AN: Just because I'm writing a story about someone who may or may not be insane, does not mean that I myself am going insane. Just thought I should say that because a friend of mine read it and said it sounded like I, myself, was going insane. Umm... yeah... urgh... just read....
Also, this starts out in POV form, but with Sora, not Speedo! Oh, and I kinda upped her age by a year realizing that if she was 15, she'd be Miyako's age, and I wanted her older. Yeah.
Insomniac
By Sailor Chibi Saturn aka Speedo
Miyako's idea had seemed a bit weird at first, but I think we all would have agreed that it wasn't that bad of an idea once we were out there.
As for what I thought of what was up with Speedo right now, I think that she needs to be talked to and questioned about what is up. It might just be a phase as a result of being a teenager, who knows? I know that I sometimes felt a bit unsteady when I was a teenager. I don't consider myself one anymore, really.
We walked in silence through the park, eventually coming to the river, but someone else was there. I could see Hikari smile in recognition. My god, did she smile over everything?
"Konnichi wa, Speedo-chan." She said in her regular voice. But obviously Speedo had been deep in thought and not processing all of what was around her, because she jumped in suprise, and lost her balance, teetering over the edge of the railing and falling into the river. I heard Miyako gasp in suprise, then rush forward, along with the rest of us, "Speedo-chan!"
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I was falling. Falling into the river. Who had said konnichi wa? I don't know... I don't care that much, either. All I care about is the fact that I'm falling. Falling into the river.
I can hear a voice shouting my name. Sounds like Miyako's voice, but I cannot be sure...
And I've hit the water, now, so I cannot hear anything either. And I can feel myself going deeper, and deeper into this dark, icy river. I can swim well. I'm on a swim team. But I don't swim.... I just let myself go down further and further... But why?
`You are insane. You were wrong about not contemplating suicide seriously! You are thinking seriously about it now, otherwise you would have started to swim up a long time ago!`
This is not the time to be arguing with you.
`Insanity....`
Shut up.
`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`
I sigh. Well, I sigh as best as I can underwater. What an irritating thing to have to listen to all the time! I'd swim up, but... I don't know. I'm so cold now.
`Swim!`
I thought you thought I was insane?
`I do, but....`
If I die, you'll be gone... I won't have to listen to you ever again....
`Shimatta! Just swim!`
What if I don't want to?
`You should. You were right about having too much to live for...`
So I'm not completely insane, am I?!
`Ok! Ok! ok! You're right! You win! Just swim!`
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"Oh my Kami-sama! Speedo-chan!" Hikari began to try to climb over the bar, but her brother stopped, "Hikari-chan, you knowyou can't swim well, and those waters are freezing at this time of year!"
"So? It's my fault she fell! Maybe you guys were right... maybe she does need to be talked too... I've never seen her, or anyone for that matter, be suprised by a simple konnichi wa in a regular voice!"
"She has been down for a while now... I hope she's okay..."
But just then, there was another disturbance in the water and she surfaced again, coughing. Swimming to a nearby ladder (AN: They tend to have ladders on river edges in cities. Believe me, I live in the city right next to the capital of my states.) and climbed up it, shakily. After climbing over the gate she let herself fall to her knees on the sidewalk, "It's so cold..." She murmured, closing her eyes and breathing the equally chilly air.
"Speedo-chan, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to surpise you! Do you want us to walk you home? Or maybe call a cab? How about..." Hikari was cut off by Sora stepping forward, "Speedo-chan... we do need to talk."
But Speedo shook her head, "No.... not now... so cold... I have to get home..." She got up abruptly and turned, running away, leaving all to stare after her.
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"Speedo-chan, you're all wet!" My father's concersns sliced up my current thoughts. "Yes... I know. I ran into someone, but they kinda suprised me and I fell in the river. I'm going to go change." I brushed past him, and went into my room, locking the door behind me and getting out my pajamas to change into.
After changing I flopped down onto my bed, remembering what Sora had said. Have they figured it out?
`Figured out what? That you are going insane?`
I thought you said you'd leave me alone.
`It 'twas only temporary.`
Sigh. Maybe it's better if they do know... Who knows? That river sure was cold...
`Maybe if you hadn't let yourself sink so deep into it, it wouldn't have been so cold.`
Jyou called, didn't he? Maybe I should call him back... But then again, what's the point? It is kinda late anyway.
`Antisocilaity leads to insanity...`
I'd probably be better off insane. I'm glad vacation will be here soon.
`....Better off insane?! What kind of thought is that?!`
Maybe you are the insane one. Or maybe we both are. You are a lot like me, so if I'm insane, you probably are too. Especially since you are a part of me...
`Nani?`
Except, with you, you pretend not to understand what I mean. I don't do that. I'm a good liar, but I don't like it.
`.....`
And now you can't answer, can you?
Suddenley the light flickers out, distracting me from my little argument with myself. I let out another sigh. Another power outage; they've been happening quite a lot lately. I get under my covers of my bed and close my eyes. It's late anyway, so who cares? I'll just try to go to sleep...
