references to "Sons of Belial" and follows directly after Nick leaves
LaCroix in the junk yard in "Ashes to Ashes." No real spoilers here,
just refences to things that have already happened.
LaCroix's Doubts
Part 01/01
"I may even say a prayer," LaCroix said, looking his son in the eyes
before turning coldly back to the body
of his daughter/mother.
As Nick took his leave, LaCroix's mind took him back several months to
a time when he had nearly lost his favored
child.
{This *never* happened,} he'd told Vaderwaal. In part, he'd said it to
make the exorcist forget about the existence
of vampires, but there had
been another reason. {Nicholas! There
is good in you! There *is* God
in you!} He'd made Vanderwaal forget so
that no one would remember that
he, Lucien LaCroix, had appealed to his
son's faith in...
"God," he said aloud in the empty junk yard. Yet... what kind of god
was it that Nicholas believed so fervently
in after all these years?
What was this god which had risen up to
supplant the gods of LaCroix's
youth? How had he managed to stay alive
when all others had faded away
long ago? {More importantly,} LaCroix
thought as he stared
at his daughter's burning corpse, {what
kind of god allows such
perversities to exist?}
Before him, his daughter--his precious Divia--was being devoured by the
angry flames of the fire he had started.
He'd loathed doing it, and
watching her die at Nicholas's hand had
been all the more painful for
him. Despite what had transpired between
them, she was his only true
child, and he would always love her.
How had it happened? How had the precious, innocent child that Selene
gave birth to changed into such a creature
of evil? Where had the sweet
babe gone that once he cradled tenderly
in his arms? Divia had been his
only real joy, and he would have given
his life to Vesuvius gladly if
only she had remained as he had known
her.
If Nicholas's god truly existed, could he have prevented such a thing
from happening to Divia? Would he have
saved her precious soul from the
ancient vampire who had stolen it from
her? If Nicholas's god was the
one true god, did he not have the power
to destroy the evil that had
consumed her? This god, however, had done
nothing--nothing to prevent
Divia, or LaCroix himself, from becoming
a creature of darkness.
"God," LaCroix spoke again. "If truly you exist, then why have you
allowed these things to happen? Nicholas's
faith in you is so strong
that, at times, I find myself wishing
I could believe. If I am to
believe, however, I must have proof. Where
is it? Where is
my proof?"
{Nicholas! There *is* God in you!} He closed his eyes, willing the
painful memories to haunt him no more.
The events of the past few
months leading up to and culminating in
Divia's death had left him
feeling cold, empty, and alone.
In his sudden despair, Lucien LaCroix came to know doubt.
The End
