I woke up the next morning feeling a lot better. I went downstairs. Matt was asleep on the couch and Matthew was in his bed next to him. I walked over and shook him lightly.
"Hey, how are you feeling?" Matt asked.
"A lot better." I answered.
"It's that family secret." Matt sat up. "I must have fallen asleep on the couch." I smiled. "Hungry?"
"A little."
Matt went to the kitchen and started cooking. Eggs, toast, bacon, sausage, I stood there in awe as he turned the kitchen into a whirlwind of food. Never knew he could cook.
"Matt, I said I was a little hungry." I laughed.
"When I have time off I like to make a big breakfast because I know I won't have it often." He said.
I sat down at the kitchen table. He was really going to town. He put a CD in the CD player. That CD was "Vitaolgy". He went to "Corduroy" first, that was his favorite song. He sang along and then skipped to "Betterman" after that. It was then, as soon as it started, when I remember what I had almost told Matt last night. I had almost told Matt I loved him. My heart began to race.
"There's going to be a lot left over." Matt said looking around at what he had made.
"It's your own fault." I replied.
"Oh, kiss my ass." He said.
"Gladly." I blew him a kiss.
"You're feeling a lot better, aren't you?"
"Yes." I answered. "What was in that stuff you gave me?"
"It's a family secret. You have to marry Jeff or myself to know." Matt told me.
"I could arrange that." I said.
"You'd have to convince Jeff."
I got up to get Matthew. I tried hard to not let the song get to me. I wasn't going to give into that. I had four days alone with Matt, I was going to keep this better man situation under wraps.
"Des, eat something!" Matt yelled to me. I brought Matthew into the kitchen and sat down.
"I'm not all that hungry." I said.
"Yes you are. You just don't know it yet." He told me. I laughed.
"Really?"
He loaded my plated up with everything. "Eat."
"Yes, dad." I said looking at him.
"Isn't that? Nevermind." He said.
"What?" I asked.
"Nothing, I bet you're looking forward to see Paul kick the crap out of Kurt."
"Hell yeah!" I said. "I want to be at ring side, just to see it. I'll do commentary for that match."
"You'd be a liability." Matt told me. "I don't want to be mean, but you would be."
"I know." I said. "I don't care. I want to be there. Kurt's going to be too hurt from the ass kicking he got from Jeff and he's going to be too busy getting his ass kicked by Paul to even try. Besides, I'll get the APA to come out there with me."
"That'll throw the story line over." Matt said. "You should then."
I ate more than I thought I would. Matt was a really good cook. I was helping him clean everything up when the phone ran. I ran to it, knowing it was Jeff, and picked it up.
"Hello?" I asked.
"Hey, baby." He said. I was right, it was Jeff.
"How's it going over there?"
"It's all right. Vince has got me working like a dog." He answered. "What about you? You sound so much better."
"Matt gave me something, and I feel better. Not 100%, but pretty damn good."
"Good to hear. So, Matt's taking care of you then?"
"He's a prince." I answered. I looked at Matt and smiled.
"He better be, or I'll have to kick his ass."
"You won't have to kick anyone's ass. He's being a real doll."
"Good to hear."
"Hey, listen, don't you work too hard, OK?" I asked.
"Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I've got other people here to talk to."
"Just, don't over work yourself." I told him. "Do you want to talk to Matt?"
"Please." He said. "Love you."
"Here he is." I handed Matt the phone and went to feed Matthew.
I sat in the living room feeding Matthew, thinking about Jeff, and Matt. And, how I pretty much wanted to die right then and there. Matt had no idea how he was effecting me, and Jeff had no idea he wasn't effecting me.
"Jeff wishes you well." Matt called from the kitchen. I got up and went in.
"He's holding up pretty good." I said.
"Well, lets see how he is on RAW. I mean, the poor guy's still hurting for that match against Kurt. And, Vince threw him in those house shows."
"I know." I sighed. I had almost forgotten how Jeff was feeling, in terms of his body. I was so fixed on Matt and this whole thing to even notice that he limped everywhere he went, and that after his match last night he was in so much pain. He really was fearless, he didn't care about his pain, he went out there and did what he had to do.
"He says he feels fine, but I know Jeff, he's just saying that." Matt said. "Hey, he did good last night."
"I know." I said again .
"Put up one hell of a fight, nailed the Swanton and everything. Couldn't tell he was hurting."
"Matt, he was limping the whole way out, and in the ring, and the whole way back."
