened." Matt said realizing why Jeff was there. "I would never ever do that to you. You know that. She wanted to check on Matt, and we talked. Then, she fell asleep. Dude, I know how you care for her. I would never try anything."
Jeff looked at him. "You wouldn't lie to me, would you?"
"Jeff, I'm serious." Matt said in a serious tone. Jeff nodded and walked away.
Matt came in and woke me up. I freaked out. I wasn't supposed to fall asleep here. I just needed someone to talk to, and I knew Jeff wasn't going to understand. Hell, I didn't have any intention on saying what I did to Matt that night. I walked into my room. Jeff was writing something.
"Jeff, I am so sorry." I said. "I didn't mean to fall asleep there. Nothing happened, I swear to it."
"I know, I talked to Matt." He said. He kissed my forehead. "We're going home to Cameron."
"We are?" I asked.
"Well, for two days at least. We have the house show on Friday, and we host Heat, all three of us."
"Oh." I said.
"If we weren't going to be a part of the Friday show, we'd be in Cameron until Sunday morning."
"What are we going to do until Sunday then?" I asked.
"Well, the house show is in Miami. I was thinking we all could stay there." Jeff answered. "We don't have to travel with anyone after Friday."
"Sounds good to me. I could use the days off." I said. I sat on one of the beds.
"You look like you need some time off."
I ignored his comment and said I was going in the shower. Once I got in, I started crying. So much was going on so fast. Everything was spinning in my head.
"Are you all right?" Jeff asked me. "I need to get in there."
"Yes." I answered. I gathered up my composure and walked out. "Sorry that took so long. I dazed off."
"You've been doing that a lot. Is everything OK?" He asked me.
"Fine." I answered. "Just been busy, you know."
"Yeah, I know." He said.
I didn't know if Jeff believed my excuses or not. Cameron did sound like a good idea. Jeff's always been telling me about his house. I wasn't too worried about Friday's house show. House shows aren't the most interesting of all shows. I was more worried about Heat. I know I was going to be asked about Kurt, and I just couldn't talk about it with a straight face.
Soon enough, we were off to Cameron. It was only going to be two days. I was away from the pressures of the road, but I still had a lot of things right at home. There still were the two brothers and my child. All the problems couldn't be solved by this trip.
Matt and Jeff's father, Gilbert, was there to pick us up. Jeff ran to him and nearly tackled him to the ground. Matt took the calmer approach to see his father.
"Dad, this is Destiny." Jeff said.
"Nice to meet you Destiny." Gilbert said. "I hope my boy is treating you right."
"Perfect." I answered with a smile. Jeff smiled and looked down.
"Good." Gilbert replied. "He better. I taught my son how to treat a lady."
"Then you must be very smooth with the ladies yourself. You're son is nothing short of perfect to me. If he learned from you, then you must be just as smooth and just as perfect." I said.
"I say Jeff has found himself a wonderful lady here." Gilbert said. He put his arm around me. Then, he noticed Matthew in his carseat, held by Matt. "What's this?" Gilbert asked.
"He's mine." I answered. Gilbert looked at Jeff. "Now, don't worry. He doesn't belong to Jeff." I didn't want Matt to get in trouble for this either. "He was part of a one night stand."
"By me." Matt said. "The boy is mine."
"Do you take care of him?" Gilbert asked Matt.
"Of course, father." Matt answered. "I'm taking responsibility for him."
"Mr. Hardy, Matt's a great father to our son." I told Gilbert. Gilbert nodded and we walked on. "Why did you do that?" I asked Matt as we were walking. "I was going to cover for you."
"I need to stand up." Matt answered. "He's my son just as much as he is yours, remember. My father raised me to take responsibility for everything I do."
I smiled and walked on. Matt had seriously changed because of Matthew. It was a good change. A change I couldn't help but fall for. I looked at Matt in a totally knew way. I had new respect for him.
Jeff walked ahead of us, talking to his father. Matt and I were behind, joking around and laughing about nothing. He was trying hard to make me feel better about everything that was happening. And, for those brief minutes, I was feeling a lot better.
"What?" Matt asked me. "I know it sounds really dumb, but it does help you think of things other then what's really on your mind. You're too worried about looking at the circle."
"What the hell." I said.
Matt so had the edge over me. He knew almost all the tricks. We played walking in the airport, to the car, and in the back-seat of the car on the way to Jeff's house. Matt was right about it.
"This is where you and Jeff get off." Gilbert said once we reached Jeff's house.
"Oh, right." I replied, still laughing a bit over Matt. "I'll get you." I told Matt. I took Matthew's car seat and things and walked up to the house with Jeff.
"Found the circle game, huh?" Jeff asked.
"Yes, I did." I answered smiling.
Jeff opened the door to his house. I had never been there before. It was a nice place. Something just right for him. He showed me around. We then walked outside in the front yard and down a small dirt path.
