"I'll Never Stop Loving You" Eli kun
Disclaimers: The characters used belong to Capcom. Standard disclaimers
apply. The fic is written in first person, from Ryu's point of view.
This fic is shounen ai(male/male). If you don't like it, don't read it.
It was my fault. I ended it. I shouldn't be surprised that he was able to
get on with his life. It's not like I was much of a companion, anyway. I
left him. It hurt him, though I never meant it.
I wish things could be as they were. I miss having him in my arms. I
treasured all the moments we've shared, though I never showed it. I was
such a fool to give it all up. And for what? The fight? A better
challenge? I was such an idiot. I'm a fighter, not a lover. So, now I am
alone. I guess I was meant to live in solitude. A part of me wishes to
have never met him, to never have fallen in love. That way I wouldn't miss
him so much. That way my heart wouldn't ache so much. That way I wouldn't
bear the guilt of giving up my one true love.
It's no use dwelling on the past. The love we shared, all of it was in the
past. Things can never be the same. He's married now and has a beautiful
son. The boy resembles him in so many ways. I've met both his wife and
son. Eliza is a lucky woman. I could tell he loves her. He gazes at her
the way he used to look at me. She was smart enough to appreciate those
loving glances. She didn't give him up for something as frivolous as a
fight. I was such a moron to leave him.
He still tries to keep in touch, yet I avoid him. It pains me to see him.
It's a constant reminder of what could've been. Now we are merely friends.
I want us to be lovers again, but I don't even deserve the friendship. I
should be glad that he's happy, even if that happiness comes from someone
else. It shouldn't matter that I'm miserable without him. I'm afraid of
hurting him again if I tell him this. I'm not sure if he still loves me or
if he forgives me. The only thing I'm sure of is that I have myself to
blame. I cruelly left the one person I truly love. I'll never stop loving
him.
Ken, ai shiteru.
Disclaimers: The characters used belong to Capcom. Standard disclaimers
apply. The fic is written in first person, from Ryu's point of view.
This fic is shounen ai(male/male). If you don't like it, don't read it.
It was my fault. I ended it. I shouldn't be surprised that he was able to
get on with his life. It's not like I was much of a companion, anyway. I
left him. It hurt him, though I never meant it.
I wish things could be as they were. I miss having him in my arms. I
treasured all the moments we've shared, though I never showed it. I was
such a fool to give it all up. And for what? The fight? A better
challenge? I was such an idiot. I'm a fighter, not a lover. So, now I am
alone. I guess I was meant to live in solitude. A part of me wishes to
have never met him, to never have fallen in love. That way I wouldn't miss
him so much. That way my heart wouldn't ache so much. That way I wouldn't
bear the guilt of giving up my one true love.
It's no use dwelling on the past. The love we shared, all of it was in the
past. Things can never be the same. He's married now and has a beautiful
son. The boy resembles him in so many ways. I've met both his wife and
son. Eliza is a lucky woman. I could tell he loves her. He gazes at her
the way he used to look at me. She was smart enough to appreciate those
loving glances. She didn't give him up for something as frivolous as a
fight. I was such a moron to leave him.
He still tries to keep in touch, yet I avoid him. It pains me to see him.
It's a constant reminder of what could've been. Now we are merely friends.
I want us to be lovers again, but I don't even deserve the friendship. I
should be glad that he's happy, even if that happiness comes from someone
else. It shouldn't matter that I'm miserable without him. I'm afraid of
hurting him again if I tell him this. I'm not sure if he still loves me or
if he forgives me. The only thing I'm sure of is that I have myself to
blame. I cruelly left the one person I truly love. I'll never stop loving
him.
Ken, ai shiteru.