"I'm talking about how he performed. He did pretty damn good." Matt said. "He impresses me, every time out he impresses me. I wish I was like him."
"You're different. You're the brains behind the Hardy Boyz, Jeff's the show, you're the brains."
"Jeff told me that exact thing on the phone before." Matt said.
"It's true. Together, you're perfect." I told him. I smiled. "Too damn perfect, I hate you for that."
"Hey, you're a mix of us both." Matt said. "Risky as hell like Jeff, and pretty damn intelligent too."
"I try." I said.
"Can't be that hard." He smiled. "Want to go around Cameron, see what it's got?"
"Sure." I answered. "That'd be fun."
"I'll introduce you to mine and Jeff's old buddies. Brag to them about how we have the best chick in the federation on our side." I smiled and looked down. "What? It's true you know!"
"I'm going in the shower before you make me blush even more." I told him.
I walked to the shower. I sort of stood there for a while. Taking in everything that was going on. I didn't want to force Jeff to do all that work, to worry everyone about Kurt. I wanted it all do end. And, I honestly thought about taking my own life to end it all. I had a few plots in my head, on how to take my own life, but I thought about my son, and that's why I didn't do it.
Matt banged on the door to tell me to hurry up. I snapped out of my daze and finished up and gave him the bathroom. I dressed Matthew and in ten minutes we were on our way. We didn't talk at first. Matt was driving and I just sat there. Then, he finally spoke up.
"You'll like these guys." He said. "Jeff and I went to school with them." I nodded. He turned the radio on. "How you feeling?"
"Good." I answered. Actually, I was feeling horrible.
We didn't say anything for the rest of the ride. Soon enough, we pulled into a driveway. It was a nice, one story house. Matt got out of the car, and I did too. I took Matthew out and carried him to the door.
"I made some phone calls so everyone's here." He told me. I nodded again. He knocked on the door and some man answered.
"Matt Hardy! How the hell are you?" He asked.
"Hey, Mark. I'm good, I'm good."
"Great to here. Why do you two come in." He said. He lead me in. "Matt, you never mentioned you were married and a father."
"Oh, she's not my wife." Matt said.
"Girlfriend?" Another guy asked. There were a total of four men in the room.
"No, Chris." Matt answered. "She's Jeff's girlfriend."
"Where is good old Jeff?" Chris asked.
"On the road." Matt answered. "Guys, this is Destiny. Destiny that's Mark, Chris, John, and Bobby."
"Hi." I said.
"You were half right, Mark." Matt said. "She's not my wife, but that is my son." No one said anything for a while.
"You knocked up Jeff's girl?" Bobby asked.
"Before she was Jeff's girl." Matt corrected.
"Jeff's OK with that?" John answered.
"Hasn't said anything yet." Matt said.
"Destiny, sit down." Mark pulled a chair up for me.
We got to talking. They were sweet guys. But, they started acting like guys. Cracking jokes. I'm not going to lie, it was annoying, but I wasn't going to say anything. I concentrate on Matthew and making sure he was all right.
"He's adorable." John sat closer to me.
"Thank you." I replied with a smile.
"Jeff's OK with all this?" He asked me.
"Seems to be." I answered. "It did happen before we got together."
"I watch wrestling and I thought it was all an in the ring story line."
"Well, the story line was sort of my idea. I meant what I said when I told him I liked him way back when in the ring. And, that was for real just on camera."
"Jeff's a lucky man." He said.
John was such a flirt, all of them were. But, I didn't mind. They were all pretty interested in the fact that Matt was the father and not Jeff. It made me feel incredibly upset that they kept mentioning it. I felt so bad about everything. About falling for Matt, about my son, about it all. I had made Jeff's life such a living hell. That's what I thought.
"You know how to play pool?" Adam asked me.
"Yeah." I answered.
"I got a pool table in the basement. How about we play teams."
"There's only five of us." I said.
"Bobby's horrible." Adam said. Bobby nodded.
"All right." I answered.
"You and Matt vs me and John. Bobby'll watch Matthew." Adam told me.
Bobby took Matthew from Matt and we all went downstairs. Matt handed me a pool stick and we flipped a coin for stripes and solids. Matt and I got stripes.
"OK, there's a $50 bet on the line here." Mark said. "$50 each person and $5 for each ball you sink in."
"I'm down with that." I said.
Matt and I won the other coin toss to see who gets to break. Matt started it all off. He broke and didn't get anything in. I had a lot of fun playing pool. Matt and I were really good. I was impressed on how good I was. I didn't think I was very good, but turns out I was.
