Authors note- Well here I am back again with the second and final part of this story. The other one must have been okay if you'd decided to come back again. Anyway I don't own Digimon or anything I didn't make up, so on with the story!
All that you can't leave behind
Chapter two
Sora sat in registration drawing little stars on her pencil case. It had been a three days since she and Tai had kissed each other by mistake. For three days they hadn't said a word to each other. She didn't know why they hadn't talked, probably because she couldn't get close enough to Tai before he started running off in the over direction. He had been avoiding her like hell. She didn't see why though, it was only a kiss a stupid mistake that didn't mean anything. Maybe she'd been terrible and that's why he didn't want to talk to her, maybe she'd been the most disgusting thing he'd ever touched and he was to embarrassed to talk to her. That would sound about right.
She glanced up at him, he was sitting diagonally from her. Even though he was so close to her she still couldn't speak to him. It wasn't just Tai's fault they hadn't spoken, she'd been avoiding him to. She didn't know why. The truth was she had been a little bit unshaken from such a powerful kiss. Shocked that such a kiss would come from Tai. She had never thought of Tai as anything but her best friend.
Now that was an outright lie. When Sora was twelve she had the biggest crush in the world on him. She would go over his everyday and go whereever he wanted too just to please him, she'd laugh at his jokes even if they weren't funny and she would listen to him talk about soccer for hours, just so she could hear his sweet happy voice. She laughed at her self remembering how pathetic she had been. She would hang on his every word and search desperately for some sign that he liked her too. But there was never any sign. After a while she had realised that Tai would never see her as more than a friend and he was already in a serious relationship with his soccer ball, she never even came into the picture.
She glanced over at him again. He was looking away from her, staring out of the window. Tai wasn't bad looking. Actually he was quite cute, no he was more than just cute, he was actually pretty gorgeous. She started to wonder why she hadn't noticed that before. Allot of girls' thought Tai was hot, but he never seemed to notice the trail of cheerleaders following his every move.
There were little things that made Tai different from everyone else. The way he styled his thick hair so it looked really messy, the way he never tucked his shirt in so he looked really scruffy.
Her lips curled up into a smile actually she loved the way that he looked so scruffy, it was quite. . Sexy.
She loved that aftershave he used, musky and manly. She could just smell a hint of that dark scent now, she remembered how it had swamped over her while he had kissed her. She smiled again as she thought back to that deep, powerful, maddening kiss. Oh god she wanted him to kiss again, right now right here and now.
She suddenly sat up upright in her chair and let out a little gasp.
" What's wrong?" Mimi whispered from the seat next to her.
" Nothing," She shook her head.
Everything more like. This couldn't be happening again, not now not here. She was falling for Tai again and he already wasn't speaking to her. Oh how could she fall back in love with him?
What a total fool she'd been. She had been getting way to close to him to not start falling for him.
All those years ago she'd promised herself she wouldn't get involved in those feelings again. She had sat on her bed rocking back and fourth and promised herself she wouldn't fall for him again. But tai was different now, different from that silly twelve year old boy and that goofy fourteen year old she'd left behind. He was more intune with the people around him, he was kind and sweet and funny and sexy and caring and athletic and intelligent.
NO! There she went again! She had to stop this now before it got out of hand. She had to get him out of her head!
She smacked her head against her desk.
" Sora!" Are you alright?" Mimi asked, she was looking at Sora asthough she was going insane.
Sora leaned on the rail of her balcony and stared down at the people bustling around beneath her. They must all be so lucky running around getting on with their lives without a care in the world. While she stood and watched them carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders.
" Sora for you!" Dan called to her. Her eight-year-old cousin bounced out of her bedroom carrying the cordless phone. She smiled when she saw him. Dan was a little ray of light in a world full of darkness, just like Kari had been in the digital world. She loved Dan's little carefree smile and the way he could always cheer her up.
" Who is it?" She asked,
" Don't know," He grinned and handed her the phone then bounded away. She stared at the phone in her hand. What if it was him? What would she say to him? Would she talk about, what if she said something stupid? She took a deep breath and held the receiver to her ear.
" Hello?" she asked cautiously.
" Hey Sora!" Kari's happy singsong voice greeted her. Sora let out a relieved breath.
" Hi Kari, are you okay?"
" No I just had the worst day in the history of school," The younger girl groaned.
' You too huh ' Sora thought to herself.
" What happened?" Sora asked concerned.
" Just about everything to ruin a girls life. I hate school so much! I hate those stupid dumb girls who think they have to follow what everyone else doe's and if you dare to do anything different your labelled an outcast. I'm sorry Sora I don't mean to bother you but I just really need to talk to someone and I just found myself calling you,"
" You know you can always talk to me about anything Kari," Sora told her kindly.
