Eriol..



I have never felt this way about someone.. especially another man.

People may find it gross..

but..



I love him.



He'll never know my true feelings.

All the pain i've experienced.

All the pain.

The pain of freezing my heart when he was around.



I was scared.

Scared of letting him know.

Afraid of telling him.

I lived in fear that I might forever lose the one who fills my heart with love.

The one who makes me feel warm all over.



I was fearful that he might reject my heart. My feelings.

I wished that the feelings I had were never seen.. never noticed.

They never were.

Yet I was sad. Unhappy.

Unhappy that he never saw through my mask.

The mask I wear whenever he's around.



Oh Eriol.. My heart aches..

I need you to tell me..

I need you to tell me that you love me.

I'm afraid to make the first move.



Although you'll never know.

I say this with all my heart..

Aishiteru. Eriol. Aishiteru