AN: sorry for cutting off abruptly there, peeps, bu I thought it suddenley was a superb place to end. I feel so un-optimistic, still, so don't expect there to be a vast difference between this chapter and the last. The last was more of a prologue, tho.
Also, I forgot to metnion that this takes place 3 more years after 02, so Hikari, Takeru and Daisuke are all 14 and just starting junior high. And I kinda revered Speedo-chan's age from the last fic... She's still 15.
Insomniac
By Sailor Chibi Saturn aka Speedo
"Speedo-chan! Speedo-chan!" I heard a frantic yelling behind me and turned around slowly. Slowly. That's how everything was for me right now. Slow.
It was Hikari. Hikari! What bright child! Well, no longer a child, really. A teenager. But is that the point? No.
`See! There you go again! Overanalyzing!`
I'm not overanalyzing. Just stating the fact. And no, I'm not insane.
`Insanity is always denied.`
So?
`You wouldn't admit it if you were.`
Maybe I am insane. I am having an argument with a part of me that doesn't even exist!
`Told you so.`
"Speedo-chan?" I realized then that Hikari was practically in my face, and probably had been for about 2 minutes while I was spacing out and having arguments with myself.
"Oh! Gomen nasai! I was thinking... Ah, but do I really need to? I think enough when I can't fall asleep. How's the junior high?" Hikari had given me an odd look, but it quickly vanished, "Oh, it's ok. I do miss the old school. Iori-kun isn't in our school anymore, obviously. It's too bad... But I'm sure that you'll be happy to know I'm doing well in Science. All that tutoring you gave me last year really helped."
I was listening. Sort of. But my mind was also somewhere else....
"Well, I'm glad it did... Well, I should be going... I have bunch of homework. Sometimes I wish I was with the rest of the 15 year olds! Alas, but it'll pay later on in life to have started earlier than most of the kids, will it not?" I shook my head, "So sorry, I'm branching into another unrelated coversation again. I really do need to go. Bye, Hikari-chan!"
I turned and began walking at a steady pace away. I think that I seemed normal enough, but who am I to judge that? Those who think they are acting normal usually aren't.
`Especially those who are insane.`
Shut up.
`I'll never shut up, and I'll always be here to argue and second guess you.`
Argh.... I think too much.
`You're insane.`
Good bye....
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Hikari watched Speedo's form fade into the distance, "I don't know... Maybe Onii-san was right. She is acting a little odd." She shook her head, "But it's not the first time! Onii-san is just being paranoid..." She smiled, thinking back on other memories, ones where Speedo WAS acting weird, but no one seems to notice much.
She turned to go the other way, forgetting about her brother and Speedo for the time being, "Hmm... I wonder how Takeru is? I wish he would ask me out on a date. But perhaps I should just ask myself!" She smiled even more, being a teenager was affecting her more than it was any of the other DigiDestined, and she was even worse than Miyako when it came to liking boys now.
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"Hi, Muma..." I murmured as I passed through my door and continued on to my room. "Hello, Speedo. A friend of your's called, I think it may have been Jyou-kun, judging by the fact that he's about the only one of them that actually has good phone manners. Besides that young Iori-kun, that is. He's a sweet boy... I'd talk more, but I need to finish writing this paper for school, and I imagine you have homework too, and since you have baseball practice tonight, you should proabably start."
I merely nodded, and mh-hmm'ed a reply, walking into my room and locking the door behind me. Dad will be back at 5, and will proabably cook dinner. Muma is a college teacher and working on getting her PhD, so she's home a lot. Dad's an agent for some group, but I'm really not supposed to say that.
`There you go again! Off thinking as if someone is hearing it or reading your thoughts somewhere! Insanity, insanity, insanity...`
What's insanity is that you even bother me, you baka.
`OO! Baka1 I'm so upset! I think I'll go off and cry to my daddy.... boo-hoo...`
We do have the same attitudes, you know.
`Huh...?`
Never mind...
`Insanity.... insanity I tell ya! Hai! Asu Desu Yo!`
'Yes It's Morning!' ? That's a good song!
`It's about a person getting up, eating two sunny-side up eggs, then going out for a drive and seeing a cactus out the window, then saying something about something piercing the tire, and it being a cactus spike, but still driving on, then something about being in a tunnel that was a pillow and that it was someone's dream! That's odd... Insane!`
.......
`Can't answer, can you? Admit it already! You are insane! Why else would I be arguing with you?`
I don't know. I don't care. I have homework!
`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`
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It was a meeting. Of sorts. It wasn't meant to be a meeting, it just turned out to be one. Yamato had just happened to be over at Taichi's, and Hikari had invited Miyako and Sora over, and, well, it had turned into a meeting.
But not over problems in the Digital World as was the usual for them.