" Thanks Sora. I just . . .I feel like hell,"
" Kari why don't you come over. You sound like you've had a really bad day so come over and tell me all about it,"
" Are you sure you're not busy?"
" Of course not. Hey why don't I call Mimi and we'll have a little digidestined girl sleepover,"
" We haven't done that for years!" Kari laughed.
" Well its about time we did then isn't it,"
" Alright I'll come straight over,"
" Well Alison Kenny was just walking down the corridor minding her own business and I was with Rachel, Jennifer, Nikki and Danielle. Then Danielle goes ' Oh my god look at her trainers' right infront of Alison. Alison pretended not to hear her but I know she did because she started looking down at her shoes. And it was really stupid because there was nothing even wrong with her trainers, they just weren't the right 'brand'. Then I turned around and said to Danielle 'What's wrong with her trainers' and she goes ' There Pri now what kind of brand is that?' And I was like ' So who cares what her trainers are like, that's no reason to not like anyone'. And then they all give me these incredibly dirty looks and Rachel say ' You better watch your mouth Kari, you've only just joined the squad. If you want to fit in your going the wrong way about it'. And I said ' Well if being a cheerleader is about making fun of people then I don't want to be on your stupid squad' and Nikki was like ' You can't do that!' and I turned around and said ' Well I think I just did' and walked away"
" Woooo! Go Kari," Sora cheered.
" Yeah you go girl!" Mimi yelled as she stuffed another handful of popcorn into her mouth.
Kari beamed at her friends.
" The only problem is now they all hate me,"
" Kari you don't need friends like that anyway," Sora told her,
" Yeah people like that just drag you down," Mimi agreed,
" I think that you were really brave to stand up to those girls Kari. Most people would just nod their heads and follow those girls around like sheep,"
" Well I don't want to be like that," Kari told them,
" Good! You be who ever you want to be Kari don't get sucked up by pier pressure like I did," Sora recommended her.
" Since when did you get sucked up by pier pressure?" Mimi asked.
" In my old school. I suppose that because I was the new kid I just really wanted to fit in. So I'd do whatever everyone else was doing so they would like me. It was really stupid. In environments like that you never have any real friends, everyone is just so superficial and fake you can't trust anyone,"
" Is that why you moved back here?" Kari asked,
" A little bit of it was. I never felt like I fitted in there. I had some good friends, Jemma and Becky. They were perhaps the only people who were like me, but they were no where near as good friends as you guys,"
" Ahhhhhhhhh!" Kari and Mimi coursed together.
" And I was so unhappy living at home with dad that I thought I was going to crack if I stayed there any longer. No one really wanted me there, their always picking on me and making me feel really bad about myself. I just couldn't bear to stay there any longer. You two are so lucky to have your families. I don't fit in anywhere anymore. My Mum and Jim don't want me and dad has his new family to occupy him. I'm just a reject from the marriage that went wrong"
" I'm glad you came back Sora, your always wanted around here," Kari smiled at her.
" Speaking about good friends, what's going on with you and Tai?" Mimi asked slyly,
" Yeah!" Kari cried, a devious gleam came into her eyes.
" Nothing!"
" Then why have you to hardly spoken for a week?" Mimi demanded.
" Well I don't know, we've just been busy," She lied.
" Well Tai's not busy. All he's been doing is laying around the house snapping at everyone,"
" Well I've been busy,"
" Doing what?"
" Just. . . Stuff,"
" You're lying Sora. We know you to well to lie to us," Mimi teased.
" What's your problem! Do you two ever give up! Nothings going on, or has gone on between me and Tai,"
" Well it just seems a bit strange that one minute you're acting like best friends and then suddenly you're not even talking to each other,"
" Everything is fine! Now will you two just drop it,"
" Okay but we are going to get to the bottom of this," Kari threatened her.
Sora rolled her eyes. Kari had a way of always getting what she wanted, but not this time.
Kari dropped her duffel bag on the kitchen table as she came through the door.
" Where did you go last night," Tai asked as he flicked through a magazine on the coach.
" Sora's," She smiled as she saw the way his head snapped up to attention at the mention of her name.
" What were you doing there?" He tried to ask coolly.
" We just had a girlie sleepover. You know watched a couple of films, pigged out . . .talked,"
He went back to his magazine.
" Infact we had a very interesting conversation . . .about someone in particular," Kari knew exactly how to pull her brothers strings. She was going to find out what went on between him and Sora and she knew this way never failed.