"OK, Destiny got another one in." Bobby said. "Mark, John, I hate to tell you this, but you're getting your asses kicked."
Matt and I won that game. Mark didn't have any money to play another round. We hung around a little longer before leaving. Matt told me stories on the way home about them. How close they all were and everything.
I was laying on the couch looking up at the ceiling when we got home. I was starting to get a headache. Matt cleaned up and then called my name.
"What's up?" I asked.
"Wanna play?" He tossed me a stripe pool ball. I nodded. Jeff had a pool table in his house.
"You're stripes, I'm solids." He looked up and smiled.
"All right." I said. "Lets make this interesting. Same money values as the game with Mark."
"Deal." Matt said.
Lets say the pool game got sexual. The sexual tension between Matt and I was growing higher and higher. Between the pool sticks and the balls, well you make the connection. Matt and I got real close near the end of the game, face to face. I had to break the tension. I grabbed at a ball on the table, a striped one, and tossed it up in the air and caught it.
"And you thought I could only wrestle." I said. He laughed.
"Cute."
"Naturally." I replied with a smile. Matt threw me another stripped ball. "Watch it!"
"How's yours and Jeff's relationship going." I had put the balls back on the table.
"Fine, why?"
"Just asking." He answered.
"He's a real doll." I said. I started rubbing my head.
"You'll get that secret family thing sooner or later." He rolled me a ball, a stripped one, and left. I picked it up and tossed it around. I was so confused about everything. About Matt and about Jeff, about everything. I didn't know what side to take, I didn't know anything.
I walked back into the living room. Matt was channel surfing. I sat down next to him and said, "this is my best sport."
"What?"
"Channel surfing. I'm the best."
He laughed. "I think there is someone better than you."
"Who? I have to kill them."
"Adam." He answered. "God, does he get annoying."
I leaned my head on Matt's chest and he put his arm around me. We sat there, watching MTV. It felt so natural to be laying it Matt's arms like that. Too natural that it scared me, but I couldn't move. I wanted to be there, I wanted to be in his arms. And, I didn't miss being in Jeff's. In fact, I don't remember ever thinking of Jeff when I was with Matt right then and there.
The phone rang and Matt got up to get it. It wasn't Jeff, I don't know who it was. I was starting to feel sleepy. When Matt came back I leaned lower on his chest and sort of put my hands on him. He wrapped his arm around me again and I started to fall asleep.
When I woke up, Matt was asleep. The clock said 5:30. I didn't really feel like doing anything, or waking Matt up. I looked over and saw Matthew, awake in his seat chewing on his clothes. I thought it was so cute. I laid there and looked at him for a good ten minutes. Then, Matt woke up.
"Did you fall asleep too?" He asked me.
"Yes." I answered. I sat up. "I'm getting hungry."
"Would you settle for fast food?" He asked.
"Sure." I answered. "I don't care."
"Good, because I really don't feel like cooking again."
"Let me feed Matthew first." I said.
I did what I had to and me and Matt went to a McDonalds. We were recognized the moment we walked in there. We signed all the autographs. I am so grateful to our fans, I really am. And, everytime someone comes up to me and asks me for an autograph I have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming. It's just unbelievable that we have all these people that look up to us.
Anyway, Matt and I ordered and sat down. I told him I wanted to go play in the ball pit. He said we could grapple in there. I was serious, he was joking.
"I want to know the truth behind you and Amy." I brought up out of no where. He looked at me like I had two heads.
"You do?" He asked.
"I do."
"Well, we had a great relationship, we really did. Just feel apart. She slept with someone else while we were still together. Two years she did that, I never knew. I really liked her, hell I can say I loved her, but she just wasn't into the whole thing. Which is so weird because she tries to get with Jeff and myself all the time now. But, it was something I held dear to me and I will always remember the good times we had." He answered. "It's just hard to talk to her now, I mean with you and all. Don't feel bad or anything. We try to talk, but it never was easy ever since we broke up."
"How did that happen?"
"Adam actually." He answered. "He over heard her talking about what she had done and told me. I didn't want to believe it, so I didn't until he told me again, and tapped it. I still didn't believe it. I played it over in my head for a while. She came into the room and I just went off. She tried to play it off like it was one time, but I held onto the tape and played it for her. It was horrible."
"I'm sorry." I said. "I really am. You don't deserve it."
"I'm playing the field now."
"What are you looking for?"
"Someone who likes me for me. Someone who can understand what I do for a living and will trust me. Someone who's not afraid to be themselves no matter how crazy they are. I want someone with direction in life. Really knows what she wants, and will go to the Xtreme to get it." He looked at me. "Kind of like you."