"....I guess she WAS acting kind of odd, but not incredibly odd. Not odder than I've seen her behave!" Hikari was leaning against the glass sliding door, gazing out it from time to time.
"Hikari-chan.... I think... well, never mind. Haven't you noticed how much she spaces out? And remember how Iori was out walking on the bridge and she was muttering all that junk about drifting between reality and unreality and about teetering on the edge? I have to say, that is a bit much for even Speedo-chan."
"Yeah, but even if there IS something wrong," Yamato gave a hard look at Hikari when he added emphasis to the is, "what exactly could we do? I mean we are her friends, but she is a bit distant depsite this. And she doesn't listen to anyone anyway."
"I know this a really random thing, but I'm feeling a bit, urr, cramped. And your parents will be home soon, won't they Hikari-chan? Taichi-san?" Miyako looked from each of them, to the other, "How about going to the park?" Seeing the looks of the others, "Well, I don't know! I just feel like I need to walk somewhere. And it's the time of year that no one would be in the park really... November doesn't exactly have delightful weather..."
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Baseball practice was over, but I had told my Mum that I would be home a little later because I needed to get something from my friend, Chiharu's house. I was actually leaning against the gating that runs along the edge of one of the main rivers in Tokyo.
Some people would think that I would contemplate suicide in a serious way if they knew what I thought. While I have thought about it, I'd never do it.
`Who say's you wouldn't? Insanity is a car that'll drive anywhere.`
I have before stood on a ledge above the ocean thinking about how easy it would be to throw myself off and just die, and looked out a second floor window and thought of how easy it would be to end my life by leaning too far out of it. But it would be a dishonor to my family, and highly unmoral to my life. I was given a life and am blessed with it, so I should live it.
`You are ignoring me, aren't you? Oh well.... insanity helps ignore things!`
People will eventually discover what's wrong with me. I'm teetering on the edge of reality, that's all. But it IS my own fault; my own fault for thinking way too much. Maybe then I'll be fine...
`Why don't you just tell someone you trust that you are slowly going insane?`
The river looks very nice tonight. It's cold out, but it is a crisp and clear night, and I don't mind the cold, so I think it's nice.
`How about quickly?`
I should get going soon, so I don't miss the last bus to the subway... And so Muma doesn't get worried....
`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`
I am a little tired, but then again, it's not like I will fall asleep when I get into bed.
AN: Just a lil' curious here. Do you people think Speedo is insane, or that she thinks too much like she claims? Or maybe you think it's something else enitrely! I would like to know, so if you review (you better) just tell me what you think. Thanks.
Also, I forgot to metnion that this takes place 3 more years after 02, so Hikari, Takeru and Daisuke are all 14 and just starting junior high. And I kinda revered Speedo-chan's age from the last fic... She's still 15.
Insomniac
By Sailor Chibi Saturn aka Speedo
"Speedo-chan! Speedo-chan!" I heard a frantic yelling behind me and turned around slowly. Slowly. That's how everything was for me right now. Slow.
It was Hikari. Hikari! What bright child! Well, no longer a child, really. A teenager. But is that the point? No.
`See! There you go again! Overanalyzing!`
I'm not overanalyzing. Just stating the fact. And no, I'm not insane.
`Insanity is always denied.`
So?
`You wouldn't admit it if you were.`
Maybe I am insane. I am having an argument with a part of me that doesn't even exist!
`Told you so.`
"Speedo-chan?" I realized then that Hikari was practically in my face, and probably had been for about 2 minutes while I was spacing out and having arguments with myself.
"Oh! Gomen nasai! I was thinking... Ah, but do I really need to? I think enough when I can't fall asleep. How's the junior high?" Hikari had given me an odd look, but it quickly vanished, "Oh, it's ok. I do miss the old school. Iori-kun isn't in our school anymore, obviously. It's too bad... But I'm sure that you'll be happy to know I'm doing well in Science. All that tutoring you gave me last year really helped."
I was listening. Sort of. But my mind was also somewhere else....
"Well, I'm glad it did... Well, I should be going... I have bunch of homework. Sometimes I wish I was with the rest of the 15 year olds! Alas, but it'll pay later on in life to have started earlier than most of the kids, will it not?" I shook my head, "So sorry, I'm branching into another unrelated coversation again. I really do need to go. Bye, Hikari-chan!"
I turned and began walking at a steady pace away. I think that I seemed normal enough, but who am I to judge that? Those who think they are acting normal usually aren't.
`Especially those who are insane.`
Shut up.
`I'll never shut up, and I'll always be here to argue and second guess you.`
Argh.... I think too much.
`You're insane.`
Good bye....
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Hikari watched Speedo's form fade into the distance, "I don't know... Maybe Onii-san was right. She is acting a little odd." She shook her head, "But it's not the first time! Onii-san is just being paranoid..." She smiled, thinking back on other memories, ones where Speedo WAS acting weird, but no one seems to notice much.