She saw the way his eyes moved nervously around the room as though trying to find a way to escape. She walked past the back of the sofa and whispered the magic lie.
" I know,"
At once her plan soared into action. He jumped off the coach and slammed the magazine down on to the coffee table.
" What the hell did she tell you!"
" Oh just about what happened with you two," She smiled wickedly.
" Well she's lying! Nothing happened nothing happened at all!"
" That's not what she said,"
" Well I don't care what that bitch has been saying nothing happened," He screamed at her.
" Wow calm down Tai," Kari whispered a little taken a back by her brother's reaction.
" Shut the hell up Kari!" He stormed into his bedroom, the walls of the apartment shook as he slammed his door.
" One, two three. . ." Kari counted as she waited for the rock music to start playing.
Right on cue it blared out of his room at full volume.
" Interesting," She whispered thoughtfully. Tai never got worked up like that, never.
It seemed wrong that it should snow so early in November. Well it wasn't really that early anymore, it was nearly December. And December meant Christmas. Sora wasn't looking forward to Christmas in the slightest. She would have to go home. That meant a very long plane journey and spending two weeks with her dad. There didn't seem much point in staying here though. Auntie Sue had asked her to stay for Christmas she felt asthough it was her duty to go back and see her father. Christmas was a time for family after all. Only staying with Auntie Sue and Dan for just two months had made them feel more like family than her really one ever had.
She hugged her thick winter jacket tighter around her. The snow crunched softly under her feet as she walked to school. Half of her was dyeing to get to registration to see Tai again, but the other half was dreading it.
After her sleepover she had spent the whole weekend just thinking about him. Stupid, really stupid, yes she knew it was. She could see how pathetic it was to become so obbssed over one boy. But she couldn't help it. She had tried to get him out of her head, in more productive ways then slamming her head against a desk this time. But no matter how hard she tried he just kept on pooping back in there. She would remember conversations the two of them had, the way he spoke, the way he laughed. Every thing reminded her of him. And everytime she felt her heart melting at the thought of him she would slap herself. Sora tackinoche did not get so desperate over boys. If Becky and Jemma could see her know they wouldn't believe she was the same person. What on earth happened to the Sora, who said, 'Boys are point less creatures, you have some fun and then forget about them'? Why couldn't she forget about him? Oh it was obvious even to her now. She loved him. She had always loved him and she couldn't leave him behind. She had to stop this stupid thing between them and tell him. No she couldn't just come out right and tell him, first she'd make up with him in registration. Then when they were friends again she'd try and work up enough courage to confront him.
" Sora!" Someone yelled behind her. She turned around and her heart jumped into her throat, she suddenly felt dizzy and nauseous. Tai was standing just a few feet behind her with matt just a little way behind him.
He had called her, did that mean he was going to make the first move and sort this out.
" What the hell have you been saying," He shouted angrily. She stared at him trying to register his words, taken a back at his harsh voice. It had been a very long time since she'd seen Tai this angry.
" What?" She asked confused.
" What the hell have you been saying to my sister!"
" Who Kari,"
" Yeah Kari!"
" I haven't said anything to Kari," She whispered quietly.
" Oh don't give me that Sora I know just what you've been saying!"
" But I haven't said anything to her," she tried to defend herself.
" You've been laughing at me Sora. I can't believe you'd be such a cruel heartless bitch! I know just what you've been doing playing me along to see how high you can make me jump. Well I've got news for you Sora I didn't fall for any of it. You must be crazy if you thought I'd ever fall for anyone like you!"
Her heart pounded in her chest she had no idea what he was yelling about. Only that last sentence seemed to make any cruel sense.
" What did you just say?" She managed to croak roughly.
" I'd never fall for anyone like you Sora. You're a heartless bitch and a crap kisser. The only reason I kissed you was because you were gagging for it,"
She didn't know whether she was about to break out into tears or faint. Her was beating a mile a minute, she couldn't catch her breath, she felt even more dizzy and she was sure she was about to throw up as her already fragile heart smashed into a thousand pieces. She had never ever realised Tai could be so savage. Her knight in shining armour had just turned into the monster from her nightmares. How could he say those things? How dare he say those things to her? Her vision blurred as hot spicy tears welled up in her eyes. Not from sadness, but from rage.
" HOW DARE YOU!" She screamed, " How dare you talk to me like that! I thought you were my friend Tai! I thought that we could put that stupid mistake behind us! Why the hell did I ever get the idea that you were a nice guy! I can't believe you Tai!" The tears flooded down her face, " I-I-I-just can't believe you! -Why-why-don't-you-just go and-and-rot-in-hell!" She sobbed.