`And lie awake thinking for a long time.`
Good night.
`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`
Also, this starts out in POV form, but with Sora, not Speedo! Oh, and I kinda upped her age by a year realizing that if she was 15, she'd be Miyako's age, and I wanted her older. Yeah.
Insomniac
By Sailor Chibi Saturn aka Speedo
Miyako's idea had seemed a bit weird at first, but I think we all would have agreed that it wasn't that bad of an idea once we were out there.
As for what I thought of what was up with Speedo right now, I think that she needs to be talked to and questioned about what is up. It might just be a phase as a result of being a teenager, who knows? I know that I sometimes felt a bit unsteady when I was a teenager. I don't consider myself one anymore, really.
We walked in silence through the park, eventually coming to the river, but someone else was there. I could see Hikari smile in recognition. My god, did she smile over everything?
"Konnichi wa, Speedo-chan." She said in her regular voice. But obviously Speedo had been deep in thought and not processing all of what was around her, because she jumped in suprise, and lost her balance, teetering over the edge of the railing and falling into the river. I heard Miyako gasp in suprise, then rush forward, along with the rest of us, "Speedo-chan!"
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I was falling. Falling into the river. Who had said konnichi wa? I don't know... I don't care that much, either. All I care about is the fact that I'm falling. Falling into the river.
I can hear a voice shouting my name. Sounds like Miyako's voice, but I cannot be sure...
And I've hit the water, now, so I cannot hear anything either. And I can feel myself going deeper, and deeper into this dark, icy river. I can swim well. I'm on a swim team. But I don't swim.... I just let myself go down further and further... But why?
`You are insane. You were wrong about not contemplating suicide seriously! You are thinking seriously about it now, otherwise you would have started to swim up a long time ago!`
This is not the time to be arguing with you.
`Insanity....`
Shut up.
`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`
I sigh. Well, I sigh as best as I can underwater. What an irritating thing to have to listen to all the time! I'd swim up, but... I don't know. I'm so cold now.
`Swim!`
I thought you thought I was insane?
`I do, but....`
If I die, you'll be gone... I won't have to listen to you ever again....
`Shimatta! Just swim!`
What if I don't want to?
`You should. You were right about having too much to live for...`
So I'm not completely insane, am I?!
`Ok! Ok! ok! You're right! You win! Just swim!`
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"Oh my Kami-sama! Speedo-chan!" Hikari began to try to climb over the bar, but her brother stopped, "Hikari-chan, you knowyou can't swim well, and those waters are freezing at this time of year!"
"So? It's my fault she fell! Maybe you guys were right... maybe she does need to be talked too... I've never seen her, or anyone for that matter, be suprised by a simple konnichi wa in a regular voice!"
"She has been down for a while now... I hope she's okay..."
But just then, there was another disturbance in the water and she surfaced again, coughing. Swimming to a nearby ladder (AN: They tend to have ladders on river edges in cities. Believe me, I live in the city right next to the capital of my states.) and climbed up it, shakily. After climbing over the gate she let herself fall to her knees on the sidewalk, "It's so cold..." She murmured, closing her eyes and breathing the equally chilly air.
"Speedo-chan, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to surpise you! Do you want us to walk you home? Or maybe call a cab? How about..." Hikari was cut off by Sora stepping forward, "Speedo-chan... we do need to talk."
But Speedo shook her head, "No.... not now... so cold... I have to get home..." She got up abruptly and turned, running away, leaving all to stare after her.
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"Speedo-chan, you're all wet!" My father's concersns sliced up my current thoughts. "Yes... I know. I ran into someone, but they kinda suprised me and I fell in the river. I'm going to go change." I brushed past him, and went into my room, locking the door behind me and getting out my pajamas to change into.
After changing I flopped down onto my bed, remembering what Sora had said. Have they figured it out?
`Figured out what? That you are going insane?`
I thought you said you'd leave me alone.
`It 'twas only temporary.`
Sigh. Maybe it's better if they do know... Who knows? That river sure was cold...
`Maybe if you hadn't let yourself sink so deep into it, it wouldn't have been so cold.`
Jyou called, didn't he? Maybe I should call him back... But then again, what's the point? It is kinda late anyway.
`Antisocilaity leads to insanity...`
I'd probably be better off insane. I'm glad vacation will be here soon.
`....Better off insane?! What kind of thought is that?!`
Maybe you are the insane one. Or maybe we both are. You are a lot like me, so if I'm insane, you probably are too. Especially since you are a part of me...
`Nani?`
Except, with you, you pretend not to understand what I mean. I don't do that. I'm a good liar, but I don't like it.
`.....`
And now you can't answer, can you?
Suddenley the light flickers out, distracting me from my little argument with myself. I let out another sigh. Another power outage; they've been happening quite a lot lately. I get under my covers of my bed and close my eyes. It's late anyway, so who cares? I'll just try to go to sleep...
`And lie awake thinking for a long time.`
Good night.
`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`