I looked up from my drink. "Like me?"
"Yeah, Jeff is freaking lucky, man. I hate him for it." He laughed. "He landed the perfect woman." I was blushing uncontrollably, and Matt knew it. "We're always talking about it. The rest of the guys I mean. How lucky he is to have you."
"Matt, you don't want someone like me." I told him.
"I don't want anyone like Amy." He took a bite of his cheeseburger. "I mean, I don't want anyone to cheat on me."
"I know what you mean." I said.
"I was so hurt by that. I was so into Amy, I really was. And, it's really unfortunate that we can't even talk now. And, when she's in a match with you and she gets her ass kicked, I'm happy. It's really sad." I didn't want to say to that. "If I find that someone special, I'll know it. I'll know it for sure. I won't let her go. I'd do anything for her. Take care of her when she's sick, talk to her when she needs it. I want her to be able to come to me with anything and not be afraid to tell me. I want to be the one to pick her up when she falls. I want to be the one to tell her everything's going to be all right in the end. I want to be there when the worst happens, and when the best happens. I'll know when she comes around."
"Anyone stupid enough to let you go is an ass." I said. "Amy's an ass for hurting you like she did." I put my hand on his and he smiled. "You're someone special, Matt, you really are. You'll find that someone special and she'll be one lucky bitch."
He smiled. "Well, enough of that mushy stuff." He said.
"Still up for grappling in the ball pit?"
"I don't think they'll let us. And, I live here, I don't want to get kicked out of this place."
We finished up and left. Matthew was ready for his nap. He was crying the whole way home.
"He's got a voice like Jeff." Matt said.
"Why do you say that?"
"Because, Jeff always sounded like that." Matt answered. I playfully slapped his leg. "Babies sleep all the time, why can't I?"
"Because, you're not-well, I don't know why." I answered.
"Screw you." He said.
"Promise?"
"What would Jeff say."
"Oh, right." I said. "Damnit!" I laughed.
It took awhile for Matthew to go to sleep. Matt and I took turns trying to get him to sleep. When he finally was, were so happy. It was all quiet in the room.
"Awkward silence." Matt said.
"You really know when you've found someone special when you just shut the fuck up and share a silence." I stole the line from Pulp Fiction, but it was true.
"What do you call this then?" He asked.
"I don't know what you call this." I answered. I looked at him, right in the eyes. "I love-that shirt. Where did you get it?" I almost slipped.
"Some store in Canada." He answered. He looked at it. "It is nice." I had to get up. I went to the phone and called Jeff's cellphone.
"Hello?" He asked.
"Hey baby, it's me." I said.
"Destiny, how's everything?" He asked. "Is something wrong?"
"No, everything's fine. Just miss you."
"Miss you too, sweetie." He said.
"Matt and I visited some of your old friends. Mark, Chris, John, and Bobby."
"Really? Damn, how are they?"
"Fine. They thought I was married to Matt." I laughed. "Matt set it straight. They asked about you."
"Of course they did."
"How are you holding up?"
"I'm hanging in all right. It does suck, I'm not going to lie to you about it. I wish I was in Cameron with you guys."
"We're not doing anything interesting." I said. "Did play pool."
"Did you win?"
"Game never finished."
"Oh, well kick Matt's ass."
"I will." I replied.
"I gotta go, Vince is making me do a photo shoot." He said. "Love you, bye."
"Bye." I said. I hung up.
"Call Jeff?" Matt asked.
"Yeah, just to see how he was holding up." I answered.
"Well?"
"All right, I guess. Vince was making him go do a photo shoot."
"Will Jeff grace the cover of the next RAW Magazine or something?"
"Didn't say." I answered.
"I think Team Xtreme should be on the cover of a magazine." He said. "You know, we never did. The new Team Xtreme that is."
"Go complain." I told him.
"I will. Get us a nice cover story too. It'll be great!"
I laughed. Matt was as serious as a heart attack too. We never had a cover story or anything since I started. I never really was in a magazine since I started. That pissesd me off. So, when Matt asked if I was going to help Team Xtreme get a cover story, I said hell yeah.
The rest of the night went by pretty slowly. We weren't in the mood to go out or do anything. We laid on the couch and watch movies. I was happy with that. I didn't really want to go out.
"Where the hell is RAW anyway?" Matt asked.
"Um, Denver?" I answered unsure. "I'll have to ask Jeff."