She turned to go the other way, forgetting about her brother and Speedo for the time being, "Hmm... I wonder how Takeru is? I wish he would ask me out on a date. But perhaps I should just ask myself!" She smiled even more, being a teenager was affecting her more than it was any of the other DigiDestined, and she was even worse than Miyako when it came to liking boys now.
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"Hi, Muma..." I murmured as I passed through my door and continued on to my room. "Hello, Speedo. A friend of your's called, I think it may have been Jyou-kun, judging by the fact that he's about the only one of them that actually has good phone manners. Besides that young Iori-kun, that is. He's a sweet boy... I'd talk more, but I need to finish writing this paper for school, and I imagine you have homework too, and since you have baseball practice tonight, you should proabably start."
I merely nodded, and mh-hmm'ed a reply, walking into my room and locking the door behind me. Dad will be back at 5, and will proabably cook dinner. Muma is a college teacher and working on getting her PhD, so she's home a lot. Dad's an agent for some group, but I'm really not supposed to say that.
`There you go again! Off thinking as if someone is hearing it or reading your thoughts somewhere! Insanity, insanity, insanity...`
What's insanity is that you even bother me, you baka.
`OO! Baka1 I'm so upset! I think I'll go off and cry to my daddy.... boo-hoo...`
We do have the same attitudes, you know.
`Huh...?`
Never mind...
`Insanity.... insanity I tell ya! Hai! Asu Desu Yo!`
'Yes It's Morning!' ? That's a good song!
`It's about a person getting up, eating two sunny-side up eggs, then going out for a drive and seeing a cactus out the window, then saying something about something piercing the tire, and it being a cactus spike, but still driving on, then something about being in a tunnel that was a pillow and that it was someone's dream! That's odd... Insane!`
.......
`Can't answer, can you? Admit it already! You are insane! Why else would I be arguing with you?`
I don't know. I don't care. I have homework!
`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`
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It was a meeting. Of sorts. It wasn't meant to be a meeting, it just turned out to be one. Yamato had just happened to be over at Taichi's, and Hikari had invited Miyako and Sora over, and, well, it had turned into a meeting.
But not over problems in the Digital World as was the usual for them.
"....I guess she WAS acting kind of odd, but not incredibly odd. Not odder than I've seen her behave!" Hikari was leaning against the glass sliding door, gazing out it from time to time.
"Hikari-chan.... I think... well, never mind. Haven't you noticed how much she spaces out? And remember how Iori was out walking on the bridge and she was muttering all that junk about drifting between reality and unreality and about teetering on the edge? I have to say, that is a bit much for even Speedo-chan."
"Yeah, but even if there IS something wrong," Yamato gave a hard look at Hikari when he added emphasis to the is, "what exactly could we do? I mean we are her friends, but she is a bit distant depsite this. And she doesn't listen to anyone anyway."
"I know this a really random thing, but I'm feeling a bit, urr, cramped. And your parents will be home soon, won't they Hikari-chan? Taichi-san?" Miyako looked from each of them, to the other, "How about going to the park?" Seeing the looks of the others, "Well, I don't know! I just feel like I need to walk somewhere. And it's the time of year that no one would be in the park really... November doesn't exactly have delightful weather..."
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Baseball practice was over, but I had told my Mum that I would be home a little later because I needed to get something from my friend, Chiharu's house. I was actually leaning against the gating that runs along the edge of one of the main rivers in Tokyo.
Some people would think that I would contemplate suicide in a serious way if they knew what I thought. While I have thought about it, I'd never do it.
`Who say's you wouldn't? Insanity is a car that'll drive anywhere.`
I have before stood on a ledge above the ocean thinking about how easy it would be to throw myself off and just die, and looked out a second floor window and thought of how easy it would be to end my life by leaning too far out of it. But it would be a dishonor to my family, and highly unmoral to my life. I was given a life and am blessed with it, so I should live it.
`You are ignoring me, aren't you? Oh well.... insanity helps ignore things!`
People will eventually discover what's wrong with me. I'm teetering on the edge of reality, that's all. But it IS my own fault; my own fault for thinking way too much. Maybe then I'll be fine...
`Why don't you just tell someone you trust that you are slowly going insane?`
The river looks very nice tonight. It's cold out, but it is a crisp and clear night, and I don't mind the cold, so I think it's nice.
`How about quickly?`
I should get going soon, so I don't miss the last bus to the subway... And so Muma doesn't get worried....
`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`
I am a little tired, but then again, it's not like I will fall asleep when I get into bed.
AN: Just a lil' curious here. Do you people think Speedo is insane, or that she thinks too much like she claims? Or maybe you think it's something else enitrely! I would like to know, so if you review (you better) just tell me what you think. Thanks.