"This is what I do for fun when I get home." Jeff said pointing to a dirt bike track. "I made it myself."
"If I knew how to do it all, I'd be raving about it. But, I don't know a thing about dirtbikes."
"Well, I'll teach you."
"In like two days?" I asked.
"You're a fast learner." He replied. "You can do it."
"I've got to unpack Matthew here." I said. I walked back to the house, leaving Jeff there by himself.
I had put Matt on the bed and was unpacking his things. Jeff walked into his room and stood by me. I didn't notice him for a second. I looked over and jumped a little.
"I didn't mean to scare you." He said.
"It's all right." I replied, not looking at him.
"Everything all right? You seem very out of it right now."
"Thinking." I answered. "I do way too much of that."
"A lot is happening." Jeff said.
"I've noticed." I replied. "Too much."
"I'm here for you." He kissed me.
"I know." I said. "If you don't mind, but could you please leave me alone right now."
Jeff seemed a little shocked, but respected my wish. As soon as Jeff closed the door, I started crying. I held Matthew in my arms and balled. I had once again added another thing to my list. I was falling for Matt.
I didn't want to. I didn't want to have to get into a situation like this. But, it happened. I had set myself up once again to be hurt. Something I was so used to doing. But, this wasn't like any other time. This was worse. This would result in choosing between what I know is real and what I don't know a thing about. I knew Jeff, I knew what I would get into with him. I didn't know a thing about Matt in that way.
I had to pull myself together. I had to sort this out. I had to put things in line. Kurt was a huge deal. This child, another huge deal, and the battle to be so many things to so many people was yet another huge deal, not to mention my sudden feelings for Matt, a huge deal. Everything was right there on top. Nothing more important then the other.
In due time, Jeff came back up and knocked on the door. I quickly put myself together as he walked in. He smiled and walked to me.
"I want to do something." I told him.
"Well, there's a lot we could do." He said. "There's the pool out back, the trampoline, the dirtbike trail. What do you want to do?"
"Something that's Xtreme, something that's going to take my mind off everything."
"The dirtbikes, come on." He took my hand and took me outside. I put Matthew down outside. Jeff took out a bike and handed it to me. "Suit up." He gave me some gloves and a helmet.
"You are going to show me how everything works, right? You're not going to just send me on my way."
"Of course not." He said. "Have you ever ridden a motorcycle?"
"Once in my life. It wasn't pretty." I answered.
He laughed. "Well, then this is going to be a little hard at first."
Jeff did all he could to teach me how to do this. I have to say, it was very funny trying to do all that. We were laughing like crazy. This was relief right here. Full of my yelling every bad word known to man in under ten seconds, and Jeff yelling to me to stop doing that and do that. I stopped the bike.
"This is not easy." I said with a laugh.
"You're getting it." He told me. "Here, watch this."
Jeff went out on the track and started laying down tricks. What a show off. I was impressed. He knew what he was doing, unlike me who had no clue. He came around and took his helmet off.
"That's how you do it." He told me.
"Yes, well I have only been doing this about three hours, so shut up."
"Don't worry, I'd love ya anyway, even if you can't dirtbike."
"I just need practice!" I snapped at him. "Watch, you'll see."
He smiled, and then kissed. We went back inside the house. It was getting dark outside. I put Matthew down on the couch in the den. Jeff turned the TV on and sat with Matthew. I walked into the kitchen and got a glass of water. I stood there, drinking it, in a daze.
"Earth to Destiny." Jeff said in a darth vader type voice. "I am your father."
"That would really suck." I said.
"Yeah, it would." He laughed. "We would go to jail then."
"And, what would the federation be without us?"
"Lost, very lost." He answered. I nodded. "You agree with that?"
"Sort of." I answered. "Well, the part about you."
"You know the women's part of the WWF would tank without you." Jeff told me.
"If I left, Lita would come back with you guys and things will be like they were before I left."
"God, no. We don't want that to happen. And, the WWF will be forever changed because of you." He told me. "And, as for Amy's concerned, like I said, we do not want that."
I shook my head. "Jeff, right now, right at this very moment, my involvement in the WWF means nothing. Since well, I haven't done much but made people worry."
"You can't help what happened to you." He told me.
"I could have prevented having a child." I replied. "I could have prevented trying to be two things to two brothers."
Jeff didn't say anything. I was right, about preventing that one part. Also, if I didn't have Matthew, I wouldn't feel this way about Matt. I wouldn't have reasons to go to his hotel room all the time. A lot could have been prevented if I didn't screw around with Matt and had a baby.
Jeff pulled me into a hug and tried telling me everything was going to be all right. But, everything wasn't going to be all right. Nothing was going to be fine. No one could try and make me fell better. No one that is, but Matt.