She couldn't stand there and face him any longer. She turned on her heels and ran away as fast as she possibly could.
Tai tried to calm his breathing down, he watched her run around the corner away from him. 'She deserved that', he reminded himself. She had been laughing at him the whole time, she had just been stringing him along. Playing with his emotions to make him fall in love with her.
Something had hit him in the face as quick as a flash. He stumbled backwards and slid over on the icy snow. He rubbed his sore nose and looked up at matt standing over him.
" You deserved that Tai Kamiya!" Matt shouted as he rubbed his sore knuckles,
" You don't un-"
" No Tai I don't understand! How could you go and do that to her! To Sora to your BEST FRIEND!"
" No you don't understand she's been-"
" Look Tai we've been friends a long time and that was the biggest mistake you have ever made! Do you have any idea what you've just done!"
" I . . ." Tai lowered his head so that he wouldn't have to look Matt in the eye.
" She's crazy about you Tai! And you're insanely in love with her! No you've just gone and ruined what ever she felt for you!"
" She-"
" She was in love with you Tai! And now you've just gone a stamped her heart into the mud,"
" I.. I had no idea. . .I thought-"
" No Tai you didn't think! Now you better get down on your knees and beg for forgiveness because you have just thrown away the one good thing in your life!"
Tai didn't say anything. He couldn't speak. So many questions were rushing through his head. But two things out of all the babbling voices stood out.
Sora liked him too and he'd just broken her heart.
He heard Matt's footsteps crunch away in the snow.
" You know where she'll be," he whispered over his shoulder.
Of course he knew where she would go. The same place she went whenever she was upset. The same place he had found her when her dog died when they were eleven, when her parents told her they were divorcing when she was twelve and when her dad announced he was getting married.
How could he talk to her now? How could he possibly tell her he loved her when she despised him?
He crunched a handful of snow and stood up. He'd just have to find away.
He climbed the stone steps and held onto the icy rail. Just another three steps and he'd be at the little green wooden gate, swinging in the bitter wind.
He looked behind him at the long flight of steps leading up the hill. They had counted how many steps there were once, one hundred and twenty three. He remembered how in the summer they would race up her and collapse in exhaustion at the top. He'd walked her slowly, giving himself time to think. He knew the moment he walked through that little green gate he would never be able to turn around. Whatever happened next would be forever.
He pushed through the little gate and looked around at the old playground. It had been a long time since he'd come up here. The night that she moved to England actually. No one but them ever seemed to come up here, he had wanted to remember her here. The old slides red paint had been chipped and rusted over. The roundabout creaked as the wind blew it around. And there she was sitting on that same swing that he knew she would be. He long auburn hair cascaded down her back a few strands blew out of place into her face. She sat with her back her to him, how could he of ever tried to hurt her? She looked perfect just sitting there staring at the view beneath her. From up here on the hill you could see the whole of the city below, he knew that she'd always loved this view. She could watch the noise and business of the city while being left totally alone and peaceful.
He'd already walked through the gate, even though she didn't show it he knew she knew he was there. There was no going back now. Whatever she decided should become of him would and it would be for eternity.
The soft untouched snow crunched beneath his trainers as he walked over to the swing set. Her head was lowered staring down at her tracks in the snow. He stood infront of her but she didn't look up. Then he kneeled in the snow before her.
" Can you ever forgive me," He whispered,
She didn't answer, just stared down at the ground.
" Why should I?" she whispered so quietly he could only just hear her.
" Because . . . because I love you more than anything in the world. I didn't mean what I said. I was stupid, I was a jerk and I don't exepcet you to forgive me. But I'll still love you,"
She lifted her head, her beautiful Amber eyes looked straight into his. He stared into them and waited for the reply that would change his life.
" I love you too," She whispered.
He threw his arms around her and kissed her more powerfully and more passionately than he had ever done before. He kissed her with all of the desire, ardour, intesinty and zest that had been lying in his soul craving her for so long. They both held on for as long as they could, wanting to savour this priceless moment.
" I'm so sorry," he whispered.
" Ssssssshhhhhh," She placed a finger on his lips and hushed him. Then kissed him again.
No matter how much you try to keep it away destiny always has a way of catching up with you. And this was defiantly destiny. Sora was sure of it. She had never felt so complete and wanted as she did at that moment. Now she knew the real reason she came back here. She just couldn't leave him behind.
Authors note- YYYYYYAAAAAAAA! See I told you the second part would be along soon. I hope you all liked that one as much as I liked writing it! And thank you for all of you reviews! R+R
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