Matt kissed my forehead and whispered something I couldn't hear. Then, I fell asleep.
"Hey, how are you feeling?" Matt asked.
"A lot better." I answered.
"It's that family secret." Matt sat up. "I must have fallen asleep on the couch." I smiled. "Hungry?"
"A little."
Matt went to the kitchen and started cooking. Eggs, toast, bacon, sausage, I stood there in awe as he turned the kitchen into a whirlwind of food. Never knew he could cook.
"Matt, I said I was a little hungry." I laughed.
"When I have time off I like to make a big breakfast because I know I won't have it often." He said.
I sat down at the kitchen table. He was really going to town. He put a CD in the CD player. That CD was "Vitaolgy". He went to "Corduroy" first, that was his favorite song. He sang along and then skipped to "Betterman" after that. It was then, as soon as it started, when I remember what I had almost told Matt last night. I had almost told Matt I loved him. My heart began to race.
"There's going to be a lot left over." Matt said looking around at what he had made.
"It's your own fault." I replied.
"Oh, kiss my ass." He said.
"Gladly." I blew him a kiss.
"You're feeling a lot better, aren't you?"
"Yes." I answered. "What was in that stuff you gave me?"
"It's a family secret. You have to marry Jeff or myself to know." Matt told me.
"I could arrange that." I said.
"You'd have to convince Jeff."
I got up to get Matthew. I tried hard to not let the song get to me. I wasn't going to give into that. I had four days alone with Matt, I was going to keep this better man situation under wraps.
"Des, eat something!" Matt yelled to me. I brought Matthew into the kitchen and sat down.
"I'm not all that hungry." I said.
"Yes you are. You just don't know it yet." He told me. I laughed.
"Really?"
He loaded my plated up with everything. "Eat."
"Yes, dad." I said looking at him.
"Isn't that? Nevermind." He said.
"What?" I asked.
"Nothing, I bet you're looking forward to see Paul kick the crap out of Kurt."
"Hell yeah!" I said. "I want to be at ring side, just to see it. I'll do commentary for that match."
"You'd be a liability." Matt told me. "I don't want to be mean, but you would be."
"I know." I said. "I don't care. I want to be there. Kurt's going to be too hurt from the ass kicking he got from Jeff and he's going to be too busy getting his ass kicked by Paul to even try. Besides, I'll get the APA to come out there with me."
"That'll throw the story line over." Matt said. "You should then."
I ate more than I thought I would. Matt was a really good cook. I was helping him clean everything up when the phone ran. I ran to it, knowing it was Jeff, and picked it up.
"Hello?" I asked.
"Hey, baby." He said. I was right, it was Jeff.
"How's it going over there?"
"It's all right. Vince has got me working like a dog." He answered. "What about you? You sound so much better."
"Matt gave me something, and I feel better. Not 100%, but pretty damn good."
"Good to hear. So, Matt's taking care of you then?"
"He's a prince." I answered. I looked at Matt and smiled.
"He better be, or I'll have to kick his ass."
"You won't have to kick anyone's ass. He's being a real doll."
"Good to hear."
"Hey, listen, don't you work too hard, OK?" I asked.
"Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I've got other people here to talk to."
"Just, don't over work yourself." I told him. "Do you want to talk to Matt?"
"Please." He said. "Love you."
"Here he is." I handed Matt the phone and went to feed Matthew.
I sat in the living room feeding Matthew, thinking about Jeff, and Matt. And, how I pretty much wanted to die right then and there. Matt had no idea how he was effecting me, and Jeff had no idea he wasn't effecting me.
"Jeff wishes you well." Matt called from the kitchen. I got up and went in.
"He's holding up pretty good." I said.
"Well, lets see how he is on RAW. I mean, the poor guy's still hurting for that match against Kurt. And, Vince threw him in those house shows."
"I know." I sighed. I had almost forgotten how Jeff was feeling, in terms of his body. I was so fixed on Matt and this whole thing to even notice that he limped everywhere he went, and that after his match last night he was in so much pain. He really was fearless, he didn't care about his pain, he went out there and did what he had to do.
"He says he feels fine, but I know Jeff, he's just saying that." Matt said. "Hey, he did good last night."
"I know." I said again .
"Put up one hell of a fight, nailed the Swanton and everything. Couldn't tell he was hurting."
"Matt, he was limping the whole way out, and in the ring, and the whole way back."
"I'm talking about how he performed. He did pretty damn good." Matt said. "He impresses me, every time out he impresses me. I wish I was like him."
