AN: Inasnity, insanity, insanity.....


Insomniac

By Sailor Chibi Saturn aka Speedo


I roll over and out of bed. And smash my face in in the process. I sit up, rubbing my nose, and notice that my light didn't turn back on overnight. Still a black out? I guess so. But radios don't use electricity, they use batteries, so I flipped it on. But it won't go on, so I turn it over and glare at the back... someone took the batteries! Oh well...

`Well, good morning to you too.`

Go away.

`No thanks.`

I stand up and stagger out of my room. Funny... no one else is up.. What time is it anyway? The clock says.... 8:56! It's so late! Where are Muma and Daddy?

`Uhh... baka, there's a note over there...`

Oh...

I walk over to pick it up. It's obviously a note from myparents. They're over at my grandmother's to make sure she's ok. The power outage hasn't ended, so there's no school... oh, and they're sory they took the batteries from my radio.

I thought I had locked the door behind me?

`Maybe I unlocked it.`

And you say I'm insane...

I switched on the radio, and popped in a CD. Soon enough 'Where Did the Dream Go?' the opening song to 'Shin Tenchi!' was playing. What a depressing song... About someone not knowing where anyone is, and the one they loved went away and no one noticed...

I shake my head, some memories trying to shove themselves into my thoughts. I don't want those.

`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`

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A breeze blew in the virtually deserted park. Leaves scuttled across the ground. Besides that, the city was deathly silent. The whole power was out, so everyone was either still asleep or just staying in. There wasn't much else to do when you were used to having so many choices of things to do.

I kept walking. Maybe I'll go back to the river where I had my unexpected swim yesterday.

`More like unexpected bursh with death....`

What a nagging voice! Couldn't it mind it's own business?

`Your life is my business, duh! I'm part of you, so it is...`

I don't care. Get lost...

`How can I get lost when I'll always be within you? It's impossible...`

Aww, shut up...

I saw two people sitting on a bench. Under what was a beautiful cherryblossom tree just a couple months ago, but what was now a skeleton bending in the wind. I think I recognize them...

`They're your friends, so I'd hope you would recognize them!`

Hmm, I must be hearing voices...

`Hey! No fair! Oh, wait1 Another sign of insanity!`

Iori and Ken... wonder why they're out. Or together for that matter. They are better friends, but... well, I don't know. Maybe they are good friends. I haven't really been focusing on anything lately.

Hey, didn't Miyako say something to me about them? I think she did.... it was something she was upset about, but I don't remember now. I wasn't listening to her at the time, anyway. Well, I don't really listen to anyone anymore.

I rounded the twist in the sidewalk, about to say something to them, but I dropped my bento box in sheer suprise. Ken pulled away from the lip-lock he had just been in with Iori and stared at me. Iori, who had already been quite a bright shade of red, was redder than a strawberry now.

"G...gomen nasai..." I said quickly, dropping to my knees to grab my bento box, then I got up and fled. Just running, running, running... away from the two of them. I'm not sure where I was going, but I stopped, seeing the ice skating pond in front of me. It's a man-made pond, so it's not too deep and already frozen.

I edge out to the pond. No one else is around. I put one foot on the ice, carefully in case it really isn't frozen. It's frozen enough. Enough for me, at least. So I step out onto it. I used to take figure skating, but I'm not very good; it was long ago, I quite when I was 8, I think. Yeah 8. So that was 8 years ago.

But it doesn't matter to me how nice I look while skating. I slide across the ice in my wooden shoes, smiling and sliding along. And now I'm laughing! For the first time in weeks! I keep falling, and I laugh harder everytime I fall, so now I fall even more from laughing so hard.

But I suddenley noticed a person standing on the edge as I fell once more and my laughter halted immediatley, realizing how foolish I must have looked laughing a falling all over the ice. I blinked at whoever it was from my sitting position, feeling even sillier and flushing in embarassment.

I stood up and dusted ice dust off of my pants and started to slide towards the edge of the pond. I then realized it was Iori watching me a flushed anymore. I felt so embarassed, especially after what I had just seen what Ken was doing to him.

I must look like a goof.... I'm probably red from the cold, laughing and embarassment! He probably thinks I'm insane...

`Finally! You are admitting that you seem insane! It'll go into you admitting that you are, so maybe there is hope.`

Oh, just go away. I have other things to do...

`Why do even care what he thinks?`

I am older, and I should be a better role-model!

`He doesn't need a role model. He's mature enough as it is.`

Yeah, I guess you're right.

`....eh?`

Didn't expect that, did you?

I then slipped and fell forward, bashing my face on the concrete edge. I sat up once more, rubbing my now sore head and feeling even more embarassed and foolish.

"Konnichi wa... Speedo-san." He spoke slowly. "Don't call me Speedo-san. Everyone is equal, so unless I call you Iori-san, just call me Speedo-chan." He nodded solemnly.

"Uhh... and sorry about my, uhh, err, walking by earlier. I didn't mean to bother either of you..." Maybe I am insane. What I saw didn't even bother me much, it just seemed kind of... I don't know, normal?

He shook his head, "It's okay. You didn't make that much of a deal out of it." He's a lot like me in some ways. Too calm in un-calm times.

"Well, it just didn't bother me. Nothing does anymore..."I let myself flop into a sitting position on the ice and stare at the sky for a minute. Iori sits down on the edge of the concrete edge next to me. We sat in silence for a couple of moments, just us looking at the sky in a dead city. But he shattered the silence.

"You won't tell anyone, will you?" He suddenley looked awfully frightened, probably scared of what society would do to him if people knew. I shook my head, "No, I'd neverdo that. It would be mean, especially if you like Ken-chan, too. And if you do... well, I think that's kawaii. And if you ever need to talk to someone, you can talk to me.." I feel kinda funny, usually it's people telling me that I can talk to them, not the other way around. But he reminds me of me when I was that age. Well, minus the part about being confused about my sexual orientation. I knew I liked boys, and that was it. But I don't like boys anymore. Not saying I like girls, mind you. I'm just totally uninterested in falling in love, getting married, having children, or any of that stuff.

He blinks at me, smiling, "You can talk to me about anything, too." I think he understands what I'm thinking. I let out s light sigh, "You are a lot smarter and more in tune to things than my classmates are, I'll tell you that! Hey, I'm getting kinda cold, since the ice is beginning to melt under me, so how about we go to my house and warm up? And I'll make some hot chocolate too." I winked after my last line. He nods, and smiles again.

Maybe I'm not teetering on the edge of insanity as much as my inner whatever it is thinks I am. Who knows?

`Insanity, insanity, insanity....`



AN: I'm announcing a contest, ppl. The prize? Uhh... haven'y thought of it yet, but I'll probably write you into a story. How does that sound? Oh, but you probably want to know what the hell the contest is, huh? Well, anyway, the contest is this: Write a Kenyako or Kenori fic (altho, I'd prefer Kenori since there aren't too many of those....) and keep it to a PG-13, since I won't even read yours if it is over PG-13, and don't say the 'F' word, since I really despise it. Thanx. If you do answer, drop me a line @: squashed_arachnid@hotmail.com otherwise I won't know you wrote one for the contest!!!