"You're different. You're the brains behind the Hardy Boyz, Jeff's the show, you're the brains."
"Jeff told me that exact thing on the phone before." Matt said.
"It's true. Together, you're perfect." I told him. I smiled. "Too damn perfect, I hate you for that."
"Hey, you're a mix of us both." Matt said. "Risky as hell like Jeff, and pretty damn intelligent too."
"I try." I said.
"Can't be that hard." He smiled. "Want to go around Cameron, see what it's got?"
"Sure." I answered. "That'd be fun."
"I'll introduce you to mine and Jeff's old buddies. Brag to them about how we have the best chick in the federation on our side." I smiled and looked down. "What? It's true you know!"
"I'm going in the shower before you make me blush even more." I told him.
I walked to the shower. I sort of stood there for a while. Taking in everything that was going on. I didn't want to force Jeff to do all that work, to worry everyone about Kurt. I wanted it all do end. And, I honestly thought about taking my own life to end it all. I had a few plots in my head, on how to take my own life, but I thought about my son, and that's why I didn't do it.
Matt banged on the door to tell me to hurry up. I snapped out of my daze and finished up and gave him the bathroom. I dressed Matthew and in ten minutes we were on our way. We didn't talk at first. Matt was driving and I just sat there. Then, he finally spoke up.
"You'll like these guys." He said. "Jeff and I went to school with them." I nodded. He turned the radio on. "How you feeling?"
"Good." I answered. Actually, I was feeling horrible.
We didn't say anything for the rest of the ride. Soon enough, we pulled into a driveway. It was a nice, one story house. Matt got out of the car, and I did too. I took Matthew out and carried him to the door.
"I made some phone calls so everyone's here." He told me. I nodded again. He knocked on the door and some man answered.
"Matt Hardy! How the hell are you?" He asked.
"Hey, Mark. I'm good, I'm good."
"Great to here. Why do you two come in." He said. He lead me in. "Matt, you never mentioned you were married and a father."
"Oh, she's not my wife." Matt said.
"Girlfriend?" Another guy asked. There were a total of four men in the room.
"No, Chris." Matt answered. "She's Jeff's girlfriend."
"Where is good old Jeff?" Chris asked.
"On the road." Matt answered. "Guys, this is Destiny. Destiny that's Mark, Chris, John, and Bobby."
"Hi." I said.
"You were half right, Mark." Matt said. "She's not my wife, but that is my son." No one said anything for a while.
"You knocked up Jeff's girl?" Bobby asked.
"Before she was Jeff's girl." Matt corrected.
"Jeff's OK with that?" John answered.
"Hasn't said anything yet." Matt said.
"Destiny, sit down." Mark pulled a chair up for me.
We got to talking. They were sweet guys. But, they started acting like guys. Cracking jokes. I'm not going to lie, it was annoying, but I wasn't going to say anything. I concentrate on Matthew and making sure he was all right.
"He's adorable." John sat closer to me.
"Thank you." I replied with a smile.
"Jeff's OK with all this?" He asked me.
"Seems to be." I answered. "It did happen before we got together."
"I watch wrestling and I thought it was all an in the ring story line."
"Well, the story line was sort of my idea. I meant what I said when I told him I liked him way back when in the ring. And, that was for real just on camera."
"Jeff's a lucky man." He said.
John was such a flirt, all of them were. But, I didn't mind. They were all pretty interested in the fact that Matt was the father and not Jeff. It made me feel incredibly upset that they kept mentioning it. I felt so bad about everything. About falling for Matt, about my son, about it all. I had made Jeff's life such a living hell. That's what I thought.
"You know how to play pool?" Adam asked me.
"Yeah." I answered.
"I got a pool table in the basement. How about we play teams."
"There's only five of us." I said.
"Bobby's horrible." Adam said. Bobby nodded.
"All right." I answered.
"You and Matt vs me and John. Bobby'll watch Matthew." Adam told me.
Bobby took Matthew from Matt and we all went downstairs. Matt handed me a pool stick and we flipped a coin for stripes and solids. Matt and I got stripes.
"OK, there's a $50 bet on the line here." Mark said. "$50 each person and $5 for each ball you sink in."
"I'm down with that." I said.
Matt and I won the other coin toss to see who gets to break. Matt started it all off. He broke and didn't get anything in. I had a lot of fun playing pool. Matt and I were really good. I was impressed on how good I was. I didn't think I was very good, but turns out I was.
"OK, Destiny got another one in." Bobby said. "Mark, John, I hate to tell you this, but you're getting your asses kicked."
Matt and I won that game. Mark didn't have any money to play another round. We hung around a little longer before leaving. Matt told me stories on the way home about them. How close they all were and everything.
I was laying on the couch looking up at the ceiling when we got home. I was starting to get a headache. Matt cleaned up and then called my name.
"What's up?" I asked.
"Wanna play?" He tossed me a stripe pool ball. I nodded. Jeff had a pool table in his house.
"You're stripes, I'm solids." He looked up and smiled.
"All right." I said. "Lets make this interesting. Same money values as the game with Mark."
"Deal." Matt said.
Lets say the pool game got sexual. The sexual tension between Matt and I was growing higher and higher. Between the pool sticks and the balls, well you make the connection. Matt and I got real close near the end of the game, face to face. I had to break the tension. I grabbed at a ball on the table, a striped one, and tossed it up in the air and caught it.
"And you thought I could only wrestle." I said. He laughed.
"Cute."
"Naturally." I replied with a smile. Matt threw me another stripped ball. "Watch it!"
"How's yours and Jeff's relationship going." I had put the balls back on the table.
"Fine, why?"
"Just asking." He answered.
"He's a real doll." I said. I started rubbing my head.
"You'll get that secret family thing sooner or later." He rolled me a ball, a stripped one, and left. I picked it up and tossed it around. I was so confused about everything. About Matt and about Jeff, about everything. I didn't know what side to take, I didn't know anything.
I walked back into the living room. Matt was channel surfing. I sat down next to him and said, "this is my best sport."
"What?"
"Channel surfing. I'm the best."
He laughed. "I think there is someone better than you."
"Who? I have to kill them."
"Adam." He answered. "God, does he get annoying."
I leaned my head on Matt's chest and he put his arm around me. We sat there, watching MTV. It felt so natural to be laying it Matt's arms like that. Too natural that it scared me, but I couldn't move. I wanted to be there, I wanted to be in his arms. And, I didn't miss being in Jeff's. In fact, I don't remember ever thinking of Jeff when I was with Matt right then and there.
The phone rang and Matt got up to get it. It wasn't Jeff, I don't know who it was. I was starting to feel sleepy. When Matt came back I leaned lower on his chest and sort of put my hands on him. He wrapped his arm around me again and I started to fall asleep.
When I woke up, Matt was asleep. The clock said 5:30. I didn't really feel like doing anything, or waking Matt up. I looked over and saw Matthew, awake in his seat chewing on his clothes. I thought it was so cute. I laid there and looked at him for a good ten minutes. Then, Matt woke up.
"Did you fall asleep too?" He asked me.
"Yes." I answered. I sat up. "I'm getting hungry."
"Would you settle for fast food?" He asked.
"Sure." I answered. "I don't care."
"Good, because I really don't feel like cooking again."
"Let me feed Matthew first." I said.
I did what I had to and me and Matt went to a McDonalds. We were recognized the moment we walked in there. We signed all the autographs. I am so grateful to our fans, I really am. And, everytime someone comes up to me and asks me for an autograph I have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming. It's just unbelievable that we have all these people that look up to us.
Anyway, Matt and I ordered and sat down. I told him I wanted to go play in the ball pit. He said we could grapple in there. I was serious, he was joking.
"I want to know the truth behind you and Amy." I brought up out of no where. He looked at me like I had two heads.
"You do?" He asked.
"I do."
"Well, we had a great relationship, we really did. Just feel apart. She slept with someone else while we were still together. Two years she did that, I never knew. I really liked her, hell I can say I loved her, but she just wasn't into the whole thing. Which is so weird because she tries to get with Jeff and myself all the time now. But, it was something I held dear to me and I will always remember the good times we had." He answered. "It's just hard to talk to her now, I mean with you and all. Don't feel bad or anything. We try to talk, but it never was easy ever since we broke up."
"How did that happen?"
"Adam actually." He answered. "He over heard her talking about what she had done and told me. I didn't want to believe it, so I didn't until he told me again, and tapped it. I still didn't believe it. I played it over in my head for a while. She came into the room and I just went off. She tried to play it off like it was one time, but I held onto the tape and played it for her. It was horrible."
"I'm sorry." I said. "I really am. You don't deserve it."
"I'm playing the field now."
"What are you looking for?"
"Someone who likes me for me. Someone who can understand what I do for a living and will trust me. Someone who's not afraid to be themselves no matter how crazy they are. I want someone with direction in life. Really knows what she wants, and will go to the Xtreme to get it." He looked at me. "Kind of like you."
I looked up from my drink. "Like me?"
"Yeah, Jeff is freaking lucky, man. I hate him for it." He laughed. "He landed the perfect woman." I was blushing uncontrollably, and Matt knew it. "We're always talking about it. The rest of the guys I mean. How lucky he is to have you."
"Matt, you don't want someone like me." I told him.
"I don't want anyone like Amy." He took a bite of his cheeseburger. "I mean, I don't want anyone to cheat on me."
"I know what you mean." I said.
"I was so hurt by that. I was so into Amy, I really was. And, it's really unfortunate that we can't even talk now. And, when she's in a match with you and she gets her ass kicked, I'm happy. It's really sad." I didn't want to say to that. "If I find that someone special, I'll know it. I'll know it for sure. I won't let her go. I'd do anything for her. Take care of her when she's sick, talk to her when she needs it. I want her to be able to come to me with anything and not be afraid to tell me. I want to be the one to pick her up when she falls. I want to be the one to tell her everything's going to be all right in the end. I want to be there when the worst happens, and when the best happens. I'll know when she comes around."
"Anyone stupid enough to let you go is an ass." I said. "Amy's an ass for hurting you like she did." I put my hand on his and he smiled. "You're someone special, Matt, you really are. You'll find that someone special and she'll be one lucky bitch."
He smiled. "Well, enough of that mushy stuff." He said.
"Still up for grappling in the ball pit?"
"I don't think they'll let us. And, I live here, I don't want to get kicked out of this place."
We finished up and left. Matthew was ready for his nap. He was crying the whole way home.
"He's got a voice like Jeff." Matt said.
"Why do you say that?"
"Because, Jeff always sounded like that." Matt answered. I playfully slapped his leg. "Babies sleep all the time, why can't I?"
"Because, you're not-well, I don't know why." I answered.
"Screw you." He said.
"Promise?"
"What would Jeff say."
"Oh, right." I said. "Damnit!" I laughed.
It took awhile for Matthew to go to sleep. Matt and I took turns trying to get him to sleep. When he finally was, were so happy. It was all quiet in the room.
"Awkward silence." Matt said.
"You really know when you've found someone special when you just shut the fuck up and share a silence." I stole the line from Pulp Fiction, but it was true.
"What do you call this then?" He asked.
"I don't know what you call this." I answered. I looked at him, right in the eyes. "I love-that shirt. Where did you get it?" I almost slipped.
"Some store in Canada." He answered. He looked at it. "It is nice." I had to get up. I went to the phone and called Jeff's cellphone.
"Hello?" He asked.
"Hey baby, it's me." I said.
"Destiny, how's everything?" He asked. "Is something wrong?"
"No, everything's fine. Just miss you."
"Miss you too, sweetie." He said.
"Matt and I visited some of your old friends. Mark, Chris, John, and Bobby."
"Really? Damn, how are they?"
"Fine. They thought I was married to Matt." I laughed. "Matt set it straight. They asked about you."
"Of course they did."
"How are you holding up?"
"I'm hanging in all right. It does suck, I'm not going to lie to you about it. I wish I was in Cameron with you guys."
"We're not doing anything interesting." I said. "Did play pool."
"Did you win?"
"Game never finished."
"Oh, well kick Matt's ass."
"I will." I replied.
"I gotta go, Vince is making me do a photo shoot." He said. "Love you, bye."
"Bye." I said. I hung up.
"Call Jeff?" Matt asked.
"Yeah, just to see how he was holding up." I answered.
"Well?"
"All right, I guess. Vince was making him go do a photo shoot."
"Will Jeff grace the cover of the next RAW Magazine or something?"
"Didn't say." I answered.
"I think Team Xtreme should be on the cover of a magazine." He said. "You know, we never did. The new Team Xtreme that is."
"Go complain." I told him.
"I will. Get us a nice cover story too. It'll be great!"
I laughed. Matt was as serious as a heart attack too. We never had a cover story or anything since I started. I never really was in a magazine since I started. That pissesd me off. So, when Matt asked if I was going to help Team Xtreme get a cover story, I said hell yeah.
The rest of the night went by pretty slowly. We weren't in the mood to go out or do anything. We laid on the couch and watch movies. I was happy with that. I didn't really want to go out.
"Where the hell is RAW anyway?" Matt asked.
"Um, Denver?" I answered unsure. "I'll have to ask Jeff."
Matt kissed my forehead and whispered something I couldn't hear. Then, I fell asleep.
